Later, Iâll berate myself for it, wondering if orgasms have really made us so lax and soft that weâre off our game. She tells meâthe clock tower. She gives me a sign, the odd silence in her voids and vacancies a clear, hushed warning, but I donât even feel the orange until weâre pushing through the door.
Nicky has his gun out before the rest of us even realize something is off.
âWhat the fuck are you doing here?â he asks, gun leveled at Saulâs face, despite the fact there are three goons in the room, positioned at the loft, the doorway to Nickyâs room, and the entrance to the kitchen.
The towerâs air shivers with alarm, though.
There might be more.
Saulâs a fucking bastard, but Kings donât survive by playing fast and loose. Heâs sitting in the leather armchair, still in his suit from the poker game. Unlike the three of us, he still looks immaculate, fingers curled around the neck of a beer bottleâ
beer. A tinge of goldish orange rolls off his skin like toxic waste. Itâs worse when he smiles, eyes sharp and menacing. âYou must think youâre so clever.â
Nick doesnât lower the gun. âOnly because I am.â
âThatâs the problem with you Bruins,â his eyes hold Nickâs as he takes a swig. âYouâre all so incredibly full of yourselves, as if not becoming a stain on your motherâs bedsheets makes you special.â
My eyes track the room, darting into every dark corner. Saul is most likely aware that Sy and I were both disarmed at the poker game by his men. That means all we came into this fight with is our fists and Nickyâs pistol.
Before Nick can reply to Saulâs insult, Lavinia pushes between us, eyes flaring in hot irritation. âWe jumped through your hoops. We hosted the party, and we put on your fucking show. What more do you want?â
He raises the beer to her. âYou certainly did, and congratulations are in order. It seems the esteemed VIPs of West End are ready and willing to see you as a Duchess.â His fingers tap against the glass of the bottle, his bulky ring clinking loudly in the stillness. âSo I suppose itâs time to make you one.â
âTime for what?â Sy asks. The tendon in his neck pulls taut.
Saul radiates gold. âTo complete her initiation.â
Nick throws the keys on the coffee table, wagging the gun. âYour ears must still be ringing from the cheers I was getting, old man. Laviniaâs already our Duchess. There are no further initiations.â
âItâs not really official,â Saul disagrees, bending forward to place the beer on the table. âNot until she bears the scar of our house.â Without breaking Nickâs gaze, Saul turns his headâjust an inchâand raises his voice to call out, âBring the branding tools.â
âWhat?â Vinny says, her eyes wide and confused. âWhat the fuck does that mean?â
Ewing steps from just inside the kitchen, the straps of a black bag in one hand, his gun in the other.
Fuck me, but I have had enough of this shitstain.
Jolting forward, I angrily grab my jacket from Vinnyâs shoulders, wrenching her around. âShe already has a fucking mark!â I snap, revealing the tattoo on her shoulder. âI put it there myself, on orders, that night at the Hideaway.â
Saul hums quietly, touching his lips as his eyes roam her body. âYes, weâve all seen the tattoo by now. Itâs nice work, Remington. But that was initiation, not hers. At the time, Lucia being a Duchess wasnât on the table. That mark was a warning to the Lords that Iâm not to be trifled with.â
âYeah,â Nick says, mouth tipping into a vicious grin. âWe all know Killianâs Lady got the best of you, and youâre still sore about it. But that has fuck all to do with woman.â
Saul gives Nick a mockingly patient look. âA Duchess bears the brand, Nicholas. Thatâs tradition. Donât pretend like you havenât seen your motherâs.â His lips curve upward, eyes gleaming hatefully. âI can still smell the scent of her burning flesh as your father held her down.â
The shot slams through the room, sending a shrill scream in my ears. In a flash, Ewing has Nick on the ground, hand tight around his wrist. When I regain my bearings, I see that Syâs body is curled around Lavinia, muscles coiled tight as he tucks her into his chest. Looking to Saul, I fully expect to see a bullet hole square in his forehead, his brains spattered over the armchair.
