âI love it!â She smiles, handing the mirror back to Drew before sitting up.
âWhat are you going to get, Hardin?â I ask him quietly.
âYour name.â He smiles.
Shocked, I step back from him with my jaw on the floor.
âYou wouldnât want that?â he asks.
âNo! Gosh no, thatâs . . . I donât know, thatâs insane,â I whisper.
âInsane? Not really, itâs just showing you that Iâm committed to you and donât need a ring or marriage proposal to stay that way.â
His voice is so clear that Iâm no longer sure if heâs joking. How did we go from joking to commitments and marriage in less than three minutes? This is how it always is with us, so I suppose I should be used to it by now.
âReady, Hardin?â
âSure.â Hardin steps away from me and pulls his shirt over his head.
âA quote?â Drew speaks my exact thoughts.
âI just want it across the top of my back; itâs âI never wish to be parted from you from this day on.â Just make it like an inch in height, do it in your cool freehand,â Hardin instructs and turns his back to face Drew.
I never wish to be parted from you from this day on . . .
âHardin, can we talk about this for a second, please?â I ask him.
I swear he knows about my plans to go to Seattle and heâs taunting me by getting this tattoo. The line he chose is perfect but cruelly ironic, considering Iâve been withholding telling him about my move to Seattle.
âNo, Tess, I want to do it,â he says, dismissing me.
âHardin, I really donât thinkââ
âItâs not a big deal, Tessa, itâs not my first tattoo,â he jokes.
âI justââ
âIf you donât shut up, Iâll have your name and Social Security number printed across my entire back,â he threatens with a laugh, but I get the feeling he would actually go through with it to prove his point.
I stay quiet to try to think about what to say. I should just blurt it out right now before the gun touches his clear skin. If I wait . . .
The now-familiar buzz of the gun sounds, and black ink litters Hardinâs back.
âNow, come over here and hold my hand.â He smirks, holding out his hand to me.
Chapter one hundred and twenty-three
HARDIN
Tessa shyly grasps my hand, and I pull her closer to me.
âStop moving,â Drew snaps.
âMy bad.â
âDoes it hurt?â she softly asks.
The innocence in her eyes astounds me, to this day. She was on her knees last night, and twenty hours later sheâs speaking to me the way she would speak to a wounded child.
âYes, really fucking bad,â I lie.
âReally?â Worry flashes over her features.
I love the feeling that comes with the needle transferring the ink to my skin; itâs no longer painful, itâs relaxing.
âNo, baby, it doesnât hurt,â I assure her, and Drew, being the dick he is, makes gagging noises behind my back.
Tessa giggles, and I put my middle finger in the air. I didnât mean to call her baby just now, in front of Drew, but I donât really give a fuck what he thinks, and I know for a fact heâs head over heels for the girl he just had a baby with a few months ago, so he canât say shit to me.
âI still canât believe youâre doing this,â she says as Drew spreads the ointment over the new tattoo.
âItâs already done,â I remind her, and she looks worried as she stares at her phone screen.
I hope Tess doesnât make too big of a deal out of this tattoo; itâs not that serious. I have a shitload of tattoos. This one is for her, and Iâm hoping sheâs excited about it. I know I am.
âWhere the fuck are Steph and Tristan?â I look out the windows of the shop in an attempt to spot Stephâs bright-ass hair.
âWe can go next door and find them?â Tessa suggests after I pay Drew and promise to come back and let him give me an entire back piece.
I nearly knock his teeth out when he suggests giving Tessa a sleeve or belly piercing.
âI think I would look cool with my nose pierced.â She smiles as we walk outside.
I laugh at the thought and bring my arm around her waist as a bearded man stumbles past us. His jeans and shoes are dirty, and his thick sweatshirt is stained with liquid. From the smell of it, I assume vodka.
Tessa stops next to me, and the man does the same. I gently pull her behind me. If this homeless drunk thinks heâs coming any fucking closer to her, I will fucking. . . .
What she says next is so spoken so softly that it comes out as a whisper, and I watch in confusion as all the color drains from her face.
âDad?â