Adam POV
I gaze out of the car window, watching as the buildings fly by. Noah is driving James and I back to the apartment before going to his next class, just as he had driven us to work. I can't get the image of him from this morning out of my mind.
It's stupid. I really shouldn't find him attractive. But who wouldn't? I mean, that chiseled jaw, those rock-hard abs, that perfect hair, his enticing smile...
AUGH NO NO NOOO! STOP IT RIGHT NOW! HE'S YOUR FRIEND!
I cringe. What am I even saying? Noah is my friend. And taken. And a foot taller than me... How would that even work? I'd have to jump just to reach his lips. Or I guess he could just lean over. Or I'd...
NOPE NOPE NOPE. Stay on topic, Adam.
As I was saying, he's double taken. Besides, it's not like anyone would ever like me that way anyway. I bet just the thought of me makes people nauseous.
I chuckle dryly. Yeah, it's stupid to think anyone would ever love me. I was lucky with Martin liking me back(though luck might not be the right term).
Either way, it's not going to happen again. I need to stop being delusional.
I just need to get over it.
James POV
We finally reach the building, parking outside.
I smile as Noah leans over, giving me a kiss.
"See you tonight, bumblebee." He says as I step out of the car, my cheeks turning a light pink.
He just winks as I shut the door, watching as he drives off. I turn to see Adam, patiently waiting by the front door of the large building.
I trot over to him, telling him he didn't have to wait. He only laughs, shaking his head a bit as we enter the building. We ride the elevator up to the apartment and I unlock the door, letting us in.
Adam and I enter the apartment, him lazily wandering to his room. I pull out my phone, throwing myself onto the couch.
I scroll through my messages, wishing Dan were here so I could bother him. He left this morning to deal with some family drama, and won't be back for at least a few more hours.
I set my phone on the coffee table, unbelievably bored. I could go see what Adam's doing, but he looked pretty tired. I don't wanna wake him from a nap or something.
Just as I'm thinking that, Adam strolls into the kitchen.
"I am SO bored. What do you do all day?!?"
I laugh at the irony of the situation. "Mostly bother Dan, but he totally just left us here alone. Wanna go grab some dinner for when they get back?"
He quickly jumps at the offer. "Anything's better than this. I'll go change real fast and we can go."
I watch as he skitters off and my eyes may have lingered on his ass BUT IT WAS ONLY FOR A SECOND.
He returns a few minutes later in some skinny jeans and a light pink tank top. We soon head out the door and before we know it we're at Wendy's. The drive through is packed so we decide to just go inside.
Adam leaves to use the bathroom as I hop into the relatively short line, soon reaching the front.
It doesn't take long for me to place our order. I decide to wait outside the bathroom for Adam while I wait for them to finish the food. My mind begins to drift as I think of my wonderful(and hot) boyfriends...
Adam POV
I finish washing my hands and dry them off, leaving the restroom. Outside is my totally not extremely hot friend, waiting for me like any other good friend would and totally not looking insanely hot.
He subtly smiles when he sees me, but it's clear that his mind is somewhere else. He casually trots over, ruffling my hair and giving me a gentle kiss on the cheek.
Wait.
I stand there for a moment, my brain trying to comprehend what just happened.
He.
Kissed.
My.
Cheek.
OHMYFUCKINGGODICAN'TFUCKINGBREATHHOWWHATWHYOHMYGOD.
I feel my face slowly heat up as we both stare at each other in silence, he too with a shocked expression.
He suddenly starts speed walking away, face growing red. Before I can stop myself, I reach out and grab his hand.
"You missed." It comes out as a whisper.
I quickly let go, stepping back. "I-I mean..."
Before I can even comprehend what is happening, my back is pressed up against the wall. His lips move against mine, quick and rough. My god.
It feels so good. I melt into it, pushing away from him never even crossing my mind. His tongue slips into my mouth, and I can feel as it explores every inch.
This is unreal.
This is heavenly.
This is wrong.
So why do I never want this to end?
We finally separate, panting a bit. A string of saliva fills the empty space between us. God, I want more. I want to feel his lips on mine again, even though I know I shouldn't.
They call our order, and he gazes at me for just a second. He then hurries away, a conflicted look on his face.
I pin my eyes on the dirty tile, my face heating up.
I feel ashamed. I'm disgusting. A monster. How could I have done that? How could I have said that? I'm horrible. I just tricked him into cheating, for god's sake!
I'm a horrible human being. A horrible human being, and an idiot for thinking that someone would ever love me.
I quickly rub the tears from my eyes and hurry to the exit, where James is waiting for me. I can feel him searching for my gaze, but I refuse to look him in the eye. I can't.
We hurry to the car, ducking to avoid the pounding rain crashing down from the once-clear sky.
The car ride home is long and awkward, the rain only deepening the painful silence.
We arrive back at the empty apartment, and I rush into my room as soon as the front door is unlocked. I can't bear to listen to the rejection that I know is coming the second I give him the a chance to speak. I just can't.
Not now.
I lock my bedroom door behind me - GOD, I missed being able to lock my door - and allow my knees to buckle under me as I think about what I've done.
- Two Hours later -
Daniel POV
I finally make it home, glad that the nightmare that shall be forever known as family picnic 2.0 is over. I swear, if my family eats together, everything goes wrong. The thunderstorm today was the high of the afternoon.
I spot Noah getting out of his car in the parking lot, and take the spot closest to him. He notices me, and walks back so that we can walk in together. He seems to be in a quiet mood, as per usual.
We soon make it up to the apartment, and I remove my hand from his so that I can unlock the door. Inside, it's surprisingly empty, and I don't hear a sound.
I walk over to James' room, Noah quietly following. I gently knock before opening the door, only to find an extremely distraught James with his face in his hands.
I immediately walk over to him, taking a seat next to him on the bed.
"Darling, what's wrong? Did something happen?" I ask as Noah takes a seat in front of him.
"God, I fucked up so bad..." He shakes his head in frustration, "I kissed him, godammit! I kissed him, and I thought... I thought he wanted it, but he..."
I wrap him in a tight hug, understanding the situation. James can get ahead of himself, and Adam must have gotten caught up in it somehow. And now...
Noah gently intertwines their hands. "Babe, whatever happened, I'm sure it won't seem as bad once you're both calm. It always feels worse in the moment."
"He won't even look at me, Noah!" James shouts, shoving him away with tears in his eyes, "I've ruined everything, and not just for me! What if I spoiled any chance you guys had, just because I did something stupid?!"
I pull him even closer, and he sobs into my shoulder.
"Darling, it's going to be okay. Just take some deep breaths, and try to calm down. It's okay."
Adam POV
I hold back sobs as Cold tears roll down my cheeks, my back on the door. What have I done, what have I done?!
Please let this be a dream. A wonderful, terrible, nightmare-dream that I'm going to wake up from any second now, because I don't know what I'm going to do if it's not.
What if they kick me out? Where am I going to go? I'll be all alone. I've never been really alone before. I've always had someone. Martin was always there to comfort me and kiss me and tell me that everything will be fine. Now I don't have... anyone. And it's all my fault.
What am I going to do without my clever, funny, gorgeous, kind friends?
I...
I just...
I don't want to be alone.
And now it's too late.
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Super sorry for not posting- writers block got the best of me. I'm terrible a time management.
Character sexualities:
Noah - Gay
Daniel - Pan
James - Bi
Adam - Questioning
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