Chapter 59: Where Am I?: Part 3

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“You’re not a very good liar. You have about fifty tells, and the only part of that which was true was that you stumbled across us. The rest was bullshit.

“Look, we just need to know who else is with you and who you linked and told about this place before we took you down.”

“What does it matter, for fuck’s sake? No one, okay. I’m alone, and this bullshit is getting old. Untie me if you’re all so fucking nice and friendly, as it might make a goddamn difference to this conversation!

“If you want me to talk, get me off this goddamn, uncomfortable, infernal fucking bed you have me strung out on like I’m awaiting dissection!” I lose my cool.

My temper snaps with sheer frustration at him, riled in a way only Colton could ever make me.

I blame the fact that he somewhat resembles him and has that same pigheaded, stubborn-ass manner that made me crazily hate the Santos—that know-it-all, bullshit mind game and ordering me around.

“How alone?” He completely ignores my femme tantrum. Deacon steps closer, pressing his hands to either side of my head on the bed, and it dips as he leans into me.

Bringing his face close enough, he locks on me, eye to eye, and blocks out most of the light over my head, casting his face in shadow.

It has the effect I guess he was going for, in that I lose all fight, recoiling back inside myself, wholly affected and a little fearful.

I lift my chin not to show it, backing down subtly but not without a bit of fight.

“Like all the way alone. My pack isn’t with me, but I can’t be sure they aren’t far behind.” It’s not a lie, as I don’t know if any of my pack has ever caught any trail and followed me.

I doubt it, as they would have caught up by now, but I’m not going to say I know for sure they haven’t.

I just don’t know, and it seems to be a believable statement as he leans up and pushes himself away from me after minorly scrutinizing my face at close quarters.

“No one with you? No mind-linking?” he repeats sternly, and I shake my head as stupid as I am for admitting it. Deacon seems satisfied I’m not lying and turns back to his submissive oddball.

“You can untie her, Doc. She can eat, but she stays confined here until we decide what we should do with her.

“I still want a name and pack. I need to know what kind of threat she, or they, pose. I’ll be back soon. I need to contact Alpha Santo and get directions concerning our intruder. He’ll want to be informed.”

My heart stops beating in my chest, and I have to stop myself from gasping out loud at the words that come out of his mouth.

My insides self-combust, and the blood freezes in my veins as my mind comes to a complete standstill on those two little terrifying words.

Alpha Santo! Juan? There is no other Santo pack in these parts, and his resemblance isn’t coincidental. Why Colton kept coming to mind is now glaringly obvious.

This is Juan’s facility, which can only mean one thing: Deacon is a Santo. It explains the asshole’s lousy attitude and shitty behavior.

And possibly Sierra is not an invading dream because Colton told me about her before I left him.

She’s been calling me somehow, from these four walls, and led me right to her. There’s no other explanation for how this all ties up like this. The Fates wouldn’t just let this casually happen.

I don’t understand why or even how she managed to do it from inside an isolation tank, but there’s no other logic for this kind of crazy coincidence.

This is a Santo building, a facility, so many miles and days away from the mountain but close enough for Juan to have his reach.

I doubt he has many facilities in our lands, and I didn’t just come upon this by chance.

I wonder how much of this the Fates orchestrated, and I don’t mean from the second I turned east. I mean, all of it and how I was led here from the day of my turning.

I’m so screwed, though. Once Juan knows I’m here, it will be game over.

He might actually send me to the same fate as Sierra, wherever she is, and leave me to rot in here with her for the next ten years.

It’ll be the answer to the dilemma of my pairing with his son. Keep me locked up, and keep Colton safe. It’s not like anyone will miss me if I disappear for a decade.

The doctor moves over me as soon as Deacon leaves us alone, his face apologetic, with a softness to his gray eyes that I overlooked before.

He has kindness in the wrinkles and lines around his eyes and mouth, which suggest he genuinely smiles a lot in his life.

With a worried glance at my face and a smile that doesn’t quite reach his eyes, he whispers in a shaky voice, revealing his fears.

“Please, don’t react when I remove these. I don’t want to sedate you again, and I don’t know if I’ve got the strength to match you, even in human form. I swear, I mean you no harm.

“Let’s keep this civil. You play nice. We play nice. It doesn’t have to be hostile.” He doesn’t trust me, and even though I have no gifts here, he’s wary of me.

He’s human for sure, and he knows what we are capable of, which means he’s probably witnessed it to be this kind of afraid.

I find it weird they even have a mortal here, but I guess the wolf world has a shortage of crazy doctors to keep Juan’s mate hidden with.

Packs are family, and it’s rare to find sub-packs that keep secrets from the rest, especially among one as big as the Santos. I guess humans are easier to keep quiet.

I nod and relax my body, showing him I’ll behave, and he seems to pick up on it, his smile strengthening and his face softening.

I can almost taste the tension seeping out as he leans in to undo the first buckle.

He makes fast and light work of releasing me from the bed and jumps back cautiously when he unties the last ankle strap, eyeing me from a distance as I slowly sit up and regain my bearings.

It takes a minute, and my head swims as I level up, aware I have only this gown on to cover my modesty, and it falls forward off my shoulders as I move, indicating it’s not even tied at the back.

They must have thrown it on before restraining me, and I reach back to pull it together again.

“Just let me go. I’m not interested in this place or your work. I have plans of my own and a route. I’ll happily get back to that,” I point out, trying to sound sincere.

But the older man’s eyes narrow, and he frowns at me, shaking his head apologetically.

“Oh, my dear, I’m afraid I’m not the one who makes those kinds of decisions, or I would show you to the door with a wave and a sandwich.”

“The problem is, we can’t let you go without being sure all of that is true. No one’s come up here in ten years without an invitation, yet you are not just a regular silly trekker or lost hiker—but a wolf.

“A solitary femme, which is quite unusual in itself, given pack hierarchy and the female role in your world, but a rare white form, at that. Remarkable.

“I’m afraid it’s all a little too suspicious given the circumstances.”

His voice is hushed, as I guess he doesn’t want Deacon or whoever watches the camera to hear, and the genuine serious concern etched in his eyes shines out.

He has a trusting quality about him that’s tingling my sixth sense and telling me he’s not one of the bad guys.

“What circumstances would that be?” I match his expression, a little churning of suspicion of my own as I take in his manner and how he seems to deflate a little, his posture sagging as he turns toward the wall.

He stops at the food trolley and pushes it toward me with a fake smile.

“We’ve been testing such unusual DNA for years, and a rare specimen falls right in my lap. It’s almost like the Fates ordained it, or maybe a little spy came to gather intel for a rival pack?

“My work until now has been a secret and protected, but you found us. An elusive, rare white.”

He raises his brows suspiciously, and I fiercely glare at him as his tiny accusation filters through and offends me on a deep level.

“I’m no spy, and I have no idea what you’re talking about. I’m white because, much like my mother, I lack pigment. It’s not rare because it’s special. It’s a flaw!

“Diluted bloodline or some nonsense and not desirable at all,” I say, my inferiority issues piqued and taking the form of rage.

It’s an angry outburst with a basis in old wounds and heartache, and I croak with a raw, harsh tone in my voice, biting back a surprising tear as it comes out.

“In my world, I’m an outcast because I’m inferior, so screw your theory. No one cares about that kind of intel, least of all me.”

Like I said something ridiculous, he laughs, his wide eyes startled.

His expression completely unnerves me and throws me off.