Chapter 79 | Dream (2)
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Just as Rienne was about to stand up, Black pulled her back, laying her down on the bedâhis hazy looking eyes knocking the wind out of her.
[Rienne] âYou said you couldnât do it anymore.â
Right now, Rienne took his sudden trepidation to remove her stockings for her as a sign that it was too difficult for him. After all, stockings were made of thin fabric that was easy to tear and rip. Perhaps he thought he might ruin them by accident.
[Black] âDid you take that to mean that I was incapable of taking them off for you?â
[Rienne] âUmâ¦..Yes?â
Black gave an unprompted smile, one vague in meaning.
[Black] âI told you. Iâm not confident I can keep myself together at this rate.â (1)
Somehow, she vaguely remembered hearing something similar while she was half-asleep.
[Rienne] âI donât understand. Isnât it all the same in the end?â
[Black] âI think itâs a little bit different when Iâm the one doing it for you.â
[Rienne] â. . .â
Something like that sounded terribly suggestive, but before Rienne could say anything further, Black wrapped his hand around her ankle, gently pushing up the end of her dress.
[Black] âDonât lift a finger. You can do that, right?â
Rienne instinctively gasped, her face turning a charming red color like a fresh apple.
[Rienne] âItâ¦itâs a little embarrassingâ¦â¦I should just do it myself.â
[Black] âItâs too late for that.â
Pushing her dress up above her knees, Black curled his large hand over the garter, carefully running his fingers along it and grabbing the knot.
Slip.
Holding it in his hand, he started to pull it away, the loosened stocking following along with his motion as it slipped down the side of her leg.
[Rienne] â. . .â
It was different from when she was half asleep, dazed in a blur of total exhaustion. n/ô/vel/b//in dot c//om
Back then, his hands were careful not to touch her skin, but now, as he pulled down the thin fabric of her stockings, he brazenly caressed her bare leg with his palm.
[Rienne] âW, waitâ¦â¦H, hold onâ¦..â
Her shoulders wouldnât stop trembling, but Black pretended not to hear her feeble attempts at resistance, quieter than a mosquito.
[Black] âThis oneâ¦..is off now.â
Tap.
Black took the removed stocking in his hand, gingerly dropping it to the floor.
Against the cold and clear light of dawn, Rienneâs skin looked the purest white. Holding onto her ankle, he held up her leg, pressing a kiss to her bare knee.
Again her body trembled.
[Black] âOnto the next.â
[Rienne] âW, waitâ¦..I can do it myself.â
On her other leg, her unloosened garter was much higher up, and the knot was near her inner thigh.
[Black] âWhy?â
[Rienne] âItâs embarrassingâ¦..â
[Black] âThat doesnât sound like a very good excuse. Youâre supposed to be getting used to things like this so they arenât so embarrassing anymore.â
[Rienne] âWell, just imagine things the other way around. If you were wearing socks, Lord Tiwakan, would you be alright with me taking them off for you?â
[Black] ââ¦â¦.Iâll be looking forward to whenever that happens.â
Just mentioning that made Blackâs eyes go a little hazy.
[Black] âI only wear socks when I need to go outâ¦â¦..When that happens, will you take them off for me, Princess?â
Rienne tilted her head at him, her face a little teary and pouty.
[Rienne] ââ¦â¦.Menâs socks donât even come up to the knee.â
[Black] âUnfortunately.â
This manâs thoughts were awfully unpredictable sometimes.
[Black] âBut it wouldnât be hard to make a set that goes up farther than that if you want.â
That wouldnât be hardâ¦..but would she be able to do her part just as easily?
[Black] âIf youâre feeling shy, I can close my eyes.â
â¦..But would that even help at this point?
[Rienne] âIs there any reason why you want to remove my stockings yourself so badly?â
With his eyes already closed, Black shook his head, chuckling as if he was honestly shocked she was even asking that.
[Black] âIt would be faster to explain the reasons why I wouldnât want to.â
[Rienne] âWhat do you mean?â
[Black] âBecause thereâs nothing to explain. No reason to speak of means it would be faster.â
Black ran his hand across Rienneâs knee and up her leg, her whole body reflexively flinching in response.
[Black] âWas it hereâ¦â¦? Yeah, here.â
Thwipâ
His fingers drew lines across her leg, touching against the knot keeping her garter in place, and the odd sensation forced a soft sigh from her slightly parted lips.
Why must I react like thisâ¦â¦? He didnât even touch my skin directly that time.
