I was staring at my feet, nervously playing with my hands trying to breathe normally. He gave me a black look as he lockemy door. I closed my eyes, expecting him to start yelling at me.
After a while, I realized that keeping my eyes closed in front of Henris Steve was not a good idea. Firstly, because I wouldbe able to see his beautiful face, and secondly, because he would probably be able to take full advantage of the situatiorslowly, I looked up, meeting his and immediately regretting it. He squinted, tilted his head to the side and gave me chillswatched him run his fingers through his hair, before his hand fell to his side. He then let out a deep breath.
âWhy are you here?â I asked timidly.
That said, he advanced towards me, passing behind the desk and approaching me, making me take steps backwards untilfound myself pressed between his body and the wall. I could smell her usual cologne. He was wearing a black coat, a blasweater, tight black jeans and worn brown boots. He was little in his style, but also more himself than ever.
âWhy didnât you answer me?â He said, in a low, deep voice, pressing his head against my neck. The tone of her voice andher affectionate gesture contradicted each other.
I bit my lip before I spoke. One of my hands rested timidly on her stomach. His muscles tensed under my touch. âBecausedidn't want to.â
âBullshit!â He practically screamed, hitting a hand on the wall. I flinched at the noise, trying to hide the moan. He took afresh breath and spoke again, his voice lower and more hoarse. âI know you wanted to answer me, Noras.â
âNot reallyâ I lied.
âYou're a bad liar," he said. âNow tell me why you donât want to talk to me."
âI don't want to go out with you or whatever you have in mind. I saw you with Cara and that is... It's not for me. I'm notdoing this with you."
âDo what?â He laughed bitterly, taking a step back. âHanging outâ? Did you really think we'd be together one day? Hownaive are you?â
My gaze fell to the floor and I let my hair cover my face, crossing my arms over my chest protectively. âNo.â
âYou thought so, didn't you?â
âIt doesn't matter. I donât want anything to do with you."
âtop lyingâ
âStop being an arrogant bastard!â I shouted. âDo you think you can come here, scare me and force me to go out with youagain? No! I can't stand you anymore. You're bossy and I don't even know why I agreed to date you in the first place.â
His eyes intensified and he took another step forward, so that his body is directly in front of mine. He placed his hands oeither side of my head, looking directly into my eyes. Her eyes, normally bright, were now darker.
âDonât ever talk to me like that again He said, irritated.
Then he kissed me. His mouth crashed against mine with such rage and passion that I felt as if my lips were on fire at histouch. He let his hands curl into my hair, bending my head to get better access to my lips.
I was surprised when his hands went behind my back, went over my buttocks before stopping on the back of my thighs.With a smirk, he lifts me up and leads me to the office. He leaned over to me, got between my legs and immediately put tmouth on mine.
âStop it" whispered against his lips.
âShut up.â
âHenris.
âNoras."He imitated me, and finally backed off.
âPlease, leave!â
He looked up and kissed me again, his tongue passing over my lips almost immediately. His hands drew me closer to himbringing me to the edge of the desk, pressing his pelvis against mine. His fingers clasped my waist, so that I could notmove.
âNever ignore me againâ He said softly in my ear before biting my earlobe and leaving a trail of kisses on my neck. I felt Imouth form a smirk just above my collarbones before he started sucking aggressively. An involuntary groan escaped meand he bit my skin slightly, then left a kiss on the now red mark and moved his sharp gaze to mine.
âDo you understand?â He whispered, a hand on my chin to keep our gazes connected.
I found my voice again. âI saw you with herâ
âWith whom?â
âDarling. I came to return your jacket and it was in your office. And I saw you. But of course it doesn't matter, because wenot dating anyway.â I explained.
She rolled her eyes, drawing me closer to her, keeping our bodies pressed together. âNoras, I am not committing to arelationship. I am a 24-year-old company CEO. My business comes first. Then I f**k, play golf and go back to work.â
I gave him a look. âThen let me be direct. You almost beat up a fucking guy because he danced with me and I'm supposecto let you have sex safely with whoever you want?".
âYes!
âBullshit,â I said irritably, anger rising with every stupid word that came out of his extraordinary mouth. âGet out of myoffice.â
His fingers pressed even harder to keep me in the same position. âNo. Will you fucking listen to me?â
âI don't want to hear what you have to say!â I shouted, pushing him away. I got up from the desk, putting my shirt back orâYou shouldn't have come here, and you shouldn't have kissed me."
