I answer him with a smile and a nod and go inside to the scene of the crime.
I was going to try to take a small nap before my dinner with Trevor, but I end up taking another shower instead. I feel dirty from the events of last night, and I need to rewash Hardinâs scent from my body. This time two weeks ago, I had thought everything would be so different right now, with Hardin and me getting ready to visit his mother in London for Christmas. Now I donât even have anywhere to live, which prompts the thought that I need to call my mother back. She called me multiple times last night.
After I get out of my shower, I start reapplying my makeup and hit her number.
âHello, Theresa,â she says in a clipped tone.
âHey, sorry I didnât call you back last night. Iâm in Seattle for that publishing conference, and we were talking to clients later over dinner.â
âOh, thatâs right. Is he there?â she asks, and Iâm a little stunned she would even ask me that.
âNo . . . Why do you ask?â I say as nonchalantly as possible.
âBecause he called here last night trying to find out where you were. I donât appreciate you giving him this numberâyou know how I feel about him, Theresa.â
âI didnât give him the numberââ
âI thought the two of you ended things?â she interrupts.
âWe did. I did. He probably just needed to know something about the apartment, or something,â I lie. He must have been really desperate to get hold of me if he called my motherâs house. That thought hurts and pleases me at the same time.
âSpeaking of which, we canât get you into a dorm until Christmas break is over, but since youâll be off of work and school for the week, you can just come here.â
âOh . . . okay,â I agree. I donât want to spend my break at my motherâs, but what choice do I have?
âI will see you Monday. And, Tessa, if you know whatâs good for you, you will stay far away from that boy,â she says and hangs up.
Spending a week at my motherâs house will be hell; I donât know how I lived there for eighteen years. Honestly, I never realized how bad she was until I got a taste of freedom. Maybe since Hardin is leaving the country Tuesday, I can stay in that motel for two more nights and go to the apartment while heâs gone. As much as I donât want to ever go there again, it is still my name on the lease, and itâs not like he would ever know.
Scrolling through my phone, I see that I have no new messages or calls from him, though I knew that I wouldnât. I canât believe he would sleep with Molly and throw it in my face like that. The worst part is that if I hadnât blurted out that I kissed someone else, he would have never told me. Just like with the bet that started our ârelationship.â And that means I just canât trust him.
I finish getting myself ready, deciding upon a plain black dress. My days of woolen, pleated skirts seem so long ago. I apply another layer of concealer to my neck and wait for Trevor to come. True to his nature, he knocks on the door at exactly six thirty.
Chapter twenty
HARDIN
I stare at my fatherâs massive house, unable to decide whether or not to go inside.
Karen has decorated the outside with too many lights, mini Christmas trees, and what appear to be dancing reindeer. The blow-up Santa in the yard twists with the wind in a way that seems to mock me as I climb out of my car. Pieces of ripped-up airline tickets blow around the seat before I close the door.
I will have to call and make sure I can get a credit for the unused tickets, otherwise I just blew two grand. I probably should just go alone and escape this dreadful state for a while, but for some reason, going home to London doesnât sound as appealing with Tessa not coming along. Iâm grateful that my mum was okay with coming here instead. She actually seems excited to come to America.
As I ring my fatherâs doorbell, I try to come up with an excuse as to why the hell I am here. But before I can conjure something, Landon appears.
âHey,â I say as he opens the door wider for me to come inside.
âHey?â he questions.
I dig my hands into my pockets, unsure what to say or do.
âTessa isnât here,â he says and walks toward the living room, indifferent to my presence.
âYeah . . . I know. Sheâs in Seattle,â I say, following a few feet behind him.
âSo . . .â
âI . . . um . . . well, I came to talk to you . . . or my dad, I mean Ken. Or your mum,â I ramble on.
âTalk? About what?â He takes the bookmark from the book heâs holding and begins to read. I want to snatch the book from his hands and toss it into the fire, but that wonât get me anywhere.
âTessa,â I say quietly. My fingers fiddle with my lip ring as I wait for him to burst into laughter.
He looks at me and closes his book. âLet me get this straight . . . Tessa doesnât want anything to do with you, so youâre here to talk to me? Or your father, or even my mother?â
âYeah . . . I guess . . .â God, heâs irritating. This is embarrassing enough.
âOkay . . . and what exactly do you think I can do for you? I, personally, donât think Tessa should ever speak to you again, and I honestly figured you would have moved on by now.â
âStop being a dick. I know I fucked upâbut I love her, Landon. And I know she loves me. Sheâs just hurt right now.â
Landon takes a deep breath and rubs his chin with his fingers.
âI donât know, Hardin. What you did is pretty unforgivable. You humiliated her and she trusted you.â