Iâve been up since sixâunheard of for me. I canât get what happened between Daisy and me last night out of my mind. I canât get her out of my head, not that I want to, but fuck.
Iâm obsessed.
The sound of her voice, the taste of her mouth, her skin, her pussyâ¦
Having sex with her for the first time was like nothing Iâve ever experienced before. All of the sexual encounters with Daisy feel different. Itâs like I care more. It means more.
Shit, I am in love with her. Helplessly, completely in love with her.
Iâve already taken a shower and ate a protein bar. Again, completely unheard of for me. Iâm eagerly waiting for Daisy to come out of her house, still lingering in my room and staring at the cottage through my window. Itâs getting late. First period is going to start any minute and Iâm dressed and ready to go for once in my life.
Looks like waiting for Daisy is going to actually make me late.
This is a first.
When she still hasnât come out and thereâs literally three minutes before the bell rings, Iâm texting her, pissed at myself for waiting this long.
Me: Are you okay?
Two freaking minutes pass and she finally answers me.
Daze: Can you take me somewhere?
I donât even hesitate.
Me: Where?
Daze: Come pick me up please. My dad is already gone.
I leave my room and sprint over to Daisyâs place, ready to barge right in when she opens the front door, surprising me. Sheâs not in her uniform. Sheâs wearing dark gray sweatpants and a big black hoodie with the hood completely covering her head. Like I canât even see her eyes or nose, just her mouth.
âDaze?â
She opens the door wider. âCome in.â
I walk inside the house, glancing around the room, unable to shake the weird feeling creeping over me. Somethingâs wrong.
I can sense it.
âTell me whatâs going on,â I demand as soon as she approaches me.
With shaky fingers, she reaches up and tugs the hood back, revealing her face.
With jagged cuts all over it.
âWhat the fuck, Daisy? What happened to you?â I reach for her, my touch gentle as I carefully cup her cheeks and examine her face with my gaze. The biggest cut is on her cheekbone and it looks deep, but not deep enough for stitches. I donât think. Thereâs a tiny butterfly bandage on it, keeping the wound together, but it still looks like itâs bleeding.
âA vase broke last night,â she says, her voice flat. âI cut myself.â
âYou broke the vase?â
She nods.
âHow? What happened?â
âI donât want to talk about it.â She lifts one shoulder in a halfhearted shrug, staring off into space like sheâs not even paying attention to me.
Or anything.
Fear ripples through me and I drop my hands from her face, stepping back. âWhere do you want me to take you?â
âTo the doctor. That urgent care in town? Maybe they can help me.â
âYou donât want to see the nurse on campus?â
Daisy shakes her head. âI donât want to answer her questions.â
What the hell?
âIâll take you,â I say firmly.
âWeâll have to miss class.â
âI donât care.â
She waves a hand at me. âDo you want to change out of your uniform?â
âItâs fine. Come on, letâs go. Iâm worried about you.â
She lets me take her hand and lead her out of the house, and we stop by my room to grab my car keys. I end up getting rid of my jacket and tie and pull on a sweatshirt, my movements hurried, my brain scrambling.
Something is definitely up, and I wish she would just tell me what it is. I watch her out of the corner of my eye and sheâs not paying any attention to me. She just stands there quietly, her eyes glazed over, her movements slow. Almost as if her arms and legs are weighted down and itâs freaking me the fuck out.
Daisy isnât acting right. At all.
Weâre in my car and halfway to town when she finally murmurs, âI should call Vivian and tell her weâre not going to be at school today.â
âDonât worry about it,â I reassure her, reaching out to settle my hand on her knee. She flinches at my touch and I immediately remove my hand, confused at her reaction. Her mood. Something is definitely wrong, but sheâs not talking.
Sheâs not listening either.
I try to concentrate on the road, but I canât help trying to sneak looks at her every few minutes. She stares straight ahead, her expression blank, her skin pale, the red jagged cuts standing out. A million questions run through my head, but I canât work up the nerve to ask her, too worried over what she might say.
