Hi readers,hope you're doing alright.Here's another long awaited chapter.Like before,I've been busy with work.
(That's not the worst part,I fucked up some of the past few chapters,changing the storyline plan.This wasn't how it was supposed to go but I managed to salvage it.)
If you're interested on how it was supposed to go for the last few chapters,do comment it down.
April's POV
I've been holed in my room,feeling really sad.This doesn't amounts to the number of times I've cried over the girls I've simp (excluding Sterling).
I mean this is Luke that we're talking.The kind,sweet and patient Luke.It feels like breaking pieces of his heart again,and I hate that.
I'm not even sure what came over me,that possess me to kiss Brian or even allow it.It was like I needed to be touch,to feel something that wasn't Sterling.That would keep my mind off her but I can't.She's always on my mind.
After the fight we had,I couldn't help but want her.
I didn't want to break things up with Luke just for Sterling,it would be a havoc.Trust me.
Luke finds out I'm dating Sterling and having Brian knowing that later on,just a catastrophic disaster.
I had to talk to Sterling by today,I had to tell her how I feel.Would it be fair though?
She's with Rachel and she's finally found someone who was proud of her.
I couldn't come out,people would judge us and we don't have the best history together as far as everyone's concern.
My parents are hateful bigots,and my dad always talks us about the how those people aren't 'normal'.
It's hard to live in a Christian family knowing that by the end of the day,you'll marry a man.
I think I've always knew I was gay but I never acted on any girls before except for Sterling.
That's the thing,Sterling is my first.For the first time in my life,I feel alive.I feel brave and it's all because of Sterling.She makes me want to do things.
"Sweetie,are you okay? Breakfast is ready!" Mom shouted from the living room,and I stood up,readjusting my attire.
"Coming." I replied and took my tote bag and belongings before walking to the living room.
"Morning,mom.Another busy day at work today?" I greeted and she chuckles.
"Yes,sweetie.Please be a darling and do the dishes later.Okay,I gotta go." My mom starts rushing out,blowing me a kiss.
Another day in the Stevens house.At least she made pancakes and oatmeal.It was always my favourite.
I scrolled through my phone,looking over at the missed calls and messages from Brian.He clearly doesn't get the message,doesn't he?
I've always knew that he likes me in that way but I didn't want to confront him about it.It's just that we've been friends too long and I don't want to ruin it by making an assumption.The kiss just proves otherwise.
There were messages from Sterling too.I opened them and she was checking up on me.That's actually pretty sweet.
I didn't replied back because I wanted to talk to her face-to-face.I slowly ate my oatmeal and pancakes as I thought about what's been happening lately.
Isn't it weird that Sterling comes back into my life and I'm broken up with Luke?
This isn't Sterl's fault,I guess it's my fault for liking an enemy.I wrapped things up and head straight to school,with a coffee in hand.
"April! Are you okay? I heard the news,sweetie."Hannah B walks up to me and let out.I forget that news travel fast sometimes.I sighed and faced Hannah B.
"I'm fine.This is just a challenge that we're facing.God doesn't give us something that we cannot handle." I lied and walked away.
"My mom can make you lamb chops if you're up for it,sweetie." She calls out and I just ignored it.
I find Hannah B really annoying at times but she's been with me during high school.She understands me just like Ezekiel.
The whole day was just devastating.Luke looks really bad,but that wasn't the worst part.We have almost every class together and we're not far from each other.
I think the only time I wasn't with Luke for a class was when Blair is paired up with me,even though it hurts to admit that Blair is a lifesaver.
In a sense.
Everyone has been looking at us like we're have something on our faces,except that we're actually broken up.Luke hasn't said anything much.I get it,it's my fault after all.
After the last period,I was ready to walk to the community centre for my work.Usually,I would be making out or having lunch with Luke but not having a boyfriend seems different.
I get to do pretty much anything.Without Luke.
"April." Luke calls out as I walked down the hallways.
Why is Luke talking to me?
I turned and Luke scratches his head,chuckling.
"I....uh just wanted to say that I'm sorry for overreacting.I wish I could've done something to make you stay,to make you love me just like how I love you,April." Luke lets out,taking my hand.I felt tensed but he didn't mind one bit.
"Maybe we can salvage this...try again?" Luke suggested but somehow I already made up my mind.
I've already made my choice.I just think this time it'll hurt Luke more as he knows the truth.
Sterling's POV
Back to that night,
"It's a girl." My voice was shaky and I was feeling really anxious.I'm not even sure how Luke would react,we've never talked about these type of topics before.
It was something that we avoided to talk about it,at least that's what our teachers used to taught us.
"I...wow..Sterl,I mean." He gasps and took a moment to take it in.Every minute that he wasn't speaking,it felt like I was holding my breath.
"I just want you to be happy and whoever she is,she's lucky to have you,Sterl." Luke said and I sigh,feeling relieved to hear that.
"You don't know how much that means to me." I pointed out and he hugs me now,brushing my hair.
"But uh whose the lucky girl?" He asks and I couldn't help but blush.
"Rachel." I replied,fidgeting with my hands.
"Listen,I know you and April are having issues but you should at least talk it out and from there decide together.As a couple.You still have so much to fight for." I advised and Luke nods,taking it in.
"Thanks Sterl." We sat there in that easy silent,as the cool winds brushes against our skins.
Present
It was lunch and I was meeting Rachel in the sushi restaurant.Last day of the community work.It was kind of sad to think about it nonetheless I can finally plan things after school with Rachel more often.
"Hey babe." I take a seat next to her and there were 3 plates on the table.
"Why is there 3 plates on the table? I thought we'd just be having lunch together." I stated and Rachel cleared her throat.
"We need to have that talk." Rachel explained and I smiled nervously.
"I..do we really need to? I mean..." I tried to change the subject but somehow Rachel doesn't budge.
"Okay then.You start." I let out and sighs.
"I dated a few guys in my school but it didn't last very long.I've had a few hookups here and there,nothing serious."
"However..." She takes my hand,even more serious.
"I dated Jessica before."
So,that was something.If you don't remember Jessica,her name was mentioned during the debate episode.So will Sterling becomes more protective of Rachel and did April decided to choose Sterling over Luke?