Soon Revâs teeth would be ground down to the damn roots. Heâd end up a toothless motherfucking fool. Only one hour into a three-hour planned run and he almost couldnât take another fucking minute. He was about to lose his fucking mind and expose shit that they needed to keep a tight lid on. For his sake. For Reillyâs sake and for Saylorâs sake.
But seeing Reilly wrapped around Dodgeâs backâ¦
Seeing her thighs gripping hisâ¦
Seeing her pussy smashed against the bar managerâs ass, who was probably loving every fucking minute of itâ¦
Seeing her tits pressed into a Fury brotherâs cutâ¦
âFuck!â he shouted, hoping the deep, loud roar of their sleds covered up his outburst.
Easyâs head twisted toward him and he gave him a questioning look.
Rev ignored the man who was paired with him in formation, and kept his eyes on the sled directly in front of him. Maybe he should switch positions with Whip, who was riding toward the front. Then he could ignore Reillyâs arms wrapped tightly around a man who wasnât him.
Sure he fucking could.
But then he couldnât make sure Dodge didnât do anything inappropriate with Reilly. Like squeeze her knee or trail his fingers up her thigh, orâ¦
Touch her in any way.
He swallowed down his next, âFuck!â and screamed it in his head instead.
His sled wobbled and he quickly straightened it out. If he crashed due to his inability to pay attention to anything other than Dodge and Reilly, heâd most likely take out anyone in formation behind him.
It would end up a dangerous game of dominos.
All because of his spiraling, out-of-control thoughts.
Since his parents had considered him a sinner, they had made him repeat the seven deadly sins over and over until he could recite them from memory.
Now, as he repeated each one out loud, the wind whipped it away. âLust. Gluttony. Greed. Sloth. Wrath. Envy. Pride.â
Theyâd insisted that by him committing any of those seven deadly sins, it would spur him to commit even more. Committing one sin would lead to another and another until his soul was condemned to eternal damnation.
Until he was forever lost and could no longer be saved.
, he wasnât committing only one right now, but all of them.
The sin of lust was his burning desire to touch, taste and fuck her. He committed the sin of gluttony because he couldnât get enough of her. And he was greedy as fuck. He didnât want to share her. He wanted to keep her for himself and not let anyone else touch her.
After every time theyâd had sex at the motel, once they both came, he had committed the sin of sloth by never being in a rush to move. He wanted to stay right where he was forever. Inside her and connected to her.
Wrathâ¦
. Right now, he was really hating Dodge, even though the Fury brother had no clue what was going on.
He was envious of Dodge because she rode on his sled instead of Revâs. Envy led into his sin of pride. Reilly shouldnât want to be on anyoneâs sled but his. It shouldnât have been a goddamn question. Her ass should be planted solidly behind him and her arms wrapped around his waist, instead.
According to his parents , he was facing eternal damnation because of the woman in front of him who tempted him. And because he realized what he felt for her was much more than simple temptation.
Worse, she had blown off his words as if theyâd meant nothing. But then, at the time, he hadnât taken them seriously, either.
When they first were spoken, he thought it was a mistake. A crossing of wires in his overloaded brain. But, yesterday, after going their separate ways, he realized he hadnât misspoken. The whiskey had forced the truth to the surface.
It all really hit home last night when sleeping alone in his bunkhouse rack had fucking sucked. In the past, heâd always preferred to sleep alone. Before Reilly, the only night he hadnât was the night he fell asleep in Sarahâs bed.
But last night, being a typical Saturday night, The Barn had been hopping with his brothers partying. Sweet butts and female hang-arounds did their rounds, making it known they were available. With, of course, his brothers taking advantage of that availability like normal, whether out in The Barn where everyone could watch, back in the bunkhouse or even out in the courtyard against a wall or bent over a picnic table under the pavilion.
For the few minutes heâd been sitting at the bar nursing a whiskey, he had to make excuse after excuse of why he couldnât double-team Angel with Easy or why he didnât want Brandy to unzip his jeans and drop to her knees right there on the spot.
Or why he wasnât in the mood for Billie to do what she normally did to his nipples that drove him batshit crazy to the point heâd blow his load almost instantly and he wasnât even embarrassed about how fast he came. The woman had some damn good skills and was super-efficient.