But his hand is on his ear, blood dripping down his fingers, and he doesnât look dead.
He just looks annoyed.
âYou missed.â He seems as surprised as I feel, turning to seek out a bullethole. The tower has gathered plenty over the years, the lead swallowed whole by the stone.
âNo, I didnât.â Nick says, the gun has already been wrangled from his hand, his snarling face pressed against the floor. âThat was the only fucking warning youâll get, Saul. The next shot I take, youâll be dead before you feel it.â
Saul stands, pulling a handkerchief out of his pocket, and presses it against his ear, face hard. âAnd here I was going to let you do the branding yourselfâas per tradition. Iâm not feeling so generous anymore, boys.â He lifts his hand, flicking two fingers. âBring him in.â
One of the goons stabs the elevator button, and Sy shoots me a pointed look. If theyâre planning to cram our girl into that goddamn elevatorâ¦
Well, Saul doesnât know it, but sheâll be just fucking fine. Weâve been working with her on being in that steel trap for the last week, and itâs not pretty, but my Vinny can handle it, and when she turns, pressing her cheek against Saulâs shoulder, I see her readying herself, gathering up all her white and blue.
Unfortunately, when the doors slide open, an enraged, blood-stained Bruce steps out of it.
Hot rage shoots up my spine, my vision filling with crimson and fire. âYouâve got some fucking nerve showing up here.â
âNo, itâs good,â Sy curls his arms around Vinny, voice low and harsh. âIt means we wonât have to chase his ass across West End to give his âfuck aroundâ a little âfind out.ââ
âI had a feeling youâd refuse.â Saul waves Bruce over, frowning at the bloodstain on his handkerchief. âSo I brought someone who appreciates the sanctity of DKSâs legacy.â He looks at Bruce with arrogant eyes, resting a hand on his shoulder. Quietly, as if sharing some valuable wisdom, he says, âItâs all in how long you press it, you know. The longer the iron is on the skin, the more the symbols will spread. Restraint is important. Some Duchessesâ marks are barely identifiable. The screams fun, though.â
When Bruce turns to us, his smirk tugs at the butterfly stitches holding his cheek together. âOh, Iâm gonna enjoy giving this slippery snake a little pain.â He lifts his chin, eyes piercing right through her. âAnd making you assholes watch.â
I step between them, catching his gaze. âYouâre not touching her.â Whatever happens here tonight, that much is fact. Itâs as vital to me as breathing. The thought of someone putting a mark into her skinâ
skin, canvasâjust isnât bearable. Even the mention of it makes my blood throb with the utter wrongness of it. I gesture to Nick. âHeâll kill you instantly. Sy will pummel you to death.â I tilt my head, holding Bruceâs glare. âBut you canât even imagine the things Iâd do to you. The last time I sawed into someoneâs body, I could have stayed there playing with his guts for .â Taken by the notion, I idly muse, âI wonder how long I could keep you aliveâ¦â
Bruceâs face screws up. âYouâre all a bunch of fucking whack jobs!â
âClearly.â I shrug, shooting Sy a look. âPoint still stands.â
A gun rises to Syâs back, the goon nodding to Saul, who says, âI donât think you understand. This isnât a request.â He ducks his head to meet Vinnyâs gaze. âOr should I give Killian Payne a call? Itâs pretty late. I venture he wonât be in the most forgiving of moods at three am.â
âVinny,â I start, already seeing that spark of panic in her eye.
But sheâs already twisting free of Sy, snapping, âFine! Just fucking do it already!â All of the red in her aura becomes tinged with green when Saul takes the bag from Neon, unzipping it to produce a large butane torch.
âAbsolutely fucking not!â Nick sneers, bucking against Ewing.
