Barbarian Lord (1)
Barbarian Lord (1)
Misha once said firmly:
[I⦠like skinny guys.]
[Eek!! It means you have no charm as a man!!]
It was what she said when she misunderstood my offer of a companion contract as a confession, back when we were stranded in the Witchâs Forest.
I was relieved by her words.
Thereâs a saying, âthereâs no such thing as friends between men and womenâ, right?
I thought that if her preferences were this clear, we could maintain a companion relationship without any awkwardness, even if we stayed together for a long time.
Butâ¦
[Come sit down quickly. Youâll get sick if you sleep without eating.]
Mishaâs attitude towards me gradually changed.
She would come by every morning to wake me up, and we would eat the food she made together.
She even gave me meat.
Honestly, it felt like I had a girlfriend, not just a companion.
At first, I thought she was trying to repay the debt of saving her life, butâ¦
ââ¦Yes. I like you. As a man.â
Right, so that was it.
âDid you know?â
âI wasnât sure.â
To be precise, I was avoiding it. She didnât even mention it directly. I didnât face the issue, thinking it might all be my misunderstanding.
Because if I knew, there would only be one choice.
âI, I seeâ¦â
Looking at Misha, whoâs facing me with a trembling gaze, I realize how cowardly Iâve been.
If I had faced this problem earlier, I could have resolved it differently.
I could have subtly pushed her away.
Before Mishaâs feelings grew to the point where even Dwarkey told me not to ignore it.
Right, thatâs what would have happened.
âSo⦠what do you⦠think?â
Now there are two choices.
Either I embrace her and fuel the flamesâ¦
â¦or I put out the fire before it grows.
The answer was already decided.
âIâ¦â
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Iâm not Bjorn Yandel, and I havenât given up on my desire to return home yet.
But I canât say that.
Dwarkey also said it would be cowardly to expect her true feelings without showing her my true self.
So I speak honestly,
âI consider you a precious companion.â
Mishaâs answer comes after a brief pause.
âRight⦠Iâm⦠not good enough?â
âIt would be the same for anyone else. I donât have the luxury for that. We donât know when weâll die. And besides, it hasnât even been a year since I finished my coming-of-age ceremony.â
Itâs a time when survival should be prioritized.
And Misha needs to continue exploring with me.
If we get entangled in romantic feelings, it will be difficult to make rational judgments when faced with choices.
And that will put both of us in danger.
Soâ¦
âI hope youâll also consider me just as a companion.â
I draw a line, facing reality even now.
But no matter how much I try to sugarcoat it with words about caring for each other, the essence of it is selfishness.
Misha firmly rejects my offer.
âNo!â
ââ¦What?â
âWhy should I? In the first place, I didnât even intend to confess today, you bad barbarian! You liar! You asked as if you would accept it!!â
Misha shouts in annoyance and punches me in the solar plexus.
Thwack!
I feel a chill that reaches my heart.
As if her anger hasnât subsided, Misha continues shouting.
âWho asked you to accept me? I know. That youâre not in a position to do that! But! To tell me not to even like you, isnât that too cruel?!â
Thwack! Thwack! Thwack! Thwack!
Cold damage stacks rapidly.
Just as Iâm about to say something, Misha weakly places her hand on my chest.
âI⦠I donât even expect much. I think⦠this is already more than I deserve. So canât you just not say that? Why⦠why are you taking even that away from meâ¦?â
I feel a tremor from where Misha is touching me.
Although I canât see her face because her head is down, itâs not difficult to imagine her expression.
I keep my mouth shut. I feel like I donât deserve to offer any words or actions of comfort. The silence drags on, and then the trembling stops.
ââ¦â¦.â
Misha steps back and glares at me with red, swollen eyes.
Andâ¦
âYouâre not getting any dinner tomorrow.â
â¦she leaves after those spiteful words.
I stay there like a statue, watching her retreating figure.
Creak.
As I enter the inn, the owner at the counter clicks his tongue, looking at me.
âYou were the one who was wrong today.â
I already knew that without him telling me.
Thud, thud.
I climb the stairs and open the door to my room.
Itâs still Bjorn Yandelâs small, cramped room.
Itâs time to accept it.
ââ¦â¦.â
Iâm not weak because Iâve become attached to them.
I tried not to get attached because I knew I was weak.
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The next morning.
Misha, who said I wasnât getting any dinner, came to my room and woke me up.
With a healthy lunchbox full of carrots.
âChew your food properly. Okay?â
I chew and swallow everything since Iâm guilty.
It doesnât take long since Iâm eating as if Iâve forgotten how to breathe. However, Misha speaks first as I look around awkwardly after finishing the meal.
âIsnât it fine just the way it is now?â
âButâ¦â
âWhat âbutâ? You have no say in this. So donât feel pressured. Iâm just doing what I want to do.â
Itâs the conclusion she reached after a night of contemplation.
Thereâs no room for me to interfere.
Misha is more mature than I am.
Sheâs saying this resolutely because she doesnât want this relationship to become any more awkward.
Well, this ambiguous settlement isnât what Dwarkey wanted, butâ¦
âAlright.â
âRight, then letâs not talk about this anymore. Got it?â
âGot it.â
With that, the issue is settled for now.
