I keep staring into his eyes, not daring to respond.
J: 'Fuck'
He leans down and kisses me. I immediately kiss him back and after a minute, he bends down a little more and picks me up. He takes me to his room and closes the door. He gently lays me on his bed and pulls back.
J: 'Do you want too?'
Y: 'A little nervous but yeah'
He smiles and kisses my nose. He sits next to me and I sit up slightly.
J: 'Tell me why your nervous'
Y: 'Where you nervous your first time?'
J: 'No I was hyped to be honest'
I giggle.
Y: 'I can imagine that, I'm kind of nervous cause I've heard girls the day after their first time saying it hurt really bad and they bled a bit,'
J: 'Ok one, yeah it does hurt a bit at the start because you've never had a dick inside you, and it hurts/aches for a minute or two so you can adjust to it, and two, some girls do bleed slightly their first time, and it's not even alot of blood if you did, plus not all girls do bleed and that's completely normal'
I smile at him.
Y: 'Are you sugar coating this so I'll agree'
Josh smiles and ruffles his hair.
J: 'No lmao, that is what happens, plus I have a lot of experience in this subject'
I laugh.
Y: 'Of course you do,'
He smiles and lean down to kiss your forehead.
J: 'So do you want to or not? Cause I'm completely fine if your waiting for the right person or marriage or something'
Y: 'I've been waiting until I find someone I can completely trust with seeing my body, someone who trusts my boundaries, someone who I know isnt gonna think of it as a one night stand,'
Josh nods.
J: 'Seems sensible and now I wish I had that advice when I lost mine,'
Y: 'Who did you lose yours too?'
J: 'My girlfriend at the time but she had already had sex before and to be honest it was kind of a big deal for me and she just thought of it as just sex,'
Y: 'That's what I've been afraid of'
J: 'So can I put in a good word for you losing your virginity to Josh Richard's? I mean hes a really nice guy'
I burst out laughing and lay back on the pillow.
Y: 'Depends, I might,'
He giggles and ruffles his hair again.
Y: 'Then I remember that I'm only wearing a thong and a bra'
Josh bursts out laughing.
J: 'I was wondering when you were gonna realise that, feels good knowing that you knew you could trust me'
I giggle.
Y: 'Stop using my own advice against me'
He laughs again and ruffles his hair for like the 5th time.
Y: 'Do you ruffle your hair when your nervous?'
J: 'Yeah, its a really bad habit I have'
I smile.
Y: 'Then why are you nervous? Not gonna bite you or sum'
He laughs.
J: 'Nah I'm not nervous I just like touching my hair'
Y: 'Tell that too my face'
He immediately looks away and I laugh.
Y: 'Ok why you so nervous'
J: 'Oh fine, I'm nervous cause I dont know if I'm gonna take your virginity right now'
I burst out laughing.
Y: 'Sounds so much like you, how many girls virginitys have you taken anyways'
J: 'Like 5 I think, maybe 6?'
He looks at me and dice rolls. I burst out laughing and Josh laughs too.
J: 'Shit why am I so nervous?!
I burst out laughing again and cant seem to stop even when Josh puts his hand over my mouth.
J: 'Stop laughing omg! Are you good?!'
I keep laughing and Josh shakes his head and smiles.
J: 'Your such a child, you remind me of my sister who's a year younger then me'
I giggle.
Y: 'Ugh god I think I've stopped for now'
J: 'Mmm for now'
I giggle again.
J: 'NO PLEASE DONT START AGAIN'
I burst out laughing and go into another fit of giggles.
J: 'Ight I'm going to Liams fuck you and your virginity'
I burst out laughing and Josh stands up. I grab his hand and pull him back and he lands just above your lips.
J: 'Fate?'
I push my lips against his and he pushes himself on top of me. He strokes my cheek and I put a hand on his. After a few minutes, he pulls back and looks me dead in the eyes.
J: 'Your ment to be at Rihannas with the girls,'
I look away and nod.
Y: 'If I go now, then they wont suspect anything'
Josh gently moves off me and I sit up. I smile at him and go back to my room. I grab some spare clothes and pjs and brush my hair. I grab my keys and purse and quickly leave. I get down to the car and drive back to Rihannas dorm. I go up and open the door and smile.
Y: 'Hey!'
R: 'Hey bae! What took you so long? You were almost an hour'
Y: 'Stuck in lost if traffic by my apartment,'
R: 'Oh fairs, weve just made caramel popcorn if you want some, plus we got snacks'
Y: 'Oooo I love caramel popcorn! Where can I put my stuff?'
R: 'My room,'
I nod and go inside her room. I put my stuff in the corner and quickly change into pjs since all the girls had. I go into the kitchen and all the girls and Danny are choosing snacks.
C: 'Oi Blair do you mind if Danny joins our sleepover? Hes sworn secrecy to everything we say'
I smile and nod.
Y: 'Yeah, it would be rude and unfair is we just left him out'
They all agree and I pick up a bag of cheesy doritos. Once we've all got snacks and drinks, I go back to Rihannas room and put on Netflix.
R: 'Ok let's choose a movie'
D: 'What genre? I know you'll probably pick romance or sum'
N: 'Sterotypical much! I dont really like romance films, too soppy, I prefer sci fi or action films'
D: 'Nooo I love rom-coms! It's so cute!'
N: 'Do they need to put so many sex scenes in?! Dam just say they slept together and bam, next part'
C: 'I agree with Daisy, romance films are so cute, I love them'
G: 'Of course you do, I prefer sci fi they are so cool!'
D: 'What about you Blair? Romance or action?'
Im wiped from my thoughts and look at them all blankly.
Y: 'Hmm? Oh um I like romance, shows me a world of something I havent got,'
I get up and go to the toilet. As I leave, you hear Gabby mutter
G: 'Someone set her up with Josh'
I lock the door of the bathroom and quickly wash my face. I give myself a quick harsh confidence talk and go back out to everyone.
D: 'Miss girl are you good? That was pretty deep'
Y: 'Yeah I'm fine, ignore me'
We end up deciding on watching after then after we collided. Halfway through after we collided, I get a message from Josh.
J: 'I cant stop thinking about you'...
Hey guys, sorry it wasnt a dirty video, I was waiting for a bit further into the book cause I wanna make this about 50 chapters and upwards, trust me, there will be lots of dirty stuff later in the book, I'm just building up to that point. Stay safe xx