I rest my forehead against hers, both of us struggling to catch our breath. Amara giggles and wraps her arms around me.
âThat was better than in my fantasies,â she whispers.
I laugh and lower my lips to hers, kissing her tenderly. âIt was. We didnât use a condom, though. I brought some, but in the heat of the momentâ¦â
She smiles at me and shakes her head before leaning in for a kiss. âItâs okay. Iâm on the pill, and Iâm clean. Considering that youâre a doctor, itâs probably safe to assume that you are too?â
I nod. âI am. I actually⦠well, Iâve never had anyone but you without a condom. No one but you has ever made me feel so out of control. Iâve never experienced anything like this before.â
She smiles at me and nods. âItâs the same for me.â
I smirk and turn us over, reaching between us to take off the toy she brought. âI like this thing. Weâre using that again,â I murmur, placing it on my nightstand.
Amara giggles and nods. âIt was good.â She settles in my arms, her head on my chest. We lie there together like that, just enjoying this moment, the tips of my fingers running over her skin. She presses a kiss to my neck, and I sigh in contentment. Having her in my arms⦠itâs unreal.
âIâm sorry for leaving you alone today,â I whisper as I thread my hand through her hair.
Amara pulls away and smiles at me, her eyes twinkling. âI got to spend the day with Nyx, so I didnât mind it at all. I missed you, though. If I only get to have one week with you, then I want it all. You need to take me on a date, doctor dearest.â
I lean in for another kiss, my lips lingering. âI will, baby. Everything Iâve ever wanted to do with you, weâll do.â
Amara nods, her gaze clearing, and I smile to myself, knowing what sheâs suddenly curious about. âSo⦠you spoke to Grayson?â
I smile smugly and nod. âYeah, and I can be convinced to tell you all about it.â
âOh yeah?â
I nod, and Amara giggles. âWhat will it take?â
âHow about a kiss, for starters?â
She leans in and presses her lips to my neck, surprising me. She kisses my throat softly, taking her time moving her lips up to my ear. I groan and bury my hand in her hair, tightening my grip on her.
âPlaying dirty, are we?â
She laughs, and the sound stirs my cock. âThe more you tell me, the more Iâll give you,â she whispers, her voice husky.
I smirk, my eyes falling closed. This is a trap of my own making, but I donât mind being her prey.
âHe asked me all about you. Wouldnât rest until I told him everything I know about you.â
âEverything?â She lowers her lips to my chest, and a moan escapes my lips when she sucks down on my skin, marking me as hers.
âNot everything. Some things are only for me to know, Amara.â
She pulls her lips away, looking at the damage she did with satisfaction. âWhat did you tell him?â
âI told him about your educational background, your company, and your family. I told him about your tenacity, your independence and drive.â
Amara kisses my abs, and I smile. âWhat did he say?â
âHe seemed impressed. Gray said you can give him a presentation tomorrow. Heâd have done it sooner, but he was working on a government project with a tight deadline, and he had a few things going on recently on top of that.â
She sits up, her eyes wide. âIâd love to. I canât believe you made this happen for me, Noah. I canât believe this is happening.â
I grin at her, my heart overflowing with happiness. âYouâd better believe it, baby. Youâre going to do amazing.â
Amara nods, but I see the insecurity in her eyes. âYouâve got this, Amara. Youâre incredible, and Gray will recognize that.â
âIâm scared, Noah,â she whispers, pulling her hands off my body and wrapping them around herself protectively. âThis is my last chance. If Grayson doesnât invest, then itâs over. Iâll probably have to start working for my grandfather and walk the path he paved for me. Iâm terrified of failing. If I do, then all my dreams will fade to dust. But at the same time⦠I donât know. I feel selfish. I confronted my grandfather about him blocking all my investment opportunities, and I donât know⦠I can kind of see his point. He did work hard, and maybe I am being ungrateful by wanting to follow my own dreams.â
I pull her down with me, lying down with her head on my chest, my hand brushing over her back. âYouâre not, baby. Youâre being brave. I donât doubt for a second that youâll succeed. There are several paths to success, and yours is no less admirable.â
She looks up at me, her eyes filled with fear. Sheâs always seemed so fearless to me, so brave. Seeing her this scared and insecure⦠itâs a unique experience. Itâs a moment I know Iâll always cherish, having her in my arms and having the honor of reassuring and consoling her.
Amara inhales deeply, almost as though sheâs bracing herself. âHe thinks Iâm being foolish, and my mother agrees.â
I keep my arms wrapped around her, stroking her back as she finally truly lets me in and tells me about the day she confronted her grandfather. This is what I wanted with her. With Amara, I want far more than just sex. I want her to be mine in every way. I want to be the one she turns to when sheâs scared. I want to be her safe haven. Even if itâs just for this one week.
So I hold her a little tighter when her voice wavers, and I press kisses to her temple when she sniffs. I keep her close, until she falls asleep in my arms, safe from her fears.
This intimacy between us⦠Iâm not sure I can do without it. I donât think Iâll be able to go back to what we used to be.