The sound is faint, like itâs on the other side of a wall. I push my hand out and feel the hard surface. My feet meet a similar block. My back seizes, achy and bent, and in the inky darkness, I know Iâm trapped. Itâs too far away to grasp, but Nick told me something once about a box being a frame of mind. Right now, my limbs are frozen, my brain running haywire.
My eyes pop open, prepared for the pitch black of the chest. Instead, light comes through the tall window nestled in the tower wall. Iâd exhale but my lungs are paralyzed like the rest of my body.
âHey. Vinny.â Remyâs face comes into view, his hand stroking a warm caress down my arm. I realize Iâm curled into his chest, Nickâs arm slung around my waist from behind. âCome back to me, baby.â Remy catches my lifeless hand, pressing my fingers to the crescent tattooed on his hip.
The touchâthe memoryâdraws me from the cobwebby dream, warming my frozen veins. I blink and then swallow, my voice rusty. âI-Iâm okay.â
âI felt the goldenrod,â he rumbles, and from the slouch of his eyelids, he hasnât been awake very long, either. âWhat did you see?â
I instantly shake my head. âNothing.â I doubt he wants to hear about his friend appearing in my dream, her brains all exploded from her temple. âGo back to sleep.â
Climbing over Nick, I sling my legs over the edge of the bed, stretching my toes, trying to regain feeling. Rousing a little more, Remyâs green eyes track me as I look back at Syâs bed. We ended up here after showering and late-night grilled cheese, and I feel warmth bloom in my chest at the sight of them. Sy and Nick are sprawled out, both asleep, still naked. I stretch my hands over my head as I observe them, letting my spine loosen.
Remy makes an unhappy noise when I step into a pair of panties, grabbing a hoodie off the back of Syâs desk, but he rolls over and closes his eyes. Itâs the first time Iâve dreamed of Leticia since Sy and I buried her skull, putting her to rest. She doesnât feel restful now, rustling around in my head like gossamer.
The living room is chilly when I step out, but the air cooling my skin is a welcome sensation. Itâs not long before Archie finds me, winding around my ankles.
âHey, buddy,â I whisper, bending to scoop him up. Heâs getting so much bigger now, his legs lankier, ears pointier. He hasnât lost any of his softness though, and I press my face into his fur, letting the low vibration of his purr soothe me. He indulges the snuggle only briefly before squirming out of my arms and bolting off.
The tower feels stuffy, or maybe my lungs are still frozen from my dream. I climb the spiral stairs to my loft, and itâs cast in a blue-ish glow, the early morning light filtered through the clock face. Those maddening hands are, as always, eternally frozen.
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I climb higher, going straight to the staircase that leads to the belfry. Stopping in the area that holds the mechanics, I look around me. On the floor, the remaining pieces of the dismantled inner workings are laid out just like I left them. I havenât touched it in weeksânot since Sy and I got the two levers to work. Iâve been too frustrated with it, and anyway, my Dukes are keeping me busy both in and out of the bed.
My fatherâs voice rings in the half of my brain thatâs still caught in the web of my dream, and I keep moving, climbing the ladder to the belfry. As soon as I emerge from the hatch, my breath comes a little easier. The sun is rising from the east when I look out the archway, casting the Princesâ territory in a pinkish glow.
For so long, I hated this town. All I wanted was to run as far away as possible. Leticia tried to run, and look what it got her. I was trapped, held captive, turned into a prize, and look where got me. I touch my neck, knowing the permanent marker is still there.
It made me Queen.
I no longer hate ForsythâI just hate the people in control of it. I have a home here. People I love. Even people like the cutsluts and Story, who I actually like. I see the value in the women working at the Hideaway, tooâAuggie and Mrs. Crane and all the restâ who are just trying to keep afloat. They arenât bad people.
Except my eyes fall to the North, and my blood thins.
Iâd threatened my father with extermination, but heâs right. In the end, heâs untouchable. He has the city in his grip, and weâre one lunaticâs trigger finger away from being dust if pushed too far. Thereâs no Perez to oust him. No heir waiting in the wings. No hope of waiting him out. Thereâs just him and his drugs and dysfunction.
