ððððð¸ð¶ð¶ð´ð ðð°ðð½ð¸ð½ð¶ðð
(self harming)
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It was back.
The same vile feeling had returned, Izuku had heard Almight had came back yesterday, and now all the greenette felt was fear.
He didn't want to see the yellow hair men, ever again.
No matter how hard he scrubbed his skin, it still felt like Yagi was touching him.
He needed this wretched feeling to leave.
After all today was beach day and Izuku already felt extremely nervous.
He couldn't find any tops left which means swimming is off the table for him.
He just hoped he could convince everyone he was sick, but not sick enough to where he had to stay at the dorms.... with Almight.
ð¨ð¸ð¾ ð¬ð¸ð¾ðµð ðªðµððªðð¼ ð¬ð¾ð½.
ð£ð±ð® ð¯ð®ð®ðµð²ð·ð° ðð®ð·ð½ ðªððªð ð«ð®ð¯ð¸ð»ð®, ð»ð®ð¶ð®ð¶ð«ð®ð»
ðªð·ð ðð¸ð¾ð» ðªðµð»ð®ðªðð ð·ð¸ð½ ð°ð¸ð²ð·ð° ð¼ðð²ð¶ð¶ð²ð·ð°.
That was true.
But he promised himself it was a one time thing!!
ðð¾ð½ ð¸ð·ð® ð¶ð¸ð»ð® ð½ð²ð¶ð® ð¬ð¸ð¾ðµðð·'ð½ ð±ð¾ð»ð½.
ðð¯ð½ð®ð» ðªðµðµ ð½ð±ð²ð¼ ð½ð²ð¶ð® ð²ð½'ðµðµ ð¯ð¸ð» ð¼ð¾ð»ð® ð½ðªð´ð® ð½ð±ð® ð¯ð®ð®ðµð²ð·ð° ðªððªð.
It was something about that soft voice, that lulled Izuku into wanting to listen to it.
Almost like it knew how to get in his mind, and twist him into believing this was the only way to get his self back.
To not feel as filthy as he does feel.
Which is why he found himself, reaching for the blade in his top drawer again.
Maybe if he..... just one more time.
This feeling should go away for final right??
Just one more time.....
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The raven hair teach did not sleep well last night, they had surprised him with another night patrol, which is why when he noticed a certain student wasn't there he became agitated.
'Why was it always either Midoriya or Bakugo when things aren't going the way it supposed to!?'
That same question repeated in his head, as he stormed up stairs and barged into the greenette's room.
"Please explain to me-"
Blood.
That was the first thing Aizawa
had noticed.
The next it was the fact that Midoriya was only in his underwear, and he had multiple self inflicted wounds on his wrist, thighs, and legs.
"M-Midoriya."
The raven hair teach, was speechless.
How did he not see the signs??
He noticed how his student had become distant, how he wasn't using his quirk anymore.
Heck he didn't even smile like he used to.
But Aizawa assumed that he was just over worked like his other students, that's why he agreed for this beach trip.
"Mr. Aizawa I- This- I was just-"
Izuku was choking back on his tears, he didn't think anyone would just barge in.
Nor did he think his door was unlocked!!
He should of checked, worst of all the feeling of his hands were still there, no matter how many times he scarred his skin.
Why couldn't everything just disappear, he wanted to disappear.
"I-It's ok Midoriya, just breath."
"In."
"And out. "
"In."
"And out. "
"It's alright, no ones gonna hurt you, no ones angry at you. "
"Your safe. "
Shota tried his best to gently coaxed the greenette into calming down.
"I-I'm sorry. "
Midoriya whispered, tears still falling down but he was finally breathing normally at least.
"It's alright, you don't need to apologize. "
"Maybe we should cancel the trip-"
"No!"
"Please don't. "
"Everyone is looking forward to it, a-and I don't want to be the one that ruins it. "
"I'm fine, really-"
"Midoriya your not fine. "
"This isn't fine. "
"Ok, ok. "
"Just please don't cancel the trip. "
Izuku begged, he didn't want to be the reason for ruining everyone's vacation.
However his teacher didn't see it that way, he had personal experience in this department and he knew leaving it be would be the worst decision he ever makes.
