Translator: Atlas Studios Editor: Atlas Studios
It was also because of Su Qi that I stepped into the karaoke room for the first time in my life. The night of Dongyuâs birthday was the second time I had been to a karaoke.
Compared to the excitement of the first time, this time round, it felt rather old fashioned as Su Qi and I sat alone in the karaoke room.
We selected many songs, most of which were popular songs back then.
At that time, Jay Chou and Lin Junjieâs songs were popular. I selected âI Still Miss Herâ, grabbed the microphone and sang.
âTears are drowning me
Who should actually be sad?
Who actually gave up this relationship
I finally come to understand
Unachievable promises
Become shackles
In reality, happiness is forever in shortage
Please tell her
I donât love her
Sadly laughing
Self-punishing
I wish to end all struggles
Cross my heart
To tell a truthful lie
Donât tell her
I still miss her
Itâs easier to leave behind hate than love
When tears are stuck in my throat
Just let the silence
Represent all answersâ¦â
This song was saved in Dongyuâs MP3 for the longest time.
At that time, I didnât understand why he liked this song. When I first heard it, the tune was nice, and the lyrics were sad and beautiful. I also became addicted to it. I collected many of Lin Junjieâs songs and became his little fan.
However, after listening to so many songs, it was ultimately this one song that I never got tired of.
âI donât love, I donât feel pain, I donât understand
My heart has been emptied
And I donât mean what I say.
Please tell her
I donât love her
Sadly laughing
Self-punishing
I wish to end all struggles
Cross my heart
To tell a truthful lie
Donât tell her
I still miss her
Itâs easier to leave behind hate than love
When tears are stuck in my throat
Just let the silence
Represent all answersâ¦â
After singing this song, I suddenly felt as if every word in the lyrics was stabbing at my heart, and somewhere in my chest, there was an unbearable pain. I grabbed a can of beer, pulled the tab, and took a big gulp.
Su Qi looked at me silently. Maybe he could tell that something was wrong with my mood today, but he couldnât read my sadness. For a moment, he just sat silently beside me and put his arm around my shoulders.
âIgnore them!â I said to him, âWeâll have our karaoke session!â
Su Qi was concerned. âXiachun, whatâs wrong? Youâve been drinking so much. Are you okay?â
âWhatâs this bit of wine?â
As I spoke, I opened my mouth to take another swig. He finally couldnât take it anymore. He pressed his hand against mine, stopping me.
âStop drinking! Are you here to sing or drink?â
âYou ordered so much wine. Isnât it a waste not to drink?â
âYou donât have to finish it all!â
I hugged his shoulders without saying anything. At that time, because of the alcohol, my head gradually started to feel dizzy. I leaned close to him and inched my face close to his. I smiled and under my alcohol laden breath said, âSing with me, okay?â
ââ¦Okay.â
âI heard that you sing very well. Sing a song for me!â
Su Qi smiled, then went to the jukebox and selected a song. Maybe he guessed I liked Lin Junjieâs song. He selected the song, âI Want to Love Her.â
âIt started raining
He held the umbrella standing next to you
But Iâm not happy
Because I saw the reluctant smile on his face
I really want to love her
But the eyes lie
Itâs easier to hide
Lest feelings become complicated
I really want to love her
But reason disagreed
Is retreating a solution?
Who has an answer for me
If we canât bear
Weâd both be victims
I really want to love her
But the eyes lie
Itâs easier to hide
Lest feelings become complicated
I really want to love her
But reason disagreed
Is retreating a solution?
Who has an answer for me