"I want... to be needed by someone..."
That's what I've thought my whole life, but in reality... even though I've been born into a wealthy family with everything anyone could possibly want... they just want to use me for my parent's wealth...
The moment I lose that, they leave me for another... is it amusing to them?
That day, I met someone who needed me.
She was abused, born in a poor family. I was the only one she had.
"Please... stay with me... I can't live without you..."
She looked at me with pleading eyes, begging me to stay by her side. Even though she was battered and bruised, she would be alright as long as I stayed with her...
Ah, she needs me, I thought. Maybe I will stay with her... I'll protect her, save her and take her out of that hellhole...
But then...
"I made a new friend, I hope you're happy for me."
What?
"I'm sorry, I have to cancel our plans...One of my friends is holding a party, and I really can't miss it!"
She left, again...
She doesn't need me anymore... huh?
I went back to my dull life... Everyday, people who only wanted me for my money, they surrounded me. Yet... I felt unneeded.
That's when I realised.. if I helped her and took her out of that situation, she would no longer have use for me...
I know what I need to do now.
"Are you insane?! What are you doing? Stop...!"
There... I laughed to myself.
"What will you do now...? I've broken your bones, you can't move or call for help... and I'm the only one you can rely on."
"You sick... insane bastard...!"
My eyes went cold.
She's supposed to beg for me to help her... and yet, she looked at me with such hatred.
I dragged her body and threw her into the basement. Maybe some discipline is in order...
I'll leave her there for a few days, without food or water... without anyone to talk to. She'll eventually go mad.. and when that happens, I'll be the only one she needs.
"Let.. let me go, please...! I beg of you..."
"Aww, you need me now?"
I crouched down in front of her as she knelt down in front of me. Her pathetic sight brings me back to the time when I first found her. Atop the very building I lived in, wanting to end her life...
Now that I think about it... she's still back to being in that abusive relationship.
I lifted her chin to get a good look at her eyes. Dull, boring. Why is she like this...? I just want her to turn back into the same girl I knew...
When she made eye contact... her eyes filled with dread and hatred... but why...?
I don't understand... don't you need me? I'm the only one you'll ever need...
I cupped her cheeks in my hands.
"Hey... You... why aren't you saying anything...?"
"..."
In the end, she killed herself with one of the knives she dug out in the basement...
I stare at her lifeless body.
Even in death, she refuses to accept me...
Am I... the abuser now?
I just wanted someone... to need me, to rely on me... to only ever...
Live for me.
Ah, I think I understand now... she only feared me. I was far too desperate... I killed her, didn't I?
I'm now staring down from a tall building. The very one she had wanted to jump off of.
I look down at the passing vehicles, many stop by to witness the sight.
Maybe... in my final moments, I'll be of use to someone... without them needing my parent's wealth... they're shouting something, but I can't hear them. I know this will be quite the big deal.
The world is boring. Maybe what they need... is just a little fun. It's fun to watch someone suffer, to watch them fall from the highest peak... isn't it? As long as they need me...
If it's amusing for them...
If they need entertainment...
Shall I be the clown?
I turn my back on the world, standing at the edge. I took a step back, feeling the gentle breeze against my skin.
I've never felt lighter before... free falling from the sky...
In my next life... I want someone to need me, maybe even just for a little while... I want to make them happy...
I'll make them feel anything but fear... I'll risk my life for them... maybe... I can atone for what I've done...
It went dark.
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Hello fellow readers! I'm back from the dead òwó
No, this is not a vent... I just didn't want to make my characters completely goody-two-shoes since that would be boring...
I haven't updated in a while, and that's probably because I have math coming up... (my worst subject)
I'll try to update more often! I've finished up the first draft for my second story, and I thought a little sneak peek wouldn't hurt... Also to get opinions from my readers since it's their opinion that matters most to me!
For this book, I've decided on a supernatural x human concept, involving vampires...
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In this world, monsters and humans co-existed with each other. Vampires, werewolves, demons and mythical creatures lived among humans. In order to prevent monsters from losing control and rampaging, a monster and a human would be assigned to each other after reaching a certain age.
The monster and the human would be contracted, and only that human could 'control' the human. Similarly, the monster would protect the human from strays. Strays are monsters who have not been contracted to a human after a certain age, either because their human is no longer alive, or the monsters are simply too powerful for a human to control.
In this world, humans have also been ranked according to power. Humans are born with a 'rank' that cannot be changed. The mark on their neck had a symbol which would be analyzed before being given a rank. The higher the rank, the more powerful the monsters they are able to have a contract with.
Y/N L/N was a typical student, average in grades and conduct. The only thing that stood out was her rank...
An Unknown?
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"Maybe it's fine if I just... mark her...?"
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"Class president...? What are you doing...?"
"I... Uhm..."
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"What do you mean we're now contracted?!"
"Look, I'm sorry... I just couldn't help myself... the taste of your blood.. it's so... addictive."
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That's all for the preview! Let me know what you think about the concept, I'll be making a draft 2 later on... as for whether I'll be publishing it... uh... it's undecided for now.
I'm thinking of making it one character instead of multiple love interests since it'll be less complicated, let me know what you think!
Also, I've been thinking about doing a 'more about the author' special since I've gotten so much support (totally not a dare from one of my classmates)
Your Author,
Baldie.