But he could tell Izuku wasn't gonna budge, and he'd probably hate himself more if he ruins his class mates vacation.
"Alright fine. "
"But I'm assigning room mates, and you'll be mine. "
ð¦ð±ð ðð¸ ðð¸ð¾ ð½ð±ð²ð·ð´ ð±ð®'ðµðµ ððªð·ð½ ðð¸ð¾ ðªð¼ ð±ð²ð¼ ð»ð¸ð¸ð¶ ð¶ðªð½ð®
ðð®'ð¼ ð¹ð»ð¸ð«ðªð«ðµð ð°ð¸ð·ð·ðª ð»ðªð¹ð® ðð¸ð¾.
ðð¾ð¼ð½ ðµð²ð´ð® ððµð¶ð²ð°ð±ð½ ðð²ð.
'He wouldn't do that.'
ð¨ð¸ð¾ ðð²ðð·'ð½ ð½ð±ð²ð·ð´ ððµð¶ð²ð°ð±ð½ ðð¸ð¾ðµð ð®ð²ð½ð±ð®ð».
"Uhm I'm sorry sensei but I don't feel comfortable with that.... "
Midoriya mumbled.
That raised a few questions in the raven hair teach's head and much more theories.
Though he hoped they were wrong.
"No need to apologize. "
"I understand. "
"Is there anyone you'd feel comfortable knowing about this situation, and rooming with? "
Obviously Midoriya didn't want anyone knowing, he didn't want anyone pitying him.
But he could tell Aizawa, wasn't gonna budge on this, especially if the greenette wanted the beach trip to still be happening.
So he had to think of someone who knew how to keep a secret, and won't pity hi-
Katsuki.
"Bakugo?"
The insomniac teach nodded his head, that was definitely understandable.
Despite their weird history,
Aizawa knew Izuku cared for the blonde and Katsuki cared for the greenette.
So he'd make sure Izuku didn't do anything like this again.
"Alright, and we will be talking about this when we get back."
"But like I said before your not in trouble, me and you will just talk. "
"You won't tell A-Almight right?"
"No, I won't"
"The only ones who will know is me, you and Bakugo. "
"I'd rather no one know. "
The freckled teen whispered under his breath.
He knew it was pointless now, to complain.
At least he knew Katsuki wouldn't really care.
When Midoriya didn't say anything else, his teacher decided to speak up again.
"Let's get you cleaned and bandaged up, and then we'll meet with the others and Almight.
"A-Almight?"
Izuku stuttered out in disbelief.
How was he gonna stay away from him now!?
"Yeah, he offered and I told him I could probably use the extra hand. "
Midoriya couldn't believe his ears, he thought he had one more week before he had to face Yagi!!
What was he gonna do!?
Before Izuku knew it he was having trouble breathing even more, he kept chasing and chasing his breath.
Trying to stay calm.
He needed to stay calm!!
"Midoriya?"
"Hey, it's ok. "
"I'm not gonna tell him, he won't know unless you mention it. "
That's not what Midoriya was worried about.
But how was he gonna explain that??
Answer, he couldn't.
ð¢ð½ð¸ð¹ ð«ð®ð²ð·ð° ð¼ð¸ ðð®ðªð´
ðð® ðð¸ð·'ð½ ð«ð®ðµð²ð®ð¿ð® ðð¸ð¾ ð²ð¯ ðð¸ð¾ ð½ð®ðµðµ ð±ð²ð¶, ð¼ð¸Â ð³ð¾ð¼ð½ ð¬ðªðµð¶ ð½ð±ð®ð· ð¯ð¾ð¬ð´ ðð¸ðð·.
And like magic he felt numb.
He didn't think it was possible to feel absolutely nothing.
He didn't feel any fear, any sadness or anger.
Just numb.
And that scared the raven hair guy in front of him.
He could tell it seemed like a switch had been flipped, and he wasn't sure how Midoriya would act being like.... well like this.
"Thank you Aizawa. "
The adult smiled at his student, he wasn't sure what exactly was going through the greenette's mind.
But he knew for a fact he was gonna do all he can to help him.