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i sat in the car on my phone before it was a knock on my window making me look up and see acadia.
"what girl?" i asked.
"hey auntieeee." she said getting in the car.
"what you want??" i asked and she shrugged.
"i was bored and saw you out here." she said and i only stared at her.
"okay okay, you gotta lighter?" she asked and i went into my dash then handed her one.
"thank youu." she said hugging me then got out.
i shook my head as she walked back in the house until i saw amare coming out making me roll my eyes.
i had just got back from the store and just hadn't got out the car yet.
i didn't get nun major but a slushy and some gum.
my door opened making me look up and see amare,"can i help you??"
"yeah...who the fuck is blake yana??" he said and i scrunched up my face .
"one watch your tone, two he's just a friend deadass doing too much." i said and he let out a laugh.
"so i'm doing too much?? yana dont fuckin play dawg you know you mines." he said grabbing my arm and i yanked away.
"chill out amare deadass." i said getting out and shut the door.
"and we not together, after you decided to cheat on me instead of being their for your sons first birthday." i said walking towards the house.
"come on you gotta let that go." he said and i rolled my eyes as i went into the kitchen.
"whatever..." i mumbled washing my hands.
"you've been fuckin other people??" he asked and i choked on my spit.
of course i have had a lil thing before tha fuck...but once-
"no and if i was that's none of your business." i said drying my hands and watched as his face changed and he grind his teeth for a second.
"you drinking that shit again??" i asked and he ignored my question but continued staring at me.
"amare...hello??" i waved my hand in front of his face.
"okay..." i mumbled walking around him before he grabbed me and slammed me into the wall sending pain up my back.
"amare- get the fuck off me.." i said trying to get out his grip.
he put his hand around my throat bringing me closer to him,"yana, you got me fucked up dawg you not giving my pussy away bitch." he snapped.
i started scratching at his hands as his grip got tighter, i couldn't even talk.
"you fuckin hear me bruh, you belong to me yana." he said and i felt tears in my eyes.
my ears started ringing and my vision was going in and out.
"ayeâ" next thing i knew he let go of my neck and i started coughing trying to catch my breathe.
"the fuck is wrong wit you?!" i heard iniko yell.
"woah- you good?" i heard adaliya ask me and then saw her and mariah.
"no- bitch just tried to fuckin kill me." i said.
"your neck gonna start bruising..." mariah said and i just shook my head.
he promised....he promised he wouldn't put his hands on me like my father did
"come on..." mariah said and i went with her but i could hear adaliya yelling at amare.
"what you gonna do choke me out too bitch?! do it since you fuckin bad!!" she yelled.
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mariah pulled me into a hug the door opened revealing acadia,"i'm sorry my uncles a dick-" she said messing with her fingers making me laugh a lil.
"it's okay chile...you can't control his angry ass." i said.
the door opened again and amare walked in with adaliya holding him by the collar of his shirt.
"your short ass can let me go..." he mumbled to her.
"shut the fuck up bitch before i taze you again." she said holding up a taser.
"you should be ashamed of yo self nigga." acadia said walking up to him before journey pulled her back.
"thank you i'd be damned if he hit my child." adaliya said.
"y'all can go..." he said.
"gooooâ you know what bet...here." adaliya handed me the taser then they left.
i stayed on the bed and he was standing up, it was silent for a minute as i picked at my nails.
"i'm sorry yana."
"ight."
"mmcht, i'm foreal."
"k."
"yana." i looked up at him.
"i'm sorry deadass i let my anger get a hold of me okay...." he said and i just stale faced him.
"you still drinking lean???" i asked him making him nod.
i got up and walked a lil closer to him,"acid??" i asked and he didn't say anything.
"amare yes or no." i said.
"that...and pills.." he mumbled and i tased his side making him fall to the ground.
"what the fuck is wrong with you?" i asked as he held his side.
"you do know you have a son right? and he looks up to you....those nights you didn't come, he would stay up all night waiting for you amare and you let him down." i said squatting beside him.
"i know....i'm sorry foreal..." he said sitting up.
"no, cause you kept doing it. you know how much that hurt me to see my son that upset cause his father doesn't wanna be a fuckin man and hoe instead of taking care of his child." i said
"i promise imma do better yana-."
"you know what...i don't even wanna hear anymore of your excuses, cause this time you really did fuck up for good." i said
i just stood up,"you promise amare....you said you wouldn't hurt me...â whatever bruh i forgive you." i said leaving the room.
i quickly wiped the tears that were on my face and went into the bathroom,"....girl you want me to stab him??" adaliya asked and i shook my head no.
"i can see you used my taser." she said picking it up off the sink and i nodded.
"you need a hug?" she asked and i didn't say anything as she hugged me before i i started sobbing.
"liya....he promised." i said as my voice cracked.
"i know my love i'm sorry, he's gonna get his i promise...cause imma tell dad and he gonna get on his ass." she said rubbing my back.
"now lemme ask you sumn?" adaliya said and i nodded.
"did you get an abortion?"
"what?" i asked confused foreal.
"cause why jahari came to me and said you had been throwing up a lot, but you got better after a lil bit and i don't see no bump." she said and i sighed.
"i was pregnant....at first, but i lost the baby." i mumbled looking down.
"oh i'm so sorry yana." she said and i didn't say anything.
"it's okay, but i'm finna shower.." i said.
"okay, when you come out you can join me and mariah watching a movie...if you want and do face masks." she said making a flashback hit me from the very first night i stayed with them on that trip.
I shook my head as Amare walked up to me and touched my face.
"Stop it ain't dry." I said moving back and he shrugged.
"I was just tryna see." He said.
"Boy please you just wanted to touch me." I said shaking my head.
"Maybe you right." He said and I shook my head.
"Wanna do it?" I asked holding up the container I used and he nodded.
"Gimme a hair shit thingy." He said and I shook my head before handing him one of my hair ties.
"yeah when i get out i'll come." i said and adaliya gave me a light smile.
...not amare getting angry....ð¤¨ð¸