And those goddamn explosives.
The hatch suddenly rises, Remyâs head appearing. His eyes search for me in the dim light, eventually catching my gaze. âHey,â he says, climbing up. Heâs still shirtless, and if Iâm not mistaken, wearing Nickâs jeans, the denim looser on his thighs as he crams his fists into the pockets. âI feel kind of like you might want to be alone, butââ
âI do.â I stop him with a pointed look. âBut Remy?â
His forehead knits. âYeah?â
âThat doesnât apply to you,â I explain, extending a hand. I canât think of anyone better to get lost in my head with, and when he stalks forward to wrap me up in his arms, I breathe him in deep.
He smells like .
All of us.
He holds me there for a long while, letting me rest my temple against his chest as I stare out over the city. From up here, itâs so easy to believe weâre untouchable, floating through the clouds, a bird and her bear.
The sunâs rays have only just begun to reach us when he finally speaks. âIâve been working on something,â he says, releasing me only to pull a sheet of paper out of his pocket. One of the edges is frayed, as if heâs yanked it out of one of his sketch pads.
Taking it in my hands, I unfold it, eyes drinking in the dark ink. âAre these the clock parts?â I recognize them from my hours of trying to make this puzzle fit back together. I study the drawings, which are precise and very unlike his normal style, and glance up in surprise. âWow.â Itâs almost like an instruction manual. âThese are so good, Remy.â
âI took a mechanical drawing class last year.â He shrugs, green eyes flitting over the skyline. âI was trying to, like⦠work backwards and see what was missing. Those ancient manuals you had werenât complete even before they got all old and torn and stained to shit.â He tips his head toward the hatch. âSo I studied the actual components up here. One of the principles of the class was that we needed to be able to break things down into individual pieces so that whoeverâs looking at the parts can figure out how to get them together.â
I drop my gaze to the paper again, not allowing myself to be distracted with the way his fingers reach out to catch a fluttering lock of my hair. The thing about the clock is that itâs unnecessarily intricate. Probably places with mechanisms as ancient as this one have already gutted the heart of their clocks and implanted something more reliable and modern.
The thought makes my brain scream with an immediate, visceral .
âWait,â I say, squinting at the ink. I point to a specific spot, not recognizing the component. âWhatâs this? It wasnât in the original diagramsâor what you could see of them.â Iâd memorized every visible, usable inch of that old musty paper, and this was one of the few parts of the strike chain that was legible.
He steps up beside me, ducking down to look. âYeah, I looked at that for a while, but didnât understand what it was. This little cover here,â he guides his finger over the section, âdoesnât even look like it belongs. It should look like thisââ He points to a different drawing, a screw with threads, not rounded. âIâm not a mechanic or anything, but if I had to guess, itâs fucking the whole thing up.â
My brain spins, much like the pieces of the clock, one gear after the other, clicking into place. I push past him, heading for the hatch door. Once Iâm down the ladder, I grab the flashlight off the floor, bending into an awkward position to beam it into the spot Remy had drawn.
Everything in this room is dark, making the parts sometimes virtually indistinguishable from one another, but getting at anything from this angle was always off-limits to me. The space is too cramped, barely enough room beneath it for someone to maneuver. But even at a distance, the more attention I pay to it, the more I suspect Remy might be right.
Something is jamming up the gears.
Something that doesnât belong.
Excitement pumps through my veins as I get down on my belly, taking a series of slow, calming breaths. If I could make it through the elevator alone, then this should be a cinch.
Without giving myself the time to panic over it, I begin belly-crawling beneath the machine, pulse thrumming with a confusing mixture of emotions. Thereâs the thrill of finding the problem, but also the quick, nervy thing that always arises when Iâm in cramped spaces.
Behind me, I hear Remy approach, the wood beams hard and rough against my knees as I push myself closer.
âHand me that screwdriver,â I ask, straining to extend a hand toward my feet. âFlat head. The big one.â
The sound of Remy picking through the tools is faint under the pounding of my heart.
