âI wonder if Jenny will remember puking all over her momâs rosebush,â I mutter, taking in the taupe and silver bedding and subtle floral accents of Henryâs room. Mr. and Mrs. Rhodes gave him the one in the attic that spans the entire floor and overlooks the garden I used to maintain. Arguably the nicest room.
âSheâs not going to remember anything. I doubt she could even see straight by the end of it.â Henry reaches back to pull his navy t-shirt over his head, letting me admire his chest and stomach, shaped by hard muscles and covered in smooth, tan skin. I didnât get to enjoy that sight earlier, my back to him the entire time.
When he sees me standing there, staring at him, he groans. âDonât look at me like that, Abbi. Iâm too tired to do something about it.â
The man is normally insatiable. If Henry is saying that, then he must be exhausted. My heart swells as I remind myself that he flew all the way from Alaska for one day, delaying his trip to Beijing. Yeah, heâs the CEO, but I remember what a nightmare it was to move his meetings around. Miles is going to hate me.
âIf you donât mind, Iâm going to jump in the shower.â I feel the need to get clean after tonight.
He reaches for his phone. âGo ahead. I have to cover a few things for work.â
The bathroom is small but quaint, with a glass shower stall on the right. I strip down and climb in, reveling in the hot water. These last two days have been equal parts terrible and amazing. Henry showing up made me forget about the whole ordeal with Mama, but Iâll have to deal with that at some point. Itâll be a long time before I can forgive her though, both for risking her health in such a stupid way, but also for trying to keep Henry and me apart.
How do I convince her that heâs not a bad man?
Because heâs not.
He just likes to do bad things to me.
Was it right that we watched that couple? That we got off by watching them? Not that I wouldnât have gotten off anyway with Henryâs hands on me. But heâs right, I was dripping from the depravity of it all.
It just felt so⦠seedy, and dirty.
I didnât really enjoy what was going on in the pool room, but thatâs because that was uncomfortable. It didnât feel safe. And Henry wasnât there. Would it have been different, had he been there?
And then to get so out of control near the end that we couldnât stop? Knowing that we were about to have an audience? A drunken one, but one nonetheless. They stood there with the door wide open and watched and listened to us orgasm together. It was such an intimate moment and stupid Jenny and Veronica witnessed it.
My cheeks flush at the thought of that.
What does that say about me, that in the heat of the moment I allowed that?
The shower door opens behind me and Henry steps in, taking up all available space in the stall. He leans down to lay a soft kiss on my lips, his hand sliding over my ass in a gentle manner. âSore?â
âA little.â The soap burned at first but I was fine by the time I finished cleaning myself down there. I like being able to feel him inside me.
âWhatâs wrong?â
âNothing.â
âAbbi⦠Iâm too tired for games.â
I study him as he tips his head back to soak his hair under the stream of water. âWhat exactly have you done?â
He smirks. âCan you be more clear?â
âYou know⦠sexually?â
âRight.â He squirts a dollop of shampoo into his hand. âAsk specifics, and Iâll tell you.â
âSpecifics?â
âIf youâre curious about something specific, Iâll tell you if Iâve done it. But Iâm not about to list all of my indiscretions as if Iâm at a church confessional.â
I have a mental flash of Henry sitting in that narrow wooden box, giving details in his way. Heâd give the priest a hard attack. Okayâ¦. âHave you slept with two women at once?â
He starts rubbing the shampoo into his hair. âYes.â
âHow many times?â
âI didnât keep count.â
I roll my eyes. âSo more than a few?â
He chuckles. âYes.â
âWhat about more than two women at once?â
He hesitates.
âSeriously?â
âA few times.â
I try to picture that. All those female body parts and only one of Henry. Even though his dick, hanging limp between his legs right now, is still an impressive five inchesâat least.
He chuckles softly and I realize Iâm scowling at his dick.
âAnything else you want to know?â
âWhat about men? Have you ever had sex with a man?â
âNo.â
âHave you ever wanted to?â
âNo.â
âHave you done anything with another man?â
âIâve shared a woman, if that counts.â
âRight.â Margo. Somehow, I had forgotten.
How exactly did that go, anyway? Was it like with me and Ronan and Connor? My imagination travels to that day trapped in the truck with them. That was⦠intense but intimate, because I trusted them completely.
