âHEREâS A PRINTED COPY of todayâs schedule, Mr King,â Veronica says to me as we get into the back of the car.
âThank you.â I take the bound paper and flick through it. I already know exactly whatâs in here; Iâve memorised it. Nine thirty, welcome all the kids from the five local schoolsâage range six to twelve years oldâwho were selected to act as a âtest panelâ for this stage of the White Fire project. Ten, Tina to give a brief talk to introduce the book series. At ten-thirty, read them some passages from the books and ask them to discuss them in groups afterwards. Then a break before showing them images the team has come up with, etc., etc. Then comes the feedback questionnairesâthe open discussionsâfor which there is a team of note-takers and two cameras recording, so we donât miss anything.
Lastly, thereâs the round-up, thanks, and goody-bags. Some older kids coming today may like to be treated like adults, but Iâll bet my ass they wonât be too old for a thank-you goody-bag. Not when they see what weâve put in them.
Fifteen minutes later, we pull up to the hotel where we are hosting the event.
âOh, doesnât it look great since the refurbishment?â Veronica exclaims as she climbs out of the car.
I thank our driver and tell him we will see him later and then lead Veronica into the hotelâs grand foyer.
We head over to the reception desk, and the young woman there looks up with a smile.
âGood morning, Mr King, Mrs Mills. I trust you had a pleasant journey here, and the traffic wasnât too bad?â
âIt was fine, thank you.â I look at her briefly before my gaze is drawn to the wall behind her.
âItâs a lovely piece, isnât it?â the receptionist says, looking up at the giant artwork. âWe get a lot of comments about it.â
âOh, itâs marvellous,â Veronica adds. âI see what you mean now, Mr King. It is quite striking.â
âYes.â I clear my throat, peeling my eyes away from Meganâs work.
This is one of the stupidest ideas Iâve ever had.
What was I thinking, asking Veronica to book the event here?
This hotel, that picture?
Fuck.
Just looking at it evokes too many memories.
Memories of the way she looked at me that night. The way she said my name. The sounds she made when she came, the taste of her sweet skin on my tongue.
God, Iâm an idiot.
Being here, in this hotel. In the same room as her. Itâs completely different from the last time I was in a room in this hotel with her.
It will be torture.
And itâs nothing less than I deserve.
âEverythingâs set up for you, just as you requested,â the receptionist says as she makes her way around from behind the desk. âPlease, if youâll come with me, I will show you the way.â
I take one last glance at the picture on the wall and follow her.
The conference hall is set up with round tables. Each sits fiveâfour kids and one adult from either King Publishing or Articulate to take notes and ask the kidsâ questions. At the front are a few chairs and a table where Tina is already linking up her laptop for the large screen behind her. She gives me a wave, and I nod in greeting. Sheâs got her PA, Sarah, with her, whoâs setting up a couple of cameras. Over to one side is a long table with tea, coffee, and various pastries set out to welcome everyone at nine-thirty.
Weâre all good to go.
âMr King,â the receptionist turns to me as Veronica heads over to the front table to set up, âplease let me know if thereâs anything else you need throughout the day. We will, of course, keep all the refreshments topped up. You wanted lunch brought in at noon. Is that still the case?â
âYes, thank you.â
âVery well, then. I shall bring your guests through as they arrive.â She gives me a smile and heads out of the room.
I walk around between the tables, reading the place cards.
Electra-Star, Honeybelle, Thorâ¦
âWhere do people come up with these names?â
I turn, and Megan is standing next to me, her nose wrinkled in thought as she reads the cards.
âI have no idea.â I chuckle, looking at her sideways.
Sheâs wearing a pair of dark green, fitted trousers with high-heels and a cream silk blouse. Her curls are swept into a low ponytail, which is draped over one shoulder.
You hear people described as looking like an angel when theyâre beautiful. But Meganâs beauty is unique. Itâs ethereal and whimsical. It suits her creativity and her sweet nature. Sheâs more like a woodland fairy, rare.
Magical.
I shake the stupid thought out of my head. I only have to be near her, and my brain misfires.
âWould you like a coffee?â I turn towards the table, and she walks beside me.
When we get there, she chews on her pink lips, and I pick up a mug, just to stop myself from reaching out and pulling her to me by her chin.
âIâve been off coffee for a couple of weeks now.â She frowns, looking through the herbal tea bags, which are in a tray on the table.
âI thought you might say that.â
I head over to the front desk, where the equipment I brought with me has been placed. I find what Iâm looking for and head back over to Megan.
âHere.â I take the lid off the flask and pour it into a mug, handing it to her.
She leans over the mug, peering at its contents. âWhatâs this?â
âGinger tea. Itâs my motherâs recipe. She used to make it for me to help when I was upset, after my dadââ I trail off. âWe discovered itâs pretty nice to drink when you canât stomach anything else.â
âOh.â Meganâs eyes close momentarily in pleasure as she takes a sip. âItâs delicious. Thank you.â
âYouâre very welcome, Megan.â Her name rolls off my tongue, and I swear her cheeks flush ever-so-slightly pink when I say it.
I catch her eyes, and they light up as she looks at me. I smile at her, no make that grin. I full-on fucking grin at her. So much for keeping it professional. If I thought for a second I could spend this time with her and be able to keep a lid on my feelings, then I was wrong. Seeing her now, smiling at me, sharing a moment, shows just how far off I was.
I know I should keep a distance.
But what I should do and want to do are fighting a war inside me right now, and itâs becoming clearer each time I see her which one will win.
âMr King, good morning,â Meganâs friend, Lydia, pipes up as she comes to join us, closely followed by their manager, Phil.
I donât miss the fact that his eyes are on Lydiaâs legs as he reaches us.
