Chapter 0070 Hannah The evening air nipped at my cheeks as Noah and I walked in silence, our footsteps crunching softly against the frosted leaves and twigs that littered the pathway. I pulled my jacket a little tighter around myself, exhaling and watching as the little cloud of mist floated away from my face.
I couldnât remember the last time we had walked down this particular trail that wound its way through the secluded woods surrounding the mansion grounds. We had frequented it early on in our marriage-back when everything still felt so new and exciting, back before the cracks had begun to show.
Simpler times.
My chest tightened at the memory of our old after-dinner walks. It had been ages since those walks had happened, and the path had become a bit overgrown. wondered what made Noah want to walk it now, but I didnât bother asking. It wasnât worth it.
I didnât notice the thick briar vine snaking across the trail until the very last second. With a m***led cry of surprise, my foot caught on the twisted brambles, sending me pitching forward before I could catch myself.
Bracing myself for a harsh impact with the unforgiving ground, my eyes squeezed shut in preparation-
Only to feel a pair of strong, steady arms circling my waist from behind, yanking me upright with ease.
I let out a breathless gasp, my body instinctively stiffening at the sudden closeness of Noahâs body as he effortlessly righted me.
His firm chest was pressed flush against my back, his hands splayed across my abdomen to hold me steady.
âDonât fall.â
My heart stuttered in my chest at the feeling of his body heat radiating through the layers of our clothing. followed by the deep rumble of his chest. This close, I swore I could almost feel his heart beating against my back.
Noah didnât let go right away, and I didnât make any moves to pull away myself. We just stood there for a moment, the light of the crescent moon overhead casting a pale yellow glow over us.
Suddenly, and rather illogically, the thought of turning around in Noahâs arms to press my lips against his flashed through my mind-
No. I couldnât. I didnât want to, I didnât want... him.
âThanks,â I mumbled, pulling away.
âNo problem.â
A tense silence fell between us as we continued on our walk, one that was only punctuated by the sounds of our footsteps, the occasional hoot of a snowy owl, and my own blood rushing through my ears.
Eventually, Noah cleared his throat.
âYou were... really good with the kids today,â he remarked, his tone cautious but shockingly. conversational although he deliberately kept his gaze averted. âBack at the orphanage. I was a bit 2,7 1.3 +25 BONUS Chapter 0070 surprised.â
I couldnât quite suppress my snort of wry amusement as I glanced over at him. âIs that so hard to believe?â
âA little.â
I sighed. âItâs not exactly a challenge to get along with children, Noah. Not if you actually put in some effort and meet them on their level.â
As soon as the words left my mouth, I regretted them wondering if I had been too harsh, too accusatory. I knew that I was just trying to protect myself by being cruel, just as he had done to me countless times. I wasnât blind to that fact.
To my surprise, though, Noah simply sighed and shook his head. âI know,â he admitted. âKids have never been my strong suit.
Iâve never really known how to act or what to say around them.â
I tilted my head slightly to study his side profile. This may have been the first time ever that I had actually heard Noah openly admit to his own shortcomings.
Stopping, I reached out and pressed my hand to his forehead. Noah froze and blinked at me, instantly swatting my hand away.
âWhat are you doing?â
I shrugged and kept walking. âJust checking to make sure youâre okay.â I teased, stepping over a fallen sapling. âI donât think Iâve ever heard you admit your own shortcomings before, so I wanted to see if youâre ill or something.â
Noah was quiet for a moment, although I heard him huff behind me. We walked in silence for a little while, longer before he spoke again.
âI donât know. For a long time, I thought it was just because Iâm a man-that nurturing comes more naturally to women. But watching you today, seeing how you were... I donât think thatâs it, really.â
I blinked, vaguely taken aback by the sincerity behind his words. Noah gave a mirthless chuckle. âI think I just donât have that gene for playfulness and imagination. Thatâs all.â
An unexpected pang twisted in my chest at the resignation in Noahâs voice. Without really thinking it through, I found myself speaking up again.
âYou know... I was thinking about volunteering at the library soon. Reading to the kids.â I watched Noahâs expression carefully from the corner of my eye, searching for a reaction. âSince you mentioned that we should volunteer together, you should come.
Noah let out another huff. âI guess I did say that.â
I let out a breath. âWell? What do you think?â
Noah regarded me carefully for a long moment, something Indecipherable flickering behind his emerald eyes. Finally, he gave a slow nod. âIâll think about it.â
We lapsed back into yet another silence, although this one was somewhat less tense than before. But then, out of nowhere, Noah stopped in his tracks and spoke up again.
âDo you want to be a mom?â
I inhaled sharply, the air stinging my nostrils. Almost involuntarily, my hand started drifting down toward my belly, toward where the little life had taken root inside of me. If only he knew; if only he knew what had +25 BONUS Chapter 0070 happened, what I had already lost and what I had sworn to never lose again.
But I quickly stopped myself. He couldnât know; not before the divorce, at least. Maybe not ever.
âIsnât that the whole point of our monthly intimacy nights?â I asked. âTo put an heir in me?â
Noah clenched his jaw. âI mean, do you want to be a mom?â he clarified. âOutside of duty?â
I nodded before I could stop myself. âI do.â
âTo my child?â
His words made my heart stop in my chest. Goddess, had he figured it out? Would he try to keep us from divorcing? Maybe that was why I blurted out my next word, the sound ripping from my lips far more harshly than I had intended.
âNo.â
Noah seemed to flinch almost imperceptibly at my word. He quickly set his jaw and looked away, his Adamâs apple bobbing as he swallowed. I instantly felt my stomach sink, but then I corrected myself. I hadnât hurt him. I couldnât hurt him. He never loved me why would he care if I wanted to be the mother of his child?
There was a long silence that seemed to stretch on foran eternity after that. Neither of us spoke, neither of us made a move to continue on our walk. During those moments, I knew that whatever sense of candor and camaraderie we had briefly experienced was long gone now; perhaps for the better.
âWe should get back,â he finally said, turning on his heel and striding away without another word.
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