For the first time in my life, my escape plan fails before it even starts.
As I stare at the fury emanating off Jonathanâs features, I know, I just know that thereâs no way in hell Iâll ever be able to escape.
Iâll end up like Alicia.
Roaming the halls. Hallucinating. Poisoned.
Dead.
A rush of life shoots through my bubbling veins and I push at his chest with my bloodied palms, my limbs flailing about. Iâm acting straight out of irrational anger and the need to stay alive. Gone is my logical, strategic side â it was killed when I didnât hit the ground and fell back into Jonathanâs cage. âLet me go!â
My fight is futile. Itâs like he doesnât feel my fists against his shirt or my scratches against the skin of his collarbone. Itâs almost as if heâs waiting for my fit of anger to subside and for me to go slack.
I donât.
I squirm and wiggle and push and punch. I use every trick under the sun to get away from his merciless grip.
The silent treatment greets me as he walks me back to the house.
No, noâ¦
My energy heightens and I kick my feet in the air in an attempt to make him loosen his hold.
All I get is a harsh squeeze on my outer thigh. Ouch.
We pass the statue of the Virgin Mary carrying the little angel as they both cry, and a scary sense of foreboding goes through me.
A realisation, too.
That statue represented Aliciaâs life in the King mansion. She was crying and no one saw her. She suffered and no one helped her.
If anything, her husband and life companion poisoned her. He killed her.
He killed my sister.
Angry tears fill my eyes as I elbow and claw at his side. I know it wonât get me anywhere with his strength, but as long as I can breathe, Iâll fight.
Iâm a fighter. A survivor. Iâve come this far, and I wonât allow Jonathan to dictate my end.
It doesnât matter that my palms keep bleeding. The sting and the burn will eventually go away once Iâm out of here.
Margot appears at the entrance, wearing a long nightgown. She mustâve gotten out of bed due to the commotion.
âHelp me, Margot! Help!â I scream at the top of my lungs.
She opens her mouth, then closes it while she watches the scene like itâs out of a freak show. Iâm struggling in Jonathanâs hold while his face is stone-cold as if itâs made of fucking granite.
âSirâ¦?â she asks, almost uncertain.
âGo back to sleep, Margot,â he tells her in a firm tone that accepts no negotiations, his attention focused ahead.
âNo!â I squirm. âNooo!â
I stare behind me at Margot, hoping against all hope that sheâll follow and somehow help me out of the tyrantâs clutches.
Sheâs not there.
No one is.
Itâs only me and him.
By the time we reach my room, my energy has waned, but that doesnât make me stop. I canât stop. If I do, that means Iâm admitting defeat, and I would never do that.
I hate how easily Jonathan overpowers me with a squeeze of his big hand around my thigh or arm. I hate that Iâm so small in comparison to his frame.
I hate him.
I hate him so much, not only because of what happened to Alicia, but because I was about to instil my trust in him.
I was fucking falling for him, and for what? For this betrayal. For thisâ¦desolation.
Itâs like my feelings are trapped in a state of hyperawareness and itâs almost impossible to sort through them.
All I know is that I need to leave. Now.
âAre you done?â he asks in that closed-off tone of his. His features are blank and the lack of reaction, the fact that I canât read past his façade, is more frightening than if heâd lashed out at me.
Jonathan isnât a man to be taken lightly, and to be caught under his thumb means danger. However, that doesnât stop my innate need to run.
âIâll never be done. Lock me up again and Iâll try to escape until I finally do it.â I punch him one more time for good measure.
He places me on the bed and I scramble away like an injured animal.
In fact, I am.
The bandages covering my palms are soaked in blood. My knees and lip sting, and the back of my head throbs.
However, thatâs nothing compared to being stabbed, crawling out of the grave, and suturing myself.
If I could endure that, then I can endure this.
Jonathan stands in front of the bed, both hands in his pockets, appearing like a warlord sampling his prisoner of war. There are a few scratch marks on his neck and collarbone, and blood stains on his light blue shirt.
I try to hold on to my hate for him, but I donât like inflicting pain on others. Thatâs so similar to my dad, and I promised myself to never be like Dad.
No.
Iâm only defending myself like any injured animal trying to escape. Itâs only natural that Iâd scratch, bite, and claw.
Jonathan stares down his arrogant nose at me. The storm brewing in his grey gaze is a force not to be reckoned with. âMeasures are already in place, so you will not be able to escape, and even if you do, Iâll find you in no time, Aurora. Now, why donât you stop fucking around and tell me whatâs with the show youâre putting on.â
I lift my chin, refusing to answer.
âYou wonât talk? Is that it?â Jonathan lowers his knees to the bed, dipping the mattress.
I hold my ground, meeting his unfeeling eyes with all the bitterness and hate in mine.
His knees are on either side of my legs as he cages me in and lifts my chin with two lean fingers, trapping me with his savage eyes.
