Iâm starving, I didnât have a chance to eat breakfast this morning and Iâve been up since Hardin barged into Zedâs apartment to get me.
He takes a slice of pizza and places it on a napkin for me. Then he grabs his own and folds it in half, the way my father used to do. Before taking a massive bite, he asks, âHow did everything go last night . . . well, this morning, I guess.â
I begin to feel uneasy watching him, and the smell of the flowers reminds me of the hours I used to spend in the greenhouse behind my childhood home, escaping from my drunk father screaming at my mother.
I look away from him and finish chewing before answering him. âIt was a disaster at first, as always.â
âAt first?â He tilts his head and licks his lips.
âYeah, we fought like we always do, but itâs sort of better now.â Iâm not going to tell Zed about Hardin breaking down and falling onto his knees in front of me; itâs too personal and only for Hardin and me to know.
âWhat do you mean?â
âHe apologized.â
He gives me a look I donât like much. âAnd you fell for it?â
âNo, I told him I wasnât ready for anything yet. I just told him Iâd think about it.â I shrug.
âYou arenât really going to, are you?â Disappointment is clear in his voice.
âYeah, Iâm not going to dive right back into anything, and itâs not like Iâm moving back into that apartment.â
Zed puts his slice down on his napkin. âYou shouldnât even be giving him a minute of your time, Tessa. What more does he have to do to you to make you stay away from him?â He stares at me as if I owe him an answer.
âItâs not like that. Itâs not that simple to just cut him out of my life. I said Iâm not dating him or anything, but weâve been through a lot together and heâs been having a really hard time without me.â
Zed rolls his eyes. âOh, drinking and getting high with Jace is his version of having a hard time, then?â he tells me, and my stomach drops.
âHe hasnât been hanging out with Jace. He was in England.â He really was in England, wasnât he?
âHe was just at Jaceâs place last night, just before he showed up at my place.â
âHe was?â Of all people, I never thought Hardin would hang out with Jace again.
âIt seems a little shady that he would hang out with someone who had such a big part in everything when he seems to hate me being near you.â
âYeah . . . but you were in on it, too,â I remind him.
âNot in telling you; I had nothing to do with when they embarrassed you in front of everyone. Jace and Molly set the whole thing upâand Hardin knows that, thatâs why he beat Jaceâs ass. And you know, I wanted to tell you the whole time; it was always more than a bet for me, Tessa. But to him it wasnât. He proved that when he showed us the sheets.â
My appetite is lost and I feel nauseous. âI donât want to talk about this anymore.â
Zed nods and puts up a gentle hand. âYouâre right. Iâm sorry for bringing all of that up. I just wish you would give me half the chances you give him. Iâd never do things like hang out with Jace if I were in Hardinâs position, and on top of that, Jace always has random girls over thereââ
âOkay,â I interrupt him. I canât listen to any more about Jace and girls at his apartment.
âLetâs talk about something else. Iâm sorry if I hurt your feelings just now. I really am. I just donât understand. Youâre too good for him, and youâve given him so many chances. But I wonât bring it up again unless you want to talk about it.â He reaches across the table and puts his hand on top of mine.
âItâs okay,â I say. But I canât believe Hardin would be hanging out with Jace after we got into that fight in the driveway. Thatâs the last place I thought he would be.
Zed stands up and walks over to the door. âCome on, let me show you something.â I stand and follow him. âWait there,â he says when I reach the middle of the room.
The light shuts off and Iâm expecting pitch black. Instead my eyes are greeted with neon green, pink, orange, and red. Each row of flowers glows with a different color, some of them brighter than others.
âWhoa . . .â I half whisper.
âNeat, isnât it?â He asks.
âYes, very.â I walk down the row slowly, taking in the sight.
âWe basically engineered them, then altered the seeds to glow like this.â Suddenly heâs behind me. âWatch this.â His hand moves to my arm and he guides my hand to touch a petal of a glowing pink flower. This flower isnât glowing as bright as the restâthat is, until my fingertip touches it and it comes to life. I jerk my hand back in surprise and hear him chuckle behind me.
âHow is that even possible?â I ask in amazement.
I love flowers, especially lilies, and these man-made blooms look similar to themâtheyâre officially my new favorite.
âAnythingâs possible when science is involved,â he says, his face lit up by the flowers and his smile bright.
âHow nerdy of you,â I tease, and he laughs.
âYou arenât in any position to call me nerdy,â he teases back, and I laugh.
âTrue.â I touch the flower again and watch it glow once more. âThis is incredible.â
âI thought youâd like it. Weâre working on doing the same with a tree; the problem is that trees take much longer to grow than flowers. But trees live much longer; flowers are too fragile. If you neglect them, they wilt and die.â His tone is soft, and I canât help but compare myself to the flower, and get the feeling heâs doing the same.