âDonât get any ideas,â Henry mutters, as if reading my mind.
I quietly watch him rinse the suds out of his hair, the soapy rivulets running down his chest and abdomen. Curiosity finally gets the better of me. âWhy not?â
âWhy not, what? Let another man fuck you?â Thereâs an edge in his voice.
I instinctively reach for him, tracing the ridges of his stomach soothingly. âI donât want another man, Henry. Iâm just wondering why you wouldnât do it again.â
âThere are a lot of things Iâll do with you and for you, if you ask me to, but sharing you with another man is not one of them.â
âWhy not?â Iâm fishing for him to say the words. For him to talk to me, to tell me how he feels. He must know it.
He reaches for the bar of soap and begins lathering, saying nothing.
âYou shared⦠her.â
âShe was nobody.â
âAnd Iâmâ¦.â
His jaw tenses. âNot nobody.â
My heart squeezes. As terrible as Henry is at expressing his own feelings, I sense them. Thatâll have to be enough for me.
For now.
Leaning in close until my nipples are just barely grazing his flesh, I lift to my tiptoes and catch his lips with mine. He doesnât move to meet them, but he doesnât pull away either, his breath coming out in shallow pants as I run my tongue across the seam of his mouth, trying to coax him.
Finally, he lays a single, chaste kiss on my mouth. âYou done in here?â
âYeah.â
His hands curl around my hips to spin me around. âIâll be there in a minute.â
âYouâre kicking me out?â I pout.
âCramped showers arenât my thing.â He pushes the door open and slaps my ass, ushering me out.
Fair enough.
A minute is more like ten. Ten minutes to dwell on the entire twisted nightâfrom being trapped in that pool room, to Henry showing up, to having us do things in his truck that I would never expect myself to do.
Henry seems to prefer risqué things. He likes watching and being watched. Heâs had more than one woman at a time. Heâs shared a woman, heâs done God knows what elseâthe fact that I canât even come up with anything else to ask him about just proves how inexperienced I am.
What else is he going to want me to do?
Should I be worried that just having sex with me eventually wonât be enough?
He says he doesnât want to share me, but what if thereâs a time that that changes? What if thereâs a time when I have to share him to keep his appetite sated?
Just the thought of him inside another woman makes my chest hurt.
Is this really what everyone keeps saying, about me not being the kind of girl that can keep a man like him interested? Maybe it has nothing to do with money.
By the time I hear the bathroom door click open and watch Henry stroll out to crawl into the bed beside me, the glow from my lamp highlighting his beautiful naked body, I canât help but wonder how long Iâll be able to satisfy him before I canât.
âHey.â
He leans over to kiss me and at the same time, switches my bedside lamp off, throwing us into near darkness, the only light a faint glow from a streetlight outside. âYou were chewing your bottom lip.â
âSo?â
âYou do that when somethingâs wrong.â
I hesitate. âWhat if I just want normal person sex?â
âNormal person sex?â His voice is laced with amusement.
âYou know⦠In a bed, in the dark, by ourselves. Just you and me, being together and boring. Penis-in-vagina sex.â
He sighs, sinking into the mattress beside me. âThen we have ânormal person sex.ââ
âYeah, butâ¦.â I swallow, afraid heâll chastise me for sounding insecure. âWhat if Iâm not enough for you one day? What if you get bored?â
Silence hangs in the room for so long, I find myself holding my breath warily.
And then his large, warm hand seeks out my face, to cradle it, his thumb dragging back and forth over my cheek as he climbs on top of me, gently settling his body between my legs. I search the dark for his face but I canât make it out, so Iâm left to just feel him.
Feel his weight pressing down on me.
Feel his minty breath skating across my face.
Feel his erection growing thick against me. Even with my soreness from earlier, my body automatically begins responding, growing slick. I stretch my thighs wide, opening up for him.
His fingers coil through mine and, lifting my arms above my head, he gently pins my hands down. He begins kissing me, his lips soft but forceful, leisurely but unrelenting. I moan against his mouth as his cock pushes into me.
The old bed frame begins to creak with his deliciously slow tempo and gentle thrusts. It doesnât take long before heâs slipping in and out with ease, his pelvic bone rubbing against my clit with each pass to give me the friction I need.
