Ace stares at me, indifference glittering in his eyes.
He means it.
He really doesnât care.
The things people say about him, what they whisper when he walks past them down the hall, how they point and stare like heâs an exhibit at the zoo.
I envy him.
I tell myself I donât care, that their opinions of me mean nothing, but itâs a bitter pill to swallow when I used to them.
Every day, I tell myself Michaela is welcome to my father and his cheating scumbag ways, but Iâm the daughter left to watch from the sidelines while they play happy families.
Every second of every minute, I tell myself none of it matters, but I know itâs a lie.
âYouâre saying one thing, Princessâ¦â He leans in, running his nose along my jaw. A shiver works through my body. God, why does he affect me so much?
âBut your body is telling me something different.â
âI have no idea what youâre talking about.â My voice quivers, betraying me. Ace must hear it, because a smirk graces his devastatingly rugged face.
âI bet right now,â he breathes the words over my lips, âif I touch you right hereâ¦â His hand skates to the apex of my thighs. Thank god Iâm wearing jean shorts, âyouâd be wet for me.â
âYou canât say stuff like that to me,â I grit out.
His brow quirks up. âNo? Wouldnât your boyfriend like it? How is good old Bexley, by the way?â
âHeâs not my boyfriend.â
âWhat a shame.â
âYeah, and whyâs that?â
âBecause,â he slides his hand up the side of my neck, letting his thumb brush over my pulse point, âI was really hoping to get under his skin when I mark his girl.â
âWhat theââ
Aceâs mouth crashes down on mine, hard and demanding. His tongue invades me, licking furiously at my own. I fight against his grip, trying to push him off, but Iâm completely at his mercy, trapped between the wall and his overpowering body.
His teeth rake my tongue as he slides his hand around my throat, holding me in place. It shouldnât feel as good as it does, but the harder he kisses me, the more I drown in the sensations crashing over me. Drown in .
Before I know it, Iâm no longer fighting him, Iâm submitting. My hands curl into his t-shirt, twisting and pulling him closer, him closer. Iâve been kissed before but nothing like this.
like this.
Itâs hot and frenzied, and the way Ace consumes me leaves little room for me to think. Itâs like heâs turned a switch and all of the emotions, the hatred and bitterness festering inside me, just melt away.
And I want more.
God, I want more.
I start kissing him back, pressing up on my toes to meet him kiss for kiss. He chuckles against my mouth, letting me know he senses the change in me. But I donât care. This feeling of complete abandon is addictive.
âI thought youâd make me work a little harder to get a taste of this.â Aceâs hands glide down my spine and grab my ass, hiking me up against his body. Heâs rock hard at my stomach, sending a bolt of lust shooting through me.
Fuck, what am I doing?
âStop,â I cry suddenly, slamming my hands into his chest. âJust stop.â
Ace lifts his head, staring at me through hooded eyes. âYou think you get to call the shots here?â
His hand returns to my neck, his grip a little tighterânot enough to hurt me, but enough to make my pulse spike.
âYou marked me, Princess.â He holds up his finger, a bead of dried blood crusted over my teeth marks. âSo I think itâs only fair I get to mark you.â
Ace rips the neckline of my T-shirt down and licks the curve of my breast. A reluctant moan spills from my lips, but god, it feels good. My fingers dive into his hair to yank him away. This needs to stop. Itâs wrong.
wrong.
âAce, stââ It comes out a garbled moan as he bites down hard, soothing the sting with his tongue.
âNow weâre even,â he says, backing away, dragging his thumb across his bottom lip as if heâs savoring every last taste.
I glance down at the little crescent-shaped teeth marks, freckled with red and purple where the blood has rushed to the surface. âYou bit me,â I say with utter disbelief, as if the last few minutes didnât happen.
âYou bit me first, princess.â
âYou need to go,â I bark, slipping out from between him and the wall. âNow.â
âThatâs how you want to play it?â Amusement glitters in his eyes.
âAce, just go, please.â
He holds up his hands. âFine, but this isnât over.â
I keep a safe distance as he grabs the door handle. âThis⦠me and you,â he waggles a finger between us, âitâs only a matter of time.â
âArrogant much?â
âDeny it all you want, but you felt that just now. You let me kiss you, let me brand you with my teeth.â
My body trembles with anger because heâs right. Heâs fucking right. I did let him kiss me.
