Sebastien
Month 12, Day 17, Thursday 8:30 p.m.
On Oliverâs instruction, Sebastien stopped by a small apothecary in the good part of town just before they closed and bought a single potion. Heâd given her a purse of twenty gold for the new missionâs expenses, but she still found the price of nineteen silver exorbitant and painful. In a small town, the same amount could have fed her for two to three weeks. âEverything in Gilbratha is overpriced,â she grumbled mentally.
Back at the University, a couple of hours after sundown, she stopped by Tanyaâs dorm door. Light shone through the crack at the bottom, and the movement of shadows showed someone was awake within. Sebastien listened for a while, but heard nothing.
Satisfied that she wouldnât gain anything from more snooping at the moment, she strode into the dorms and retrieved a few small items from the chest at the base of her bed.
Westbayâs cubicle was only a couple away from her own. His curtains were still open, and he sat in bed scribbling on a piece of paperâlikely working on one of the essays theyâd been assigned. He looked up, meeting her gaze with some surprise.
âCome with me,â she said. Without waiting for a response, she turned around and strode out of the room. She heard Westbay scrambling to put on his boots and coat behind her, but didnât slow, heading out of the dorm building and toward the Citadel.
She went to the classroom that Westbay and his friends used for their morning study group. The building was mostly empty by now, with classes over and those who wanted to study likely gone to the library to do so. She took a seat at the table.
When Westbay entered, she said, âClose the door.â When he did so, she gestured to the seat across from her. It was an auspicious sign that he was obeying without complaint or hesitation.
He settled slowly into the chair, light grey eyes meeting her dark ones, full of questions.
She folded her hands on the table, staring at him until the silence became uncomfortable. Finally, she asked, âWhat did you see today?â
âWhat did I see?â he repeated, confused.
âI had the idea that youâre not completely oblivious to whatâs going on around you. Was I wrong?â
Damien leaned forward, his shoulders loosening even as his chin rose and a small, satisfied smile stretched his lips. âYou werenât wrong. I did see things. I saw that Tanya Canelo got a letter that made her anxious. I saw that you followed her, or whatever clue you picked up from that divination spell you were castingâI noticed that, tooâto Eagle Tower. I saw that she seemed to know when the rogue magic sirens would go off, almost as if it was planned.â He paused, searching for a reaction, but when she gave him none, he continued. âI saw that she hid while everyone was evacuating, and was in the perfect position to cause that alchemy explosion and stop the coppers from finding the Raven Queen. I saw she had a scar, and I saw that it meant something to you, but I donât know what. And I saw that you disappeared after classes, which probably has something to do with all this.â
Her expression remained neutral. âIs that all?â It was more than she had hoped, definitely, but it could have been worse. Westbay wasnât a complete idiot, after all.
He seemed taken aback. âWellâ¦perhaps I missed some things because I donât have all the connecting information to understand whatâs mundane and whatâs a clue. But I think I did fairly well for coming into your investigation cold. Donât you?â
âMy investigation? Well, thatâs about the best spin he could put on it. Except he has ties to real investigators, and none of them will have any clue who I am, or find it amusing that Iâve seemingly been withholding evidence on an ongoing operation.â She remained silent for a few moments, trying to figure out the best approach. âI wish Oliver was here. He may have coached me, but an hour is not enough to gain real skill.â Aloud, she asked, âHave you mentioned any of this to anyone?â
Westbay shook his head. âNo. I can keep a secret, Sebastien. I told you that. And Iâm not an idiot. You donât go around talking about an open investigation where a possible enemy or criminal could hear you.â
âNot even to the coppers?â she asked.
His eyes narrowed. âYou havenât gone to them either,â he said, as if defending himself.
She raised an eyebrow.
He frowned. âUnlessâ¦they know about you?â
She kept her eyebrow raised.
His frown flattened and his eyes went wide. âOr they have moles among the ranks,â he breathed, âand you canât go to them.â
He wasnât wrong. Oliver did have informants among the coppers, though that had nothing to do with this. Westbay was also making up his own answers to unanswered questions, just like Oliver had said he would.
âWhatâs going on? With Canelo, and youâ¦and the Raven Queen? Who set off those rogue magic alarms? Was it the Raven Queen? Tell me,â Westbay commanded.
Sebastien snorted.