Saul gives her a flat look, taking the iron from the bag. âGet on your knees.â
Gripping my hair in two thick fistfuls, I hiss, âGoddamnit.â
Syâs eyes swing to mine, the alarm in them meant only for me. Heâs afraid Iâll do something stupidâsomething rash.
Heâs right.
âStop,â I say, my shoulders caving in defeat. My stomach roils at the thought of what Iâm about to do, but weâre outmanned here. If anyone has the right to this, itâs me. Despite that, I canât even look at her as I begin rolling up my sleeves, glare fixed to Saulâs shiny shoes. âTradition says a Duke has to do it,â I argue, extending a palm. Itâs only then that I allow myself a glance in her direction. âGive it to me.â
Her eyes are wide, shining with unshed tears. âRemyâ¦â
Forcing a smile, I lie through my teeth. âItâs okay, baby.â From the way Nick is peering up at me, eyebrows crushed together in restraint, he understands.
Unlike Bruce, I wonât make it hurt any more than it has to.
Saul looks between me and Bruce, the conflict clear. This man is obsessed with tradition as much as inflicting pain, but showing his power through both?
He canât resist it.
Saul sizes me up, like heâs trying to decide which is worse. Ultimately, he decides, âItâs your right, Maddox.â He tips his chin toward Ewing, whoâs still holding Nick down. âBut if he makes one false move, we kill him.â
Saul places the rod of the iron into my hand.
Itâs heavy and rough, and I test the weight of it, trying to remember back to the summer when I saw this coming. Back then, Verity was in line to become Duchess, and I spent a solid week before initiation trying to imagine itâburning a mark into her flesh. It never sat well with me. Not because itâs barbaric and unhingedâalthough both are trueâbut because I couldnât fathom pressing a mark into a girlâs skin for the purpose of making her mine.
Not until Vinny.
An explosion of red and yellow makes me flinch, Saul sparking up the torch and setting the canister on the table. The flame glows with a hypnotizing gradient of blue and white, and if it werenât for the hiss of butane, I could almost drown everything out and get lost in it.
âRemington,â Saul says, voice full of warning. âI do have all night, but Iâd rather not waste it on this.â
Looking up at him, I step forward, inspecting the tip of the brand. The greek letters of our house, Delta Kappa Sigma, stand out in relief, and I lower it to the flame, feeling the radiating warmth graze the tip of my fingers.
I speak mechanically, turning the iron to heat it evenly. âIt has to reach five-hundred degrees to burn through the epidermis, dermis, and subcutaneous skin.â Looking up, I meet Saulâs impatient gaze, my own narrowing. âDonât suppose you brought a thermometer.â
He smirks. âNo.â
Thereâs a tension in the air as we wait, my fingers spinning the iron against the torchâs flame. âSy,â I say, glancing up at my friend. âTake off your belt.â
Dread fills his eyes as he begins unbuckling it, tugging it through his pant loops with a tight, jerky reluctance. âI used to respect you,â he says to Saul, folding the belt over on itselfâonce, twice. âBack before I knew who the real snake around here was. Open.â He says the last part to Vinny, gently placing the belt between her teeth. More quietly, he says, âBite down, baby.â
Hereâs the thing about Vinny, though.
Sheâs not scared.
She meets Saulâs eye and clenches her teeth around the leather like she wishes it were him.
âWhere?â Sy asks, threading his fingers through her hair, cupping her face. âWhere are you going toâ¦?â
I shift my gaze to the flame. Trying to hold myself together long enough to do right by my girl, I answer tonelessly. âHer back.â
âFuck that,â Bruce spits, running a finger down his mangled cheek. âBrand the bitch on her face!â
I grip the iron hard, knuckles straining. âThe tradition is that her Dukes choose. But I can always shove it up your ass.â
Saul flicks a hand. âPut it wherever you want. But youâd better hold it to her skin for ten seconds, just like any other Duchess. No less.â
Shifting my gaze to Sy, I work my posture into something believably unyielding, giving him a nod. Without a word, he begins gathering up her hair, shifting it over a shoulder. âHold on to me,â he whispers, Vinnyâs arms threading around his neck. He brushes a kiss to her temple, taking a hard, bracing inhale. âMake it quick, Rem.â
The first tattoo I ever inked into her skin stares back at me from over her corset. I accept it as a part of her now, but I donât think much of it. Itâs my work, but not my soul.
