hundred and thirty-eight minutes later.THREEMONTHSANDONE
âHello, little one,â I coo as I stroke my finger down a chubby, pink cheek.
Jaxon sits in the seat next to the bed, wiping his hand across his eyes.
âI think your daughter wants another cuddle, Daddy.â I smile, looking over at him.
He raises his eyes to my face. Theyâre tired, rimmed with red from the lost nightâs sleep. The first of many, probably. Yet, he doesnât complain.
His face lights up as he takes the precious bundle out of my arms and sinks back into the chair.
âHello, beautiful girl,â he says to her before he looks up at me. âDid you see that? She wrinkled her nose, just like her mummy.â
âShe did not,â I reply with laughter.
He gazes back down at her, his eyes swimming with love and pride.
âSheâs so perfect, Megan. You, her⦠Iâm in heaven.â
âYouâre an old softie, you know that?â I reach over and place my hand on his arm.
âDonât tell anyone.â He smirks.
I smile as he cradles our daughter in his arms.
Our beautiful new beginning.
I told Articulate I wouldnât be back after maternity leave. Frankie is taking over as head of design, and he will be fantastic. And Tina has already asked me to do the rest of the White Fire book covers as a freelance job. Itâs still a long way to release for the later books, so I have time to work on them over maternity leave.
And Iâve found a new passion.
Since meeting Joanna and going to Martinâs book launch, Iâve met some amazing cancer survivors and their families. Iâve been getting requests for portraits. Some for after recovery, and some using photographs of those who were taken too soon.
Itâs heart-breaking.
But itâs an honour to be asked and trusted in such a way.
Life is precious and fragile.
But itâs also wonderful and beautifulâmuch like our lovely little nugget whoâs now dreaming in her daddyâs arms.
Dreaming of the big wide world and all the adventures she will have.
My heart could burst. I never thought Iâd be here today. Itâs not been easy, but itâs been worth every tear I cried. Every bump, every setback⦠they were all part of this journey.
And it isnât over yet.
The best is yet to come.
âYou know, everyoneâs going to be waiting for news.â
Jaxon looks up at me. âOkay, letâs make the calls. Tell everyone how she arrived exactly one hundred and thirty-eight minutes after arriving at the hospital.â
I tilt my head. âYou think your dad helped bring her to us safely?â
Jaxon told me about the visits to his dadâs grave.
The last time he went there, I went with him, and we counted those steps together, side by side.
âDo you think thatâs silly?â He looks over at me.
âNot at all. I think itâs beautiful.â
âTheyâre going to want to know her name.â Jaxon gets up from his chair and perches on the bed next to me.
I lean my head against his arm and look down at our daughter staring back up at us, her eyes struggling to focus.
âYou said youâre in heaven,â I murmur.
Jaxon kisses my head. âI am. You two are my heaven.â
âHow about Nevaeh? Itâs Heaven backwards.â
âNevaeh,â he says, trying it out. âI guess you and I never do things the straightforward way, do we?â His eyes crinkle at the corners as he chuckles.
âWhereâs the fun in that?â I giggle.
âNevaeh,â he says again as he smiles at me.
My heart lifts.
The sight of him sitting here with our daughter in his arms is better than any sketch I could draw in my sketchbook.
This right here is art.
Real, true, living and breathing art.
Life brought us together. Love held us to one another even when we thought we were slipping from one anotherâs grasp.
And she came from all of it.
Our biggest masterpiece.
Nevaeh.