I him to kiss me.
Because not only does Ace Jagger terrify me, he also intrigues me, not to mention the fact that heâs even more of an outsider at Sterling Prep than I am.
Like it or not, Ace reaches something inside me.
Which is exactly why I canât let him pull me into whatever is.
âGoodbye, Ace,â I say calmly. âDonât let the door hit you on the way out.â
A sly grin lifts the corner of his mouth. âOh, you and me, Princess⦠weâre going to have some fun.â
I watch him slip into the hall, a strange feeling washing over me. I want to believe itâs outrage; regret and shame at what just happened between us.
Ace Jagger is a menace, and I hate him.
I do.
But as I run my fingers over the fresh bite mark on my chest, it doesnât feel like hate at all.
Thankfully, my school issue shirt covers the bite mark. It might be hidden, but itâs branded on my soul.
Ace Jagger bit me.
He really is as crazy as some of the rumors flying around school say. Still, thereâs a tiny part of me that flushes every time I think about the way he just took control and commanded my body. It should freak me the hell outâ
should freak me the hell outâbut I canât forget how weightless it made me feel.
How free.
Iâve never let anyone touch me the way Ace touched me, not since .
I shudder, locking the memories away. He doesnât have power over me anymore. I fight day in, day out, to make sure of it. But itâs exhausting, dragging around the sins of your past with you.
Ace made it all go away.
Iâm more messed up than I thought, if Aceâs rough treatment of me actually made me feel⦠good.
I suppress another shudder. I need to stay out of his way, because something tells me heâd chew me up and spit me out before I even knew what was happening.
Mom is sitting in wait downstairs. âSo,â she fights a smile as I enter the kitchen. âHow was it?â
âHow was what?â I reply, making a beeline for the coffee maker.
âReally?â Her brow lifts.
âFine. I survived.â
âRemiâ¦â Sadness creeps into her expression. âItâs senior year, baby. Donât you think itâs time to put all that behind you? Make some new friends, rekindle friendships with old ones⦠go on a date or two, maybe?â
Coffee poured, I sit down at the table. âDo you have any idea what itâs like for me there?â
âSweetheart, itâs a good school. One of the best inââ
âState. Yeah, I know that, Mom. But Iâm not one of them anymore.â Michaela made sure of that after she stole my life.
At first, I thought getting a new step-sister would be fun. I mean, Mom and Dadâs separation sucked, but I was getting a sister. Until I walked into Surfâs and saw Michaela sitting there with my dadâs arm slung around her shoulder.
That day, I gained a step-sister and lost my best friend.
âShe knew, Mom,â I say, swallowing down the betrayal. It still hurts even after five years. âAll along she knew and never said a word. Then she acted like our friendship meant nothing.â Pain rages inside me, but I refuse to let it out. My hands tremble as I grip the mug of coffee tighter.
Michaela stole everything from me, and she did it with a saccharine smile and cold heart.
âItâs been five years, Remi. You need to let it go. I donât want you to look back one day and see how much time you wasted being angry and bitter.â Her smile weakens. âI know things were hard, and I know I wasnât always the mom you needed, but Iâm trying, baby. I am.â
âI know, Mom. I just canât pretend to be someone Iâm not.â
She gets up and comes over to me, placing her hand against my cheek. âIâm not asking you to be someone youâre not, Remi. All Iâm asking is that you embrace senior year. Make new friends. Try new things. Youâre almost eighteen; itâs time to start living, sweetheart.â
I offer her a small nod. Itâs the best I can do. She doesnât get it. How could she when she doesnât know the whole story?
âI should probably get a move on, James will be here any minute.â Mom smooths her hair down and grabs her purse off the counter.
James seems to genuinely care about my mom, and Iâm pleased for them. I am. But I canât help but wonder if she feels the same or if sheâs out to prove something.
âOh, and sweetheart,â she says as she reaches the door, âthe boys offered to give you a ride this morning, isnât that sweet of them?â
âBoys?â I choke out.
âYes, Conner and Cole. I might have let it slip that you walked to school yesterday.â
âMom,â I grumble, unimpressed at her attempt to railroad me.