âHere,â Remy says, crawling in right next to me. Itâs both better and worse, his presence making the space impossibly more tight, but also soothing me in a strange, intrinsic way. Wordlessly, he trades the screwdriver for the flashlight and holds it up to the spot in question. I wedge the edge of the screwdriver under the edge of the cap, prying.
But it doesnât budge.
After watching me try this a few times, grunting at the effort, Remy reaches over me, hand closing over mine, and together we apply the leverage to force it loose.
.
The word rattles around my brain as I stare into the revealed spot.
âAre thoseâ¦â he asks, holding the flashlight steady.
Theyâre wires. Three of them. Red, green and black. They coil around the screw and vanish under a piece of conduit, down into the wall.
Clocksâespecially this one, which I know inside and outâare made of metal and wood. Brass and steel. Not the plastic and copper I see peeking out of the workings like the head of a snake.
âRemy,â I say, my voice quiet against the stone. âThe clock doesnât work because itâs been rigged.â Looking over, I meet his green eyes, my breath quickening. âWith explosives.â
Thereâs only one person deranged enough to put them there.
âVinny,â he says, chasing me into the living room. âSlow down.â
âYou donât understand,â I snap, not stopping. âWe need to get out of here. My father threatened me yesterday. âThe clock is ticking,â he said.â I palm my forehead, heart pumping wildly. âJesus Christ. I thought he was being dramatic, but he was laying it all out there. Weâre literally living in a bomb!â
âHey,â he catches my arm and brings me to a lurching halt. âYouâve been a littleââ he grimaces, and I get the sense that heâs choosing his words carefully, ââ
since you got up. Take a deep breath and letâs figure this out. Start at the beginning. What fucked you up when you got out of bed?â
I donât want to slow down. I want to get my men to safety and drive to my fatherâs fucking mansion that he built on lies and death, and end him. For good.
But when I look into Remyâs eyes, I realize heâs right. He and I do this, get caught somewhere between real and not. My nightmares and sleep paralysis. His episodes and mania.
I need to be sure.
Taking a deep breath, I let his grip on my shoulders ground me. âI had a dream,â I confess, hurriedly amending, âI dreams. Itâs not the first time. I wake up stiff. Frozen, you know? Back in the box.â He gives me an understanding nod. âBut Leticia is there, Remy. She⦠talks to me. Tells me things about the secrets she knows.â
Now that I say it aloud, it sounds ridiculous.
Remy takes it in stride, though. âSo your sister is a bitch even in your dreams.â His hands settle on my hips, warm and steady.
Fuck, itâs true. Sheâd probably be proud of it. âI guess so, exceptâ¦â
He holds my eyes. âExcept what?â
âExcept sheâs always like⦠making me feel dumb, like sheâs telling me stuff. Things I should know.â None of this is coming out right and I shake my head, trying to find something coherent.
âAh,â he nods in understanding. âSheâs not Leticia. Sheâs youâyour subconscious.â
I make a face. âDonât get all âSyâ on me.â
He doesnât look insulted at the comparison. âI mean, Iâm no Dr. Freud like your Big Bear in there,â he shoots me a smirk, âbut Iâve had my share of brain probing. Your sisterâyour brainâis trying to tell you something you already know. You just have to be open to whatever it is.â His thumb rubs a circle in my hip. âCan you do that?â
I exhale, pulling in air. I close my eyes and pull at the cobby webs of the dream. âShe said something about having already given me what I need.â
Frowning, he says, âOkay. Any idea what that means?â
âLeticia never gave me anything but an inferiority complex and bruises,â I snap, not liking the feeling of being manipulatedâneither by dream Leticia, or as Remy says, my bullshit subconscious. âItâs all just mind games. Like father, like daughter.â
Although, I realize, Leticia did give me something. The box hidden under the floorboards, the receipt, the phone number, the detonator Nick and I discovered sheâd programmed to give herâ
My eyes fly to Remyâs, widening in realization. âLeverage.â
âHuh?â
âLeverage,â I repeat, grabbing Remyâs upper arms. She had to have left it for me. She must have known if anything happened to her, Iâd find that box. âThatâs it. Remy, she gave me her leverage.â
Sy rubs his faceâpartially to wake up, the rest out of frustration. âIs there a reason you didnât tell us about all this when you found out?â The question is directed at me and Nick. Remy is on the other side of the clock room, video chatting with a sleepy and irritated Tristan Mercer.
