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Tick. Tock. Tick. Tock.
The incandescent and never ending sound of that god forsaken clock keeps ticking away. Reminding me that time is passing away as I rot away in this silver cage. I can't help but scoff at their idiocy, I am no longer a wolf yet they kept me trapped behind bars like I am some sort of animal. My nails dig into my skin as I clench my fist, no longer did I have the ability to heal at an increased rate. The blood would drip from my palms, leaving behind nothing but scabs and scars.
I don't know when I started to hate my sister but whenever my mind drifts to her face, my blood boils. She is the reason why I am here, it's her fault. From the moment she was born, she has done nothing but ruin my life. I repeat it like a mantra, it's like a prayer on repeat. If she never existed I would have been happy. If she had never returned to Redbridge, I wouldn't be here.
My mind often drifts to when we were children. My mother always dotted on me, she dressed me in pretty dresses, her attention was always on me. I chuckle when I think back to the naive woman, she thought I respected her, she thought I loved her, but all I wanted was the attention on me. From a young age, I was determined to keep her focus on me. I would whisper in her ear all the naughty things that I did and blame it on my stupid sister. My mother would scold her endlessly while I looked on with a smirk on my face.
As I manipulated and twisted my relationship with my mother, my stupid sister got close to my father. He would treat her like a princess, he would take her to see the warriors fighting, he would dote on her like mother doted on me. I hated her for it. It wasn't her attention to seek. She stole what was rightfully mine. I remember mother always bickering with my father over my sister, she wanted him to discipline Louise but he ignored her demands. I would look on in anger and like I do now, I would clench my fist tightly.
I don't know what it was about my sister but everyone but mother loved her. She was bold and bold and outgoing. She made friends easily, she was smart in class, everyone but mother would praise her. It only made my hate for her grow. I wanted to kill her, even as a child I wanted to see her wither away into dust and everyone to forget that she ever existed.
It wasn't until we went to high school, I decided to steal everything from her. I would whisper in her friends ears bitter words and lies that she had told me, while I acted like a clueless doe-eyed girl who didn't understand the meaning of the words that my sister had allegedly said. Watching her lose the friends that she loved, drop like flies was exhilarating. I couldn't help but enjoy the small frown that graced her face. I revelled in it as I stole each one of her friends. I had stolen my sister's pedestal. Victory was mine as I watched her become a loner.
But it still wasn't enough. I wanted to see her outcasted to the shadows, to never feel the sunlight again. It was that fateful day while running in my wolf that I met Kieran. I was like a moth to the flame, I could see the danger dripping from his body like a second skin. I remember my tongue lapping at the corners of my lips. His aura was like mine, he was shrouded in a cloud of darkness. Darkness that I wanted to taste, to drink for the rest of my life.
Kieran told me about his pack, how they were involved in numerous crimes. I think he expected to run away but all I could do was chuck myself at him as lust vibrated through my bones. I could no longer remember my mother speaking about mates, all I could see was the dangerous man that I wanted to keep for the rest of my life. The exhilaration that ran through my bones as he showed me his empire became a drug I couldn't live without.
He gave me what I desperately sought. An identity away from my sister, unwavering attention, he wanted me to be his queen. He promised that when I reached the age of finding my mate, he would mate and mark me. He described a world in which people feared us, he told me stories of how humans and wolves would fall at our feet. I couldn't help but let him passionately love me every night when the sun went down.
Of course, when I disappeared into the night my mother became suspicious but because I had her wrapped around my finger I told her my worries for my sister who was no where to be seen. I couldn't help but gag every time I tried to fake my concern. It was then that my mother continuously spent day after day scolding my sister. But again - it wasn't enough. Even with my mother whispering in my father's ear, he still held hope that it was a lie. That his precious princess wasn't associating with a dangerous rouge gang.
It was then that I upped the ante. I liked to live on edge so while my parents were embroidered in pack responsibilities. I would sneak Kieran onto pack grounds and fuck him on my sister's bed. Our bodies melted in a sweaty heap of limbs. He would eat my pussy like it was I was a desert, his licks were endless, like a ice pole that was melting. My body was turned on at the thought of my sister's reputation being sullied further. The cries of ecstasy, were howls of triumphant at the demise of my sister.