[Black] âI might be slower since my eyes are closed.â
She knew he would stop if she truly asked, but the strangest thing about this whole thing was Rienne herself, who was unable to flatly reject his advances.
[Rienne] âThen open your eyes.â
[Black] âArenât you embarrassed?â
[Rienne] ââ¦â¦â¦I have to get used to it eventually.â
So Rienne decided to close her eyes instead.
[Rienne] âUnless you suddenly change your personality, Lord Tiwakan, this is bound to happen again and again. I canât afford to be shy every time.â
Being embarrassed by this kind of interaction every single time it happened would only end up hurting her.
And besides. It wasnât as though she hated it.
[Black] âIsnât it the same when youâre the one closing your eyes, Princess?â
[Rienne] âIâm taking baby stepsâ¦â¦â
[Black] âThen it would be better if I moved.â
Black stood up from sitting near Rienneâs legs, propping himself above her and pinning her down below him. She was so surprised by the feeling of his body shifting that she opened up her eyes, only to immediately see his intense gaze.
[Rienne] âHow will you take off my stockings like this?â
[Black] âIf you help me, Princess, itâs possible.â
Looking down at her, Black lowered his head, and the moment their lips touched, a kiss naturally followed. Immediately, Rienne reached out her hands, running her fingers through Blackâs hair, wanting to feel the soft texture against her skin as much as she could.
And as her lips parted, welcoming a deeper kiss, she felt Black slip his hand down her leg, reaching down to her inner thigh.
Ahâ¦â¦
Feeling his hand against her, she thought she was going to stop breathing for a moment. Opening her eyes slightly, she could see that Blackâs eyes were closed, entirely lost in their kiss.
Thwipâ
But at the same time, the knot of her garter was completely undone. As he tugged on her stocking, she instinctively bent her leg, feeling the fabric being pulled down. His hand swept down her thigh and along her calf as he effortlessly peeled off her stockingâall without breaking their kiss.
[Rienne] ââ¦â¦..I was told I should get a little bit of sleep.â
Breathing in deeply, Rienne weakly leaned against Blackâs shoulder, her cheeks completely reddened.
[Rienne] âI donât know if thatâs possible anymore.â
[Black] âThatâs not true.â
Unlike Rienne, who was red in the cheeks and visibly exhausted, Black looked completely fine. But looking closely, there was a dark haze lurking in his eyes.
[Black] âIâll take off your outer clothes so you can sleep comfortably.â
Compared to her stockings, her other outerwear was nothing. There were three layersâa slip, an underdress, and then her outer dress. Her bare skin was at no risk of being touched or exposed.
Thinking this, Rienne carefully raised her arms.
Taking her cue, Black wrapped his arms around her, reaching to start undoing the buttons on the back of her dress.
[Rienne] âI have a questionâ¦..â
[Black] âWhat is it?â
[Rienne] âWhere did you learn to take off stockings like this?â
[Black] âThis is my first time.â
[Rienne] âThat canât beâ¦â¦Youâre doing too well.â
[Black] âIt must seem like that because this is your first time as well, Princess.â
[Rienne] âIs that soâ¦â¦.? I have another question.â
Although Rienne said earlier that sleep would be impossible, her eyelids were getting heavier, and there was a slight drowsiness to her voice.
Her exhaustion didnât escape Blackâs notice, either. He smiled softly, kissing the corners of her sleepy eyes.
[Black] âYes?â
[Rienne] âDid you have any other thoughts when you took off my stockings?â
[Black] âLike what?â
[Rienne] âI donât knowâ¦..Anything sexual, perhaps.â
[Black] â. . .â
The hand that was unbuttoning her dress suddenly stopped, stiffening in the middle of her back.
[Rienne] âBecause I didâ¦â¦But you donât seem that way at all, Lord Tiwakan.â
[Black] ââ¦â¦.If thatâs how I look to you, then thatâs proof that God exists.â
[Rienne] âHm?â
[Black] âIâve been praying to look normal in your eyes this entire time.â
[Rienne] âOhâ¦â¦Since whenâ¦â¦?â
[Black] âSince the second you asked me to take your stockings off, Princess. In my head, many times, you and I alreadyâ¦..No, I shouldnât say that. Just lift your arms up.â
The second Rienne lifted up her arms, he pulled off her outer dress as fast as he could.
[Black] âThatâs out of the way. Anything else?â
[Rienne] âOne more thing.â
Rienne leaned back into the bed, patting the space next to her with a sweet but tired smile.