At a naïve moment, I imagined that I was seeing myself in those eyes. Thatâs far from accurate.
Thereâs no way Iâd be able to. His gaze is bland, lifeless, and only filled with the purpose to hurt or to be obeyed.
Or both.
His philosophy is that heâll hurt whoever doesnât obey him. That heâll make them disappear as if they never existed.
Is that what happened to Alicia?
Despite my attempts to regulate my breathing, itâs chopped off and Iâm straight out panting as if Iâve just returned from a hike.
âWhat was that stunt all about, Aurora?â
âI want to go out,â I blurt.
âGo out where?â
âI want to go to visit Layla.â
âAt three in the morning dressed like that?â
I stare down at myself and realise Iâm only wearing a thin nightgown that outlines my breasts and stops above my knees. I hadnât thought about that earlier, but now, Iâm starting to feel self-conscious. It takes all I have to speak in a semi-neutral tone, âSheâs a night owl. She wouldnât mind.â
âTry again.â
âJust let me go, Jonathan!â
âThatâs not how it works. You live here, and that includes abiding by my rules. That means, no jumping from the second fucking floor when youâre injured. In fact, even if you arenât. That nonsense wonât happen again.â
The anger in his tone lands on my skin like whips. Itâs even more painful than his clutch on my jaw.
He releases me and I suck in big gulps of air. It doesnât last long as he pulls the first aid kit and undoes my palm bandages. I wince when the bloodied cloth is ripped off my skin. Despite his lethal expression, heâs not harsh about it, but the flesh is cut deeper than I anticipated.
âWere you even fucking thinking?â He examines my palms with disapproval as he soaks them with the disinfectant.
The sting makes me sink my teeth into the cushion of my bottom lip and I inhale through my nose until theyâre finally clean. There are a few cuts positioned both diagonally and horizontally.
Jonathan wraps new bandages around the wounds and I stare at him from beneath my lashes, my body tightening for the next fight-or-flight mode.
Iâve had too many rushes of adrenaline for one day. I feel like Iâm going to collapse from the force of them.
But itâs not like I can order my body to shut down. Survival has always been my natural gift.
After heâs finished with my palms, he checks my knee. Seeming satisfied with the bandage, he leaves it alone and pushes the box away. However, he remains looming over me like a threat, his brows still drawn together, and his expression is that of destruction.
Itâs like when I first re-met him. When I didnât trust him. Why the hell did I think I could trust him?
âWhatâs going on, Aurora?â
âNothing.â
âYou want to tell me you escaped to fucking Yorkshire, got attacked, pushed me away, then jumped by a rope made from sheets for nothing?â
Not finding anything to say, I purse my lips.
âI thought so,â he continues, his closeness doing shit to me Iâm not supposed to feel right now. Why the hell do I keep inhaling him in?
And why on earth do I want to erase those scratch marks on his neck? He deserved them.
Right?
He grabs my jaw, nearly swallowing it in the palm of his hand. âHereâs how itâll go, Aurora. Youâll tell me the truth, and Iâll decide how to deal with you afterwards.â
I clamp my mouth shut.
âLast chance.â His fingers dig into my cheeks. âYou wonât like how Iâll react if you keep this tantrum up.â
âThe only truth you need to know is that I hate you.â
âWrong answer.â He releases me with a shove and I fall back on to my elbows.
My heart hammers at the dark promise in his voice, and I hold my breath, waiting for his next move.
Is he going to punish me?
Spank me?
I hate how my thighs throb at that thought. Screw that and screw him. Iâm getting out of here the first chance I get.
It may take me a day or two, or however long it does, but itâs not like Jonathan will remain by my side for eternity.
Heâs a workaholic. Come morning, I have no doubt heâll piss off to screw more lives over. That will be my chance to escape.
Jonathan stands in front of my bed, his monster mask back on as he slips a hand in his pocket. âYouâll remain in this room until you talk.â
âW-what?â
âYouâre the one whoâll choose if itâll be hours, days, or weeks.â He tilts his head to the side. âOr even months.â
âYou canât lock me in. Thatâs kidnapping!â
âIf thatâs what you want to label it.â He turns to leave but stops and throws over his shoulder, âAnd donât try to jump from the balcony again. I have my security surrounding the perimeter.â
âYou canât keep me here, Jonathan!â
âThen fucking talk.â His threatening tone slams into me and remains behind him as the door closes.
Thatâs when I hear it. The sound of my freedom being stripped away.
The sound of a lock.
Shit. Fuck.
I run to the door and test the doorknob, and sure enough, itâs locked.
After kicking it, I jog over to the balcony where the sheet rope is still hanging, and sure enough, two buff men dressed in black stand there.
My legs fail me, and I slip to a sitting position. Two realisations hit me at once.
One. I failed the only escape I couldâve had from here, because now that Jonathan knows of my intentions, heâll make sure I never have the chance to repeat it.
Two. I have a weird sensation that Iâm reliving Aliciaâs fate all over again.