I canât imagine how my mother would react to me leaving the country with Hardin. She would probably lock me in her attic and never let me out. I still havenât spoken to her since she stormed out of my dorm after threatening me in an attempt to get me to stop seeing Hardin. I want to avoid that inevitable argument for as long as I can.
âWhatâs wrong?â he asks and dips his head down in front of my face.
âNothing, sorry, I was just thinking of my mother.â
âOh . . . sheâll come around, babe.â He sounds so sure, but I know her better than that.
âI donât think so, but letâs talk about something else.â
We start talking about the wedding, but Hardinâs phone vibrates in his pocket after a moment. I shift off him so he can get it out, but he makes no move to do so.
âWhoever it is can wait,â he says, which makes me happy.
âWill we be staying at your dadâs house Saturday after the wedding?â I ask. I need to get my mind off my mother.
âIs that what you want to do?â he asks.
âYeah, I like it there. This bed is tiny.â I crinkle my nose and he laughs.
âWe could stay at my place more often. What about tonight?â
âI have my internship in the morning.â
âSo? You can bring your stuff with you and get ready in an actual bathroom. I havenât been to my room in a while; they are probably already trying to rent it out,â he jokes. âDonât you want to take a shower without thirty other people in the same room?â
âSold.â I smile and climb off the bed.
Hardin helps me pack my things for tomorrow and I grow more and more excited to go to the frat house. I hated that house, and still pretty much do, but the thought of a shower in an actual bathroom and Hardinâs large bed is too appealing to pass up. He grabs the red set of lingerie out of my dresser and hands it to me with a series of eager nods, and I flush before shoving it in my bag. I pack one of my old black skirts and a white blouse, wanting to space out my new dresses.
âRed bra with white shirt?â Hardin points out. I pull the white shirt out and grab a blue one instead.
âYou could bring extra clothes with you so you wonât have to bring so much next time,â he suggests. He wants me to keep clothes at his place. I love how itâs a given that we will stay the night together every night.
âI guess I could,â I say and grab my new white dress and a few other random things.
âYou know what would make it much easier?â he asks, and pulls my bag over his shoulder as we head outside.
âWhat?â I already know what he is going to say.
âIf we both lived at the same place.â He smiles. âWe wouldnât have to decide which place to stay at and you wouldnât have to pack a bag. You would have a private shower every dayâwell, not totally private.â He winks playfully. And just when I think heâs done, when we get to his car and he opens the door for me, he adds, âYou could wake up and make your own coffee in our kitchen and get ready for the day and we could meet up at our place at the end of every day. None of this roommate or frat house shit.â
Every time he says âourâ my stomach flutters. The more I think about it, the better it sounds. I am just terrified of moving too fast with Hardin. I donât want it to blow up in my face.
As we drive to the house, he puts his hand on my thigh and again says, âStop overthinking it.â I hear his phone vibrating again, but he ignores it. This time I canât help but be a little suspicious of why he isnât picking up the phone, but I push the thought from my head.
âWhat are you afraid of?â he asks when I donât respond.
âI donât know. What if something happens with my internship and I canât afford it? Or if something happens with us?â
He frowns but recovers quickly. âBabe, I already told you I would pay for the place. It was my idea, and I make more, so let me do this.â
âI donât care how much you make. I donât like the idea of you paying for everything.â
âYou can pay cable, then?â He smirks.
âCable and groceries?â I offer. I canât decide if I am speaking hypothetically anymore or not.
âDeal. Groceries . . . that sounds nice, doesnât it? You could have my dinner ready every night when I get home.â
âExcuse me? It would be the other way around.â I laugh.
âWe could rotate days?â
âDeal.â
âSo youâre moving in with me then?â I donât think I have ever seen a deeper grin on his perfect face.
âI didnât say that, I was just . . .â
âYou know I will take care of you, right? Always,â he promises.
I want to tell him that I donât want to be taken care of, that I want to earn things and pay for my own share of things, but I get the feeling he isnât talking just financially.
âI am afraid this is too good to be true,â I finally admit to Hardin and myself.
He surprises me by saying, âMe, too.â
âReally?â I am relieved that he feels the same way.
âYeah, the thought crosses my mind all the time. You are too good for me and I am just waiting on you to realize it, and hoping that you donât,â he says, his eyes focused on the road.
âThatâs not going to happen.â And I mean it.
He doesnât say anything.
âOkay.â I break the silence.
âOkay what?â
âOkay. I will move in with you.â I smile.