âYes,â Nick says. Heâs alert, but his face is still puffy from sleep, a long line from the pillow pressed into his cheek. He looks at me because we both know the answer to Syâs question. Weâd come home from talking to Tristian that night fully planning to tell Remy and Sy. Instead, we found a party at the tower, and the night ended with Sy hurting me and leaving. Nick sighs. âBut that ship has sailed, and is sort of irrelevant to the fact our house has been wired to blow.â
âYep.â Tristianâs voice echoes against the walls. âThatâs a bomb, alright.â
âJesus,â Sy mutters, coming more awake by the moment.
Tristian continues, âItâs like we talked about last timeâremote detonation. I mean, weâve all heard the rumors that Lucia has this place wired up. We all figured he planted them underground, but itâs kind of genius. Guyâs got us crawling through the sewers when we should be checking our roofs.â
Nick moves toward Remy, grabbing the phone, face set into a hard expression. âRemote detonation? Like the kind someone could set off with a phone?â
Groggily, Tristian says, âYeah, possibly.â
My mouth goes dry, face growing clammy, and from the laser intensity of Nickâs meaningful stare, heâs coming to the same conclusion.
He asks Tristian, âYou remember that phone Leticia Lucia asked you to rig up for her? Could it have been used for something like this?â
Tristian sighs, aware that his fuckup from all those years ago is still wreaking havoc. âI donât see why not.â When he shifts, the phone moves, revealing what looks like Dimitri Rathboneâs bare ass behind him. âKeep us posted on this. If you need help, youâve got it.â
âNot sure how much you can do, but thanks,â Nick says, hanging up. He tosses the phone back to Remy and runs his hands through his hair. Sy paces the room, while I try to process everything.
âSo you have the passcode to this phone,â Sy says, putting the pieces together. âAnd from what Mercer told you, he programmed it so that she could detonate specific locations as needed.â
âYep,â Nick says. âLeticia Lucia was hardcore.â
âNo wonder Tate fell for her,â Remy says, eyes fixed to the phoneâs dark screen.
âBut to what end?â Sy asks, always trying to pull on all the threads. The motive. The reason. The âFor leverage,â I say, forcing the words through the lump in my throat. âThis isnât Leticiaâs bomb, you guys. Itâs my fatherâs. To get away from himâto live her life freely with Tateâshe had to find a way to use his own weapon against him.â
Because she understood this game better than I did. To gain her freedom, true freedom, sheâd have to be willing to take our dadâs life. Or at the very least, make him think she would.
Itâs the exact thing heâs done to me.
âSmart,â Remy says, drawing me from my thoughts. âFucking psycho dads, Forsythâs biggest export.â He looks at the guys. âPromise me we wonât be like that.â
Nick glances at me, eyes on my belly, then up to my face. âIf we knew what Leticia did with that phone detonator, Iâd feel a lot better.â He approaches me, blue eyes boring into mine as he cups my cheeks in his big, warm palms. âThink, LB. You sure you donât know where she might have stashed it? That floorboard beneath her bed⦠it didnât have anything else in there?â
Shaking my head, I wrack my brain. âThere wasnât anything else down there, and letâs be real, Nick. She would have kept something that importantâthat dangerousâas close as possible. If she had it on her when she fell from the cliff, then it probablyââ My lungs snatch the words back into my throat, eyes snapping up.
The Barons would have gotten it.
Nickâs eyes meet mine, but Iâm already springing into action, zipping across the room.
âWhatââ Sy asks, but I donât stop.
âThis whole fucking time,â I mutter. Nickâs hand reaches over my head, shoving open the door. Just as urgently as Iâm moving, he dashes past me, jumping down the five steps of the loft in one leap. He waits for me at the bottom with outstretched arms, grabbing my hips and lifting me down.
