âBrady said this weekâs game is a big one for them.â
I nod, flipping over my flashcard. My shoulders fall.
Wrong again. Damn it.
âYeah.â I drop back in the plastic seat. âNoah said they lost to this team in overtime last season, and right now, theyâre tied for first place.â Checking the time on my phone, I begin stuffing my materials into my backpack. âCome on, if I donât get an energy drink or a coffee or something, I might die, and they still have forty-five minutes of practice left.â
Cameron jumps up, ready to roll. âI wish we could drive out with them. This is the third away game in a row.â
âI know and theyâll be gone for three days this time. Itâs a fourteen-hour drive to New Mexico. How miserable is that?â
âOoh, I almost forgot. Someone might go through quarterback cock withdraws.â
âShut up before I push you down the walkway.â
Laughing, she leads us down the stadium stairs.
As we get near the final platform, Chase goes out for a route. Itâs a quick pass, and Noah bullets it his way, but it slips through his fingers, bouncing off his knee pad and right into a defenderâs hands.
The whistle blows the play dead, and Chase tears his gloves off. Rather than jogging back to the line like the others, he walks.
Noah holds a hand out for each guy as they come in, and each one slaps their palm against his in passing. Each guy except Chase.
Instead, Chase bumps him in the shoulder and gets back into position.
Cameron crosses her arms. âWhat was that?â
I shake my head, watching as, this time, the receivers run downfield, each guarded by a defender. Chase breaks left, but heâs double-teamed, two defenders on his ass, and Noah finds his open teammate on the right, so he fires it off, the ball falling right into his intended targetâs hands.
The whistle is blown and they begin their walk back, so Noah turns to speak to the lineman, while waiting for the others to jog back for the next drive, and I pull in a breath when Chase bumps him again, but this time, Noahâs not even looking.
Noah has to jump up to avoid tripping over one of the guys bent down tying his cleat.
Noah whips around, and Chase pushes his chest into his captainâs. Into his quarterbackâs chest.
People shout, and Noah puts his hand on Chaseâs chest to keep him back, but Chase slaps it away.
Noah tears his helmet off then, jerking forward and pointing his hand down the field, but Chase screams back.
Not even a minute later, Chase shoves him, and then the entire team is on their feet, screaming at Chase as Noah tries to calm them down, but Chase wonât shut up.
Rule number one on the field is never touch the quarterback.
What the hell is he thinking?
âLetâs go.â I frown, turning into the tunnel that leads to the parking lot.
âAri, really!â Cameron calls behind me, falling in line beside me a moment later. âYou donât want to wait and see what happens?â
âNo.â
Without another word, Cameron and I leave the stadium, and itâs not until weâre stepping into the campus coffee shop that she turns to me.
âIn case youâre refusing to acknowledge what just happened, Iâll do it for you.â She slips her thumbs through the loops of her backpack. âAfter last weekend, it would be pretty hard to pretend it wasnât obvious you and Noah are hooking up.â
âSo.â
âSo⦠maybe you and Chase need to have a conversation.â
Shocked, I gape at her, snapping, âWhat?â
âDonât what me. You guys never talked about what happened.â
âWe did. He said it was a mistake and I absorbed his words like charcoal does gas. There is nothing more to be said. Things almost feel like theyâre back to normal again between us, so donât stand here and try to tell me that the little fit he just threw over a pass that wasnât sent his way had anything to do with me. Trust me, it didnât.â
She tries but is unable to hold her thoughts in. âI just think this is, or that it might be, a little hard for him is all.â
âWhat exactly is hard for him, Cameron?â I step up to the counter, quickly ordering a drink, and she does the same. We pay and step into the little corner to get away from the others waiting.
âThe fact that I cried over him for months or the fact that Iâm not anymore?â
Her shoulders fall. âAri, thatâs not fair.â
âNot fair is being the one who skipped out on first college experiences with her twin because she knew his best friend would be there sharing those times with him, and she couldnât stomach the thought of being so close to him. Or how about leaving her own best friend to do those same things, things they talked about doing together for years for the same damn reason?â
Tears brim in her eyes, and I shake my head, gripping her hand. âIâm not upset, Cameron. I made the choice. It was all on me, and I didnât want to drag you through it with me. I was fucked up for a good minute, and I didnât know when Iâd feel better, butââ
âBut now you do.â
My lips curve to one side, and I nod. âYeah. I do. My brother isnât mad at me anymore, or at least heâs not acting like it, and Chase and I can be in the same room without a giant ball of tension circling us. Everything feels good. I just want to focus on that.â
Cameron blinks rapidly to hold back her tears, but this time, theyâre not sad ones.