When we were finished, I sneaked him off the lands. His lips would linger on mine, like my lips were the only source of oxygen. When I returned I would see the pain-stricken face of my father as he smelt the rouge's scent linger in the house. His eyes were dark as the deepest night as he traced it back to my sister's room. It was then that the pheromones that caught his nostril. The flare of his nose, the scowl on his face, the disappointment in his eyes. I couldn't help but rejoice.
That was the first time he shoulder my sister like there was no tomorrow. No longer was she his princess. My mother's whispering ear only added to his concern, his torment as he thought about the shame she brought on our Beta line. He didn't dare share the information that she was associating with rouges or that she brought them onto our territory, for he feared that she would be banished.
I knew that keeping this information was integral for if she was banished, how would I enjoy her suffering. It was a dangerous game because if it was investigated, I knew that my deceit would be found out. So by day, I played the doting daughter and by night I was the soon to be Queen of Kieron's empire. I spread rumours of my sister, I committed sins in her name and watched her slowly pushed to be nothing more than an outcast, while I shined in the light.
For the first time, I was no longer threatened by my sister. I was truly living a happy life as I watched her live on in misery. However, my happiness didn't last. My sister had killed the man that I had loved. I cried that night, an endless river of tears of the life she had stolen from me. My sister had killed my sole reason for happiness defending some pathetic child that they were planning to sell.
That night I swore an oath to my dead lover that I would ruin her life. She would end by own hands. As I looked to the night sky, the clock struck twelve and I realised it was my sixteenth birthday. It was then that an aroma filled the air, one that I had never smelt before but it was intoxicating that I thought my lungs were on fire. As my nose followed the trail, it was there that I looked on and saw a man who looked like my dead lover. All I could do was whisper into the night sky, "Kieran."
I rushed to his side and pulled him into my arms. The tears that rolled down my face as I sighed in relief that he was safe. That he was alive. My lips reached his and sparks and flames ignited across my body. Under the moonlit sky with the stars twinkling, he made love to me. The feeling was indescribable as I cried out in relief as I reached my orgasm. There we laid in the middle of a clearing, our bodies entangled, while I rested my head on his chest.
My eyes closed as I felt him trace his fingers up and down my back. I said words that I never thought would leave my mouth. For I had never felt this way about someone, I was obsessed, I couldn't stop thinking about him, he was the first person I thought about in the morning, he was the last thought I had each night.
"I love you Kieran." I whispered into his ear.
It was then that his gentle caress stopped, his shoulders tensed. Before I knew it, I was being ripped away from him as he got to his feet, leaving me humiliated and a pile of shame on the forest floor. "I am not Kieran." The bitterness was clear in his voice.
I couldn't help the gasp that escaped my mouth. "Who are you?" I whispered.
With a clenched jaw and the grit of his teeth, he looked at me the way I looked at my sister. "I am Xavier, his brother."
I closed my eyes tightly. My wolf was howling at the fact that we had betrayed our mate but all I could do was wallow in the pain that I had betrayed Kieron. His body wasn't even cold and I had managed to fuck another man. A hoarse sob left my throat and I pitied myself for the betrayal to the man I promised to love endlessly, but as I looked at the man in front of me a small glimmer of hope rose within my heart. I could still have the life I envisioned. I could still be Queen of his empire. But that was short lived, for Xavier didn't have the darkness that called to me like a siren in the night. He was pure, he was kind. He was everything that I didn't want in a mate. He told me his plans to stop the illegal activities within his brother's rouge group. He wanted to erase his brother's hard work. He wanted to eradicate the empire Kieran had spent building.
I chuckled darkly at the joke of a mate that the moon goddess had paired me with. It was then that the exhilarating life that I was leading slipped through my fingers. I couldn't help but wonder why my love wasn't spared, while my sister and pathetic mate lived. It was there with my wolf howling that I rejected the mate who didn't deserve me. As I walked away, I didn't once look back.
When I returned home, everything was quiet. I could hear the soft snores of my family in the house. It was then that I decided to pay close attention to my sister, knowing that I would have my revenge. For my sister would never receive her happy ending. I would steal her mate away before she even had the chance to smell his scent. For it was what she deserved for continuously ruining my life.