âI know theyâre a little rough around the edges, Remi, but theyâre Jamesâ nephews and Iâd really like for us all to try and get along.â
âI enjoy the walk, and itâs such a beautifulââ Wind howls at the French doors, and Mom shoots me a victorious smile.
âLooks like a storm is blowing in. Gotta run, love you.â She blows me a kiss before spinning on her heel and disappearing into the hall, but I hear her final words loud and clear.
âTell the boys I said hello.â
âPrincess, your chariot awaits.â Conner grins as I close the door behind me. Heâs leaning against the rust bucket of a car he and his brother share. Cole hasnât bothered to get out, but Iâm hardly surprised.
I let out a groan, but the sound of rain hitting the asphalt drowns it out. Pulling up my hoodie, I jog over to the car. Conner yanks open the back door and I slide inside.
âHey,â I greet Cole.
âHey.â
Okay then.
Conner climbs inside, shaking out his hair and sending water droplets flying everywhere. âWe wondered if youâd show.â
âDidnât have much choice, did I?â I say.
âYou donât drive?â
âI got my license, I just donât have a car yet.â Itâs an expense we donât need right now, and no way am I going to accept one from my dad.
âWell, she isnât much,â Conner runs his hands around the cracked leather steering wheel, âbut sheâs ours, and sheâs never let us down yet.â He fires up the engine and the thing splutters to life, a cloud of black smoke rising into the air.
âGood to know.â I stare out of the window, watching the storm lash down over the Bay, as Conner takes the coastal road to school.
Sterling Bay is such a cliché, a quintessential Californian coastal town, with its palm tree-lined streets and beautiful mix of Spanish colonial, Art Deco, and beach houses. But itâs a cutthroat community wrapped up in a pretty bow. Wealth, money, and power are the driving forces behind some of the most influential families in the state.
I try to imagine what Conner and Cole must see. Do they see a rich manâs paradise or something else entirely?
Maybe they donât care.
Ace sure as hell doesnât seem to.
Sterling Prep looms up ahead. Back in sixth grade, Iâd been so excited to start here. Me and Michaela were going to take on the world together. Then everything changed.
She changed.
And as a result of her betrayal and my fatherâs treachery, somewhere along the way, I changed too.
âSo whereâs good to get fucked up in this place?â Conner asks as he pulls into the parking lot. âAce said something about Sharkâs?â
âYou mean Surfâs?â Jealousy licks my insides. Did he go there and meet Lylah after all?
âYeah, thatâs the one. Whatâs the deal?â
âItâs just a diner down by the beach, but they have pool tables and some arcade games. And they have a surf rental shop. A lot of the kids from school hang out down there.â
âBut not you?â He cuts the engine and twists around to face me.
âItâs not really my scene,â I say, grabbing the door handle. âThanks for the ride. Iâll catch you later.â
âDonât be a stranger, Princess,â he says as I climb out. I hate the nickname, but it sounds nowhere near as dirty on his tongue.
I swing my bag over my shoulder and hurry toward the building. The rain is lifting, thank god, so hopefully I can walk home later without getting soaked.
Iâm almost across the parking lot when a car skids into a bay, sending a gigantic spray of water into the air and right. Over. Me.
âFuck,â I hiss, my uniform sticking to my body like a second skin. Fat droplets of water drip from my hair and down my face.
âOh my god, Remi,â a familiar voice says. âI totally didnât see you there.â
I turn slowly to meet Michaelaâs wicked smirk. âYou didnâtâ¦.â I stop myself. âOf course you didnât.â
âYou really should go get dried off. Poor drowned rat is last season.â
Anger wells inside me, making tears burn the backs of my eyes. I smash my lips together, biting the inside of my cheek to stop myself from screaming⦠or trying to rip her pretty, vicious head off her shoulders.
Michaela and her friends step around me, their laughter lingering long after theyâve reached the building.
âWhat the fuck, Princess?â Conner jogs over to me, barely able to contain his amusement.
âJust go away,â I snap.
âCome on, Remi, I thinkââ
âJust go!â My eyes widen. âPlease.â
I hate that he sees me like this, but when I turn around and start toward the building, I realize he isnât the only one watching.
Everyone is.