Westbayâs eyes narrowed. âYou owe me a favor, Siverling. Do I need to call it due?â
She bared her teeth at him. âThat favor is the only reason youâre in this room with me right now. But itâs only a medium favor. Not nearly enough to get that kind of information. Besides, Iâm not sure youâre being totally truthful about your ability to maintain confidentiality, Westbay. Because you did indeed talk about an ongoing investigation with me, who you didnât know and had no idea that you could trust. All I had to do was show a little interest in the Raven Queen.â
He gaped and stammered before recovering. âWell, that was⦠I didnât give out any critical information, and probably nothing you couldnât have found out by going to the right taverns after a shift of coppers were off work for the day. This is different.â
âYouâve proven your mouth can be loose when you donât think itâs important, or when youâre around friends, or when you want to impress someone.â
âThis is different,â he insisted, his nose flaring as he leaned forward. âIâd never talk about a case Iâm involved in, whether the information was important or not.â
âNot even to your closest family members? To your brother?â
âMy brother? Youâ¦think Titus canât be trusted? Or someone around him?â
She waved her hand dismissively. âI think that if youâll tell a secret to your closest family memberâ¦â She leaned forward. âIf youâll talk at all, thatâs it. Youâll talk. And even if itâs only ever to that one person, even if itâs only when it seems reasonable, even necessary, then that one person can be used against you. In your case, Westbay, thereâs one particular enemy that Iâd like to avoid ever getting wind of what Iâand possibly youâwill be doing here.â She waited a beat. âYour father.â
He blinked, then shook his head. âMy father? Heâs notââ
âI believe you know thatâs not true,â she said firmly, cutting him off. She resisted the urge to swallow nervously or let her gaze slide away.
He stared back at her, small expressions she couldnât decipher flitting across his face. Finally, he said, âIâm not sure if youâre insinuating something deeper, but youâre right that heâd want to stop me, and you by extension. He doesnât respect me.â His last sentence was simple, but even Sebastien could tell it held a wealth of emotion.
She leaned into it. âThe man is a stain on the name of all nobility,â she said, her voice low. Oliver had told her a strong, even offensive stance against Lord Westbay would be one of the best ways to keep his sonâs mouth shut.
Damienâs eyelids fluttered at the words.
She pushed one step further. âHe has no honor.â
When Damien didnât immediately respond, she knew she hadnât misstepped. It was actually somewhat exhilarating.
âYouâre different from him,â she continued. âAnd you donât have to be constrained by your name or your blood. So let me ask you, Damien Westbay. What do you want?â
He considered for a moment, then said, âI want to know whatâs going on. Iâd like to help, as an ally.â
Sebastien almost released a bark of incredulous laughter. âHas he not even considered the danger, or that whatever Iâm involved in might not be on the side of the âgood guysâ from those stories he likes to read?â
âYou might think Iâm foolish, but thereâs a lot I can offer, Sebastien. Iâm a Westbayââ
She cut him off. âYour name holds no meaning to me. Itâs your character I want to see.â Oliver had said to make it personal, to make Damien feel seen and accepted. âWhat do you want?â
âYou already asked that. I told youââ
âWhat do you want out of life? What mark do you hope to make on the tapestry of fate? What is your true goal, your real ambition? What will give you worth, Damien? It is not your last name. Answer carefully.â
His nostrils flared as he took a deep breath. Despite the chill in the air that wasnât fully dispersed by the Citadelâs climate spells, his temples were starting to bead with tiny dots of sweat.
It took him a while to answer, but she waited silently, her own heart rushing in her chest with the thrill of it. âThis is power, too,â she admitted silently. âI can see why Oliver likes it.
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âI want to do something that peopleââ Damien broke off, and after another long pause he finally said, in a softer voice, âI want to feel like I matter.â
It was sincere, and raw enough that Sebastien had to look away for a moment, feeling uncomfortable and a little guilty. âI can give you that chance,â she said in an equally soft voice, returning her gaze to his. âIf you would like to join my operationâand let me be clear that it is rarely as exciting as it was today, and is likely to be nothing more than a boring strain on your ability to complete your homework. If youâd like to join, Iâd like to have you.â
âYes,â he said, this time without an ounce of hesitation.
âYou should have hesitated. So that I would know you really understood what you were promising. Youâll be a probationary member of this team, and will be giving up the favor I owe you in exchange. Iâm in charge. Youâll be doing boring work, sometimes relegated to research. You wonât get to know all the details. This will be nothing like an Aberford Thorndyke story, and you will never get to talk about it to anyone.â
âI agree,â he said, again without hesitation. âThe reason Iâm not hesitating now is because I already decided I wanted in on this. Iâm fine with everything you just said.â
âIt could be dangerous. And you will have to prove your loyalty as well as your ability. You may occasionally have to do things that are unpleasant, that would embarrass you, or even go against the laws.â
âI agree,â he repeated for a third time, unable to keep the excitement from sparkling in his eyes.
