I peeked open my eyes and froze when I realized where I was. I had my head on Ezra's chest with his arms wrapped around me and my own laying on top. I felt a blush creep onto my face, and realized I don't feel very embarrassed. In fact, I'm feeling very weird. I can't tell if I'm little or big and it's very confusing.
I was content with just falling back asleep to ignore these feelings when I brushed my hand across my face and felt something. My eyes widened as I realize I have a... Pacifier. In. My. Mouth. I instinctively jolted upwards, sitting up and yanking it out of my mouth. I flinched as I felt Ezra's hand on my back, who was now in a half sitting position. I had almost forgotten he was there. I watched as he blinked the sleep out of his eyes before his gaze was directed to what was in my hand and then back to my annoyed expression, to which his eyes also shot open.
"Oh, I'm sorry, I didn't wanna force you but when you fell asleep you were sucking on your thumb... Are you okay?" He was now sitting up as well and rubbing my back while I tried to process. Which is pretty hard considering my head is half fuzzy.
"Yeah... I don't know..." He furrowed his brow and turned my head to look at him. "Are you feeling little, bud?" I blinked at him and tried to think, but I couldn't decide. "I dunno... feels weird." I shifted so I was sitting criss-cross, facing him.
"Weird how?" He had his hand resting on the back of my neck, looking confused. I thought about it, and I didn't know, so I shrugged. "Hmm, I think you're middling, bud. Remember from the classes, they mentioned it?" I remembered hearing this, and I nodded.
"Feels bad." I mumbled and he chuckled, rubbing my back. "Wanna feel little again? We could keep playing, and it would make you feel better. It's up to you." I contemplated, and decided I didn't feel like doing anything. I shook my head and he nodded and said okay. "C'mon, let's get up and get those shoes on." He stood as I sat on the edge of the bed and let him put my shoes on. I'm big enough to know I wouldn't usually allow this but I really don't mind it right now. After he was done he put his own on and made the bed after I got up.
I watched him check the schedule when we went back into the large play room and stop walking. "Hm, there are still two class periods left and some free periods before dinner." I immediately frowned and felt my lip tremble, making me slightly embarrassed. " No classes. Please." He turned back to me, seeing my reaction. "How would you feel if you went with me to my class and then we went to ours after? You don't have to do anything if you're not up to it. You can still color." I thought about this for a second, before deciding that was okay. For some reason I just want to be with him right now. "Okay." I nodded and he gave me a small smile.
We walked over to the blue Dom's building close by with a couple minutes before his class was going to start. We sat at a table and he gave me my coloring book and crayons as well as a sippy cup of water. I was annoyed at the cup but didn't say anything.
Class started and I wasn't listening to anything, both because my head is fuzzy and also because I was too busy coloring my picture. After about 15 minutes or so, I could feel myself getting fuzzier and fuzzier, with any worries I had pushed to the back of my mind.
Ezra's pov:
I was listening to both of the teachers talk about compromises when I glanced over and noticed Jasper. I watched him for a moment before concluding he had certainly regressed. I gently rubbed his back and turned back to the lesson, occasionally taking time to watch him stick his tongue out when he was coloring the smaller shapes. God, he was so cute.
But after a few more minutes of this, I felt a tug on my sleeve. I leaned closer to him, waiting for him to ask me something, but instead he pointed to me. Confused, I asked him to use his words in a whisper. "Sit." He whispered back, again pointing at me. I grinned and nodded, realizing what he wanted. Before he could stand, I gently and swiftly lifted him by his waist to sit sideways on my lap, where he leaned the side of his head on my shoulder. "You want your colors?" I whispered in his ear, to which he nodded. I handed him the book and kept his box of crayons in my hand. I could feel other kids and the teachers glances, and I felt a sense of pride. Ms. Nixon even gave us a small smile.
After a few minutes, I felt another tug on my shirt. "Yeah, bud?" I whispered in his ear and watched him turn pink and look around, clearly trying to be discreet. "...Potty...?" He said this very quietly, directly in my ear, looking embarrassed. I chuckled quietly, finding it cute. I nodded and let him stand before getting up and taking his hand before leading him out of the room.
When we reached the restroom I asked if he needed help and he quickly shook his head. After he was done I made sure he washed his hands and we walked back.
After class was over, we had outside time. I was unsure of what to do because I wasn't sure if Jasper was okay with Darien and Jayden seeing him like this, but he seemed excited to go out. "Hey, bud, is it okay that you're gonna see your friends? They will probably be there to play, too." He thought about this before giving a small nod. I smiled and we walked to the playground, me holding his hand.
When we got there, the others were already there and I kind of watched as they both understood he was still regressed. "Hey, buddy, how are you feeling?" Jayden asked him, and he shrugged. "Okay." I was surprised that he seemed so shy around them, but then again he's very quiet and timid when he's little. "Yeah we've had a long day so far. We did a lot of coloring, took a nap, and went to the dom's class, right?" I spoke for both of us, trying to encourage him to open up. He nodded, still very close to me.
"Y'all wanna go play?" Jayden looked to both Jasper and Darien, who just nodded and started walking to the sandbox. Jayden and I sat on one of the benches about 10 or so feet away, watching them. "Man, he's so young. I swear he's like 2-4, going in and out." I spoke quietly, not wanting Jasper to hear me. "Yeah, Darien's definitely older so far. He's really hyper, maybe around 4-6. Is Jasper usually so quiet?" As we were watching, Darien was talking to Jasper as they used pails to make sand castles, with Jasper just smiling or laughing with the occasional nod. "Yeah, he's really shy. It actually took a while for him to react at all this morning but he's warmed up. It's crazy how much his age is fluctuating, he was even middling pretty hard earlier." I was sort of filling Jayden in, and I found it somewhat comforting to have another dom to talk to who probably knows more about what I'm doing than I do.
"Yeah, that makes sense, since it's his first time, y'know? He's cute though and he seems like he's doing really well." I smiled, feeling a small sense of pride. "Yeah." I crossed my arms, adjusting how I was sitting. "At first he just like wouldn't stop crying and he wouldn't talk, but after he calmed down he looked like he was having fun." I felt Jayden turn to me then look back to the boys.
"What made him so upset earlier?" My smile slowly dropped as I remembered, still feeling a lot of anger over that prick. "Some fucking asshole from home said something about people thinking he was... dead or some shit." I whispered that part, not wanting anyone to hear. "I didn't get the full story or anything but I'll as him when he's big." He nodded. "Shit. That's fucked up." I nodded in agreement and we sat in silence for a bit watching both boys, who were smiling. I noticed Darien was still big, and was being really good with Jasper, who was now comfortable and talking and laughing with him.
Jayden and I kept talking the rest of the period, both about Jasper or Darien but also about random stuff or advice with different things. I realized I was really glad to be where I am, in this moment.