Chapter 30: 𝓣𝓱𝓲𝓻𝓽𝔂

🛑𝚃𝚁𝙸𝙶𝙶𝙴𝚁 𝚆𝙰𝚁𝙽𝙸𝙽𝙶🛑

(Self harm)

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Self harming wasn't something Izuku thought he'd confide in for a safe feeling.

Heck he never thought he'd ever confined in it period.

He never believed he'd be mixed up into a pattern of feeling emptiness and sadness all at the same time.

He didn't even realize that was possible!!

Anyway, at the moment this wasn't exactly his problem, his problem was the fact that seconds ago he was drawing little crooked lines on his thighs hoping the dreadful feeling would go away again.

But it wasn't working, and it only made him want to cut deeper, trying to find an escape.

Chasing after something that seemed almost non existent.

He didn't believe he would ever feel safe again, but he still had hope.

Maybe taking a shower, will help this time?

The water had been running for a good 30 minutes, so he might as well not waist any more water.

𝓐𝓷𝓭 𝓽𝓱𝓮𝓷 𝔀𝓮 𝓬𝓪𝓷 𝓬𝓾𝓽 𝓼𝓸𝓶𝓮 𝓶𝓸𝓻𝓮.

'No, then we can go to bed.'

'I don't wanna risk Kacchan finding out. '

𝓗𝓮 𝔀𝓸𝓷'𝓽 𝓬𝓪𝓻𝓮.

𝓗𝓮'𝓵𝓵 𝓱𝓮 𝓹𝓻𝓸𝓫𝓪𝓫𝓵𝔂 𝔀𝓲𝓵𝓵 𝓮𝓰𝓰 𝔂𝓸𝓾 𝓸𝓷.

'He does too care.'

𝓞𝓱 𝓽𝓻𝓾𝓼𝓽 𝓱𝓲𝓶 𝓪𝓵𝓻𝓮𝓪𝓭𝔂.

𝓘 𝓰𝓾𝓮𝓼𝓼 𝓱𝓮 𝔀𝓪𝓼 𝓻𝓲𝓰𝓱𝓽 𝔂𝓸𝓾 𝓪𝓻𝓮 𝓮𝓪𝓼𝓲𝓵𝔂 𝓽𝓻𝓾𝓼𝓽𝓲𝓷𝓰.

𝓣𝓱𝓪𝓽'𝓼 𝔀𝓱𝔂 𝓐𝓵𝓶𝓲𝓰𝓱𝓽 𝔀𝓪𝓼 𝓪𝓫𝓵𝓮 𝓽𝓸  𝓱𝓪𝓻𝓶 𝔂𝓸𝓾.

𝓑𝓮𝓬𝓪𝓾𝓼𝓮 𝔂𝓸𝓾 𝓽𝓻𝓾𝓼𝓽 𝓱𝓲𝓶.

𝓐𝓷𝓭 𝓳𝓾𝓼𝓽 𝓵𝓲𝓴𝓮 𝓐𝓵𝓶𝓲𝓰𝓱𝓽

𝓑𝓪𝓴𝓾𝓰𝓸 𝔀𝓲𝓵𝓵 𝓱𝓾𝓻𝓽 𝔂𝓸𝓾 𝓽𝓸𝓸.

'No be won't!'

'Kacchan isn't like Almight.

𝓑𝓾𝓽 𝓱𝓮'𝓼 𝓹𝓻𝓸𝓿𝓮𝓷 𝓽𝓸 𝓱𝓾𝓻𝓽 𝔂𝓸𝓾 𝓫𝓮𝓯𝓸𝓻𝓮.

𝓗𝓮𝔂

𝓓𝓸𝓷'𝓽 𝔂𝓸𝓾 𝓽𝓱𝓲𝓷𝓴 𝓲𝓽'𝓼 𝓴𝓲𝓷𝓭𝓪 𝓯𝓾𝓷𝓷𝔂 𝓽𝓱𝓪𝓽 𝓽𝓱𝓮 𝓭𝓪𝔂 𝓪𝓯𝓽𝓮𝓻 𝔂𝓸𝓾𝓻 𝓷𝓲𝓰𝓱𝓽𝓶𝓪𝓻𝓮.

𝓣𝓱𝓮 𝓷𝓲𝓰𝓱𝓽 𝓱𝓮 𝓼𝓸𝓹𝓹𝓸𝓼𝓵𝔂 𝓯𝓸𝓾𝓷𝓭 𝓸𝓾𝓽,

𝓗𝓮 𝔀𝓪𝓷𝓽𝓮𝓭 𝓽𝓸 𝓼𝔀𝓲𝓽𝓬𝓱 𝓭𝓸𝓻𝓶𝓼.

