Anyway, as per Seo Hojinâs request, I called for a Kakao Black and exited the parking lot.[1]
With the atmosphere now lighter, I took the opportunity to ask all the questions I had been curious about: Howâs school life? Do you have friends? Any romantic interests?
At first, Seo Hojin answered casually, but he frowned deeply at the last question.
âSuch an old-fashioned thing to say.â
âFuckâ¦â
After entering college and even becoming the class president, heâd gotten quite sharp and grown-up, managing to turn me into a clueless Paleozoic-era fossil of a returning student with just one sentence.
The funny thing was, I found some satisfaction in that.
At least Seo Hojin seemed to be living well with the common sense of todayâs generation.
I spotted the taxi waiting at the requested spot, opened the door, and helped Seo Hojin inside.
I handed over the taxi fare for the second time that day and added,
âPlease take him home safely. Drive carefully.â
âHahaha, of course! Donât worry.â
Perhaps embarrassed by my request, his ears turned slightly red.
âHyung, how old do you think I am?â
âFourteen?â
âNo, I thought you were going to say four.â
I was about to send off the taxi with a chuckle when Seo Hojin grabbed my arm.
âSorry for hitting you that day.â
âYouâre quick to apologize, you little rebellious dongsaeng.â
âHey, at least getting hit with a flower, isnât that a first for you?â
âIâve been hit with a flower before.â
âWhat?â
There was a time, once.
I averted my gaze, but Seo Hojin tilted his head and asked.
âBy whom?â
âWhy do you want to know?â
Trying to dig up the history of your hyung, huh?
He shrugged with an expression that said it was obvious and burst into laughter.
âAnyway, try to keep your temper in check, hyung.â
How much more could I suppress it?
At this rate, I would soon ascend to heaven as an angel.
I closed the taxi door with a small smile.
âGo.â
As I watched the taxi quickly disappear into the distance, I realized that the real Seo Hojin had grown much more than the Seo Hojin in my mind.
Making my way back to the dorm, I checked my phone and saw a flood of messages from Joo Woosung.
â Joo Woosung: Wow;;;
â Joo Woosung: Hey ã , was that your dongsaeng or hyung?
â Joo Woosung: Ah, since he called you hyung, ã ã ã ã ì§he must be the dongsaeng.
â Joo Woosung: Amazing stuff, daebak
The messages reeked of alcohol.
I frowned instinctively.
The last thing I wanted to hear came from the person I least wanted to be caught by.
â Me: Bullshit
â Me: Go home, wash your feet, and sleep
â Joo Woosung: I canât really see the face but ã
â Joo Woosung: The look
â Joo Woosung: The eyes
â Joo Woosung: ã±ã ¡ã±the attitude
â Joo Woosung: Absolutely
â Joo Woosung: Seo Hoyun 2;;;;;
It was the most absurd thing Iâd heard that day.
I had just confirmed that he was growing up normally, and now he was saying we resembled each other so much.
I didnât even feel the need to reply, so I left him on read and entered the dorm where Jeong Dajun came rushing over.
âHyung, c-c-could you call Hojin-hyung onceâ¦!â
âNo.â
I gave both Kang Ichae and Jeong Dajun, who had schemed this plan, a light smack on the head.
I skipped Seong Jiwon.
Then I went into my room, lay on the bed, and looked at the photo Seo Hojin had given me for a long time.
Looking at 10-year-old Seo Hojinâs chubby cheeks, then our momâs face, who he resembled a lot, and finally, my gaze landed on the face of our dad, who looked similar to me. á¹ð¼
âHmmâ¦â
A part of my heart ached, yet there was a slight sense of fulfillment.
I considered carrying it in my wallet but worried about losing it or it being exposed, so I tucked it into a book by the bed.
For now, memories were the only things that kept me intact.
Sometimes, that fact terrified me.
Still, knowing there was a time when our family was togetherâlike in this photoâoccasionally comforted me.
I closed my eyes.
After tossing and turning a few times on the bed, I gradually fell into a deep sleep.
***
âAlright!!â
Jeong Dajun slammed the whiteboard.
âLetâs!! Cheer up and give it our all again!!â
âWowâ¦â
âW. O. W.â
Everyone responded like zombies, barely making an effort, while Jeong Dajun was the only lively one.
âWhy is he so full of energy?â
âHe scored full marks on the driving test.â
âWhat?! Jeong Dajun?!â
âHe made such a fuss about getting it as soon as he became an adult.â
When I lifted my head off the table, where Iâd been resting out of exhaustion, Jeong Dajun grinned confidently.
âHyung, Iâll drive you with unwavering comfort!!â
âI donât really need it.â
Ignoring my words, Jeong Dajun slapped his driverâs license onto the whiteboard and looked at the members with bright eyes.
âThis is the 11th comeback meeting!!â
With the concert successfully concluded, The Dawn, now safely settled into the second team, began preparing for a comeback.
Even during Shining Star Season 2, Kang Ichae, who hadnât skipped working, produced songs of various genres.
Among them, there was a song that was unique yet didnât lose its mass appeal, receiving overwhelming praise from the A&R team and unanimously approved to be included in the album.
âNo way, this actually works??â
It was a fresh yet sorrowful song with a distinctly unique vibe about unrequited love.
Knowing Kang Ichaeâs usual style, I found myself increasingly shocked the more I listened to it.
ââ¦Kang Ichae, you know.â
âWhat?â
âUmmâ¦â
ââ¦â
âAre youâ¦â
ââ¦â
ââ¦in love?â
ââare you kidding?!â
Kang Ichae sharply retorted.
