When I return, heâs sitting in the same spot on the couch. âHave you called your father yet?â I ask from the kitchen.
âNo . . . I was waiting for you,â he replies, then wanders into the kitchen and sits down at the table with a sigh. âIâll call now.â
I nod and sit across from him while he presses his phone to his ear.
âUh . . . hey.â Hardin says into the receiver. Then he sets the phone to speaker and places it on the table between us.
âHardin?â Kenâs voice is surprised.
âYeah . . . um, look, I was wondering if you wanted to come over or something.â
âCome over?â
Hardin looks up at me, and I can tell that his patience is already wearing thin. My hand moves across the table to rest atop his, and I nod in encouragement.
âYeah . . . you, Karen, and Landon. We can exchange gifts, since we didnât yesterday. Mumâs gone,â he says.
âYouâre sure thatâs okay?â Ken asks his son.
âI just asked, didnât I?â Hardin says, and I squeeze his hand. âI mean . . . yeah, thatâs fine,â he corrects, and I smile at him.
âOkay, well, let me talk to Karen, but I know sheâll be thrilled. What time will be good for you?â Hardin looks at me. I mouth two, and he tells his father.
âOkay . . . well, weâll see you at two.â
âTessa will text Landon the address,â Hardin says and hangs up the phone.
âThat wasnât so bad, right?â I ask.
He rolls his eyes. âSure.â
âWhat should I wear?â
He gestures to my jeans and WCU T-shirt. âThat.â
âDefinitely not. This is our Christmas.â
âNo, itâs the day after Christmas, so you should wear jeans.â He smiles, and his fingers tug at his lip ring.
âIâm not wearing jeans.â I laugh and head to the bedroom to decide what to wear.
IâM HOLDING MY WHITE DRESS to my chest in front of the mirror when Hardin walks into the bedroom. âI donât know if wearing white is the best idea.â He smiles.
âFor Godâs sake, stop it!â I say.
âYouâre cute when youâre embarrassed.â
I grab my maroon dress from the closet. This dress holds a lot of memories for me; I wore it to my first frat party with Steph. I miss Steph despite all the anger I feel . . . felt toward her. I feel betrayed by her, but at the same time in a lot of ways she was right when she said it wasnât fair for me to forgive Hardin but not her.
âWhatâs going on in that mind of yours?â Hardin questions.
âNothing . . . I was just thinking of Steph.â
âWhat about her?â
âI donât know . . . I miss her, sort of. Do you miss your friends?â I ask. He hasnât mentioned any of them since the letter.
âNo.â He shrugs. âI would rather spend my time with you.â
Iâm enjoying this honest Hardin, but I note, âYou could still spend time with them, too.â
âI guess. I donât know; I donât really care either way. Do you even want to be around them . . . you know, after everything?â His eyes focus on the floor.
âI donât know . . . but Iâd be willing to try, at least, and see how it goes. Not Molly, though.â I scowl.
He looks up mischievously. âBut the two of you are such great friends.â
âUgh, enough about her. What do you think theyâll do on New Yearâs Eve?â I ask. I donât know how it will be to be around everyone, but I miss having friends, or what passed for friends.
âThereâll probably be a party. Logan is obsessed with New Yearâs . . . Are you sure you want to go out with them?â
I smile. âYeah . . . if it blows up in my face, then weâll stay in next year.â
Hardinâs eyes widen when I mention next year, but I pretend I donât notice. I need our Christmas do-over to be peaceful today. Iâm focusing on today.
âI need to make something for everyone to eat. I should have said three; itâs already noon, and Iâm not even ready.â I rub my hands over my makeup-free face.
âGo ahead and get ready, Iâll make something . . .â Hardin says, then smirks. âJust make sure you eat only what I put on your plate.â
âJoking about poisoning your father, lovely,â I tease. He shrugs and wanders off. I wash my face and apply light makeup before pulling my hair out of its ponytail and curling the ends. By the time I finish getting ready and get myself dressed, a wonderful garlic smell is coming from the kitchen.
When I join Hardin in the kitchen, I see heâs laid out a couple of trays of fruit and vegetables and already set the table. Iâm really impressed by what heâs done, though I do have to fight the urge to rearrange a few things. Iâm so glad that Hardin was willing to invite his father over to our apartment, and even more relieved that he seems to be in a really good mood today. Checking the clock, I see our company will be here in thirty minutes, so I begin cleaning up the small mess Hardin made while cooking and get the apartment spotless again.
I wrap my arms around his waist as he stands in front of the oven. âThank you for doing all of this.â
He shrugs. âItâs nothing.â
âAre you okay?â I ask and unwrap my arms and turn him to face me.
âYeah . . . Iâm fine.â
âAre you sure you arenât a little nervous?â I ask. I can tell he is.
âNo . . . well, just a little. Itâs just weird as fuck to have him coming here, you know?â