âIâll tell Landon weâre all coming,â I say and go to grab my phone. Iâd never have imagined that my Christmas would be spent with Hardin and his familyâboth sides of his family. The last few months have been anything but what I expected.
When I turn on my phone I have three voicemails, from my mother, Iâm sure. I ignore them and dial Landon.
âHey, Tessa, Merry Christmas Eve!â he greets me, cheery as ever. I can picture his warm smile.
âMerry Christmas Eve, Landon.â
âThanks! First things firstâyouâre not calling to bail, are you?â
âNo, of course not. Quite the opposite, actually. I was calling to make sure it was still okay if Hardin and Trish came over tomorrow?â
âReally? They want to?â
âYeah . . .â
âDoes this mean you and Hardin . . .â
âYeah . . . I know Iâm an idiot . . .â
âI didnât say that,â he says.
âI know, but youâre thinking itââ
âNo. I am not. We can talk about it tomorrow, but you arenât an idiot, Tessa.â
âThank you,â I tell him and mean it. Heâs the only person who wonât have a negative opinion on this subject.
âIâll tell my mom theyâre coming. Sheâll be thrilled,â he says before we hang up.
When I join Hardin and Trish back in the living room, they already have their presents on their laps, and there are two boxes on the couch that I assume are for me.
âMe first!â Trish says and tears the snowflake-printed paper off of a box. Her smile is huge as she takes out the tracksuit I got her. âI love these! How did you know?â She points to the gray one sheâs wearing.
âIâm not very good at buying gifts,â I tell her.
She giggles. âDonât be silly, itâs lovely,â she assures me while opening the second box. After she has a moment to see whatâs inside, she squeezes Hardin tight and then holds up a necklace that says Mom, just like he told me. She seems to like the thick scarf he bought her as well.
I really wish Iâd gotten Hardin something. I knew all along that I would go back to him, and I think he knew it, too. He hasnât mentioned that he got me one, and both of the boxes on my lap say theyâre from Trish, so thatâs a huge relief.
Hardin is next, and he gives his mother his best fake smile when he opens the clothes she bought him. One piece is a red long-sleeved shirt; I try to picture Hardin wearing anything other than black and white, but I canât.
âYour turn,â he says to me.
I smile nervously and pull the sparkly bow off of the first gift. Clearly, Trish is better at choosing womenâs clothing than menâs; the pastel-yellow dress in the box proves it. Itâs a light baby-doll style, and I love it.
âThank youâitâs beautiful,â I say and give her a hug. I really appreciate her thinking of me. She just met me, but sheâs been so loving and welcoming that I feel as if Iâve known her much longer.
The second box is much smaller than the first, but the amount of tape used to wrap it makes it very difficult to open. When I finally tear through the packaging, I find a braceletâa sort of charm bracelet unlike anything Iâve seen before. Trish is so thoughtful, just like her son. I lift it up and run my fingers along the rope-textured string to look at the charms. There are only three, each bigger than my thumbnail, two made from what looks like pewter, the other solid white . . . porcelain, maybe? The white charm is an infinity symbol, the ends shaped like hearts. Just like the tattoo on Hardinâs wrist. I glance up at him, my eyes moving immediately to his tattoo. He shifts and I look back to the bracelet. The second charm is a music note, and the third, slightly larger than the other two, is in the shape of a book. When I turn the book charm in my fingers, I notice something written on the back. It says:
Whatever our souls are made of, his and mine are the same.
I look up at Hardin and swallow the tears threatening to form. His mother didnât get me this.
He did.
Chapter thirty-seven
TESSA
Hardinâs cheeks are flushed. His lips hold a nervous smile as I stare at him quietly for a minute.
Then I practically jump over to where he sits on the easy chair. I nearly tackle him with my enthusiasm and my desire just to be close to this wild, crazy boy. Luckily, heâs strong enough to keep us both from falling over. I hug him as tight as I can manage, causing him to cough, so I loosen my grip. âItâs so . . . itâs just perfect,â I sob. âThank you. Itâs so thoughtful, and just unbelievable.â I press my forehead against his as I nestle into his lap.
âItâs nothing . . . really,â he timidly states, and I wonder at his casual toneâuntil Trish clears her throat from where she sits nearby.
I hurry off his lap. For a moment I forgot that we are not alone in the apartment. âSorry!â I tell her and move back to my spot on the couch.
She gives me a knowing smile. âDonât apologize, dear.â
Hardin stays quiet; I know he wonât talk about the gift in front of Trish, so I change the subject for now. His gift was so incredibly thoughtful. He couldnât have picked a more perfect quote from any novel to engrave on that charm.
âWhatever our souls are made of, his and mine are the sameââitâs so perfect for the way I feel about him. We are so different, yet weâre exactly the same, just like Catherine and Heathcliff. I can only hope that we donât share the same fate as them. I would like to think that weâve learned from their mistakes, somehow, and that we wonât allow that to happen.