âSon of a bitch,â Sy yells, Archie darting out between his feet. âPlease donât tell me you have more secrets you didnât share.â
Nick and I do have secrets. The things that happened between us in the motel, the cage, a dicey game of Russian roulette, the visit to Ashbyâs security guyâbut this isnât one of them. This is us being too blind to see what was right in front of our eyes the whole time.
âI just saw it,â I tell Nick, racing to Remyâs messy desk. âWhen we were looking for Remyâs bruin pin, the day of the vote, it wasââ I flip through a pile of markers, sweeping them aside.
Upending Remyâs desk drawers, Nick grumbles, âI should have known. I should have known.â
âWhat the hell?â Remy walks in, aghast at the sight before him. Nick and I are tearing through his things frantically, sending tubes of paint skittering to the floor.
In unison, Nick and I whirl on him, barking, âWhereâs the phone?â
âWhat phone?â Heâs confused and I donât have time for it.
âThe one you stole from your dad,â I urge. âThe red phone!â
Recognition lights up his eyes, and he pushes Nick aside, walking to the nightstand beside his bed and wrenching open the bottom drawer. We hurry to flank him as Remy pulls out the old red phone, yanking a cord off the end.
âIâve been keeping it charged ever since we found out who my dad was.â He looks between us and Sy, explaining, âJust in case someone called for himâanother King. Intel, right?â
Nick shakes his head at Remy, but I hold out my hand. He presses the smooth metal into my palm and I spend a long moment staring at it, testing the weight of it. How odd to think Leticia held this in her grip for daysâweeks, maybe.
When I press the power button, it boots up with a glow, a security screen prompting me for a passcode to access it.
âI need theââ
Nick recites the numbers in a tight rush, having them memorized. âFour, zero, zero, nine.â
I punch in the number and the home screen flicks to life.
Sy and Remy hover quietly nearby, and through the paralysis of shock that we were rightâthis was my sisterâs weaponâI recall what Tristian told us that night.
ââ¦
I thumb open the contacts, and there it is.
.
Below it are contacts for , , and .
Nick laces his fingers behind his head. âHe knew,â he says, pacing away only to pace right back. âRemyâs dad knew that phone had something important, but he couldnât get into it.
.â Despite the context of it all, Nickâs eyes are alight with the excitement of this missing piece of the puzzle.
âWeâre not here,â I tell them, looking at the four contacts. I donât why, but thereâs a knot inside me that unwinds at the realization. Looking up, I meet Syâs gaze. âThe tower, the brothels, the Princeâs palace, the Baronâs crypt⦠none of them are in here. Itâs just North Side.â
Leticia never planned to use Forsyth as a pawn.
Remy holds up a hand, saying. âWait. Why would your father plant bombs in his own territory?â
âHe wouldnât,â I answer, holding his green eyes as it dawns on him.
âYour sister planted them,â he says, looking impressed. âShe really was hardcore.â
Hungry for more, I begin searching through the rest of the phone, but itâs all blank, practically in factory condition. No apps. No browsing history. No texts.
Except the call history.
The one, lone entry is dated three days before Tate and Leticiaâs deathsâa call that lasted seven minutes and was made to a number that I somehow recognize immediately.
My father.
âSo what youâre saying,â Sy begins, looking over my shoulder, âis that all you have to do is press a button, and North Sideâ¦â He doesnât speak the words aloud, but we all hear them anyway. WIth this phone, I hold Lionel Lucia in the palm of my hand.
Thereâs a long stretch of silence as the truth of it washes over us. I donât know what the others are thinking, but my thoughts are as solid as steel. I wonder how it felt for my sister. Did she hesitate? She could have ended him days before her own death, but she didnât. Was she hoping she wouldnât have to? Was it all a very convincing bluff?
When I look up, I become pinned with the intensity of Nickâs knowing stare. A frisson of understanding passes between us. All those long nights at the Crane Motel, in the basement of the Hideaway, here in the towerâ¦
They taught me how to read Nick Bruin.
And they taught Nick Bruin how to read me.
He nods slowly, pulling his own phone from his pocket. âIâll call South Side,â he says, already aware of my next moveâmaybe even before I am.