Or what she might not say. I donât know whatâs freakier.
We finally arrive at the urgent care clinic in the town closest to campus, and the moment I park the car, Daisy opens the passenger door and walks right out, not saying a word. I scramble to grab my keys and follow her out, walking right past her to open the door to the building. She enters and makes her way to the front desk and I hover behind as she speaks to the receptionist. Hating how the woman eyes me suspiciously, like Iâm the reason all of those cuts are on Daisyâs face.
This is fucking killing me. The not knowing, the suspicion thatâs being cast upon me.
Iâm just trying to support Daisy during her time of need. Itâs like sheâs purposely keeping me in the dark and I donât get why. I deserve to know whatâs going on. I donât buy her story that she did this to herself. What changed between her going home last night and her texting me this morning? Did she get into a fight with her dad?
Alarm fills me. Did her father do this to her?
No. Ralph is a good guy. A calm, nice guy. He wouldnât harm a hair on Daisyâs head. He loves her.
âI need to fill this out.â Daisy clutches a clipboard in her hands with a bunch of forms clipped on it and I follow her to the waiting area, both of us settling into chairs right next to each other.
While she fills out the forms, Iâm texting with the attendance office at school, letting them know Iâm out with Daisy and I took her to the doctor. Of course, the lady who works in the office told me I canât excuse Daisy, that sheâll have to call in, and I said Iâd have her call soon.
Road blocks all morning, I swear.
It takes Daisy forever to fill out the forms and finally she gives them to the receptionist and we wait some more. My girl remains quiet, unfocused, reaching up to touch her cheek every couple of minutes, wincing. The cut on her cheekbone looks worse than I thought and maybe she will need stitches.
âDoes it hurt?â I ask, leaning in close so I can murmur into her ear.
She pulls away a little, like she needs the distance. âYeah. I didnât even realize how bad it was until I woke up this morning.â
âWhy?â Tell me, Daze. What happened?
âI did something stupid.â She shakes her head, her gaze lifting to mine, and fuck, there are tears shining in her eyes. âI got mad.â
âMad at who, baby?â I touch the side of her head, my fingers tangling in her hair and this time she doesnât pull away.
âMy dad.â She closes her eyes, taking a deep breath. âMyself.â
âWhat happened?â
âDaisy Albright?â
We both glance over at the woman in dark pink scrubs with a file clutched in her hand, holding the door open that leads to the examination rooms.
âThatâs me,â Daisy says weakly as she stands up.
âCome on back, hon,â the nurse chirps cheerfully.
âWant me to go with you?â I ask.
Daisy shakes her head, smiling down at me. âNo. Iâll be okay.â
âIâll wait for you.â
âYou can leave if you want. Thereâs a good coffee shop down the road.â
âIâm staying,â I say firmly.
âOkay.â
I watch her walk across the waiting area and through the door the nurse keeps open for her, my heart panging the moment the door slams shut. I glance over at the receptionist who greeted us, catching her watching me, and she looks away hurriedly.
Damn it, I hope like hell she doesnât think I hurt Daisy. Does that chick recognize me? I am a fucking Lancaster, which right now isnât working to my advantage at all.
Lancasters donât go to the local urgent care to take care of their medical emergencies. We have private doctors and top of the line insurance coverage because money isnât a factor. We can afford whatever we need and a Lancaster always gets the best medical care.
I have zero experience in situations like this. Iâve never been to a chintzy urgent care like this before in my life. What am I supposed to do?
How am I supposed to act?
Leaning back in the chair, I kick my legs out, watching the mother sitting across from me holding a fussy toddler. The old man sitting in the next row of chairs over, his head hanging, mouth partially open.
Pretty sure heâs asleep.
Reaching into the front pocket of my hoodie, I find my AirPods case, and I slip them into my ears, turning on some music.
Tuning out the world.