âYou kissed me back.â
âWhy are you making me feel all these mixed emotions that I can't understand! Itâs horrible!â I mumbled. âYou stand therwith your stone face and nothing touches you in the least, but I have feelings. I won't let you hurt me!â
âNoras,â he sighs, stepping forward with outstretched arms. I immediately took a step back and he tried to hide hisfrustration, running a hand through his hair. âYou are mine. Look at the mark on your neck. Mine."
There was a long pause in the conversation during which I looked at him carefully, admiring his toned chest that the blacT-shirt highlighted, his now tousled curls and his reddened lips. So beautiful that it is almost cruel. I took a deep breathcalm myself down before speaking.
âBut aren't you mine?â I asked gently. I felt my cheeks blush, staring at the floor.
âNo.
âLeave, please,â I said.
He came up to me, again, and grabbed me by the waist before I could move. His long fingers, adorned with silver rings,guided my chin, to meet our glances. âThe last thing I want is to hurt you."
âI don't believe you."
His gaze seemed uncertain for a moment. âNoras, we're not going to hang out together. 1 won't be your boyfriend becausewe're not in f*++*g college. My business comes first. But I want you to be mine. Because I know you want the exact samething from me.â
âYou are a hypocrite.â
âYes, I am,â he admitted. âBut I see how your body reacts to me. How you answer me. You have chills, and you areconstantly looking at my lips. Why don't you give in?"
âI'm not cut out for this. I'm not meant to be a fuck, or anything that you have in mind."
âNot a motherfucker. Mine"He ran slowly. My heart skipped a beat at his words. It feels good, to be his. He would take mein his arms, kiss me, protect me and I would have the chance to be near him more often. I could have kissed her soft lipsand run my hands through her hair.
But he was always on me and giving me orders. And he wouldn't be mine. It was the worst offer I'd ever been given, butstrangely also the best.
âFor a businessman, you don't know how to negotiate for nothingâ I said. Taking me by surprise, he let out a big laugh,stooped down and gave me a kiss on the cheek, making it last longer than expected. I moved away from him.
âDon't be difficult, Noras." Henris smiled.
âDon't be a jerk, Henris.l imitated him. 1 felt his hands tighten on my waist and his smile disappeared, all traces ofamusement died away.
âCome to my house tonight. We're going to have dinner and talkâ
âNo.
âYes!
âNo. I repeated. I could hear my own hesitant tone.
âAs usual, it was not a question. Mark will pick you up at seven,â he said, letting go of him. âWe are going to have dinner atalk, like adults."
I grumbled, putting my head in my hands. âThis is not a commercial matter, Henris. This is the real world, emotions andeverything elseâ
âI know," he said simply. âThen I'll see you at seven o'clockâ
âWhy aren't you wearing a suit?â I asked. I bit my lip while waiting for an answer.
âBecause I didn't go to work today.â
âWhere have you been?â
âStop asking questions. It's boring.â
Get out of my office, please,â I mumbled, running my fingers over my pants, avoiding looking him in the face. âGo ahead. Icome to your stupid apartment if you leave. You are oppressive.â
His expression turned neutral again and he nodded briefly, stooping down to give me another kiss on the cheek. His lipsand curls were a deadly combination, and from the smirk he gave me next, I knew he was fully aware of it.
I watched him walk cautiously towards my office door, turning around before opening it. I saw a hint of guilt pass in hereyes, but it was quickly swept away. âYou probably shouldn't come tonight. You're right about me."
âI know."
He nodded thoughtlessly, slipping his hands into the pockets of his coat. âYou're coming anyway, against your will, aren'tyouzâ
âYes!
âGood. I'll see you at seven. And you have something on your shirt.â
I immediately blushed when I looked at the stain. âI spilled yogurt when you came in. You scared me.â
âOh.â He whispered, pausing for a moment with his hand on the doorknob to look at me. He narrowed his eyes, biting hislip. 1 knew immediately that whatever he was going to say, I wasn't going to like him. His attitude intensified.
âYou are already mine. You know that as well as I do, Noras.â He said coldly.
Then he slammed the door behind him, leaving a slight trace of perfume and coconut essence from his shampoo.
I collapsed in my chair. Our interaction had left me weak, dull and with a chronic headache. He was the most complex anexhausting man I had ever met.
Every time I am near him, I am attracted to him. His presence consumes me to the point that I can do nothing but agreewith him and then regret it. Maybe it's because heâs so scary. But, maybe it's because deep down, I knew he was right.