She laughs lightly, looking up at the sky as she sticks her tongue out. âUh, I hate when youâre smart and logical and shit.â She smiles, throwing her arms around me.
The barista calls our order. We grab it and head out the door.
âLetâs blow off the trip to the pub with the boys, eat ice cream for dinner, and watch some trashy TV, what do you say?â
I throw my arm around her, and hers falls over my shoulder. âI say it sounds like a solid plan.â
âFuck yeah, it does.â
So, thatâs exactly what we do.
âSo these little FaceTime callsâ âNoah grins into the screen, whisperingâ âyou might not want to tease me like before.â
âOh yeah, and why is that?â
Noah holds in a laugh and his eyes lift over his screen. In the next second, a very familiar voice shouts from somewhere, âThat better be my sister youâre smiling at, dick.â
I drop back on my bed with a laugh and a dramatic eye roll. âOf course, heâs your roommate.â
âHeâs playing most of the first quarter tomorrow, so I wanted to try and run over some more things with him without everyone else around.â
I fly up, my mouth agape. âHeâs starting?â
Noah grins. âYeah. Weâve got a game plan we think will trip them up, so weâre running with it.â
âMy brother is starting in a college game tomorrow?!â I jump to my feet, running for Cameronâs room and stubbing my toe on the way.
âOwe, shit!â I laugh, pounding on her door, barging in a second later.
She tears her headphones off her head, her eyes wide in panic.
âMasonâs starting tomorrow!â
âWhat!â She jumps up, fumbling and falling to the floor, but pops up instantly.
âI know!â
We squeal, hugging.
âAh shit, you told her, didnât you?â Masonâs voice fills the line, and I quickly look back to my screen in time to see his head pop up beside Noahâs.
âHoly shit!â I smile, stomping my feet.
âI know.â A proud chuckle slips from him.
Tears find my eyes and a playful glare blankets his face. âKnock it off.â
We laugh, and I inhale deeply.
âOh my god, Mase. Youâre going to rock it.â
âLove you, girls.â He beams.
âLove you.â
Mase disappears and I squeal at Noah, whose soft eyes are glued on mine.
âIâll let you go to sleep now,â he says quietly.
âAfter this news? Yeah, right! Iâm going to try and reach my parents. I think itâs daytime in Germany, but I failed history twice, so I could be wrong.â
Noah chuckles, letting me know, âI might not be reachable tomorrow.â
âGame face, I know the drill by now.â I bite my lips. âKill it out there, Romeo.â
âFor you I will.â
My smile is slow. âNineties R and B, I like.â
Noahâs grin is downright lethal, and I want to jump through the screen. âBye, beautiful.â
With a quick wave to the screen, I hang up.
Tomorrow, my brother will reach yet another goal he set out to accomplish, and I couldnât be prouder.
I know heâs earned it; I know heâs more than good enough, but I canât help but think Noah helped present him with the opportunity to get to start, and Mason made it his bitch.
âOkay, wings are out of the oven. Chips are poured in the bowl and the doorâ âCameron skips from the kitchen, turning the deadboltâ âis locked.â
âBeers are popped open and volumeâ âI grab the remoteâ âis up.â
I move to help carry everything to the coffee table and then itâs kick-off time.
On the sideline, we see Mason slip his helmet on, pulling at his collar as he jumps up and down on both feet to keep his blood flowing strong.
Our guy goes down at the twenty, and the offense jogs onto the field, led by my brother.
We clap and cheer, standing too close to the screen as he fills his men in on the play. They break, take their positions, and not five seconds later, Mason calls hike.
The ball is snapped, grasped tightly in his palms, and he spins, fake tossing it to the running back, before stepping back and firing it for a quick first down.
âWoohoo!â We clap.
They get set again, and this time, Mason breaks through a gap, running for eleven more yards before sliding onto his hip to avoid the tackle.
âYes! Two snaps, two first downs!â
âOh my god, this shit is looking so good to these coaches right now!â Cameron smiles, downing half her beer.
I pick mine up, watching as Mason glances at the sideline. He gives a curt nod and turns back, pointing to his right before lifting and setting his left foot down. The ball is snapped, and he drops back, looking downfield, but the other team blitzes, breaking through his line.
Mason is sacked from his right rear and front left. His torso twists opposite of his hips, his back bending. His helmet flies off on impact, and Mason hits the turf.
Cam and I stand frozen for several seconds before we snap out of it.
âHoly shit.â
âSon of bitch.â
Panic sets in, and we jerk closer to the TV.
