âCome on, you have to come,â Hadley whines down the phone.
âNo way. Iâd rather douse myself in gasoline and set myself alight than spend the night pretending to cheer on the team.â
âYou could always come and cheer on your friend. You know, the girl who has to pretend she actually wants to be a Seahawk cheerleader.â Her voice is full of sadness, and I feel like a total bitch.
âIâm sorry, Hads, but I canâtââ
âCole Jagger is going to be there, which means thereâs every chance Ace will be too.â
Just hearing his name makes my stomach dip.
We spent an amazing day together, and then he completely ghosted me. No, that doesnât accurately describe what he did to me. He hit me right where it hurt most.
Michaela.
I still canât quite believe he did that, especially after what I told him about her.
I let myself fall for the bad boyâs charm, ignoring all the warning signs. Ace Jagger is everything people whisper about him.
Cold.
Cruel.
And a complete asshole.
âHe is the last person I want to see at the pep rally.â
âIâm not saying you have to try and talk to the guy, but you could use the opportunity to show him that you donât care.â
The problem, though, is that I do care.
I thought we were the same. I thought he saw me.
Turns out, he just saw me as a bit of fun. Something to pass the time. Hell, he was probably just using me to say a giant âfuck youâ to his uncle.
Dejection burns through me.
âBexley will be there,â Hadley continues. âI bet heâll be more than willing to lift your spirits.â I can practically hear her smirk down the phone. âAnd you know itâll drive Michaela crazy if you show up and steal his attention.â
âI doubt that,â I say, knowing that my step-sister has her eyes on another guy.
A plan unfolds in my head. Itâs not the best idea Iâve ever had, but what was it Ace said?
Maybe itâs time I start doing just that. Screw Michaela and her stuck-up cheer friends. Screw Bexley and his entitled ways.
Screw Ace and his games.
âIâm in,â I say, feeling a sliver of excitement snake through me.
âOh no,â Hadley sounds concerned. âWhat are you planning?â
âWho, me?â I reply sweetly. âNothing.â
âRemi, I didnât meanâ¦â She stops herself, letting out a resigned sigh. Hadley knows me well enough than to try and talk me out of anything. Only, before now, itâs always been her trying to talk me out of hiding out at lunch or avoiding extra-curricular activities.
But sheâs right. Itâs senior year. I donât want to graduate and regret being the girl who let everyone walk right over her.
âJust donât do anything too crazy tonight, okay?â
âI canât make any promises,â I reply, and she chuckles.
âIâm going to regret ever saying anything, arenât I?â
My lips curve into a devious smile as I whisper, âWeâll see.â
The football field is a sea of blue and white as I weave through the crowd. Kids stare at me; girls sneering and guys checking me out. Iâm not usually on the end of their appraisal, but tonight I came dressed to impress. The black denim mini skirt hugs my hips and skims my ass, and the Seahawk tank I dug out of the bottom of the wardrobe is two sizes too small, but it makes my boobs look great and shows off a sliver of my toned stomach. Iâve gathered my long curls into two bunches that flow down my shoulders, and the pristine white sneakers Iâm wearing give me that prep school look the boys of Sterling Bay seem to love so much.
Someone wolf whistles, and I glance over my shoulder. âLooking good, Tanner,â a guy from class calls, his eyes roaming down my body.
Fickle jerk.
I flash him the fakest smile I can muster and continue moving deeper into the crowd. The cheer team is already on the field, whipping up a frenzy, but thereâs no sign of the football team yet. Iâve just found a seat in the bleachers when Hadley spots me. Her eyes widen as she approaches me. âHoly shit, girl, you lookâ¦â
âThanks,â I smirk. âThought Iâd better make the effort, you know? Go Seahawks.â I punch the air.
She chuckles, but her smile quickly melts away. Hadley leans in, whispering, âAre you drunk?â
âWhat, no!â She gives me a pointed look. âOkay, so I may have had one or two of Momâs wine coolers before I left the house.â
âRemi.â Disappointment etches into her expression.
âI needed some Dutch courage to leave the house dressed like this.â
Her brows crinkle. âAre you sure youâre going to be okay? I have to go do my thing.â She flicks her head to the field, and, surprise surprise, Michaela is glaring right at us.
âYou should go. Iâll see you after. Besides,â I slide my arm through the guyâs sitting next to me, âmy new friend here will keep me company.â
âI will?â he chokes out.
âIs that going to be a problem?â I flash him a smile. I recognize him from a couple of my classes last year but canât remember his name. Itâs clear heâs the booksmart type. Heâs wearing a button down shirt, dress pants and a sweater vest. The poor guy looks as out of place here as I feel.
