âItâs not a date,â I say to him, then turn to Landon and roll my eyes and nonchalantly say, âWeâre hanging out as friends,â while ignoring Hardin.
âSame thing,â Hardin replies.
I avoid him for the rest of the class . . . which is easy since he doesnât really try to talk to me after that.
After class, as Landon starts putting his stuff into his backpack, he looks at Hardin, then quietly says to me, âBe careful tonight.â
âOh, weâre just trying to get along since my roommate is his good friend,â I reply, hoping Hardin doesnât hear me.
âI know, youâre really a great friend. Iâm just not sure Hardin deserves your kindness,â he says, purposefully loud, and I look up at him.
âDonât you have something else to do besides bad-mouth me? Get lost, man,â Hardin snaps from behind me.
Landon frowns and looks at me again. âJust remember what I said.â He walks away, and I worry about how much Iâve maybe upset him.
âHey, you donât have to be cruel to himâyou guys are practically brothers,â I say.
Hardinâs eyes go wide. âWhat did you just say?â he growls.
âYou know, your dad and his mom?â Was Landon lying? Or was I not supposed to mention this. Landon said not to bring up Hardinâs relationship with his dad, but I didnât think he meant the whole thing.
âThat is none of your business.â Hardin looks angrily at the door where Landon disappeared. âI donât know why the asshole even told you that. Iâm going to have to shut him up, it seems.â
âYou leave him alone, Hardin. He didnât even want to tell me, but I got it out of him.â The idea of Hardin hurting Landon makes me sick. I need to change the subject. âSo where are we going today?â I ask, and he glares at me.
âWe arenât going anywhere; this was a bad idea,â he snaps, turns on his heels, and walks away. I stand there for a minute, waiting to see if Hardin changes his mind and will come back.
What the hell? He really is bipolar, Iâm sure of it.
BACK IN MY DORM ROOM, I find Zed, Tristan, and Steph sitting on her bed. Tristanâs eyes are focused on Steph and Zed is flicking his thumb across the trigger of a metal lighter. I would usually be annoyed with this many unexpected guests, but I really like Zed and Tristan, and I need the distraction.
âHey, Tessa! How were classes?â Steph asks and gives me a big smile. I canât help but notice the way Tristanâs face lights up when he looks at her.
âThey were okay. You?â I put my books on my dresser and she tells me about her professor spilling hot coffee on himself, making them get out early.
âYou look nice today, Tessa,â Zed tells me, and I say thanks and crowd on Stephâs bed with the three of them. The bed really is too small for all of us, but it works. After weâve been talking about various weird professors for a few minutes, the door opens and we all turn to see who it is.
Itâs Hardin. Ugh.
âGeez, man, you could at least knock for once,â Steph scolds him and he shrugs. âI could have been naked or something.â She laughs, obviously not angry at his lack of manners.
âNothing I havenât seen before,â he jokes, and Tristanâs face falls while the other three chuckle. I canât find the humor, either; I hate thinking about Steph and Hardin together.
âOh, shut up,â she says, still laughing, and grabs hold of Tristanâs hand. His smile returns and he moves a little closer to her.
âWhat are you guys up to?â Hardin asks and sits opposite us, on my bed. I want to tell him to get off but I keep quiet. I thought for a second he had come here to apologize, but now I can see he just came to hang out with his friends, and I am not one of them.
Zed smiles. âWe were actually going to go to the movies. Tessa, you should come.â
Before I can answer, Hardin speaks up quickly. âActually, Tessa and I have plans.â There is a strange edge to his voice.
God, heâs so moody.
âWhat?â Zed and Steph say in unison.
âYeah, I was just coming to get her.â Hardin stands up and puts his hands into his pockets, gesturing toward the door with his body. âYou ready or what?â
My mind screams, No! but I nod and slip off Stephâs bed.
âWell, see you all later!â Hardin announces and practically pushes me out the door. Outside, he leads me to his car and, surprising me, opens the passenger door for me. I stand still with my arms crossed, looking at him.
âWell, Iâll remember not to ever open a door for you again . . .â
I shake my head. âWhat the hell was that? I know full well you didnât come here to get meâyou just got done telling me that you didnât want to hang out with me!â I yell.
And we are back to yelling at each other. He makes me crazy, literally.
âYes, I did. Now get in the car.â
âNo! If you donât admit that you didnât come here to see me, I will go back in there and go to the movies with Zed,â I say, which makes him clench his jaw.
I knew it. I donât know how to feel about this revelation, but somehow I knew Hardin didnât want me to go to the movies with Zed and that thatâs the only reason heâs trying to hang out with me now.
âAdmit it, Hardin, or I am gone.â
âOkay, fine. I admit it. Now get in the damned car. I wonât ask again,â he says and walks around to the driverâs side.
Against my better judgment, I get in, too.