(A long one enjoy!)
When he smiles I don't know what I should say.
I left the house as the sun rose on the horizon. I took one last look as Alystiar laid peacefully and safely in my bed. His body turned to the side of where mine was, even his subconscious knew where he belonged.
It poured with no restraint. The rain washed over me as if to calm the storm in my own mind. Rain poured over my face as i looked for the stars that held Alystiars eyes. In everything i did, i saw him. Everywhere i went i saw him. The cafe at the corner served as a reminder when i got him a coffee and he threw it out in disgust. The certainty knowing the sun would rise, called to my own certainty in knowing my feelings for him would never leave me.
"Romen Abarra? Is that you?" The bell above me rang as i walked into the shop. I looked up to a wide eyed past friend of mine. "Rebecca." I smiled softly. She was one of my only good friends here back home. "Good to see you still work here." I looked around in fondness at the times i would visit her whenever she was working. "I never left." She smirked. Ah that infamous smirk that had boys on their knees. I chuckled. She hasn't changed one bit.
"What brings you here?" She crossed her hands beneath her chin as she spoke.
"I'm buying." Her eyebrow went up. "You've never had a reason to buy anything from a bouquet shop so seriously why you here?" Her boredom reverberated through her words.
"I have a reason now." I smiled genuinely. She of all people knew how much of a fuckboy I was. She was there to pick me up whenever i got smashed drunk in a club with a girl. She's always been there to help me even when I never wanted her help. The memories of our last timer together shone in her eyes threatening to spill.
One day Romen you're gonna find someone who you love and I'll remind you.
"Fuck you becca I don't want someone's shitty love."
"You found it." She gasped in shock and I chuckled.
"I found him."
"Then we better make sure he gets flowers as big as your love for him." The determination etched in her eyes reminded me of how she was back in 8th grade. When the teachers told her she would fail because of the switch of schools and curriculums she held that same look in her eyes. Raw determination. She's always been relentless, time didn't change that.
I brought my g wagon to fit all the flowers to fill the car and some more. It was his favourite odd hobby to sit in the garden so it seemed fitting. I shut the trunk in completion. "Thanks becca." We stood outside in the slight drizzle. She lunged at me for a hug and said in the croak of my neck, "i hope I can meet whoever changed you this much." My arms latched around her tightly. "Me too."
When I made it back home the house was as silent as I left it. Roses upon roses littered my car, lilacs, white roses and daises. I could barely even see through the back mirror. I hoped he liked it. In whatever way I can I want to show him I'm not leaving, I'm not getting bored or loosing any feelings. I brought them all to his room only because he didn't sleep there last night. By the time we finished the bed was covered in bouquets and bouquets of flowers and the floor. I could barely even move. I took a picture and took to my social media.
Always and forever my love
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I shut my phone at the influx of dms and questions. I leaned against his bedroom wall. I left to go to the kitchen before i was pulled into a room. "What the fuck?" I questioned the three of them. It was always the three of them. Zainab, Zora and Destiny.
They all opened their phones. To my post. "Explain now." Zora demanded.
"Are you cheating on him?" Zainab questioned. I raised my eyebrow just to see they were all thinking the same thing.
"What? No it's about Alystair." I defended myself before they could pounce on me. They were Alastair's biggest fans. "Does he know?" Destiny questioned and i shook my head in response.
The silence took over the room like a hostage.
"I'm in love with him." My mouth ran before i could speak. The girls smirked at each other in response. "We know, it's so obvious when you literally look at him with those oggly goggly eyes." Destiny has always said crazy things but this just be her sanest comment.
I grabbed them and took them to his room.
"Is it too much, did i over do it because if so- Zora's sniffles crowded the room. I whipped my head back in concern. "Hey whats wrong?" I pulled her hands from her crying face. "No ones ever loved my brother like this. This makes so happy." She said in hiccups. I pulled her in for a hug and patted her head. "You'll never have to worry about that, i promise to always treat him right." He cries grew even louder as i spoke. The girls joined in for a group hug of cries.
My bedroom door opened and we pulled apart. Fast. Fuck. "You guys have to go make sure he doesn't see you." I whispered to them and they clearly understood the assignment because they ran. I looked at my work nervously. With him you never know what response he might give you. He was always so expressionless it was hard to tell what he was thinking.
I left the room and went downstairs. Alystiar and my mom spoke between themselves and the girls looked between themselves knowingly.
"Ah Romen come here. Exactly why have my emails and direct messages, if that what you call it, been flooded with questions asking who the girl who received flowers from you is?" My mom held a cup of coffee between her hands fogging up her glasses. Alystiar turned around. The betrayal behind his glasses was so evident the room when silent. "It's not what you think." I said to them. I don't know who I said it to, my mom or Alyss.
"Liar." He whispered. I heard him Loud and clear including everyone around us. He walked away just as Zora caught his arm. "It's not what you think." She held him there but he flung his arm out of hers. I could only stand and watch as his anger towards me reverberated throughout the room. "Do you have to defend him?" He dropped his eyes as if begging her. He let go and went upstairs.
"Wait alyss." My brain turned on. Fast. "Fuck Romen." He spoke as he walked on without turning around. He never swore. That was never a good sign. "It's really not what you think- he threw his door open. He paused and his hand dropped from the handle. "They were for you." I walked up behind him. "There was no girl, it was always you." He turned around. My words hung in my throat as I watched tears threaten to spill from his beautiful eyes. The storm they held as he roamed the earth bowed before my feelings for him.
"Romen." He croaked out. I've never seen him cry before, it was a painful yet beautiful sight. He let his guard down for me. I took off his glasses and wiped at the tear that ran down his cheek.
"Do you like it?" I smiled and he kissed me. Hesitantly. He's never been the one to initiate anything between us. When I felt his tears merge in with the gentleness of his kiss I nearly told him what lay deep down in my heart. Words I was afraid would scare him away so I would hide them away from him for as long as I needed to. But when he kissed me like the world would end if he stopped I closed my eyes to savour what perfection felt like. Perfection felt like him.
When we pulled apart the imprint of his tears stained my cheeks. I wanted every part of him on me.
"I've never gotten flowers before yet alone the whole store." He croaked out. His voice was still full of tears and emotions he held inside. "You're perfect love." I spoke the words into him. I would sit here and say them for a lifetime if i needed to.
"You got jealous for a second there." I smirked referring to downstairs. When he smiled at my words i wanted to say them again.
"I've always been jealous of anyone who had you the way i wanted." He admitted. I pushed his hair out of his face, "I was ready to pounce on you since day one, everyone else was merely a place holder. All you had to do was say my name and I was yours."
A/n
I just love them :(