Iâm waiting for him to pick up the pace, to push harder into me, to release my hands so he can lift and bend my body for his pleasure. To turn the light on so he can watch my breasts bounce and me writhe beneath him. To start whispering dirty demands in my ear.
But he never does, his hips keeping that slow pace, his tongue sliding out every so often to catch mine, his breaths small pants, his thumbs rubbing back and forth over mine.
Itâs so intimate.
So consuming.
His fingers tense within mine and a few minutes later, with my name slipping from his tongue in a deep groan, heâs pulsing inside me, filling me with his seed.
Releasing my fingers, he pulls out of me and begins shifting downward. I reach for him, toying with strands of his damp, silky hair, my stomach tightening with anticipation as his breath leaves a hot trail across my stomach. I hold my breath.
I have to smother my cries with a pillow when I come only thirty seconds later, not wanting the Rhodeses to hear me in the quiet of the night.
Iâm panting when he returns to kiss me softly, his lips tasting like both of us. âHow could I ever get bored of that, Abbi?â he whispers. Rolling off, he stretches out on his back, pulling me over to rest on his chest. I donât want to ruin the intensity of this by saying something stupid, so I say nothing, listening to his breaths, feeling his heart beat. Within minutes, his breathing has grown shallow.
âI love you, Henry,â I whisper into the darkness, wishing I were brave enough to say it to him when he can hear me.
~ ~ ~
God, heâs so beautiful.
Only once, in a plane thousands of feet in the air, with his legs sprawled out in front of him, have I ever witnessed Henry sleep.
He didnât look like this.
Peaceful.
Vulnerable.
I slowly roll onto my side, trying not to disturb the mattress, wanting a better look at this sleeping man. Heâs on his back, one arm resting on the pillow over his head, the other draped over his stomach. Long, dark lashes fringe his unmoving lids, so long they reach for his cheeks below.
His lips are parted just slightly. They really are the perfect lips, full and pink. I stay my hand against the urge to reach out and trace them with a finger. The things theyâve done⦠to me.
To others.
I let my gaze drift down, over his neckâeven his neck is sexyâover his chest, down across his stomach, to where the white sheets bunch, the outline of his thick cock clearly visible.
I pinch a fold in the sheets and then, ever so slowly, begin pulling it back, until Iâve uncovered him.
I love his cock. I never thought Iâd say that about a penis, but itâs as beautiful and strong as the rest of him. And itâs all mine. I donât have to share it with anyone.
Suddenly it jumps, startling me.
Henryâs soft chuckles pull my eyes up to his now open but sleepy gaze.
âGood morning.â I shift back up to drape myself over his chest and kiss him.
âWhat time is it?â
âAlmost ten.â
He groans.
âWhat time do you have to leave?â
âI have to be at the airfield by one.â
Itâs my turn to groan. I have three hours left with him and then I donât know when Iâll see him again. The dread of missing him is already settling on my shoulders.
He pushes my hair off my forehead. âI need to tell you something.â
It sounds ominous and I instantly grow wary. âOkay?â
âIâm going to Margoâs chateau again. The one she wants to partner with Wolf on.â
The place where you and her boyfriend fucked her? âOh?â What am I supposed to say? Donât go?
âI thought you might want to come with me.â
âTo France?â
âYes. In three weeks.â
I hesitate. âWill she mind?â Because I will sure as hell mind if heâs with her there alone.
âShe asked me to invite you.â
âReally?â Is she aware of how jealous I am of her?
âThere will be a few other people there as well.â He slides out from under me. I lie on my stomach and admire his firm ass as he makes his way to the bathroom.
âIâd need a passport.â And a million other things, like a new wardrobe, my hair redone, my body waxed.
Henry returns after relieving himself. âThatâs easy enough to get. So is that a yes?â
âI have to make sure Jed can manage while Iâm away but⦠yeah.â A trip to France with Henry. Excitement bubbles inside. I donât think Iâll have the same resistance from Mama as Iâve had up until now, after what she just pulled. But who knows with her.
Itâd be good to have Aunt May on my side for this one. âAre you hungry? We could go to the Pearl. Itâs just around the corner.â
âFine. I just need to finish something.â He looks so serious all of a sudden.