Lydia says something to Megan, which I donât hear, but she coughs into her mug as her eyes land on Philâs bright yellow tie. I raise an eyebrow at her in question, but she just smiles at me innocently. Iâll have to remember that she can pull a good poker face when she chooses to.
I reach out a hand. âGood morning, Phil.â
âIt is a good morning, isnât it? I must commend you on your choice of hotel. Itâs very impressive. Did you see the artwork behind the reception area? Outstanding.â He grins as he pumps my hand enthusiastically.
âIt certainly is. You are very lucky to have such talented people on your team like Megan.â
Phil frowns in confusion, and Megan looks at me in surprise before I nod at her and Lydia, then head off to talk to Tina.
Four hours later, we are almost finished.
The day has been a success.
The kids have been excitable and loud, as expected, but theyâve given us some great feedback and were engaging in the group discussions.
I head over to Meganâs table, where sheâs sat with some younger children, two boys and two girls.
âOkay, okay, Iâm almost done.â She smiles as she sweeps her pencil over the sketchpad on the table.
I walk up behind her and lean over her chair, resting one hand on the table.
âDid anyone ever tell you, you should be an artist?â I whisper.
She jumps in her seat, and the kids erupt into giggles.
âHe scared you!â a delighted boy says.
âI thought you were going to scream!â A little girl with a gap where her two front teeth should be grins.
âYes, he did.â Megan smiles, turning to narrow her eyes at me. âDonât you know itâs rude to creep up on people, Mr King?â
My dick twitches.
Mr King?
Fuck, the sound of her saying it like that has my mind racing off down all sorts of sordid rabbit holes.
âMy apologies, Megan.â
I pull up a spare chair from the neighbouring table and sit down next to her. She looks at me from the corner of her eye as a smile plays on her lips.
âHave you finished now?â the little girl with the toothy grin asks.
âYes, Iâm all done.â Megan tears the page from her sketchbook and hands it to her.
âThatâs so awesome!â the little boy next to her cries.
âI know! Iâm riding a dragon.â She turns to the little boy and gives him her best dragon roar.
Meganâs grinning as she watches them.
âDid you do all the kids one?â
I look at the drawings. I can recognise each child from Meganâs table, all drawn as mythical cartoon versions of themselves. One is riding a dragon, another one feeding a unicorn. One looks like heâs flying over a lake with a monster in it, and the last one is twirling up some kind of magical rainbow storm wearing a cape.
âYes, just the ones at this table.â She smiles and shrugs her shoulders as I catch her eye.
âWeâre the best table!â the little boy leans over and whispers.
âWe know the about the magic,â another little girl hisses.
âDonât tell him!â The little boy folds his arms and sticks out his bottom lip.
âItâs okay,â Megan points to me and leans forward, lowering her voice, âheâs one of the friendly ones.â
A little girl looks me up and down. âAre you sure? He doesnât look friendly to me.â
I stick out my tongue at her and cross my eyes until she giggles and claps a hand over her mouth.
âOh, heâs just had too much grumpy juice this morning,â Megan says.
I pull an exaggerated frown and then pretend to cry, rubbing my fists against my eyes. Megan looks at me, and her shoulders shake as she laughs.
âIs that the stuff grown-ups drink that smells like dirt?â The little boy screws up his nose.
Meganâs still laughing as she tilts her head to the side. âYeah, I guess it is.â
âYou didnât have any this morning. You had your happy juice,â the little girl says, looking at Meganâs now-empty mug of ginger tea.
âI did indeed. Jaxon gave me that. So, we know heâs a friendly one.â She gives me a smile, and my heart literally skips a beat.
âBut the one in the yellow tie, heâs a grumpy one?â the girl asks.
âHe can be,â Megan says.
âHe makes you draw other peopleâs bottoms!â the little boy squeals, and they all start giggling again.
âYes, he does that. But now Iâm here with all of you, drawing all sorts of fun stuff!â She grins at the kids.
Tinaâs PA, Sarah, appears and announces itâs time to go. The kids all groan in unison but soon perk up as she hands them each a goody-bag with theme park tickets and various magical treats and tricks in. They form a line, and all wait to give Megan a hug goodbye before they leave. She seems overwhelmed by it, smiling and saying something to each one of them.
She turns to me when theyâve all gone.
âWow. Tough crowd, but I think we won them over.â Her eyes are shining brightly with energy.
âYou won them over, you mean?â I look at her glowing face.
âI think the funny faces helped.â She smirks as she gathers up her things and starts packing them into her bag.
I blow out a chuckle and rub a hand across my chin. âI have a grown-up son. Itâs been a while since I spent time with kids that age, though.â
Megan nods in understanding. My mention of Christopher doesnât seem to be a surprise to her.
âWell, youâre very good with them. They liked you.â
âI donât know how I did it now, looking back. Itâs exhausting. Theyâre on the go twenty-four seven.â
âI can imagine.â She smiles.
âThank God, thatâs all behind me. I can enjoy things like lie-ins again now.â
Listen to me. I never lie in. Iâm always too busy working.
Meganâs smile fades, and her brow creases. She rises from her seat in a rush.
âIâll see you at the feedback meeting,â she says, avoiding my gaze.
âYes, okay. See you then,â I say, puzzled.
She gathers her things together and slips past me.
âBye, Jaxon.â
We were just chatting and laughing together minutes ago. Now she canât wait to get away from me.
I just canât get it right with her.
I try to keep away from her and end up coming across like Iâm in a perpetually foul mood. Now, when I try to loosen up and chat with her, she clams up.
I watch her walk across the room to meet Lydia.
The two of them walk out of the hall together, along with my last shred of hope that I have even the faintest clue about what just happened.