âNo, no, no.â
âAri, heâs not getting up.â
I fold my hands in front of me, twisting from side to side. âGet up, Mase.â
âAri⦠heâs not getting up!â
âFuck.â
Outside of the few who were near Mason, the rest of the team is just now realizing their quarterback has yet to rise.
Brady is shoving his way through their bunched-up teammates on the field as Chase is rushing from the sideline in the same second.
I clench my teeth, tears brimming in my eyes as the fear shooting through the boys blows through me. They get a few feet from Mason, but both are quickly pushed back by several people on the Avix coaching staff. They shout, trying to see beyond the group of people rushing to my brotherâs side, but are forced to stay put.
Brady tears his helmet off, lifting it as he shouts in rebuttal, but all it does is draw two more linemen his way. They act like a shield, blocking and driving him backward. He tosses the helmet, gripping his head as he turns away and my hands come up to cover my mouth.
I jolt when my phone vibrates on the coffee table, my chest squeezing as I answer.
âDad!â I panic.
âArianna, itâs okay,â he assures me in a low, calming tone. âTake a deep breath for me, okay?â
I try, but itâs choppy and causes a strain along my ribs. âDad, heâs not moving.â
âI know, baby. Weâre watching. Am I on speaker?â
I press the speaker button. âYou are now.â
âCameron, honey, you doinâ okay?â he asks gently, knowing without asking sheâs right beside me.
She nods even though he canât see her, biting at her nails. âMm-hm.â She sniffles
âGood, thatâs good. Your moms are both right here, your dad too, Cam, and the Lancasters,â he tells us, and Cameron reaches out to squeeze my hand.
I drop my ass onto the table, and she stays standing beside me.
We stare at the screen as the medics stabilize Masonâs neck, three others crouched around him, his teammates not far away.
âIs Mom okay?â My legs bounce.
âSheâs scared,â he tells me honestly. âBut we all are. Weâre all together, though, and thatâs what matters. Mason knows weâre with him, even if weâre all in different places.â
I sniffle. Jumping to my feet when Noah steps onto the field.
A ref tries to get him to move back, but he argues, and I hold my breath as his coach, standing a few feet from Mason, spots him.
The coach rushes over, saying something, and Noah pats his shoulder, jogging toward the endzone.
âWhat is he doing?â Cameron whispers, and I shake my head.
âWhatâs who doing?â my dad wonders.
Noah reaches out, grabbing a hold of the giant camera just to the right of the goal post, and I gasp when the network splits the screen, Noahâs face displayed across the second one.
The commentators stop talking about the trajectory of Masonâs hit and begin taking guesses as to what the quarterback is doing, but they donât have the slightest clue.
I do.
Because as soon as he knows for sure heâs alive, Noah stares straight into the camera, straight into my eyes⦠and he nods.
Everything inside me cracks, breaks, and then fuses back together. I collapse onto the sofa, tears pouring down my cheeks.
âHeâs okay,â I rasp.
âWhat do you mean, honey?â my dad urges.
Cameronâs head snaps from the screen to me. âHow do you know?â
âNoah,â I tell them both. âThatâs what heâs saying. Heâs letting me know Masonâs okay.â
Cameronâs tears fall and she drops onto the couch. âI fucking love that guy.â
A croaky chuckle leaves me, and I smile. âDad, heâs okay.â
âHoney⦠heâs still not moving.â
I nod, but only moments later, Mason bends his knee and my motherâs gasp chokes me up.
The medic staff stands, repositioning themselves near Masonâs shoulders, and as they do, Mason lifts his left arm into the air, letting all those watching know, heâs okay. The cart comes out onto the field, but Mason isnât put on a stretcher. The crowd goes insane as heâs helped to his feet, and then slowly set on the back. Heâs carted away and my parents celebrate on the other end of the line.
We talk for a little longer, and my dad assures me heâll call if they get any news. Mason being eighteen, thereâs a chance none of us will hear a word until heâs able to call us himself.
Hours go by before my phone rings, and when it does, itâs from Brady.
Cam and I scrunch into the screen.
âBrady.â
âHey, girls,â he says softly, a sad grin on his lips, Chase right beside him. âYou heard anything?â
âNot yet. What do you know?â Cameron asks.