𝓐𝓵𝓶𝓸𝓼𝓽 𝓵𝓲𝓴𝓮 𝓱𝓮 𝓭𝓲𝓭𝓷'𝓽 𝔀𝓪𝓷𝓽 𝓽𝓸 𝓫𝓮 𝓪𝓻𝓸𝓾𝓷𝓭 𝓼𝓸𝓶𝓮𝓸𝓷𝓮.... 𝓼𝓸..... 𝓟𝓪𝓽𝓱𝓮𝓽𝓲𝓬 𝓪𝓷𝓭 𝔀𝓮𝓪𝓴.

''Please just, be quite."

The greenette quietly whispered, as he stripped and got into the shower.

The heated temperature of the water, burned Izuku's fresh wounds.

But he kinds liked it, he felt like it was burning off all the vile finger prints that ever touched him.

He felt like it was burning any proof of the said incident happening.

The feeling had finally left, and along with that so did that terrible voice.

He felt content.

•×•

"Hey nerd."

Bakugo whispered in the dead of night, once he saw Izuku silently creep out of the bathroom.

His goal was to not wake up Katsuki, but that plan did not go to well.

obviously.

Considering he was somewhat sitting up, and moments before that he was on his phone.

"H-Hey Kacchan. "

"Did I wake you?"

Midoriya questioned, getting closer to his childhood friend.

"Nah, my sleep schedule's just a pain in the ass. "

Bakugo answered honestly.

He had been awake for a good few minutes, messing around on his phone.

At first he feared not seeing his childhood friend, but ones he had noticed the shower running, his fear wasn't that high.

At least he knew where he was, and he wasn't near Ass-might.

"Oh... ok. "

The freckle teen, shuffled a few times.

Wondering if he should act tired, so the blonde won't ask any more questions.

"What about you?"

"Why are you awake?"

Midoriya visually flinched, which caught the blondes attention big time.

"I-I was taking a shower.... "

The greenette answered, after a few minutes stuttering slightly.

He needed to remember to stay calm, if he doesn't seem guilty then Bakugo shouldn't accuse him of anything.

Right?

Katsuki raised an eyebrow at his childhood friend, he could tell Izuku wasn't telling him something and he was scared shitless that it was a certain activity he wasn't spilling the beans about.

"Izuku."

"What are you not telling me?"

𝓨𝓸𝓾 𝓼𝓱𝓸𝓾𝓵𝓭𝓷'𝓽 𝓽𝓮𝓵𝓵 𝓱𝓲𝓶.

𝓗𝓮'𝓵𝓵 𝓳𝓾𝓼𝓽 𝓼𝓪𝔂 𝓽𝓱𝓮 𝓼𝓪𝓶𝓮 𝓽𝓱𝓲𝓷𝓰 𝓱𝓮 𝓼𝓪𝓲𝓭 𝓲𝓷 𝓽𝓱𝓮 𝓭𝓻𝓮𝓪𝓶.

𝓘𝓽'𝓼 𝓫𝓮𝓼𝓽 𝓽𝓸 𝓫𝓮 𝓺𝓾𝓲𝓽𝓮.

''Why should I tell you?"

"You'll just leave again. "

𝓣𝓱𝓪𝓽'𝓼 𝓻𝓲𝓰𝓱𝓽 𝓹𝓾𝓼𝓱 𝓱𝓲𝓶 𝓪𝔀𝓪𝔂.

𝓘𝓽'𝓼 𝔂𝓸𝓾𝓻 𝓸𝓷𝓵𝔂 𝓬𝓱𝓸𝓲𝓬𝓮.

Bakugo wanted to yell at the greenette, for being an idiot.

But he figured that wouldn't get him anywhere.

"Because I care about you shit head. "

"And I'm not leaving again, I promised remember?"

Katsuki claimed, trying his best not to raise his voice.

When it came to Izuku yelling wouldn't help.

It either make the poor boy scared, or yell back.

They needed communication, something neither was good at when it came to one another.

So Katsuki figured he might as well take this first step.

"Please Izuku, believe me when I say I'm staying right fucking here. "

"So please just talking to me."

Izuku was tempted, extremely tempted to tell him everything that just went down.

He felt like he needed to.

"I-I had a nightmare. "

The greenette started, as he sat Cris crossed on his bed.

"What about?"

𝓓𝓸𝓷'𝓽 𝓽𝓮𝓵𝓵 𝓱𝓲𝓶

𝓛𝓲𝓮

𝓕𝓾𝓬𝓴𝓲𝓷𝓰 𝓵𝓲𝓮

"Uhmm..... "