After a long and informative discussion with a local architect who specialized in restorations, I was feeling good. My soul was not fixing up the house. Seeing that the house got repaired was in there, but it wasnât for me to do the work.
Realizing I didnât have to take that stress on felt good. Just like knowing Allan was getting the help he needed because I was able to navigate that process for him. I wasnât the help, but I had been the conduit for him to find proper treatment and care.
Mac was getting married, and Kenzie would be free of him. Maybe now, if she would forgive me, she would be willing to let the world know I was her boyfriend. Or more. I was definitely interested in more. But she had to forgive me first. And in order for her to forgive me, I had to get off my ass and apologize.
I made a quick fry-up for dinner. I reheated some leftover French fries, poured a can of chili over them, and topped it all off with a couple of eggs over easy. I wasnât the cook Allan was, but I could feed myself. After I fed my body, it was time to feed my soul. I cleaned up the few dishes I used before heading out to the workshop.
The lights were on in the barn. At first, I didnât think anything of it. But I hadnât been out to the workshop at all since the early morning hours, and I distinctly remembered turning the lights out. I stood there for a long moment and just admired the long cabinet. The workmanship was stunning, and my freshly-turned legs fit into the design.
I may not have built the piece, but I was finishing it, bringing it to life. As soon as it was done, I would take it to Kenzie as a peace offering. I had been a little too pleased with myself as I watched the lights go off, throwing the furniture into darkness.
I knew those lights should have been off.
âHello?â I called out.
There was a soft groan coming from inside the workshop. Someone was curled up on the futon couch I had impulsively bought yesterday after dinner. It took half a second to recognize the top of Rubyâs head with her choppy hair.
She pushed up into a sitting position and rubbed her eyes. âTate?â
âUff!â The air rushed out of my lungs as I was tackled and embraced.
I brushed my hand over her head before wrapping my arms around her and hugging her back. I had missed her.
âRuby, whatâsâ¦?â Thatâs when I realized she was crying.
I held on for another minute before shifting so I could look into her face.
âWhatâs wrong, kiddo? Are you okay?â
âI didnât know where to go.â
I led her back to the couch. She was such a mighty kid, I had forgotten how small she actually was. The last time I had seen her personality also be small like this was when she had broken her wrist.
âWhat are you doing in the workshop? Why didnât you come inside?â
She chewed on her lower lip and sniffled. âI didnât know if Iâd be welcome. You were mad at me about my wrist, and Iâ¦â
I pulled her into a hug. I had messed up with her and her sister. After a minute, I let her go and turned to face her. I let out a heavy breath, uncertain of where or how to start.
âI owe you an explanation and an apology.â
âBut Iâ¦â she started.
I held up my finger to pause her. I wasnât going to go all Army command on her. She was just a kid, and the hard shell she showed people so they couldnât hurt her was full of holes and was quite squishy. I needed to be aware and careful of her feelings.
âYou did nothing wrong. I still owe you a phone. Iâm sorry about that. Look, Ruby, that afternoon, Allan started to have a crisis. He wasnât safe. I didnât know if you would be safe with him here.â
âIs Allan okay?â she asked.
âAllan is going to be great. Heâs in a place right now that can help him. Itâs like recovery, but for his mind.â
âYouâre not mad at me?â
âNot at all. I should have explained things better. But when things were happening, I was scared and not exactly certain what I was doing. I focused on getting Allan the help he needed.â
âYou got scared?â The sarcastic bite was back in her voice.
âI get scared when people I care about are hurt or about to be hurt.â
âBut you were in the Army.â
I nodded. âI was. I was scared then, too. But I trusted the decision makers, and I would stick to the plan and do it anyway. Scared doesnât mean incapable. It just puts me on hyper-alert.â
âIâm scared,â she admitted.
âHow come? Why are you hiding out? Did someone hurt you?â I was ready to go papa bear on anyone who so much as threatened this kid.
âItâs Kenzie.â
Everything in my body froze. My breath got stuck in my throat, my gut clenched, and the hairs at the back of my neck stood on end.
âWhatâs wrong with Kenzie?â I asked in the calmest voice I could muster. I had to control myself or I would start yelling and shaking.
âShe says she is going to marry Mac. You canât let her do that.â
I just stared at her. âWhat the fuck?â I shook my head, realizing I had cursed in front of Ruby. âWait, what do you mean, sheâs going to marry Mac?â
âShe doesnât even like him. I know she doesnât. Sheâs doing it because weâre broke, and she thinks heâll take care of us.â She was bawling. âI donât want Mac to take care of us. Heâs mean and he lies.â
Kenzie was going to marry Mac? It wasnât registering fully.
âShe could have asked me. Does she hate me that much?â
âShe thinks youâre mad at her for something.â
I closed my eyes and groaned. Leaning back, I covered my eyes. âI yelled at her when Allan was having an episode.â
âLike you yelled at me?â
âExactly like I yelled at you. I messed up. But she could have, you could have come to me and said something.â
âI wasnât allowed to. You canât let her marry Mac. Sheâll listen to you. You like her.â Ruby emphasized the âlikeâ. She recognized Kenzie and I were more than friends. âAnd sheâs in love with you. She wonât admit it, but she is.â
âI wonât let Kenzie marry Mac.â I pushed to my feet and held out my hand to pull Ruby up.
âMac says theyâre going to have a baby. But I know thatâs not possible.â
I stopped and stared at her.
âSay that again.â
âMac says theyâre going to have a baby. But itâs not his baby. Kenzie would have had to have, you know, done it with him. And heâs so gross. There is no way sheâs gonna have his baby.â
I cast my gaze from side to side, trying to process Rubyâs words.
âIs Kenzie pregnant? Did she say something?â
Ruby shrugged. âShe didnât say she wasnât.â
I grabbed Rubyâs arms and made her look me in the eye.
âTell me everything they told you. I want every word.â I let go of her, not wanting to seem like I was threatening her.
âKenzie said Mac has insurance, and she wonât have to worry about working more than full-time. She pointed out the big back yard we used to play in when our parents were still alive. Mac used to have parties in the summer. Mac was pretending to be nice, but it was fake. When Kenzie wasnât looking, he would make faces and glare at me. He knows I donât like him. I used to be afraid of him when I was little.â
I nodded, encouraging her to keep talking. âCome on, letâs get in the truck. Whereâs Kenzie now? You can keep telling me everything as I drive.â
âShe was still at Macâs house when I ran away. I donât want to live with him. I donât want my sister to think she has to marry him so someone will take care of us. We were taking care of ourselves really well.â
âYou were taking care of yourselves beautifully.â It was a struggle to not growl. Or to run to the truck and slam it into gear. I had no idea where Mac lived.
âYou need to tell me where to go,â I said as I started the truck.
Ruby continued, only interrupting herself to point when I needed to turn. âMac said I was going to have a little brother or sister and put his hand on Kenzie, you know how people put hands on baby bellies.â
Kenzie was pregnant. Fuck. She had to be terrified, with no job and thinking I didnât want anything to do with her. I let out a long, deep sigh when Ruby pointed to Macâs house and there were no cars in the driveway. Kenzie wasnât there.
That only meant I now needed to find her and tell her she couldnât marry Mac. If anybody was going to take care of her, it would be me because I loved her.
âWhere is she?â I asked.
âMaybe she went home.â
There was no car in the parking lot, and she wasnât upstairs when I insisted we check.
âWhere else can she be? Where does Kenzie go when she needs to be alone to think?â