My heart is racing as I study my latest invention. It took me weeks to build this little device, and if it does what Iâm hoping it will, Iâll be able to secure funding for my company.
All thatâs left to do now is test it. If I fabricated it without any design flaws, then this little toy will make me orgasm harder than I ever have before â without making a sound.
I have sky-high expectations for a toy this small. To me, itâs far more than a sex toy. Itâs a ticket to the fulfillment of my every hope and dream. Itâs my road to independence.
My hands are trembling as I put it down and reach for the stupidly big bottle of lube I bought. A nervous giggle escapes my lips, the sound breaking the silence in my bedroom. Thank God for online shopping. Iâm able to design and create sex toys without an ounce of shame, but the idea of buying lube has my cheeks heating in embarrassment.
I suppose thatâs part of the reason I decided to create products like these, though. I wanted something obscure yet powerful, something you could use privately without worrying about the sound it might make.
My heart is pounding in my chest as I grab my little invention, totally unoriginally named Secret O. Yeah, I may need to rethink that.
I smile to myself as I carry the ridiculously large bottle of lube to my bed. I didnât think the largest size they had would be this⦠huge. It looks like itâs a family-sized bottle of water. Itâs weird, and it just increases my nerves.
Will I even be able to come when Iâm this nervous? Iâm not sure, but Iâll have to try. Iâve been putting the testing phase off, and the longer I wait, the longer I deny myself funding.
I inhale deeply as I open the bottle of lube. I canât put too much on because my toy relies on suction to stay in. When I created it, I wanted to make something you can walk around with without worrying that it might slip out. Obscurity is what Iâm going for with this one.
Iâm trembling as I lie back and fiddle with the lube, taking my time and delaying the inevitable. Iâm scared my toy wonât do what I expect it to do. Iâm scared my hopes will all come crashing down on me.
I inhale shakily as I turn it on and push it in, taking note of the ease it slips in with. My eyes fall closed as my lips tip up into a smile. It feels good. Thank God.
I canât help but giggle, relief rushing through me. It feels really good. Thereâs a small part on the edges that stimulates my G-spot, and it feels better than the touch of most men Iâve been with. Itâs working perfectly, and I canât hear a thing. No sound, no hint of the electronic device inside me.
I swallow hard as my thoughts fade away and desire overcomes me. This toy is good. The way it feels⦠thereâs nothing like it. A soft moan escapes my lips, and I bite down on my lip. Yeah, I canât resist that feeling for too long. I already want to come.
My muscles contract involuntarily, an orgasm catching me by surprise. I was not ready for that⦠and it didnât feel as good as expected.
Damn it. I shouldâve timed it. It felt rushed, like I didnât come as well as I wanted to. Iâll need to look into that. Maybe different settings? A buildup in speed? Iâll have to try a couple of options and see how they affect my experience before we move onto further testing.
I throw my arm over my face and sigh happily. This is good. I didnât expect it to be perfect, but itâs already far better than I thought itâd be.
Now for the real test, though⦠what will it feel like when I walk around with it? Iâm nervous as I sit up in bed, moving carefully. This entire productâs appeal is in its obscurity and its staying power. If it slips out when I walk around, itâll be a failure, no matter how good it feels. It wonât have a unique selling point other competitors havenât already perfected.
My feet hit the floor, and Iâm nervous all over again. Okay, so far, so good. I nod to myself as I walk over to my bedroom door, thanking my lucky stars Iâm home alone.
Considering that Iâm twenty-seven, it is perhaps a little strange that I still live at home, and right about now Iâd much prefer not to. Testing my toy while walking around the house and worrying about someone coming home just makes my nerves skyrocket.
I rest my hand against the wall in the hallway, my eyes falling closed as yet another orgasm threatens to overwhelm me. Oh shit. This invention of mine is brilliant. Even now that Iâm worried and overthinking, itâs still keeping me turned on. It isnât slipping out â itâs not moving at all. Itâs still perfectly positioned against my G-spot, and I giggle to myself. Amazing.
I jump up and down in the hallway, my giddiness increasing by the second. This is perfect. Iâm grinning as I skip through the long hallway in my grandfatherâs mansion, noting every sensation, every feeling.
Itâs not perfect yet, but the key elements are all there, and theyâre all working perfectly. I walk back to my room in a daze, turned on, proud, and relieved all at the same time. It makes for some powerful emotions, and my relaxedness almost brings me close to another orgasm. This time I smile and let my eyes fall closed as it washes over me.
Itâs stronger this time, and the way my muscles clench around the toy only increases my pleasure. Itâs almost painful, in the very best way, but Iâm not sure how much more of this I can take.
I walk over to my bed and lie back, reaching for my toy. I freeze when I realize I didnât 3D print the small handle I had in mind for it.
Fuck.
I swallow down my panic as I try to get it out, hurting myself with my nails and only managing to push it in further.
This is a prototype. I canât be too rough with it, because if I break this, Iâll be back at zero â I wonât have enough time to build a new one in time for my investor meeting.
I tug at it, trying to grasp the edges and failing. Itâs engineered to stay in using suction, and without something to pull it out with, itâs going to be almost impossible to remove.
What do I do?
My cheeks heat at the mere thought of having to ask for help. Who do I ask? My mom? She already isnât happy with the way Iâm choosing to put my engineering degree to use, and she keeps reminding me not to use the universityâs facilities for my own research purposes. Iâve managed to get around that by explaining to her that itâs part of my PhD project, but asking her for help with this would lead to a breaking point for sure.
I hesitate before picking up my phone and calling my best friend, Leia. She picks up almost immediately, much to my relief.
âHey babe,â she says, her voice as cheery as ever. The background noise tells me sheâs outside, so with a bit of luck, she can come over.
âLeia, I need help.â Leia and I met at the start of our PhD program four years ago, and in that time weâve been through enough craziness together for her not to bat an eye at my current predicament.
âWhat happened?â
I groan and pull a hand through my hair. âI tested the toy. It got stuck in me. I was stupid enough not to 3D print the handle.â She bursts out laughing, and I shake my head. âItâs not funny!â
âIt is. Girl, I have a class to teach in five minutes. The soonest I can get to you is in two hours.â
I sigh and shake my head. âI have dinner with my mother tonight. You know what sheâs like. I need to be ready in time.â
Leia pauses, both of us trying to think of a solution. âYou need a stranger,â she says. âSomeone thatâll just forget about this. Better yet if they canât speak at all. A lawyer?â
I think of the ancient Astor family lawyer and burst out laughing despite the fear that claws at me. I can just imagine the look on his wrinkly face, and Iâm tempted to call him just to find out how scandalized heâd be.
My smile melts away when I realize exactly what I need. âI need a doctor. Doctor-patient confidentiality and all that shit. I canât go to our family doctor, though. I donât trust him.â
âThe college clinic,â Leia says. âThatâs your best bet, and itâs close by.â
I nod, gathering my courage. âOkay. Yes, okay.â
Leia giggles, and I roll my eyes. At least one of us thinks this is funny. âGood luck, babe. I canât wait to hear how that goes.â
Luck. Yeah, Iâll be needing a ton of that if Iâm going to see this through.