âIdiot. I hateâ¦â
Rishe protested in a whisper.
âI hate it when youâre nice to me like thatâ¦â
Arnold was mean sometimes.
In order to hide his true feelings, he would deliberately speak as if pushing her away. But now, He was concerned about her.
In other words, deep down, he really thought that Rishe might be afraid of marrying him.
âI canât possibly be afraid of becoming your bride.â
Rishe was really reluctant to hold Arnoldâs gaze, but if she didnât, that would look even more pathetic.
Thus, Rishe continued, with her eyebrows furrowed, but still with an upward glance.
âBesidesâ¦â
She tightened her grip on the back of Arnoldâs hand.
âIt is my own decision to accept this marriage.â
It was as if she was pressing his hand against her cheek.
She wanted to wrap her arms around him, but she could only lay her fingers around his large, masculine hand above.
âIâm not going to hate you for anythingâ¦Saying that you donât care how much Iâll hate you was unnecessary.â
âRishe.â
Arnold called Risheâs name, prompting a stronger tingle in her chest.
She was partly conscious when she rubbed her cheek against his shapely, muscular hand.
She was reluctant to show him her face as much as she didnât want to let go of his hand. She couldnât straighten out her emotions quite well.
âFor our marriageâ¦â
She was afraid of what he would say, but couldnât figure out why she was afraid.
Driving that fear away, she looked up in trepidation and looked Arnold straight in the eye and continued.
âDo you feel indebted to me?â
ââ¦â
Then Arnold lowered his eyes.
The shadows cast by his long eyelashes were reflected in his eyes. His eyes, which were always filled with a sharp glint, appeared somewhat fathomless.
âI, at that timeâ¦â
Arnold started quietly.
âI would have done anything to make you my wife.â
ââ¦â
He was probably referring to the time of his proposal, right after they met.
It was only two months ago, but it seems like a distant dayâ¦
Perhaps it was the same for Arnold.
He spoke calmly, his voice softer than usual.
âI am the one who asked you to do something, and you are the one who judges it.â
Arnoldâs thumb slowly stroked Risheâs cheek.
âAt that point, you and I are not equalsâ¦Do you understand?â
ââ¦â
There was no reason for that, so Rishe shook her head.
She couldnât tell if he was trying to comfort her like a child.
âI amâ¦â
Rishe countered tremulously coupled with a pained feeling.
âAs much as Iâve been selfish with you, I want to fulfill your wishes as well.â
She didnât want to just receive. She wanted to return as well.
âIf our marriage is based on a contract between countries, there should be something beneficial for both parties, right? And yet, in this marriage, I am always the one who receives. If you are saying that this is a political marriage, then it must be too distorted.â
Rishe grabbed Arnoldâs hand, which was caressing her cheek, and gently intertwined their fingers.
âThe wish you want from meâ¦â
Despite speaking to him, the tingle in her chest didnât abate a bit.
âI want to give you a lotâ¦â
She felt like crying, but she probably couldnât shed a tear.
The sadness that had nowhere else to go melted into a gooey mess in my chest. The fever in her heart seemed to rise with every beat of it.
âSo please.â
Rishe intently gazed into his blue eyes, earnestly appealing.
âYour Highness Arnoldâ¦â
ââ¦â
For some reason, a harrowing loneliness struck her when she uttered his name.
In all her lives, sheâd never called anyone with such a feeling.
She exhaled softly, as if almost praying.
âRisheâ¦â
Arnold held her gaze.
He continued gently, âIâm not marrying you for political reasons.â
âââ â¦â¦â
Arnold bent down and brought his lips to Risheâs ear.
He was so close that he could almost kiss the edges of her ear, making her gasp from the tickle.
The sound of his muffled voice shook Risheâs eardrums.
âSo I donât want anything from you, even if you beg me for it.â
ââ¦!!!â
In that instant, Rishe felt a twinge in her chest.
Arnold distanced himself from Rishe and laughed, keeping his gaze straight on her.
It was a self-mocking smile with a dark gleam in his eyes. He stayed put and mimicked the words that Rishe had uttered earlier.
ââ¦Hate it?â
Arnoldâs thumb gently traced her lips.
He squeezed it tenderly, as if he wanted Rishe to say the word.
Rishe hated it when he told her he didnât want anything, and he knew it. So although she wanted to nod, she found herself unable to do so.
She was at a loss for where to turn.
Your Highness always does something nasty on purpose to hide your thoughtsâ¦
Rishe was well aware of that.
It was for this reason that she always believed in the sincerity of deeds rather than deceitful words.
But what Arnold had just said to her unmistakably bore his true intentions.
I know that Your Highnessâs denial stems from your kindnessâ¦
This was why his kindness was much more painful than his usual meanness.
[ââNo matter how much youâll hate me because of this marriage.]
Deep down, Arnold sincerely resigned himself to being hated by Rishe.
You told me that I donât have to be prepared to be your wifeâ¦
She could still remember how her vision blurred when he told her that before.
I canâtâ¦
She refused to look any more miserable than she already did.
However, she didnât want to give up on the topic. She pondered round and round, then turned and gently moved her hand.
ââ¦â¦â¦â¦â¦â¦â
She slowly raised her hand and cupped his face.
âWhat are you doing?â
Arnoldâs dubious question came down from above, and that was after he took a deep breath.
âIâm sorry, Your Highness.â
Rishe knew that what she was about to do was a terrible idea.
She no longer wanted to escape what she should face. Although she wasnât sure if she could do it well, she decided to take it up.
âWith all due respectâ¦â
She raised her head and started.
ââ¦I now declare this to be our âfirst marital spatâ!!!â
ââ¦â¦â¦â¦â
Arnold was dumbstruck, and after several seconds of appearing as if he had seen something never seen before, he questioned back.
âWhat did you just say?â
âI said this is our first marital spat.â
They werenât actually married yet, but there was no other appropriate way to call it.
Rishe was feeling down, but she stared at her fiancé and replied spiritedly.