âThat âassholeâ is my son, missy,â Trish says with hooded eyes. Underneath her humor is a woman clearly ready to go into the ring for her son.
âWell, your son is ruining and corrupting my daughter,â my mother fires back.
âBoth of youâget out,â Hardin says and stands up from the bed.
My mother shakes her head and gives a toothy smile. âTheresa, grab your things, now.â
Being ordered about makes me snap, âWhat part of I am not leaving do you not understand? I gave you the opportunity to spend the holidays with me, but you couldnât get over yourself long enough to allow it.â I know I shouldnât be speaking to her this way, but I canât help it.
âGet over myself? You think just because you bought a few slutty dresses and learned to put on makeup, you suddenly know more than I do about life?â Although sheâs yelling, itâs like sheâs laughing, too. Like my choices are a joke. âWell, youâre wrong. Just because you gave yourself to this . . . this filth doesnât mean youâre a woman! You are nothing but a little girl. A naive, impressionable little girl. Now grab your things before I do it for you.â
âYou will not touch her things,â Hardin spits. âShe isnât going anywhere with you. Sheâs staying here with me, where she belongs.â
My mother wheels toward him, all humor gone. â?âWhere she belongsâ? Where did she belong when she was staying in a damned motel because of what you did to her? You are no good for herâand she will not stay here with you.â
âMrs. White, these two are adults,â Trish interjects. âTessa is an adult. If she wants to stay, there is nothingââ
My motherâs enraged eyes turn to meet Trishâs equally hardened glare. This is a disaster. I open my mouth to speak, but my mother beats me to it.
âHow can you defend this sinful behavior? After what he did to her, he should be locked away!â she screams.
âShe has obviously chosen to forgive him. You need to accept that,â Trish says coolly. Too coolly. She looks like a snake, one that slithers by so slowly you never see its attack coming. But when it does, you are done for. My mother is the prey, and right now I canât help but hope that Trishâs bite is venomous.
âForgive him? He stole her innocence as a gameâa bet with his friends. And then bragged about it while she was here playing house!â
Trishâs gasp overrides all sound in the air and silences everything for a second. Mouth agape, she looks at her son. âWhat . . .â
âOh, you didnât know? You meanâsurpriseâthe liar lied even to his own mother? Poor woman, no wonder youâre defending him,â my mother says, shaking her head. âYour son bet his friendsâfor moneyâthat he could take Tessaâs virginity. He even kept the evidence and flaunted it around the entire campus.â
Iâm frozen. I keep my eyes on our mothers, too afraid to look at Hardin. I can tell by the shift in his breathing that he hadnât thought Iâd told my mother the details of his deceit. As for his mother, I didnât want her to know the terrible things her son has done. It was my embarrassment to share or not share with people.
âEvidence?â Trishâs voice is shaky.
âYes, evidence. The condom! Oh, and the sheets with Tessaâs stolen virginity on them. God knows what he did with the money, but he was telling everyone every detail of their . . . intimacy. So now you tell me if I should make my daughter come with me or not.â My mother raises her perfectly sculpted eyebrow to Trish.
I feel it the moment it happens. I feel the change in the room, the energy shifting. Trish is now on my motherâs side of this. I try desperately to cling to the edge of the crumbling cliff that is Hardin, but I can see it all perfectly in the disgusted glare she gives her son. A look I can tell is nothing new. Itâs something sheâs had to use on him before, like a memory brought back as a facial expression. A look that all but says she believes, once again, every bad thing anyoneâs ever said about her son.
âHow could you, Hardin?â she cries. âI had hoped you were different now . . . I hoped you had stopped doing things like this to girls . . . women. Have you forgotten what happened last time?â
Chapter thirty-eight
TESSA
It doesnât help. It doesnât help at all that my mother follows Trish into the living room and practically howls, âLast time? See, Theresa! This is exactly why you need to get away from him. He has done this before, I knew it! Prince Charming strikes again!â
I look over at Hardin, my fingers slipping from the edge. Not again. I donât think I can take any more. Not from him.
âItâs not like that, Mum,â Hardin finally says.
Trish gives him a look of utter disbelief and wipes under her eyes, even as her tears keep coming. âIt sure sounds like it, Hardin. I honestly canât believe you. I love you, son, but I canât help you here. This is wrong, so wrong.â
I never am able to find my voice in these situations. I want to speak, I need to, but an endless list of potential terrible things that Trish could be referring to as âlast timeâ are running rapidly through my head, stealing my voice.
âI said itâs not like that!â Hardin shouts, his arms out wide.
Trish turns and stares at me, hard. âTessa, you should go with your mother,â she says, and a lump rises in my throat.
âWhat?â Hardin says to her.
âYouâre no good for her, Hardin. I love you more than life itself, but I canât allow you to do this again. Coming to America was supposed to have helped youââ