âThey took him to a hospital a couple miles away to follow concussion protocol, run tests and shit.â He sighs. âThatâs all we got from Coach.â
âCan you go see him?â
Saddened, they shake their heads. âWeâre getting on the bus from here, but a trainer went with him. Coach says heâll update us when he can, but without Masonâs permission, they canât tell him shit. Coach thinks they might have doped him up, so heâs probably coming in and out.â
âThey wanted to take him on the stretcher, but he wanted to walk off.â Chase runs his hands down his sweat-covered face. âI think that was for your and the famâs benefit.â
I nod. âYeah, Iâm sure. They called. They were watching.â
âDamn.â Brady glances behind to the side and back. âOne of the guys said he heard him wheezing, saying something about his ribs, so I donât know.â
I nod again, gnawing on my inner lip. âIâm going to call my dad. If I hear more, Iâll call.â
âSame.â
âAri, heâs going to be okay.â Chase catches my eyes. âHeâll be okay. Call me or Brady if you, you know, just want to talk.â
âWe will.â I look to Cam, grabbing her hand.
âYou guys try to rest on the bus.â Cam drops her head on my shoulder. âThereâs nothing you can do. Donât worry too much.â
Grim smiles cover the boysâ lips and Brady sighs. âWe gotta hit the showers, we donât have a lot of time left before we have to be on the bus.â
âGo. Iâll text you.â
With that, they hang up and we drop against the cushions.
I call my dad to fill him in on the little I found out, and he says he just spoke with the hospital, but to no avail. Cameron and I spend the next several hours pacing, heating and reheating food after allowing it to get cold all over again.
We were still awake when the sun started to rise, but we must have fallen asleep at some point because suddenly, Iâm waking to a pounding at my door. Cam jumps up, rushing to open it, and Brady and Chase hurry in. Brady hugs Cameron first, pulling me in next.
âAnything?â he hopes.
I shake my head, turning to Chase, who wraps me up next. âWhy hasnât he called anyone? Why hasnât the hospital called your parents?â
My eyes squeeze shut. âI donât know. We stayed up all night waiting, and nothing. Iâm scared.â
âI know,â he whispers, his hold tightening, and I bury my face in his chest. âI know you are.â
A soft tap has my head snapping up, and we all look to the door Cameron left wide open.
Noah stands in the entryway.
âNoah,â I exhale, and my muscles go lax.
I rush toward him and a small smile pulls at his lips as he steps inside, his arms slowly molding around me as I throw myself into him.
I begin to cry, but his lips find my ear.
âShh, Juliet,â he murmurs. âYou donât want him to hear you cry.â
My head snaps up, and I frown as Noahâs eyes soften.
He nods, letting me go as he brings his phone up beside us.
âIâm with her now,â he tells the man standing awkwardly on the other side of the video call.
The man nods and shuffles around. Thereâs a click, and then the camera flips, and Mason laid up in a hospital bed fills the screen.
A sob breaks from me and I tear the phone from Noahâs hands. âMaseâ¦â
âHey, baby sister.â His voice is raspy, and a weak smile pulls at his mouth.
âYouâre okay,â I cry. âAre you okay?â
He chuckles, but as fast as it leaves him, he groans, his hands clenching the blanket laid over him. âYeah, Iâm okay.â
Cameron squeezes herself in beside me, and then the boys are right here too, crowding in.
Masonâs eyes move along the three of us, and they grow glossy, so he flicks his away.
âYou pansies miss me?â Mase jokes, gratitude in his brown gaze.
âCourse we came straight here, brother.â Brady nods, knowing thatâs exactly what he would need from his best friends. âRight off the bus.â
Mason nods, looking to his lap. He licks his lips before returning his attention to the screen. âTwo fractured ribs and uhâ âhe clears his throatâ âa sprained shoulder. Iâm out no less than four weeks, maybe longer.â His jaw tics.
No one says anything because we know Mason. He doesnât want to hear a word about it. Heâs accepted it, and thatâs that.
âWay to get out of practice, asshole,â Brady jokes, even though he doesnât feel it.
But Mason grins, and thatâs the point.
âAri, donât say anything to Mom and Dad. Iâm going to call them right now, but Iâm telling her Iâm bruised up and need rest. Thatâs it.â
âAre you sure?â
He nods. âI donât need them worrying or abandoning the trip they spent the last four years saving for.â
âChances are she already booked flights.â
He smiles. âYeah, I better hang up and call her right quick.â
âWhen will you be home?â
âIâm being released right now, just waiting for paperwork. This guyâ âhe nods at the man holding the cameraâ âgrabbed me some sweats and shit to put on, and Coach hooked me up with a flight home. Itâs a short jet, some alumni guy was watching, saw the hit, and hit him up, so I donât have to wait around at the airport like this.â
âGood. What time should we pick you up?â
He shakes his head, and then a tense expression builds along his brow. âIâm gonna call Nate. Have him come get me and take me back to the beach house.â
âWhat, why?â
âI have to take it easy for two weeks, Ari, pretty much lie in bed, and I canât do that in the football house.â
âStay here, I can help.â
âYou have class and we have an entire house unoccupied. Iâm going to sleep and lie on my ass. Lolli and Nate are around, Parker and Kenra too. Payton. If I need something, theyâll be there.â
I glare but nod. I say okay when, really, I want to argue, and he knows it, which is why a small grin covers his lips.
