My head pounds like a fucking bass drum when I climb the steps to Jamesâ house the next morning. I probably shouldnât have done it, but the second Remi and Sarah left last night, I wasnât far behind them.
He was three words into his ârip Ace a new oneâ speech when I turned and walked away. I donât need him laying down the law. Iâm an adult, for fuckâs sake. I donât need to fucking be here. I can make my own choices in life.
I jumped on my bike and headed straight back to the Heights. Thankfully, Cruz was still at Sinners and took me up on my offer of getting shit-faced. I ended up spending the night with him, drinking scotch and smoking. It was exactly what I needed. Actually, no, thatâs not true. What I really needed was to be balls deep in Remi, but I didnât think climbing the trellis to her room was a particularly good idea. Sarah already looked on the edge of losing her shit when they left; I didnât want to make it worse for Remi than I already had.
She took the fall for me.
I was not fucking expecting that. Not that I really think it matters what she says to James, because to him everything will be my fault. Thatâs just the way he sees me.
âAce Jagger, get your ass in the kitchen right this fucking second.â His voice is murderous. I donât need to look at his face to know itâs bright red and that his eyes are bulging, ready to burst.
Rolling my eyes, I stagger towards him, more than ready to have it out with him. This fight has been brewing. Iâm actually looking forward to it.
âUncle,â I slur when I get to him. âHow wonderful to see you.â
His eyes are murderous, but his anger has little effect on me. If he wants to scare me then heâs going to need to do a little more than give me a look. At least do it while holding a gun for half a chance.
âWhere the hell have you been?â He looks me up and down, disapproval written all over his face.
âOut,â I seethe.
Pushing from where he was leaning against the counter, he steps towards me. Heâs trying to make me feel small, like Iâm the child in this situation. Itâs not working.
âThis is not how you act under this roof, boy.â
âI think it is, I narrow my eyes at him, warning him about getting any closer. Iâm more than happy to settle this thing with my fists if heâd like to lose.
âDo you have any ideas how many strings I had to pull, how much money I had to spend to get you into that school?â
âI didnât ask to go there, to even be here. You instigated this.â
âBecause it was the right thing to do.â He lets out a weary sigh. âThe three of you deserve a chance at a future, a real future, after the childhood youâve had.â
Memories flash through my mind like a fucking movie. Mom strung out on the couch while I attempted to cook dinner so my brothers wouldnât go to bed hungry. Mom having her special friends visit and me having to take my brothers out in the rain just to get them away from what was about to happen, the noises that she would happily allow them to listen to in the other room.
Then thereâs the most pressing issue. Our dad. The man who all those years ago, leaving us with that fucking disaster of a mother while our dear old uncle turned his back on us.
He knew what our life was like, and he just walked away.
âGuilt,â is the only thing I say, and his eyes widen in shock.
âWhat? No. Iâm doing this because youâre my family. Because itâs what you deserve.â
âBull. Shit. I know, James.
what you did. I know the hand you had in how our lives turned out. So if you think youâre ever going to get me on board with this little perfect life youâve attempted to drop us into, then you need to think again. All this is you trying to rid your guilt. Trying to wash your hands of the blood you think is staining them. Well, newsflash, I know everything. And rest assured. Revenge is the first thing on my list.â
The blood drains from his face as he swallows nervously.
âYeah, you should look worried, Uncle. Iâm coming for you.â
Heâs silent as I back out of the room, our eyes locked in our silent exchange.
âItâs not what you think, Ace,â he cries as I disappear from his sight. âAnd stay away from Remi.â
Shaking my head, I make my way up to my room to put on that lame ass uniform so I can get to school. This whole situation might be fucked-up beyond belief, but heâs right about something: my brothers deserve a chance at a future, and Iâll be damned if Iâm going to ruin that for them.
Thankfully, by the time Iâm hauled into the principalâs office for my dressing down for skipping the last two days, my hangover has almost subsided and I can see straight again. He either ignores the stench of alcohol Iâm sure is clinging to me, or this place drives him to drink so much that he barely notices.
For the first time, I actually make it until lunch. Although itâs not because I want to be here but more that itâs easier to sit in class and stare at whatever Iâm meant to be doing than it is to leave. I probably had two hoursâ sleep last night on Cruzâs couch. Even without the hangover, Iâm like a zombie.
I grab some food from the cafeteria before leaving as fast as I entered. Eyes drill into the back of my head the entire time Iâm there. I canât think of anything worse than being forced to eat in here.
With my lunch in hand, I walk around the building to find a quiet spot so I can be alone. Cole should be hanging out with the team as I made him promise me heâd do in an attempt to fit in, and Iâve no idea where Conner is. Heâs probably trying to bag some poor unsuspecting girl with his bad jokes and even worse banter.
I shake my head at the thought of both of them. With my own drama and the distraction of Remi, Iâve not really checked in with them about how itâs going. Guilt floods me. They should be my priority right now, not how soon I can get back inside Remiâs panties.
I come to a stop around the side of one of the buildings when a familiar voice hits my ears.
âHeâs really annoying,â Remi says, and I canât help but smile. I donât need to hear any more to know sheâs talking about me, but, helpfully, she continues anyway. âAnd so bossy. But he gets me, I think. Itâs all very confusing.â
I think back to yesterday and the connection that was between us. Iâm about to keep walking to give them some privacy when her friend asks a question that freezes my body in place. âYou like him, donât you?â
My heart pounds wildly in my chest, although Iâm not sure if itâs with panic or fear. Fucking hell, do I want her to say yes?
âYeah, I think I do.â
All the air comes rushing out of my lungs, and I stagger back a little. There might have been a part of me that wanted her to say yes but fuck, I was not ready to hear it.