[Rienne] âLie down here with me.â
[Black] ââ¦â¦.God help me.â
Black muttered to himself as he quietly fell to the spot next to her as he usually did. Rienne pushed herself closer to him with so much familiarity, now feeling a little more comfortable with things like this than she was before.
[Rienne] âWhy werenât you asleep already?â
[Black] âI couldnât sleep. You werenât here.â
So he felt the same way she did. She could still remember her own emptiness when she tried to sleep without him by her side.
[Rienne] âSo, does that mean weâll be able to share a bed every night? Even after weâre married?â
[Black] âYou wonât be able to kick me out. Unless you somehow manage to find mercenaries more competent than the Tiwakan.â
He didnât sound like he was joking, but Rienne laughed at his attempt at humor all the same.
[Rienne] âEveryone will think itâs strange. Married nobles in Nauk donât usually share a room with their spouses.â
[Black] âAre you worried about that?â
[Rienne] âNo. On the contraryâ¦â¦Iâm actually looking forward to their grumbling.â
[Black] âWhat makes you say that?â
[Rienne] âThey might think itâs odd at first, but in the end, wonât it show them how close we are? That weâre so attached to one another that we cannot bear to be apart, even just for the night.â
[Black] âWould you like it if other people thought like that?â
[Rienne] âI have no reason not to.â
Rienne gently reached out her hand, quietly pulling on the hem of Blackâs clothing, bringing him closer to her.
[Rienne] âI want everyone to knowâ
That you are my person.
And I am your home.
And that no one can ever take that away from us.
Black turned his head towards Rienne. Looking at her without saying a word, it was like he could hear exactly what she was trying to say. That feeling of understanding was somehow both fascinating and wonderfully familiar.
[Black] âI hope so, too.â
And after looking at her for a very long time, Black took Rienneâs hand, slowly interlocking his fingers with hers, holding it tightly.
[Black] âFor the rest of our lives.â
[Rienne] âYes. For the rest of our lives.â
And thatâs how they fell asleep. At some point, their eyes closed, their hands still bound together.
Sleeping while basking in the light of dawn, tucked away in each otherâs arms, that moment was far sweeter than any dream could be.
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[Rienne] âWhatâ¦â¦? Is that true?â
[Mrs. Flambard] âYes, it is.â
Rienne ended up oversleeping.
If she had to make an excuse, it wasnât that she did it on purpose, but she simply lost track of time.
Just before drifting off, she asked Black to wake her up when it was time, but he didnât in the end. For that reason, Rienne ended up sleeping far longer than she intended to.
By the time Rienne stirred, it was nearly noon and half the morning was gone. But, on the bright side, as soon as she woke up, Mrs. Flambard excitedly said she had some good news for her.
[Mrs. Flambard] âSheâs very good with her hands. Oh, and smart too! She might be better at embroidering than I am.â
A few hours after Rienne went to bed, the embroidery was entirely completed.
Mrs. Flambard sent the captain of the castle guard to find and bring a seamstress to the castle. Though the woman was still not fully awake, she completed the embroidery as per Mrs. Flambardâs instructions, yawning the whole way through.
And luckily, she did not do such an impossible job alone. She brought in extremely talented assistants, unlike the previous tailor, and with Mrs. Henton pitching in, the wedding attire was completely finished within half a day.
[Mrs. Flambard] âI held the seamstress back since we didnât get the chance to do a fitting just yet. Should we not have Lord Tiwakan try it on first, just in case we need to do any last minute alterations?â
[Rienne] âAhâ¦..Yes, letâs do that. Oh, but I feel so bad. I was sleeping so comfortably and ended up leaving all the hard work to the both of you.â
[Mrs. Flambard] âOh, what are you talking about? Youâre a bride who should be preparing your heart for getting married tomorrow.â
[Rienne] âStill, itâs not like the wedding is today. I have time.â
[Mrs. Flambard] âAnd yet we still have so much to do! You havenât even tried on your dress yet, Princess.â
[Rienne] âHuhâ¦â¦.?â
So many things had been going on that the idea of her own wedding dress never even occurred to her.
[Rienne] âIâm so scatterbrained. It completely slipped my mind.â
[Mrs. Flambard] âThen come with me. Lord Tiwakan said he had your dress brought to the jewelry room.â
Though it was called the âjewelry roomâ and Mrs. Flambard still insisted on calling it that, it was more similar to an empty space, given that all the jewelry was sold off long ago.
