He seemed to say it casually, but both of them knew how much sincerity and helplessness were involved.
"I'm sorry." Alan whispered, "I have been thinking recently, maybe I shouldn't show up at the time and you won't have so many troubles. You can also live happily with Lil Rak without troubles. "
Jeff said lightly, "Don't assume what has happened."
"Jeff, do you really care about those things before? Blame me for treating you like that?"
Jeff's movement stagnated. He glanced at Alan, then turned his face from him, he couldn't see his expression clearly.
"I can understand why you did that at the time but those days really made me very sad, very wronged. I feel like I am a very useless person. The only way to let myself relax is not to think about it. I have deliberately disappeared. Forget it, what blame are you talking about?"
Alan felt sour in his heart, " Jeff, I know that the past are irreversible. I said that I will make up for it. Maybe at that time you thought I was just talking about it for Lil Rak but in fact it was not. No, I have been thinking like this for a long time. I didn't lie to you. I really like you too, not because of Lil Rak or for anything else, but because I like you very much."
"I know you didn't lie to me, including you saying that you like me." Jeff said in a low voice, "I was so shocked that night, so I didn't answer you properly. I have been thinking about why you say that suddenly, but no matter what I do. I don't think I can understand it and no matter what I think, there is only one answer that is I can't accept your confession."
Alan's originally joyful mood for Jeff's arrival cooled down a little bit.
Jeff was still as gentle as water, but he didn't leave any room to refute for what he said.
"Alan, I did have you in my heart before but at that time I was told over and over again that I didn't deserve to like you, so I didn't like you anymore. Now I really don't have that thought."
Jeff smiled, "You shouldn't say this when you are sick. The porridge should be done. You remember to eat it. I will leave first."
He turned to leave the kitchen but Alan gently took his hand. Sincerely said, "Jeff, I am not stupid enough to think that you will accept me immediately. I just hope that you will not directly condemn me to death. Please give me a chance so that I can approach you again."
Jeff withdrew himself when he saw Alan getting nearer. Someone who had always been arrogant, begging with his eyes so Jeff suddenly couldn't bear it.
He didn't answer directly, and left the sentence "You have a good rest.", then left quickly.
Not long after Jeff left, the porridge boiled and made a gurgling sound. Alan filled a bowl and sat down at the table alone.
He hadn't eaten rice since the morning, and he was going to order a takeaway casually.
He didn't expect Jeff to come, and he didn't expect him to cook porridge for him.
It should be a happy thing, after all, he hadn't dared to think that he would be treated like this before.
Alan crazily wants to see Jeff when he can't see him. He wants to see him for a longer time, and he want Jeff to stay by his side for a longer time.
After having someone he likes, Alan became greedy.
Alan slowly drank the porridge. The sweet porridge moisturized his throat that had been sore for a day.
Although Jeff was resolute in what he said just now, Alan didn't want to give up.
Jeff is a person who is pushed by life and has no choice but to move forward, but has a heart that can stand tall with a smile in the storm.
He has a kind of strength, peaceful but firm, which Alann has always wanted but couldn't.
Back at the restaurant, Jeff was still in a daze.
He remembered that Pete had said that he was soft-hearted. He was indeed very soft-hearted. Otherwise, he would not stay there to cook porridge for Alan, let alone refuse directly when Alan said he wanted another chance.
Jeff should be a little bit more fierce.
He lay down on the table in frustration.
Two days later, Alan's cold recovered.
Jeff received a message but he still did not reply.
This time it was not that he didn't want to but that he met someone more difficult to deal with and forgot to reply to the text message.
Jeff went home with Lil Rak. Since getting off the car, Lil Rak sang the kindergarten rhymes all the way. Not only did he forget the words, but also out of tune.
Jeff praised him from time to time for the face, and the two laughed together.
After entering the door, Sister Pan gave Jeff a wink, "Mr. Thanapon, the Master is here."
Jeff was startled, and looked up. Tony Hemmawich was sitting on the sofa in the living room as expected.
He was wearing a straight black suits while staring at them with cold eyes.
He subconsciously squeezed Lil Rak's hand.
The little guy who was still singing felt his hands were clenched, blankly raised his head to look at Jeff, and then followed his gaze.
Seeing Tony, he furrowed his brows, straightened his chest and hummed vigorously.
Tony waved to Lil Rak, "Come here, little guy."
Lil Rak asked for Jeff help. Jeff sighed and led the little guy to walk slowly.
"Mr. Tony Hemmawich."
Tony relied "Yeah.", as a way of saying hello to him.
Although he still looks cold to Jeff, but Lin Jeff inexplicably feels that Tony seems to be in a good mood.
"Little guy, come here." Tony took out a beautiful food box from behind and said to Lil Rak in a pleasant manner, "Grandpa brought you delicious food."