âI⦠uh, no⦠sure, whatever.â His friends all snicker, teasing him, but then the music booms over the PA system, drowning them out. The cheer team breaks formation and starts tumbling and flipping across the field. I scan the crowd, wondering whether Hadley is right about Ace coming to support his brother. I canât imagine him being here, with the prep school masses.
But then I spot him, standing over by the edge of the bleachers, in the cover of the shadows. He notices me and his eyes narrow dangerously, sending a violent shiver rolling through me. He looks pissed.
Good, that makes two of us.
Inhaling a long drag on his cigarette, he exhales a tendril of smoke, never once taking his eyes off me. I break the spell, forcing myself to look at the cheer team. I donât know what game Ace is playing, or what changed after the day we spent together, but Iâm done being his toy.
Tonight, Iâll give him a taste of his own medicine.
Hadley blows off the cheer team after the pep rally and we ride together to the party⦠with none other than Cole and Conner.
âI canât believe my little brother is a fucking Seahawk.â Conner leans over and grabs Coleâs shoulder.
âI thought you were twins,â Hadley says.
âWe are, but Iâm the eldest.â
âBy two fucking minutes,â Cole grumbles. He doesnât seem very pleased to have made the team. I thought Hayden was going to combust when Coach Miller announced Cole as first string running back. Heâs held that spot for the last two years, and itâs a definite blow to his cred.
âYou need to take the next right,â Hadley says. âLylah lives in that house over there.â She points to the house in the distance. There are already kids everywhere, cars lining the street and a bonfire flickering high into the sky.
âHoly shit, she lives here,â Conner breathes as he tries to find a parking spot.
âItâs probably the best house in the whole town.â Hadley isnât wrong. The Donovans own a premium piece of Sterling Bay real estate, a big Art Deco style house overlooking the ocean, complete with indoor outdoor swimming pools, tennis courts, and its own private access to the beach.
But tonight, itâs party central.
Conner pulls out a blunt and lights it up. âYou girls want in?â
I decline, but my jaw falls open when Hadley takes it. âWhat?â she says with a dismissive shrug. âIt helps to relax me.â
âHell yeah.â Conner winks at her.
âCole, you in?â
âI canât, Coach makes us take drug tests.â
âFuck, for real?â Cole nods and Conner howls with laughter. âMore for me then.â
Cole flips him off, pulling out a bottle of vodka from somewhere. âDoesnât mean I canât get shitfaced though.â
They pass the bottle back and forth, until eventually Cole twists his body around and offers it to Hadley. âIâm good.â she says, taking another drag of the blunt.
âRemi?â
I stare at the bottle. The buzz I felt earlier is long gone, and now Iâm about to venture into enemy territory. Snagging the bottle from him, I down the rest of the contents.
âHoly shit, Princess,â Conner says. âYouâre supposed to savor it.â
âWhatever.â I shoulder the car door and climb out. Hadley and the guys follow suit, and before I can change my mind, we take off toward the party.
âHey,â Hadley loops her arm through mine, âare you sure this is a good idea?â
âI have no idea what youâre talking about.â
She pulls my arm, letting the guys go on ahead. âRemi, itâs me. You donât need to put up those walls of yours. Talk to me.â
âI donât want to talk. I want to live.â
âSo this isnât about getting back at Michaela and making Ace jealous?â
âIt was your idea,â I hiss.
âYeah, but I didnât think youâd actually go through with it. I just wanted you to come tonight.â
âI guess you should have thought of that before you planted the seed.â
She lets out an exasperated breath, defeat clouding her eyes. âJust be careful, okay? I donât want to see you get hurt.â
The party is already in full swing when we reach the house. People file in and out, carrying red Solo cups, their bodies swaying to the mellow beat. Weâve already lost Conner and Cole, but it hardly surprises me.
âHoly shit.â Hadley grabs my arm and I glance back at her, frowning.
âWhatâs wrong?â
âI feel so buzzed.â She laughs, her eyes cloudy and hooded. âYou donât think Conner laced the blunt?â
âYou need some water.â
âNah, I need some snaaaacks.â
Jesus. I roll my eyes, grabbing her hand and pulling her further into the house. Weâre bumped and jostled as we make it inside. Iâve been here before, but not since we were all middle graders. The kitchen is a big open space with a huge island in the middle. Itâs been set up as the bar for the night, chock full of liquor bottles, ice buckets, and trays of snacks.
âEat,â I instruct Hadley as she dives for the bowl of chips. Leaving her to it, I make myself a mixer drink. The vodka is already burning through my veins, taking the edge off. But when I spot Ace through the open patio doors, Michaela hanging off him like a cheap throw, my body tingles with jealousy. He sees me, his piercing eyes locking right on mine as he takes a long pull on the beer bottle in his hand.