Remy sighs, having already caught the significance of the moment. âIâll reach out to my dad.â At my alarmed look, he offers a tight grin. âDonât worry, Vinny. He might not understand family, but he understands business.â I watch, an eerie stillness settling over me as he and Nick leave the room, phones pressed to their ears.
Sy stands in the doorway, arms crossed against his bare chest. âLavinia,â he says, gazing at me with a similar eerie stillness. âAre you sure?â
âHe threatened us,â I say, willing him to understand. âLeticia left me a gift. Maybe she didnât plan to die, but she left me the pieces, just in case she did, and thatâsâ¦â Head shaking, I try to remember her as she was. Elegant and strong, but also ruthless and cold. âItâs the only nice thing sheâs ever done for me.â These little hints of Leticiaâthese secret, kind, compassionate thingsâshould mean something.
He searches my eyes, and I wait. The truth is, if Sy ordered me to stop, Iâd do it. I wouldnât like it. Itâd eat at me, corrosive and ruinous until there was nothing left inside but an empty pit of resentment, but Iâd follow his orders like a good Queen should.
All he has to do is say it.
His arms unfold, hands reaching for me. When he pulls me against his bare chest, the kiss he brushes against my forehead is slow and soft, unbearably warm. He speaks the words against my brow. âIâll call Ashby.â
I should feel apprehensive or scared when I look back into the phone, Sy wandering away into his own room, but all I really feel is sure. So sure, that when I open the call history, itâs easy to punch in the last call, bringing the phone to my ear.
I walk sightlessly into the main room as it rings, hearing the distant voices of my Dukes arranging the formalities. Iâm already up the staircase and entering my loft when the other end picks up.
Thereâs a long, static-laced pause, and then, âTisha?â Hearing my father say her name like thatâquiet and surprised, so full of cautious hopeâmakes my fist clench around the phone. âTisha,â he repeats, âwhere are you?â
Iâve already reached the clock room by the time I answer, voice casual. âSheâs in the groundâlocked away in a box.â
His sucking breath pierces right through my ear. âHow did you get this phone?â
âDo you know what it is?â I wonder, carefully climbing the ladder to the open hatch. âHow far did she even get into her plan before Saul messed it all up?â
Frustration rings in his voice when he snaps, âWhat the hell are you talking about?â
So he didnât know.
He didnât know .
The thought is both amusing and infuriating. âWhat did you talk about?â I ask, the idle curiosity piercing to the surface. âWhen she called you on this numberâwhich you obviously saved as belonging to herâwhat did you talk about?â
His answer is spoken with a viciousness that twists around my vocal cords. âWe talked about you, Lavinia. How intolerable you were, up there in your bedroom, banging away in that chest. How long I was going to keep you in there.â I can practically hear the satisfied sneer in his voice. âIndefinitely, if I recall.â
The confirmation pushes a hard breath from my gut, but I continue. âWe found your explosives,â I say, rising out into the cool morning air of the belfry. âPlanting them inside the clock? Clever. Of course, now that I think about it, itâs obvious. You always did have a thing for symbology. I guess Iâll never know if you actually have the guts to kill me, seeing as how Tristian Mercer helped us disable it.â
Thereâs a stretch of silence, and then a low, unpleasant chuckle. âYou really think Iâd only plant one?â
I answer without missing a beat. âYes. Youâre too arrogant to have a failsafe for your failsafe. Thatâs why, with Leticia and Perez gone, your whole territory is falling apart.â
âWhat do you want?â he snipes, the barb making its target.