âAri.â
âItâs fine.â I shrug, sniffling. âBut if you donât answer my calls, one call, Mase, Iâm driving there, I swear.â
âDeal.â His expression grows tender, and he sighs, dropping his head back when his eyes begin to cloud over.
My heart breaks for him.
âMaseââ
âLove you guys,â he cuts me off.
âLove you.â
âCall you later.â He looks to the man again. âHang up.â
My entire body sags as the call ends and I toss the phone on the counter, burying my face in my hands. âJesus fucking Christ.â
Someoneâs hand falls to my back, rubbing soft circles.
âAre we sure heâs okay?â Cameron worries.
âHeâs Mason,â Brady says. âThis is exactly what Iâd expect from him in this situation.â
I look over, and Chase is right beside me. He nods, agreeing.
âYou want us to stay?â he asks, his tone wishful.
But I shake my head with a sigh. âYou guys go home, you look like you slept as much as we did.â
âAre you sure?â His voice lowers, but I only nod, and the hand on my back, his hand, falls to his side.
The boys bend, grabbing their bags off the ground, and face us again.
Cameron looks to me. âTrey just texted⦠do you want me to stay orâ¦â She glances toward Noah.
âGo. Iâm good now.â I nod, wiping at my left eye in exhaustion. I look behind me to Noah, who has moved several feet away, now leaning against the wall. I turn to him and he pushes off, slowly coming closer. I meet him halfway and he reaches up, brushing my hair behind my ear.
He stares, his blue eyes sick with worry, and so I nod, my hand coming up to squeeze his wrist briefly.
Iâm okay now, swear.
He gives a curt jerk of his chin.
âThank you.â My voice cracks.
Noah shakes his head, unwilling to accept because, in his mind, he didnât do this to be thanked, he did it because he knew I needed it and he was able to give that to me.
âWeâre gonna head home, girls.â
I glance at them, nodding.
Chase stares straight ahead as he walks out the door, and Brady salutes Noah in thanks.
âCall me later, Ari Baby.â He pins me with a stern expression.
âI will.â I hug Cameron quickly and she closes the door with her exit.
The moment theyâre gone, I face Noah, and my emotions win again.
Tears fall, so I spin away, pressing my fingers against my eyes.
âIâm sorry,â I whisper, trying to swallow back the cry working its way up my throat.
âDonât apologize and donât hide from me.â He steps around, pulling me into his chest. âWhat am I good for if not to hold you when you need to be held?â
âI can think of a few things,â I cry, chuckling through my tears when he does. Sighing, I look up at him. âIâm just worried. Mason isnât Mason without football and his trying not to make us worry only means thereâs something to worry about.â
The pads of his thumbs come up, and he gently swipes them under my eyes. âMaybe he needs a couple days to be angry and come to terms with it?â
I nod, tipping my chin to kiss his hand.
The corner of Noahâs mouth lifts and I blow out a deep breath.
He presses his forehead to mine. âYou texted me all through the night. Did you sleep at all?â
I shrug. âI remember the sun coming up and then the boys were knocking at my door.â
His strong, warm palms cup my cheeks. âYou should try to get some sleep.â He releases me, stepping back to grab his phone and pushes it into his pocket.
I follow him to the door, and he faces me as he grips the handle. âCall me when you wake up? I can come make you something, bring coffeeâ¦â
He twists the knob, pulling it open, but I catch it by the lock before itâs fully free of the frame, and Noahâs eyes snap to mine.
My chest constricts as I slide my hand lower, until Iâm covering his, and I free it from the cool metal.
A slight frown forms along Noahâs brows, but he doesnât argue when I push the door closed, the click of the lock the only sound to be heard.
His chest rises with a full breath, and I rise to my toes, stealing it from his lips.
His hands come up, tangling in my hair, and he kisses me back. His mouth heavy and hungry. Healing.
I need this.
I need⦠him.
Our eyes open at the same time and he must see something within mine because his body quakes with realization.
My heart beats out of control as I glide my palms down his arms until Iâve reached his hands. I hook my fingers with his, and whisper, âStay.â