No, it was just that the song was surprisingly soft.
Never mind then.
âHa⦠I got mad for a second.â
As I awkwardly averted my gaze, Kang Ichae glared at me and said,
âItâs not that, Iâm just trying to challenge myself as much as possible with different things.â
Then he turned on his phone and showed me a chat.
It was a conversation with Cheongbeom.
Lim Hyeonsu had answered a question about how to create a love song.
â God-genius composer!!: My disciple
â God-genius composer!!: Love and all that is just an illusionâ¦
â God-genius composer!!: Since people donât really want to know reality, just watch about ten fucking sweet romantic comedies and let your brain marinate in them
â Me: As expected of the composer
Did Lim Hyeonsu get dumped?
I clicked my tongue as I looked at Lim Hyeonsuâs texts, which seemed to reflect how she had lost her California glow and turned cynical again.
âSo, following my mentorâs advice, I selected masterpieces and crammed ten of them into my head to create this. It was actually fun.â
âDoes it make your heart race?! You said youâd only put it in the album if it did!â
Kang Ichae gave a slightly bitter smile.
âAs long as it makes someone elseâs heart raceâ¦â
ââ¦!!!â
Kang Ichae, who had been all about rock and hip-hop, seemed to have realized reality and decided to compromise a bit.
âOh my little rapperâ¦. What should we do, our hyung. Youâve become quite the human.â
The song was genuinely good.
Kang Ichae had great synergy when what he was good at and what he liked matched.
But his taste couldnât always be accepted by the public.
âI canât just stick to my taste and play it for the fans.â
âYeah, just follow the scent of money.
âHaaâ¦â
Even with my friendly advice, Kang Ichae sighed heavily and turned his head sharply.
At that moment, Lee Jihyeon entered, swinging the meeting room door open.
âWhatâs this? Why is a driverâs license stuck to the whiteboard?â
She seemed slightly flustered but quickly regained her composure and placed a planning document on the table.
âIâve been watching the outputs youâre working on with the A&R team. The genres are incredible.â
âYep, feel free to use them as you like.â
To Kang Ichae, who answered slickly, Lee Jihyeon gave a thumbs-up.
âI had a lot of thoughts. Whether to heighten the mass appeal or solidify the core. Then I suddenly thought: We canât miss this moment when weâre in the spotlight. The right thing to do is to go with a concept that can draw in the soul as much as possible.â
Lee Jihyeon uncapped a marker and began to write on the whiteboard.
âAvocado and rib steak?â
âStop talking about what you want to eat.â
Jeong Dajun, pondering over the scrawl of the century, muttered when he saw the word âapocalypse.â
Lee Jihyeon shook her finger side to side.
ââApocalypse Trilogy,â âPick whatever you like, surely thereâs something you like here.'â
Then she took out a paper from under the plan and handed it to the members one by one.
âAfter about a year and a half, I finally realized what concepts are digestible.â
âWhat is it?â
Lee Jihyeon scanned us with sharp eyes.
âItâs the fresh-innocent-sexy-bastard moment.â
While I was dazed trying to figure out if it was even Korean, Lee Jihyeon wrote something else on the whiteboard again.
âWhat is that?â
Seong Jiwon tilted his head and asked, and Lee Jihyeon suddenly pointed at me.
âItâs this person. Especially the last part.â
ââ¦Ah?!â
âHey, how could you understand that?â
eong Jiwon snapped his fingers as if he understood.
How much better could I possibly treat Seong Jiwon?!
When I protested indignantly, Kang Ichae laughed from the other side.
To shut him up, I kicked him under the table, but he quickly dodged, and instead, Kim Seonghyeon let out a loud âAck!â
I feigned ignorance and turned my attention to Lee Jihyeon.
âDo you think you can pull off the innocent sexy look?â
Lee Jihyeon concluded with a bang that the fans would love it, leaving no room for debate.
âI was even ready to go for a slave concept.â
ââ¦Not a bad idea?â
As I pushed the idea further, Lee Jihyeonâs eyes sparkled, and she eagerly bit on the suggestion.
She was impressed by the mindset that, as long as it worked in the market, whether it was a slave concept or an ancient civilization myth concept, we should do whatever it takes.
Leaving her absorbed in that thought, I turned my attention to the other members.
âSo, who wants to play the bastard? Iâll take on the refreshing innocent sexy one.â
âCan someone please teach Seo Hoyun how to be less shamelessâ¦?â
Seeing Kim Seonghyeon rub his shin and mutter, I chuckled, but Lee Jihyeon slammed the table with both hands.
âBefore that! Thereâs something more important I need to convey.â
With a serious expression, she looked intently at the three of us: me, Kim Seonghyeon, and Kang Ichae.
âItâs summer, so Iâm sure youâve been taking good care of your bodies, right?â
ââ¦â
ââ¦â
ââ¦â
The three of us understood her meaning immediately and fell silent.
If it made money.
If the public liked it.
If the fans wanted it.
This time, they were really going to strip us bare.
.
.
.
After countless more meetings, the comeback teaser photos finally passed and were released to the world.
[Hey, what the fuck is this]
Very slowly, the photos were released one by one, day by day, and the Noeuls clung to them like crazy.
[Thudâ¦â¦
There was so much to say about the outfits, the concept, the faces, the faces, the faces, the faces, and the faces, but above all else, one thing stood out in the comeback teaser photos.
It was the fact that Kang Ichaeâ
[Just kill me no
âhad black hair.
[1] Kakao Black is a luxury taxi service in S. Korea.