Translator: Paperplane Editor: DarkGem
Qiao Anhao was stunned. She stared into Lucyâs bright eyes which gradually darkened, as though she wasnât certain what sheâd heard. After a long while had passed, she asked in return, "Suicide?"
With that last word, Qiao Anhaoâs heart instantly panicked. So much so, she didnât dare hear Lucyâs reply.
Lu Jinnian actually tried to commit suicide... Why did he try to kill himself...
She looked as though she was trying really hard to suppress her emotions, tightly clutching the coffee cup in her hands. Her lips had lost all color, like they were drained of blood.
"Yes, suicide." As she said this, Lucy, who loved to smile, grew upset. "But luckily, I discovered him just in time. He was temporarily unconscious and was sent to the hospital for care. There werenât any major issues, and it didnât leave behind any repercussions.
"That day, my husband didnât rush home from set, so I stayed with Nian in the hospital whilst he was unconscious. He cried two words..."
Because Lucy had heard the two words so many times, though she couldnât speak Chinese and her pronunciation may have been shaky, she was able to say Qiao Anhaoâs name.
"Qiao Qiao.
"After he woke, he became even more quiet. The longest time he went without saying a single word was a week. He loved to randomly stare at one spot in a daze. He, at that time, didnât eat at all, so he was on an IV drip. However, because the nurse had to step away after taking the needle out, he didnât know how to call someone for help, so he lost blood."
Qiao Anhao didnât know why, but when she heard this, she suddenly lowered her head, not daring to face Lucy.
"Thatâs when I realized he was severely depressed. His depression was so serious, little thoughts could trigger suicidal ones. That time, when he tried to commit suicide by cutting his wrists, perhaps the idea suddenly came to him whilst he was shaving with a razor.
"Of course, severe depression wouldnât have come from a single event. This was something that had followed him from his living environment as a child. However, under normal situation it wouldnât affect him, but perhaps it was some kind of thought that had triggered him.
"I tried so many ways to communicate with him, but they were all useless. Then, I thought about your name. At first, when I mentioned you, he said some wild things, and he practically trashed everything in the house.
"In the end, I could only control him with medicine to calm him down. Then I would spend time with him everyday and endlessly communicate with him. At the time, my husband stopped production to help me. We spent a lot of energy to finally see him improve.
"That period of time, was a challenge for me, but for him, it was a nightmare.
"Though his condition has improved, it doesnât mean that heâs fine now. He looks normal during the day, but at night, he would never sleep at all. Weâve taken him to the hospital, and to see my psychology teacher. Weâve used many methods, but they havenât worked. Even if he got a little sleep, it would be induced by medicine.
"It was during all those sleepless nights that I learned all about you from him.
"He used a lot of strength to force himself to forget about you, and yet he still loved you so so deeply.
"You turned him into a hopeless lunatic.
"I put off all the work in my office and spent every night with him for two whole months to help him accept the fact that he had already lost you."