âDid you touch him? Oh my fucking God! Did he touch you?â Iâm frantic and I donât give a shit. I canât handle this; if he touched her I couldnât stand it, I wouldnât be able to.
I turn to Zed before either of them can answer. âIf you touched her at all, I swear to fucking God I donât give a shit if sheâs here or not, Iâllââ
She steps between us again, and I see fear in her eyes.
âGet out of my apartment now or Iâm calling the police,â Zed threatens me.
âThe police? You think I give a flyingââ
âIâll go.â Tessaâs voice is soft in the middle of the chaos.
âWhat?â Zed and I say in unison.
âIâll go with you, Hardin, only because I know you wonât leave unless I do.â
And I feel relief. Well, a little. I donât give a fuck why sheâs coming, only that she is.
Zed turns to her, almost pleading. âTessa, you donât have to go; I can call the cops. You donât have to leave with him. This is what he does, he controls you by frightening you and everyone around you.â
âYouâre not wrong . . .â She sighs. âBut Iâm exhausted, and itâs five in the morning, and we do have stuff to talk about, so this is the easiest way.â
âIt doesnât have toââ
âSheâs coming with me,â I tell him, and Tessa shoots me a glare that would surely kill me dead if it could.
âZed, let me just call you tomorrow. Iâm so sorry that he came here,â she tells him softly, and at last he nods, finally understanding that Iâve won. Heâs fucking sulking, and she better not fall for it.
Actually, Iâm really surprised sheâs agreeing to come with me so easily . . . but she does know me better than anyone else, so she was right when she said I wouldnât leave until she came with me.
âDonât apologize. Be careful, and if you need anything, donât hesitate for a moment to call me,â he says to her.
It must suck to be a little bitch and not be able to do shit about me showing up at his apartment in the middle of the night and taking Tessa with me.
Tessa doesnât speak a word as she walks out of his bedroom and stalks to the bathroom across the hall.
âDonât come near her again. Iâve already warned you before, and you havenât gotten the hint yet,â I say when I reach the bedroom door.
Zed glowers at me, and if it werenât for Tessa calling my name from the living room, I would have snapped his neck.
âIf you hurt her, I swear to God I will make it the last time!â he says loud enough for her to hear as we walk through the door and out into the snow.
Chapter ninety-five
HARDIN
High heels and his fucking boxers. Itâs a ridiculous pairing, but I assume she doesnât have other shoes, which may be a sign that she didnât plan on staying the night. But, still, she did, and Iâm fucking disgusted that she was in his bed. I canât stand to look at her in those clothes. This is the first time that I donât want to look at her. Her red dress is in her arms and I know sheâs freezing.
I tried to give her my coat, but she just snapped at me to shut up and take her to my fatherâs place. I donât even mind her anger toward me; in fact, I welcome it. Iâm so relieved and so damn happy that she left with me at all. She could curse me out the entire drive and Iâd enjoy every word falling from her full lips.
Iâm angry, too, angry at her for running to Zed. Angry at myself for trying to push her away. âI have so much to tell you,â I say as we pull onto my fatherâs street.
With an icy glare she holds her ground, though. âI donât want to hear it. You had your chance to talk to me for the past eleven days.â
âJust hear me out, okay?â I beg.
âWhy now?â she asks and looks out the window.
âBecause . . . because I miss you,â I admit.
âYou miss me? You mean youâre jealous that I was with Zed. You didnât miss me until he picked me up tonight. You are fueled by jealousy, not love.â
âThatâs not true, that doesnât have anything to do with it.â Okay, it does have a lot to do with it, but I do miss her, regardless.
âYou didnât talk to me all evening, then you came outside and told me you were too busy to talk to me. Thatâs not what you do when you miss someone,â she points out.
âI was lying.â I lift my hands into the air.
âYou? Lying? No way.â Her eyes close, and she shakes her head slowly.
God, sheâs feisty tonight. I take a deep breath to make sure that I donât say something that will make this worse. âI donât have a phone, for starters, and I went home to England.â
Her head snaps to look at me. âYou what?â
âI went to England to clear my head. I didnât know what else to do,â I explain.
Tessa turns down the volume on the radio and crosses her arms in front of her chest. âYou didnât answer my calls.â
âI know. I ignored them, and Iâm so sorry for that. I wanted to call you back, but I couldnât bring myself to, and then I got drunk and broke my phone.â
âIs that supposed to make me feel better?â
âNo . . . I just want you to be happy, Tessa.â
She doesnât say anything; she looks out the window again and I reach for her hand, but she pulls away. âDonât,â she says.
âTess . . .â
âNo, Hardin! You canât just show up eleven days later and hold my hand. Iâm sick of going around in circles with you. Iâm finally at a point where I can go an hour without crying, then you pop up and try to pull me back under. Youâve done this to me since the day I met you, and Iâm sick of giving in to it. If you cared about me, you would have explained yourself.â Sheâs trying her hardest not to cry, I can tell.