âFor work?â
He dives into bed, crawling up behind me, between my legs. His arms slide beneath me. I let out a squeal as Iâm suddenly being dragged back and upward, until my thighs are sandwiched within his biceps and my ass is in his face.
âI was too rough last night. I need to make it better.â
I gasp as I feel the first swipe of his wet tongue against me. âI donâtâ¦.â Oh my God. He licked me there once before. I donât know if I canâ¦.
âLet go of your insecurities, Abbi, and look at how hard I am right now.â
I manage to twist my body enough to see his rigid cock jutting out, beads of moisture rolling off the top. And then another long swipe of his tongue has me squirming and squeezing my eyes shut.
He doesnât relent this time, warm breath skating across my skin once before his mouth closes over me and that tongue of his both soothes and tortures me. I try my hardest to relax, to remind myself that heâs doing this because he wants to.
Not four minutes later, Iâm muffling my screams of ecstasy into Mrs. Rhodesâs goose-down pillow as Henry brings me to a mind-bending orgasm.
~ ~ ~
Henry slides another piece of bacon into his mouth.
That dirty, filthy mouth that brings me so much pleasure. I canât stop staring at it.
âAbbi?â
It takes me a moment to realize heâs asked me a question.
âUh-huh?â
The corner of that mouth twitches. âWhat were you just thinking about?â
I duck my head as the blush creeps up my cheeks. âI donât know whatâs taking Aunt May so long. She must be busy.â
I feel the weight of that gaze on me for long moment before he relents, letting it roam over our small family restaurant, a hub for Greenbankâs gossip. âWell, it is packed in here.â
I recognize several people from church. Theyâre all watching, curious. I smile at them when we make eye contact, and they smile back.
I wonder how many of them have already heard that I stayed at the Inn with Henry last night.
The look on Mrs. Rhodesâs face when I trailed him down the stairs half an hour ago in my skirt and tank top from last night was priceless. Henry was the only one renting, so any noises that might have carried through the house couldnât be blamed on anyone but us. She was professional enough to smile and nod, and ask when Henry was coming through again, that they may reserve the same room for his stay.
While Mrs. Rhodes herself isnât a huge gossip, she lives two doors down from Peggy Sue and, well⦠we all know that woman has a long wooden spoon at the ready to stir the pot.
âHave you spoken to that branding company yet?â Henry takes a sip of coffee.
âIâm supposed to talk to that girl on Monday.â
He nods. âGood. Do it.â
âWhy did you go to that trouble, anyway?â
He shrugs nonchalantly. âI was on the plane. I had some time to kill.â
I roll my eyes. âI donât have time for games, Henry.â I drop my voice an octave to mimic him when he says that.
That earns me a smirk. âFine. You said this was yours. Not your parentsâ. Not fuckfaceâs. Just yours.â
âYeahâ¦.â Iâm not following.
âAnd you were embarrassed to let me see it. Why?â
I shrug. âItâs like running a five-cent lemonade stand at the end of the driveway in the summer compared to what you do.â
He smirks, like he knew that would be my answer. âI want you to have something thatâs completely yours and that you can be 100 percent proud of. So, go⦠run with it. Take full advantage of them. They donât just do branding. They can help with company start-up, distribution, production efficiencies, forecasting. Theyâre the best at what they do. Youâll learn something and thatâs always useful, no matter where you end up in life.â
I sigh. âHow much do these people cost?â
âIâm not fighting over money with you,â he mutters between mouthfuls. âItâs my money and Iâll spend it how I damn well please.â
Impatient business tycoon Henry is making an appearance. I wonât win against him, and I donât want to fight.
âFine. Iâll talk to them.â
âGood. Let me know how it goes.â Finishing his last mouthful, he wipes his mouth with his napkin, checking his watch. âI need to be leaving for my plane soon.â
I reach across the table, placing my hand over his. âA few more minutes. Sheâll be out soon. She really wants to meet you.â
His brow furrows. âThis is your motherâs sister, you said?â
âYeah. But sheâs nothing like my mother.â
As if summoned by our whispers, Aunt May pushes through the kitchen doors and makes her way over to us, her slender frame weaving through the tables. âFinally! Iâm sorry, I had to prep the roast chickens for tonightâs dinner and then it got busy and, you knowâ¦. Well, Iâm here now.â She heaves a sigh, smiling first at me, and then at Henry.