Lil Rak wanted to hide behind Jeff but suddenly he thought of something.
He straddled his short legs, stood in front of Jeff, stumbled and said, "I-I won't go there. You bully Dad. You are a bad person."
Tony frowned and looked towards him displeased.
Tony was just about to teach Jeff how to educate his child when he saw Jeff squat down and patted the little guy's belly, " Baby. He is Uncle Alan's father, you forgot? He is not a bad person."
Lil Rak pouted, "But, last time he said bad things about you. Make you unhappy. Uncle Alan said, the ones that make Dad unhappy are all bad guys!"
After that, he rushed to Tony. With a grimace, he said fiercely, "I won't let you bully Dad!"
It's a little devil, a little funny one.
Tony smiled, "Alan taught you to say that?"
Lil Raj raised his head. "Humph!"
Tony was not angry. He raised his chin at Jeff, "Sit down."
Jeff took Lil Rak and sat opposite of Tony.
He had a direct confrontation with Tony just once. It was really not a good meeting.
Seeing Tony, Jeff thought of what Alan had said to him, and thought of his messy little restaurant that was smashed.
Tony held the tea, took a sip, and then asked Jeff.
"How are you living here?"
Jeff answered honestly, "Very good."
Tony nodded, "I heard that the little guy is still in that kindergarten now? Far away and the conditions are poor, so I wanna changed to a kindergarten under the Hemmawich's family."
Jeff was taken aback for a moment, and did not speak.
If it is really changed, then there will be a lot of trouble when moving out in the future, so he definitely can't agree.
Fortunately, Tony seemed to just say it casually without waiting for Jeff to answer, he turned to the next topic.
"It's nine o'clock, why hasn't Alan come back?"
Jeff lowered his eyes. He didn't dare to lie in front of Tony but he couldn't tell the truth in front of him either.
Does he have to tell Tony that Alan took the initiative to move out because he was afraid of embarrassment? Jeff's afraid Tony will be angry again.
While he was hesitating, the door opened again.
Alan walked in quietly and after walking for some distance, he said to Tony, "Dad, why are you here?"
There was a clear gasp in his voice. He should have come rushing from the garage.
Jeff looked at Alan who suddenly appeared in surprise.
Alan also looked over, gave him a soothing look and then whispered, "Jeff, you take Lil Rak go up and rest first. I'll talk with my dad."
Tony coldly snorted, "I'm in a hurry. Do you think I'm going to eat them?
"Yes. You look scary.
Tony glared at his son severely, "I just came to see my grandson, who scared of me? Jeff Thanapon, did I scare you?"
Suddenly Jeff was called, he looked at them blankly.
Alan guarded him.
Seeing him this way, Tony's brows became tighter, he said angrily, "Okay, I was going to go. Don't block my way."
After that, he got up. Strode to the door.
Jeff and Alan exhaled at the same time, and then glanced at each other.
Alan smiled slightly, and Jeff nodded slightly but said nothing.
Lil.Rak hadn't seen Alan for many days. The incarnation of a little monkey, grabbed his leg and jumped onto him.
Alan picked him up, "Ai'nuu, uncle missed you."
"I miss you too, okay. Miss you!" Lil Rak kissed Alan's cheeks hard, "Uncle Alan, just now I-I protected dad!"
Alan returned to him a hard kiss, "This baby amazing!"
Jeff was speechless and let a four-year-old child came to protect him, an adult man, one dared to speak and the other dared to listen.
"Why did you come back suddenly?"
"Sister Pan called to tell me that dad is home." Luo Qin explained, "but I was going to come back to find you today. I was already on my way back when she called me just now."
Jeff asked, "What's the matter?"
Alan looked at him and said softly, "I'm going abroad for a while. I don't know how long it will take. I am worried that it will take a long time to come back. I will not be able to see you for a long time. I will miss you very much so I want to see you again before I leave. "
Since he confessed, Alan was very happy to play straight. His straight eyes and words made Jeff's face hot.
Jeff didn't know what to say, so he only gave a soft "um".
Alan liked to see him like this very much. The corners of his mouth raised slightly, "When I'm away, you should take care of yourself. Take a good rest, eat well and don't get sick."
Why suddenly make the atmosphere so strange... and it seems that if Alan is not there, Jeff couldn't live a good life.
Jeff curled his lips and said in dissatisfaction, "It's obviously you who got sick a few days ago."
"Well, I will also pay attention to not getting sick again. After all, no one abroad will cook porridge for me."
Jeff heard the words. He glanced at him, Who cared whether he would get sick!
Jeff, who glanced sideways at him, was very vivid and Alan smiled faintly, "If you are in trouble, you can tell Li. Although he seems to be a fool, he is actually quite reliable in doing things. "
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