This will be neither.
âKeep her still,â I tell Sy, watching Laviniaâs back go rigid as I lift the iron. Nick raises his head just enough to turn the other direction, looking away, muscles clenching up.
I take a series of short, fortifying breaths, tightening my grip on the iron with each one.
And then I press it to her shoulder blade.
The tendons in her neck go taut, her biceps swelling as she squeezes Syâs neck. But she doesnât make a sound. I count down the seconds in my head, ticking away.
â¦
âDonât,â Saul warns when my arm twitches, âfucking move.â
Itâs not until the fifth second that she finally screams.
Itâs a horrific sound, gnarled and muffled against the belt. I watch helplessly as her back contracts with the force of it, her lungs emptying themselves of the cry that claws from her throat.
âStay,â Saul commands, his voice barking into my ear. âHold it!â
My shoulders tremble with the impulse to pull it away, to throw it at Saulâs face, to feed it to Bruce through his fucking teeth. Baring my teeth, I count through gritted teeth, ââ¦seven, eight, nine, ten.â
The iron falls to the floor with a resounding clatter.
Iâd like to be the kind of guy who stays. The kind of guy who gathers Vinny up in my arms and soothes her through the hurt, the sting, the agony, the tears. I want nothing more than to be the one who presses a kiss against her brow and whispers to her about how strong she was. How fierce.
Instead, I bolt to the bathroom, barely reaching the toilet in time for the first retch to hit me. The bile burnsânot hot enoughâas everything I just ate comes back up. I grip the basin with trembling hands, taking in gulps of air that just get forced back out on the next back-aching heave.
I donât know how long it takes to expel all the green and the orange, my body exorcising it like a demon. By the time the heaves grow dry, my abs twinge from the pressure, hand trembling as I lift it to flush everything away.
Collapsing on the floor, I spend a long moment catching my breath, too cowardly to go out there and face her.
In the end, Sy finds me there, head in my hands.
I donât hear him come in, too distracted with the colors of her hurt to notice him until heâs kneeling beside me. I flinch at the feel of his palm on my back, but he doesnât pull away.
He speaks in a detached tone that grips at me, drawing my gaze up. âTheyâre gone. They left.â
Nodding, I drag my wrist over my mouth. âIs sheâ¦?â
âSheâs okay,â he says, but his eyes are hard and dark, full of a coldness Iâm not used to seeing on him. I take his hand when he extends it, lifting me up off the floor. âShe needs you,â is all he says, tipping his head toward the door.
Thatâs the only reason I leave, catching a glance of my ashen face in the mirror as I pass. I want nothing more than to lose myself in a bottle of boozeâor shit, a bottle of pillsâbut I take one look at her and know I wonât.
Sheâs on her knees, back curled as she rests against Nick, panting. One tear-filled, gray eye peeks out at me through limp strands of her blue hair.
I fall to my knees beside them, voice wrecked. âIâm sorry.â
Her expression collapses as she pivots away from Nick, clutching for me. âDonât,â she cries, winding her arms around my neck. âRemy, itâs not your fault.â
She smells like panic and pain, green and yellow, ozone and smoke.
Burnt flesh and salt.
I cradle her head, too scared to touch any part of her below the neck. When I look at Nick, heâs staring at the mark I left on her back, his body clenched so tightly in anger that heâs shaking.
From above us comes Syâs even voice. âLooks like itâs time we have that talk, Nicky.â
Nick glances up, locking eyes with his brother. âWhich talk would that be?â
âThe one where we kill Saul Cartwright,â Sy says, âand make you King.â