[Rienne] ââ¦â¦..Yes.â
Rienne quickly finished her late breakfast. Even her nanny, who would normally scold her and encourage her to eat more slowly, did not do so this time.
Even she was beyond excited to see the wedding dress.
[Mrs. Flambard] âLetâs go.â
The woman joyfully took Rienneâs hand, leading her to the jewelry room.
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[Rienne] âIâ¦.have no wordsâ¦â¦â
The wedding attire they had prepared for Black turned out much nicer than expected. Mrs. Flambardâs insight when it came to clothing plus the extra funds made for a truly stellar outfit.
But the wedding dress that was prepared for Rienne was beyond unbelievable.
[Rienne] âWhat kind of fabric is thisâ¦.? Iâve never seen it before in my lifeâ¦â¦â
It looked like it was made of snow.
The brilliantly white fabric was both thin and light, but the skirt was long and flowing, like a river of pure white fluttering down the waist.
The accessories were all made of finely crafted pearls, intricately decorating the dress. From afar, each piece looked like a stunning flower, but when seen up close, one could truly appreciate the craftsmanship needed to make such a subtle yet gorgeous piece.
[Mrs. Flambard] âTruly, Princess. Who couldâve made thisâ¦..? It canât be someone from Naukâ¦..Oh.â
Mrs. Flambard circled the dress, walking around with a pleased expression.
[Mrs. Flambard] âIt already looks absolutely breathtaking, but once you put it on, Princess, it will shine that much more brightly.â
[Rienne] âI think people will probably notice the dress more than me.â
[Mrs. Flambard] âOh, nonsense. There is nothing on this earth more vibrant and beautiful than you, Princess.â
[Rienne] âYou would say that, you were my nanny.â
Rienne looked away, blushing in embarrassment.
[Mrs. Flambard] âWould you like to try it on now?â
[Rienne] âN, no, maybe in a little bit. Perhaps later?â
[Mrs. Flambard] ââ¦â¦? But you need to try it on to see if it fits well.â
[Rienne] âStill, I need a minute. I have to mentally prepare myself before wearing something so wonderful. Besides, we need to focus on Lord Tiwakanâs outfit.â
[Mrs. Flambard] âWell, personally I think itâs all the same whether you wear it now or laterâ¦â¦But I think I understand. Look at this, here. The seamstress did a wonderful job.â
[Rienne] âYes. Itâs very well made.â
Rienne smiled as she looked at Blackâs wedding outfit.
Time was quickly running out to get it finished, so she was feeling nervous about whether or not the seamstress could really pull it all together in time, but it was truly nice. Especially since it managed to make it past Mrs. Flambardâs discerning eye.
[Rienne] âI want to see him wear it soonâ¦.Oh, I forgot to put this on, too.â
Rienne turned to the table behind her, opening the lock on the box with the key she remembered to bring with her.
[Mrs. Flambard] âWhat is it, Princess?â
[Rienne] âI wanted to add a finishing touch. I left a blue gem here somewhereâ¦.â
[Mrs. Flambard] âAre you talking about the sapphire inlaid with the symbol of the royal family?â
[Rienne] âYes.â
It was one of the only gems left in Rienneâs personal possession. The only reason it and a few other smaller earrings and hairpins were left behind was because they were too small to determine a decent selling value.
[Rienne] âOh, or maybe I put it over there instead.â
Seeing the box was empty, Rienne turned to the wardrobe in the opposite corner of the room.
[Rienne] âBut this doesnât have a lock on it. I donât think I wouldâve kept it hereâ¦â¦â¦â
Then Rienneâs whole body stiffened.
[Mrs. Flambard] âPrincess?â
Seeing Rienne come to a standstill, Mrs. Flambard walked up to her, curious what all the fuss was about.
[Rienne] âWhatâ¦..is this?â
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T/N: (1) When Black said âIâm not confident I can keep myself together at this rateâ, he doesnât actually specify âhimselfâ in the raws due to the nature of subject dropping. For the sake of an understandable English translation, I had to make the assumption that he was talking about himself. However, when Rienne heard him say that, she made the assumption he was talking about her stockings and that he was afraid he might rip them.
Itâs an interaction thatâs really hard to translate since itâs a misunderstanding that definitely wouldnât happen if the conversation was natively in English, and it makes Rienne sound a lot denser than was shown in the raws. But I did my best, ha.