Chapter 30 You Brought This Upon Yourself âDetest you? Who detests you?â
âWho?â Deirdre almost burst into laughter. âDo you have even half of Sterlingâs courage? Enough courage to take me out there? Introduce me to everyone? Do you even have the guts to tell the world my name-my real name?â
Brendan froze. Of course he did not. Deirdre already knew his answer and answered herself, âNo. You donât.â
A mocking sneer surfaced on her features, pulling Brendan out of his stupor. He clutched the steering wheel tightly, his tone disbelieving. âHow dare you, McKinnon?! How dare you compare me to a bastard child not recognized even by his own family?! Do you know just how-how different the two of us are?! Do you really think he would have a blind woman as his girlfriend if he were me? Pfft! He wouldnât even have the balls to admit that youâre his woman!â
Brendan did not put much thought into his words, but they came out like a knife stabbing deep into Deirdreâs chest.
She was a blind woman who would never be recognized as anyoneâs woman in public. That was Brendanâs opinion of her.
Deirdre laughed so hard tears began to roll down her cheeks. âOh my god, where are my manners!
Having the great, esteemed Mr. Brighthall drive a blind woman like me to the Fullers must take a lot of effort and time. I shouldnât impose!â
Brendan was furious. âDonât use that passive-aggressive tone with me, Deirdre. Do you really lack self-
awareness? I get that youâre blind, but that doesnât mean a part of your brain died with your eyesight, right? Itâs the greatest honor to have me acknowledge you as my woman! Beggars canât be choosers.
Ever heard of that?!â
The arrogance in his voice made Deirdre feel cold.
âHonestly , none of this would have happened to you if you had done what I said,â he added. âGet it through your skull, Deirdre-you brought all this upon yourself!â
Deirdre bit her lip so hard that her teeth drew blood. Pain assaulted her so hard that she would have seen only darkness even if her sight had been back. Oh, sure! The fact that Brendan had shown up with her at the Fullersâ residence had been the biggest honor she could ever deserve!
But did she even want this âhonorâ?
She felt suffocated⦠and defeated. She resigned to leaning against the back of her chair, too tired to even object.
Since the last scandal had happened in a private hospital, Brendan elected to take Deirdre to the state hospital for treatment. According to the doctorâs prognosis, her bruise was fairly minor and required only some external medication.
As Brendan listened to the doctorâs explanation, he glimpsed at Deirdreâs lifeless eyes.
They were so hollow.
He frowned. They used to be so alive and animated. As the saying went, the eyes are the windows to oneâs soul, and they had been the windows to hers. He had been the only one who had mattered to her back then, so her eyes used to always be filled with color and light whenever she was looking at him. It did not matter how hard he had tried to push her away, the light in her eyes had never died.
âCan you check her eyes too? Is there something we can do about her sight?â he blurted out.
Deirdreâs fingertips quivered.
The doctor began his examination. When he was finished, there was a deep frown on his face. âWhen did she start losing her sight?â
Deirdre felt a pang in her chest. Her mind blanked out before she answered, âJune 27th, 2018.â
She could recall it right down to the exact date, as it was a day she would never forget. She had counted down the days. She had carved the time passing on the door. She had kept time.
It was the day Brendan had slapped her face by proxy.
The man himself froze a little. It was not because he remembered that as the day he and Charlene had taken their wedding photo. He did not remember receiving a desperate call asking for help.
He was merely surprised because the day fell neatly into the window of time when Deirdre should have been in jail.
The doctor sighed. âYouâve gone this long without any. treatment or help? Miss, your eyes could have been salvageable back then. Why didnât you get emergency care at the time?â
Why?
Deirdre stared unseeingly ahead. Then, with downcast eyes, she whispered, âI forgot to.â