My feet take me away from the scene, and, before I realize it, Iâm at my bike. I glance back over my shoulder to see kids laughing and joking with their friends, enjoying their stress free bullshit privileged lives, and I cave. Throwing my lunch into the nearest bin, I throw my leg over my bike and get the fuck out of here.
The house is in silence when I enter. Iâm really fucking grateful, because I really donât need to go for a second round with James right now.
âJames, is that you back?â Ellen calls from the kitchen before her head pokes around the kitchen doorway. âOh, Ace. Finished school already?â she asks with a knowing wink.
âSomething like that.â
âHave you eaten, or would you like me to make you some lunch?â I want to say no, but my stomach rumbles loudly, making her chuckle. âCome on, whatâs your favorite?â
âI⦠um⦠whatever youâve got. Iâm not fussy.â I drop down onto one of the chairs around the table in the center of the huge kitchen.
âI really donât mind, Ace. James pays me to ensure the four of you are well looked after.â
I scoff. âThatâs really not necessary. Iâm more than capââ
âI know, Ace.â She rests her hand on my shoulder and squeezes slightly. âI know. But you donât have to now. So just enjoy the rest, eh?â
âIâm just not used to it.â
âJust give it a few weeks. This place will feel like home in no time.â
âWeâll see.â
âSo tell me about school,â she starts. âMade any friends yet?â
I canât help but laugh at her positivity. âDo I look like the kind of guy whoâs going to make friends with anyone in this town?â
She shakes her head but doesnât comment. âJames said youâd been hanging out with Remi.â
âYeah, heâs real happy about it too.â
âThings havenât been easy for her and Sarah since Remiâs dad left. Heâs just looking out for them. I know theyâve not been together long, but he cares about her as if sheâs his own. He only wants the best for her.â
âYeah, and that isnât me apparently.â
Ellen glances over her shoulder at me, an amused smile playing on her lips and a twinkle in her eye.
âWhat?â I ask, not knowing what sheâs getting at.
âOh, nothing, Ace. Nothing at all.â
She falls silent as she continues with whatever sheâs making me, and my mind wanders back to Remi.
I knew the moment I saw her, saw how James looked at her with pride and love in his eyes, that she was going to be the perfect target. But itâs only been a few days and sheâs already admitting to her friend that she likes me.
Even though the plan is to make her fall for me and force James to watch as I break her, proving that he doesnât have the control he thinks he does⦠I need to stay away from her. For a while at least.
I canât lose my head.
Not now.
Not when Iâm so close to the answers I need.
So what if sheâs a hot girl whoâs clearly interested? I need to focus on my end game here. And itâs not for her to fall for me.
Or worse.
Nothing good can come from that.
I donât leave my room for the rest of the day, and when the sun rises the next morning, I reluctantly pull my uniform on and get ready for another day in Hell.
My down time yesterday gave me chance to sort out what Iâm going to do where Remi is concerned. I have a plan. Now I just need to put it into practice.
She makes avoiding her at school easy, and throughout the day I donât even get a flash of her dark curls in the hallway. I actually start to think sheâs not in school until our last class of the day.
I ensure I turn up first.
The teacher gives me a double take when Iâm through the door before the bell. âWell, well, well. This is a nice surprise, Mr Jagger.â
âDonât get used to it,â I grunt. âI didnât have anywhere better to be.â
âIâll take that as a compliment.â
I mumble something at her before finding a seat.
Itâs only a few moments later that the bell rings and students start filing into the room. They all take a seat, but the one beside me remains empty. Itâs like theyâre too scared to sit beside me or something.
That is, until she walks in.
My eyes lock onto her immediately and I have to fight to pull my gaze away so I donât look more interested than I want to. I know the moment she finds me because my skin tingles with awareness. I watch her move through the room out of the corner of my eye before she comes to a stop at the table beside me.
âSorry, thatâs taken.â I donât look up at her, but that doesnât mean I miss her gasp of surprise.
âO-oh⦠okay. Sorry.â She stares at me for a beat, but when I donât so much as look up at her she spins and walks away.
I have no idea who Iâm reserving it for, but I soon get my answer when a familiar blonde walks through the door. She scans the room before her eyes lock on mine.
A smile twitches at my lips and I gesture to the spare seat. She beams at me, delight filling her eyes as she drops down in the chair beside me, but not before she slides her table a little closer.
âI thought it was about time you and I got to know each other a little better.â Her voice turns me off immediately, but I smile at her like Iâm interested in doing just that.
All the while, Remiâs death stare burns into the side of my head.
Iâm getting to her.
Good.
âYouâre coming to the pep rally tonight, right?â Cole asks, poking his head into my bedroom Friday morning before school.
âUhâ¦â
âCome on, man. Theyâre going to announce the starting line-up. I need you there.â He knows exactly what heâs doing. I canât say no to something like that. He barely asks me for anything, so I know this is a big deal for him.
âYouâd better get that fucking spot,â I mutter, pulling on my shirt. I donât do pep fucking anything, but for my brother, Iâll make an exception.
The last thing I want to do is spend the night with Bexley and his bunch of assholes, but seeing as I helped force Cole into it, I guess the least I can do is support him.
âItâs in the bag, man. Iâm the best fucking running back the Seahawks have ever seen.â
âYouâd fucking better be.â
âIâm sure it wonât be a total loss for you. No doubt Remi will be there.â
My head snaps up in his direction and my eyes narrow.
âI see everything, Ace.â Of course he fucking does. Heâs always fucking watching.
âIâm not interested in Remi.â
His eyebrow quirks. Heâs obviously used his quota of words for the day. After shrugging one shoulder, he backs out of my room.
âIâm serious. I donât want her,â I call after him.
Itâs Friday night, a pep rally is the last thing I want to do.
But heâs right. Thereâs a good chance that Remi will be thereâ¦