She settled back, still somewhat unsatisfied. âI wish I could get him to sign a blood print vow of secrecy, but even suggesting such a thing would send most people running to the coppers. Iâll just have to risk it. If he hadnât inserted himself into things today and ended up getting too much information for comfort, Iâd never bring him into it. But at least this way, I can keep him close and hopefully under control.â
He frowned at her, a hint of irritation leaking through. âAre you still holding a grudge because of the way our acquaintance started? Iâve learned to look past your abrasive nature, Sebastien. You could do me the same courtesy.â
She sighed. âFine. Pending your initiation, youâre a provisional part of the team, Westbay.â
âDamien. You should call me Damien. I already call you Sebastien, after all. Unless!â He paused dramatically, perking up. âShould we have codenames? I could be Nighthawk. Or Shadowbane. You could beâ¦â
Sebastien raised a hand to forestall him. âDamien is as far as Iâm willing to go. Take what you can get.â She had more than enough identities to keep track of already, she didnât need another.
He seemed a bit disappointed, but perked up quickly. âWhatâs this initiation, then? Who are the other members of your team? Are you part of an organization? Or on a secret mission from the coppers?â When she didnât answer, he inhaled sharply, his eyes going wide. âA secret mission from the Red Guard?â
âYou are letting your imagination run away with you,â she said, standing. âCome with me.â She led him into the Menagerie, walking till she found a spot far enough away from the light-bordered cobblestone paths that their night vision wouldnât be affected, where there was a wide, clear view of the sky.
Damien matched her silence as she picked up a stick and scratched a Circle into the leaf-strewn, dying ground, big enough for the both of them to stand inside.
It was windy, which it often was this high up, and the flurries carried dead leaves and the premonition of snow. The moonâs glow filtered sideways through the trees, but the sky was clear and cloudless. The stars were clearly visible. Sebastien looked up at them with satisfaction.
Damien cleared his throat. âWhat are we doing here?â he asked in a hushed voice.
She lowered her head to look at him. âPerhaps you didnât really understand what you were getting into. Do you want to go back? We can forget everything thatâs happened tonight. Itâs not too late.â Of course, she didnât really want him to be frightened off. She wanted to bind him with shackles formed entirely in his own mind. That was the purpose of most initiation rituals, after all. Oliver thought it would be more effective with a group of people to lend to the sense of ceremony, but she didnât have that luxury.
âWhat does that mean?â he asked.
âYou can be just Damien Westbay, University student who goes to classes and has fun with his friends. You wonât be a part of this, but nothing will be expected of you. Maybe you will find a way to matter on your own.â
He stared at her for a few seconds in the darkness. She couldnât tell what he was thinking, but just when she was growing worried, he stepped forward, joining her within the Circle.
She smiled. âStay here.â Turning around, she pulled the shallow bowl sheâd retrieved from the dorms out of her pockets. There was a small stream nearby, and she dipped the bowl into it, filling it with a couple ounces of water. She returned, handing the bowl to Damien. âHold this.â
He cupped it carefully, holding it in front of his chest with both hands.
She stepped back into the Circle with him, bringing her Will to bear. Like when she was brewing a potion, she used her Will to reinforce every movement. It lent a feeling of meaning, of ritual importance to the process, even for the parts that magic wasnât technically required for, and during which she wasnât channeling any actual thaums of energy.
Here, she simply fed her Will into the Circle, consuming slight amounts of heat from the dome around them and adding a tension to the air as she claimed authority over everything within. It took barely any effort, but Damien would be able to feel it in his hind-brain, and it would lend gravitas to the impromptu ceremony.
She reached into her pockets and pulled out three small vials. âState your name.â
He swallowed. âI am Damien Corolianus Westbay.â
She resisted the urge to make a comment about his ridiculous middle name. âDamien Corolianus Westbay, I exhort your silence.â She took a drop of the first vialâs herbal oil extract on her finger and touched it to his forehead, staring down into his eyes, which seemed almost as dark as hers with nothing but the light of the stars to illuminate them. âWill you keep our secrets, knowing when to speak and when to remain silent?â
âI will,â he whispered.
She increased the pressure of her Will, though still she was casting no magic.
She anointed him with the second vialâs drop of oil. âI exhort your loyalty. Will you support us and our efforts faithfully and fully, with true heart and steady hand?â
âI will.â
She increased the pressure once more, then touched him with the third oil, the sharp smell of peppermint only increasing that feel of unreleased tension. âI exhort your resolve. Will you persevere through hardships and the wear of time, exerting yourself to fulfill our cause?â
âI will,â Damien said for the third time.
Sebastien pushed harder with her Will, till she approached the limit of her ability to coil potential force without anything to apply it to. She pulled the astronomy potion out of her pocket and poured it into the shallow bowl of water, then supported his cupped hands with her own. âOur purpose,â she said, leaning forward slightly and trying to sound serious, âis freedomâ¦and enlightenment. Drink, and look up. See beyond the edge of the sky.â
He hesitated, but she gave him a shallow nod of encouragement, and he lifted the shallow bowl and drank down its contents in a couple of quick gulps.