Well, itâs not like anything has changed compared to before, but anywayâ¦
âCome out when youâre done washing up. We need to get going.â
After the meal, I wash up quickly and leave with Misha. And we head towards the meeting place and meet up with the others, then go to Commelby together.
The atmosphere in the carriage is quite heavy.
âI think this is our first time going there together like this?â
Although the dwarf tries to lighten the mood, strictly speaking, itâs not like weâre all going together.
We canât do that anymore, even if we want to.
ââ¦Letâs just finish our business and go back.â
Itâs a bit better once we arrive in Commelby.
We repair our equipment and sell what needs to be sold. And lastly, we stop by the Central Administrative Office to sign the contract transferring the ownership of Dwarkeyâs house to the dwarf.
The reason is simple.
The dwarf said he wanted to buy it.
ââ¦Why are you going so far? Iâm sure Dwarkey wouldnât want you to do that.â
âHaha! It was always my dream to have my own house. And I have a lump sum of money now.â
âWell, thatâs enough worrying, just take it and sign.â
We sign the document in front of the administrative office employee whoâs notarizing it, and Dwarkeyâs house officially becomes the dwarfâs property.
For reference, the appraised value of the house, according to the administrative office, is 24 million stones.
However, since I heard that it would sell for about 20% less at auction, we only received 5 million stones per person.
âThen letâs go back and have a drink.â
We finish our business and return to the residential district, heading towards the bar. And we have our final settlement.
We divide all the income, including the magic stones, into four.
Although there are slight differences because of things like equipment repair costs and consumable expenses in the labyrinthâ¦
â25 million stonesâ¦â
A huge sum of money is in my hands.
The dwarf only has 10 million stones left after buying the houseâ¦
Ah, for reference, it was agreed that Dragonslayer and the âTempered Wishâ I used in the labyrinth would be considered my share.
âThe fact that he sacrificed himself to save us⦠it must be a truly valuable treasure. But weâre not shameless enough to be greedy for that.â
âItâs the same for the Dragonslayer. If it werenât for you, he would have taken that item with him.â
Iâm very grateful for their words.
If we were to convert those items into money and split it four ways, we would have to go bankrupt several times over.
âAlright, then letâs drink.â
After a few more rounds of drinks, I subtly bring up the topic.
âIt seems like itâs time to talk about the team.â
One spot on the team is vacant.
But Iâm not planning to fill that spot, Iâm going to tell them that Misha and I are leaving the team.
Howeverâ¦
âI have something to say to everyone about that.â
The dwarf beat me to it.
âIâm quitting being an explorer.â
âWhat?â
âIâm sorry to bring this up at a time like this. But itâs a decision I made after thinking about it all day yesterday, so please understand.â
Rotmiller asks at the dwarfâs declaration,
âWhat are you planning to do after you quit?â
âIâm going to open a blacksmithâs workshop. Thatâs why I bought that guyâs house. I thought if I didnât do it now, I would never be able to.â
No wonder he wanted to buy Dwarkeyâs house.
He was planning to renovate it and turn it into a blacksmithâs workshop.
âI became an explorer to escape reality. I gave up on my dream because I had no talent and needed money to survive. But I donât want to have any regrets. That would be an insult to him.â
No one could object to the dwarfâs firm words.
They just wished him well in his future endeavors.
ââ¦I hope you achieve your dream.â
âOh, a blacksmithâs workshop? Youâre becoming the boss now? Iâll definitely come visit.â
âIf I need to go to a blacksmithâs, Iâll go to your shop from now on.â
âYeah, thatâs right! Just thinking about it makes me excited! Hahaha!â
After the dwarfâs departure becomes a certainty, Rotmiller speaks up.
âMurad, donât feel too bad. I was also planning to leave the team after this expedition.â
âWhat? You? Why?â
âI realized my own shortcomings. Thatâs all.â
The dwarf is speechless at his brief answer.
But did Rotmiller already expect this reaction?
He continues without any change in expression.
âActually, I already told Bjorn about it. I didnât imagine it would end like this back then. But since we have a lot of money now, Iâm going to take some time to improve myself.â
ââ¦I believe that with your diligence and perseverance, youâll achieve your goal someday, no matter what it is.â
The dwarfâs sincere words end, and their gazes turn to Misha and me.
Theyâre probably curious about what weâre going to do.
I briefly reveal our future ambitions.
âWeâre going to form a new team. And weâre going to climb even higher.â
âRight, I knew you would say that.â
âMiss Kaltstein will have a hard time.â
ââ¦Well, itâs my karma. And besides, thereâs nothing else I can do.â
We all raise our glasses and toast.
The last drinking party as Team Misfits.
We spend our time saying goodbye, blessing and cheering for each otherâs futures, and reminiscing about our shared memories.
As always, time flows relentlessly, and soon the dwarf and Misha get drunk and bury their heads on the table.
âItâs time to call it a night.â
I smile bitterly at Rotmiller.
It was always the two of us who cleaned up at the end of our drinking sessions.
Itâs a fitting end for Team Misfits.
Just as Iâm thinking that and getting upâ¦
âBjorn, I have something to ask you.â
Unlike usual, Rotmiller calls out to me in a low voice.
As if he had been waiting for the other two to fall asleep.
ââ¦Go ahead.â
I look at him, feeling a strange sense of pressure, and Rotmiller asks me after a brief pause,
âAre you an evil spirit?â
The biggest task remains for the safe disbandment of Team Misfits.