âAunt May, this Henry.â
If there was ever a graceful way to get to a standing position from sitting at a small diner table, Henry has mastered it, smoothly getting to his feet to tower over the woman, offering her his hand. âAbbi talks about you a lot.â
I think Iâve only ever mentioned her once to him, but thatâs the right thing to say.
âOh, does she, now?â She chuckles. âAll good things, I hope.â
âOnly.â
âCan you sit for a minute, Aunt May?â I need to beg for your help with Mama.
âSure, Iâll justâ¦.â She glances around for a chair to pull up but theyâre all taken.
âHere, Iâll find one for myself.â Henry gestures to the chair he was just occupying. âI insist.â
She takes it, giving me a wide-eyed look. Approval, I think. âSo? Howâs your mother doing?â
âSheâs fine.â
âReally? The Reverend was in here last night for dinner, saying how worried he was about her heart.â
Thatâs because he doesnât know what she did. âItâs a long story that I canât get into right now, but we should be more worried about her head.â
Her lips purse. âAbout him, I take it?â
I glance over to see Mrs. Baxter and her daughter preening over Henry as he asks to borrow their spare chair. âHe makes me so happy. Why canât she see that?â
âI can tell.â She pauses. âHeâs a lot older than you.â
âTen years.â
âHow long before heâs looking to settle down, have some kids? Are you ready for that?â
Henry and kids? Her question throws me. I havenât given it a secondâs thought, too busy focusing on just keeping his interest. âWeâre far from that point, yet.â Is he even the marrying kind?
âI suppose.â She sighs. âYour mother called me this morning. Asked if Iâd seen you. Said you were out all night. With him, I assume?â
âYes. He flew in late and he has to leave soon. I wonât see him for weeks.â
She takes a sip of her coffee, pulling back in time to smile just as Henry settles in at the end of our table.
âSo? Abigail tells me you travel a lot.â
âYes, too much sometimes. Iâm actually on my way to Beijing now.â
âAnd here I am, thirty-five and having never even left America. Sad, isnât it?â
âYouâd be surprised how many Americans donât have a passport.â He shoots a knowing look my way.
âIâve never had a reason until now,â I fire back.
May frowns curiously at the exchange, forcing me to explain.
âIâm going to visit Henry in France. In three weeks. If Mama doesnât pull anything else.â
âAh. I see.â May takes another sip of her coffee, her gaze studying me. âLet me know how I can help.â
I smile in relief. Not everyone in my life is against us being together.
~ ~ ~
âNot just yet.â I slide his sunglasses back off him, the knot in my throat growing painfully hard to ignore. âDonât hide them just yet.â
âI really have to go, Abbi.â His hand rests on the top of the driver-side door. He has one foot inside.
âI know, itâs just⦠it feels like Iâm always saying good-bye to you.â I would have thought itâd get easier each time, but itâs the opposite.
His gaze drifts over Main Street, his jaw tensing. âI told you this was going to be hard.â
He did say that, but I insisted that we try anyway. I donât regret that, even if it hurts.
I lean into him, memorizing the feel of his chest with my hand just once more. âI wish I could go with you.â
The tension in his jaw slides off. âYou donât have a passport.â
I roll my eyes.
âAnd youâre needed here, remember? With your parents. And fuckface.â He seizes my chin with his thumb and index finger, and leans in to lay a soft kiss on my lips. âThree weeks. Miles will book your flight for you.â
âOkay.â
âSo youâll come?â
âYeah. Of course. Iâll find a way.â
He heaves a sigh and then climbs into the driver seat, hiding that handsome face behind his sunglasses.
âHenry?â
His brow tightens. âYeah?â
I want to tell him. I want him to know how I feel about him.
The door is still open and so I scoot in close to him, my hand settling on his muscular thigh.
I open my mouth.
His slight headshake stops me. âDonât. Itâll just make it harder on you.â
The words die on my tongue as I step back, unable to ignore the hurt that I feel. Is this only hard on me?
The engine comes to a roaring start. âKeep yourself busy.â He raises a severe brow. âAnd stay the hell away from places like Billy Bobâs.â
I manage to hold on to the tears until his SUV has rounded the street corner.
Three weeks. I just have to wait three weeks and then Iâll see him. I know where my heart will still be.
But what about his?