As soon as he lowered the bowl, she released her Will at once with a mental outward thrust, just to be safe. It barely did anything, causing a small flurry of leaves and sending a couple of animals that had been hiding nearby scurrying away in alarm. But the sudden lack of tension was palpable.
Damien gasped as he looked up at the night sky.
This particular potion had been Oliverâs suggestion. It wasnât mind-altering, addictive, or harmful in any way, except if the user took it and then looked into a bright light. It improved long-distance night vision, making the stars seem brighter, clearer, and more colorful. It also supposedly emphasized the dark emptiness of the rest of space. In essence, the potion created a poor version of the effects of a telescope while allowing a much wider field of view.
Many of those who had taken this particular potion for the first time reported an overwhelming wave of emotions bordering on awe, with the awareness of how small and insignificant they wereâand the Earth wasâcompared to the vast, terrible beauty of space. Intense emotions would make Damien feel more bound to the promises heâd made and to their shared secret.
Damienâs eyes filled with tears, and he blinked to send them spilling down his cheeks, breathing hard as he gazed up in wonder. âItâsâI donâtââ
âShh. I know. Just see. Just let yourself be conscious.â She waited a few minutes, until the tears had stopped flowing and his breath was beginning to slow, then said, âRepeat after me. I am small, as are we all.â
He did as she said, still staring up at the sky.
âBut I am not without purpose. We are not without meaning.â She pulled the novelty drink coaster sheâd gotten from Oliver out of her pocket. It was black marble embedded with a light crystal.
Using the stone disintegration and reformation exercise Professor Lacer had assigned them, sheâd managed to mold the original circular light crystal into a thirteen-pointed star, working to pull out its edges in tiny sections. She didnât want to give Damien something heâd recognize from some high-class artifact shop, after all.
âThere are stars in this world, too,â she finished. When heâd echoed her, she said, âLook at me.â
Slowly, he drew his gaze back down to the earth.
She twisted the black marble disk, slotting the inner section into the outer, and the light crystal activated, a star among darkness. She handed it to him in her cupped hands. âYou may be one of them, if you prove yourself worthy.â
He squinted against the mild glow of the light crystal, but took it reverently.
âThis is the sign of our people,â she said. âIf ever anyone comes to you with one, you will know you can trust them, and should help them if they need it.â
Letting out a shaky breath that fogged in the air and refracted the light of the crystal, he nodded. âDoes itâ¦this group, or order, does it have a name?â
She rolled her eyes. âWhatâs with you and wanting a dramatic name for everything?â
He looked up from the light, the mystique of the moment lessened. His lips quirked up in amusement, and he scrubbed the tear tracks from his cheeks, sniffing hard.n/o/vel/b//in dot c//om
âNo,â she said, deciding not to make something up on the spot. âWe have no name. Things that have names get talked about. Besides, we need no label to constrain us.â
âFreedom and enlightenment?â he echoed from her earlier words. âHow exactly does that work? What do we actually do?â
âWe do what is needed to fulfill our purpose, especially where others do not. Think on these principles. On what it means to be a light in the dark. I cannot give you the answer. It must be understood on your own.â It was vague nonsense, but the best she could do with no real answer prepared.
He frowned over this for a moment, then asked, âHow many of us are there?â
âYouâre only a provisional member, remember? You donât get to know everything.â She picked up the bowl, which had dropped on the ground at some point, and jerked her head in the direction of the University. âCome on, letâs get back.â
âWhat do I need to do to become a full member?â he asked, following her back onto the lit path.
She shrugged. âThereâs no specific assignment. Youâll prove yourself or you wonât. Thereâs no penalty if you donât, but your involvementâincluding the ability to ask questionsâis limited as a provisional member.â
He mulled this over for a few moments before carefully tucking the drink coaster into a pocket on the inside of his jacket. âWhatâs my first assignment, then?â
âWeâll be gathering information on Tanya Canelo and her associates. I want to bring on an informant to help us keep track of her,â she said. âNot another member, just a contractor. You wonât have enough time to do it by yourself.â
He nodded slowly. âOkay. Who?â
âNewton Moore,â she said simply.
A smirk grew on Damienâs face. âOh, that is perfect. He has a flawless excuse to spend time with her. Theyâre both student liaisons, and they have at least half their classes together. But can he be trusted?â
âYouâll help me judge that. He wonât know anything about whatâs really going on, but we still need him to be both thorough and discreet. From what I know of him, he has both qualities.â
âWe should conduct the interview right away. I donât want Canelo getting out of our sight for a moment,â he said gravely.
âI agree. And we will be doing more than personal observation, if we can manage it. But for the moment,â she said, checking the time on her pocket watch with the approaching lights of the University buildings, âIâm pretty sure Newton is tutoring someone in the library. What do you say we catch him as soon as heâs alone?â
Damien smoothed back his hair, straightened his clothes, and took the lead, striding straight toward the circular building.