I want to know what heâs thinking, because if the way his hard gaze moves over my body is anything to go by, he wants me.
Michaela spots me and sneers, making a scene of standing up and grinding herself all over Ace. He lets his hand run up her thigh and disappear underneath her ridiculously short cheer skirt. I suck in a harsh breath. She barely takes the thing off, preferring to spend her life dressed like Cheer Barbie. It brings her too much power and status.
I want to rip the thing off and tear it to shreds, but first, I want Aceâs hands off her body.
Fuck.
Why is he doing this?
Downing my drink, I pour another. I shouldnât have come tonight. Iâm playing right into his hands. For some reason, he wants me to be jealous. Itâs right there in his icy gaze as he watches me while I watch Michaela writhe above him.
âShe might as well piss all over him,â Hadley says over my shoulder.
âFeeling better?â I ask her, and she nods around a lazy smile.
âMuch. Letâs dance.â Before I can protest, she drags me outside to where the girls are dancing. Thereâs a DJ set up in the corner, lights bouncing off the surface of the pool and disappearing into the night sky.
Oh, how rich kids party.
Iâm about to tell Hadley this is a bad idea when a hand hooks me around the waist, dragging me against a hard chest. âI hoped youâd come,â Bexley slurs in my ear. Heâs buzzed, the faint scent of scotch on his breath.
, I think to myself.
âYouâre drunk,â I reply, twisting my face to his. He grins down at me.
âMaybe, a little. Me and the guys did shots after the pep rally. Itâs a team thing.â
I roll my eyes. I couldnât care less about the team.
âDonât be that way, Remi Bear.â The use of his childhood nickname for me has my chest constricting.
âDonât call me that.â
His hand curves up my stomach, anchoring my body to his. âYou used to love it when I called you that.â
âWe were twelve,â I whisper.
âYeah, and I thought I was going to grow up and marry you.â
Tears prick my eyes, but I wonât cry. Iâll never shed another tear over Bexley Danforth and his sweet lies.
âWeâre not those people anymore, Bex.â I donât bother to disguise my sadness.
âYouâre right, weâre not.â His hand moves up, hovering precariously near the curve of my breast. People are watching. I can feel the weight of their stares. Bexley Danforth is the most popular guy in school⦠and Iâm the girl who no longer belongs here.
A wave of emotion hits me, and I know Iâm two seconds away from crying or making a break for it. But the buzz of the liquor gives me the strength to start swaying in Bexleyâs arms. I look away from him, landing my glassy gaze on Ace and Michaela. Her lips part, betrayal burning in her heavily made up eyes. Sheâs wanted Bexley for as long as I can remember. But heâs never wanted her for anything more than a casual hook-up.
I keep my eyes fixed on the two of them as I roll and pop my hips against Bexleyâs crotch. Heâs rock hard, making no effort to hide how much he wants me as he grinds his cock against my ass. Desire snakes through me. I donât want Bexley, but heâs holding me with such possession it reminds me of a certain tattooed asshole who is now watching me with pure hatred in his eyes.
Bexley lips land on my neck, but I donât stop him. I canât. I want Ace to feel every bit of jealousy, hurt, and dejection I felt. He sucks and licks my skin, making my traitorous body shiver.
âFuck, Rem, do you have any idea how long Iâve waited for this? I want you so fucking much.â His hands grip my hips a little.
âOkay, ease up,â I say.
âNo way, baby. Iâve waited too damn long.â He starts moving, pulling me away from the crowd until weâre secreted away in the shadows. Spinning me around, he pushes me up against the wall and cages me, his hands either side of my head.
âWhat the fuck, Bexley?â I hiss. âWe were just dancing.â My heart crashes violently behind my ribcage. I wanted to make Ace jealous. I didnât wantâ¦
.
âNah, baby. You want me, I know you do.â My eyes dart around him wildly. The liquor in my blood is in full effect now, making me feel a little unsteady, and everything starts spinning.
âLetâs go back and dance,â I say, forcing a smile.
âSo Iâm supposed to believe you donât want this?â He grabs my hand and shoves it to his cock. âBecause I sure as fuck want you. I canât wait to be deep inside you. Itâs all Iâve ever wanted.â
Fear takes hold as I realize what a stupid mistake I made, thinking I could play with fire. Bexley Danforth doesnât take no for an answer. Eventually he always collects what he thinks heâs owed.
And right now, his sights are set firmly on me.
Fuck.
âBexley, youâre drunk, and so am I.â I press my hands against his chest, trying to leverage enough space to slip around him. âLetâs go back to the party.â
His hand clamps around my arm and he lowers his face to mine, forcing me flat against the wall. âI donât think so, Rem,â he says in a low voice. âWe have unfinished business.â