âI called to say you were wrong,â I say, staring out over Forsyth. âI actually believed youâfor a while. But then I woke up this morning, and I had this⦠epiphany.â I shift my eyes to the horizon in the distance, spotting Widowâs Rockâthe cliff. âLeticia loved me.â
He snorts. âYouâre delusional.â
I shake my head. âEven after you poisoned her against me. Even after all the years of competition and fighting. Even after you tried so hard to make her into you. You couldnât strip the soul out of her.â Itâs exhilarating, this new awareness bringing a prickle to my eyes. Laughing thickly, I say, âI think I might have suspected it. Itâs why I grieved for her so hard, even though she hurt me so much. It had me twisted up there for a while, but I was right.â Nodding, I confirm it to myself more than to him. âI was right to mourn her.â
His reply comes, sharp and impatient. âLeticia didnât love you.â
A bittersweet smile touches my lips. âShe did. I know she did, because she was smart. Wasnât she so smart?â I donât give him a chance to answer. âShe knew how to play this game, and that means she knew sheâd have to kill you. But she didnât.â I tilt my head back, imagining all the stars just out of sight, hidden beneath the veil of sunshine. âShe didnât use this phone because it would have killed me, too.â
In a twisted, complicated sort of way, my father was right all along. I did have something to do with my sisterâs death. If sheâd killed our father and secured her place as Queen of North Side, she would have been bulletproof. Saul and Daniel wouldnât have been able to touch her. But she hesitated. For .
My father argues, âIf Leticia ever had the chance to kill you, she wouldnât have hesitated!â
But it doesnât penetrate.
Not anymore.
My sister loved me. My mother loved me. The only Lucia who never did isnât worth mourning.
And I wonât.
âYouâre home alone, arenât you?â Hearing a shuffle behind me, I look over my shoulder, seeing all three of my Dukes standing feet away. I blink, wondering how long theyâve been there, listening. Emotionlessly, I tell my father, âYou would be. Thereâs no one left to show you real loyalty. Just cockroaches running at the first sign of disorder.â
Nick dips his head in a nod, while Remy smirks.
Syâs eyes are fixed to the distanceâto North Sideâwaiting.
Nastily, he asks, âWhy do you care? Thinking of sending your little guard dogs over?â From the sound of my fatherâs voice, heâd love nothing more than to see that happen.
But I shake my head, turning back to watch the sky. âNo. I think I just like the idea of it. You all alone in that big, empty box. You donât even have guard dog anymore.â
âI donât need one!â he explodes. âI donât need a Queen, and I certainly donât need a daughter. My house is empty because none of you have what it takes!â
I nod, back straightening. âThatâs all I needed to know.â
The call ends with a sharp vibration and I turn to themâmy Dukes and our King. Theyâre all wearing the same sort of expressionâa fighterâs scowlâready for the punch to be thrown. Their faces harden even more as they watch me pull up the contacts.
âDo you remember the day you taught me how to throw a punch?â I ask Sy, recalling my own surprise at how much it hurt. âYou said to never strike out in angerâthat if I let anger drive, Iâd crash.â
Sy nods. âI remember.â
I hold his stare, because if thereâs one thing I need them to know, itâs this. âThis isnât anger, even though I have the right to it. And itâs not revenge, either.â My gaze stops on Nick, whose blue eyes gleam proudly back at me. âThis is freedom.â
In the end, Sy was right.
When it comes to men like Saul and my father, itâs easy. My thumb touches the screen, and the truth is, I donât feel anything. Not excited. Not guilty. Thereâs no fear or regret, no instinctual, last second wish that I can take it back.
Thereâs just me and my Dukes, turning our gazes to North Side.
Thereâs a moment of absolute stillness where my exhale remains caught in my throat. Remyâs hand tangles with mine, and Iâm thinking of the cedar chestâthe one at the end of my old bedâwhen the flash comes. Itâs a sudden glow in the distance, as if Forsyth herself is discharging a weapon, there and gone. Nickâs fingers lace with my other hand, and above our heads, birds startle from their perch in the top of the belfry, rushing into the wind. They feel it first, before the quake, and our eyes are all fixed to the fiery ball to the north, dust clouding the flames.
I can feel Sy behind me when the sound arrives a second later, his warm palms curling over my shoulders. The rebounds off the empty streets and their derelict buildings. Itâs odd. I think it should be biggerâlouder. Instead, it flashes and immediately wanes, the people beneath us going about their day as if nothingâs happened at all.
I lean back against Sy, the man who made me a Queen, and feel it rushing through me like a breath of fresh air. In the distance, a box is burning, and all I feel is relief.
The Lucia name wonât live on.
But Perilini, Maddox, and Bruin will.