It got to the point last night where he finally went to his room, locked the door, plugged his earbuds into his listening holes and ignored the rest of the fucking world around him.
As he sprawled across his bed, drowning out everything else by blasting his favorite Spotify playlist, he went over every fucking moment of their trip. From the second he saw Reilly in the shed waiting for him, to the second he drove away from The Grove Inn yesterday afternoon.
While the run was more annoying than relaxing today, he also wasnât looking forward to this evening back at the farm when heâd have to once again sidestep the sweet butts as much as possible. With the available brothers dwindling in number, the club girls tended to hone in on the few who werenât claimed. They reminded him of buzzards circling fresh roadkill.
Theyâd been complaining a lot lately about the available members being slim-pickings. But until the prospects were patched in, the sweet butts couldnât touch them and, in turn, the recruits couldnât approach them for any reason other than to simply hang out. If the prospects were doing anything more than that, they would find themselves outside looking in. That was after their prospect cut was stripped from them and their ass was kicked due to breaking the rules.
So, yeah, the sweet butts were limited to the Fury members without an olâ lady. That meant they were down to only six: Rev, Easy, Dutch, Dodge, Ozzy and Whip.
And right now, Rev wasnât in the mood to do anything with any of them. Even if he was, he wasnât sure heâd want to do it in front of Reilly. If she saw him doing a sweet butt, would she get bent and take off to find some random dick out there and revenge-bang him?
He ground a hand back and forth over his mouth, trying to stifle another loud curse.
This fucking run couldnât be over soon enough. If he wouldnât be ridden until his ass was chapped, heâd peel off and go get lost somewhere with booze and a bong. Then when he woke up from his damn stupor, it would be time to go to work and everything would be back to the way it was beforeâ¦
He barked out a painful laugh and Easy frowned at him.
âYou okay, brother?â E shouted over the wind and the roar of their exhaust.
No, he wasnât fucking okay.
Unless something changed, he was starting to wonder if heâd ever be okay again.
Especially since shortly after they got back to the farm and while getting ready to party for the evening, he spotted Trip and Deacon taking Reilly into the barn and up to the executive meeting room upstairs.
Revâs asshole had never been so tightly puckered in his life than at that sight.
Reillyâs heart thumped so loudly in her ears, she could hardly hear what Trip was saying as he and Deacon escorted her into The Barn and upstairs to where the club officers had their meetings.
Sheâd only been up there a couple of times. It was rare any women went upstairs and into their âsacredâ room that held the heavy scent of testosterone in the air. Unless, of course, they needed to grab something from the storage area that was tucked between the meeting room and the two apartments on the backside of the bunkhouse.
The heavy, rectangular table that sat in the middle of the space had the BFMC logo carved into the top. Whoever had hand carved it had skills. The table was worn and parts of the wood were nicked and stained since the table was as old as the club. And not the current Blood Fury old, but the Originals old since it had belonged to them. She wouldnât be surprised if the guys had lifted their legs to mark it like the dogs they could be. The chair at the end, where Trip currently sat as president, was the same chair his father Buck, the former president, had used.
Deacon, who Reilly also considered her yanked out an empty chair along the side and jerked his chin toward it. âSit down.â
âWhatâs this about?â Her pulse was now throbbing at her temples so hard, they could probably see it.
Trip, wearing his ever-present black ball cap pulled low, tipped his head toward the chair. âSit. Got somethinâ important to discuss with you.â
Should she drop to her knees right where she stood and beg for leniency for Rev? Blame everything on herself? Tell them she forced him?
Throw herself at their mercy?
Offer to take his place for the blanket party?
He didnât deserve whatever they would do to him. It was all her fault. She never shouldâve insisted on going along.
Sheâ
âSit down, Reilly,â Trip ordered more firmly.
âItâs not what you think,â she began weakly as she moved to where Deacon stood behind the pulled-out chair. As she sat, the clubâs treasurer rounded the table and settled in the chair to Tripâs right, directly across the wide table from her.
She was afraid to look her sisterâs olâ man in the eye. If she did, she just might start confessing everything in hopes to spare Rev.
âWhat ainât?â Trip asked with a small shake of his head.
âWhat you think. It isnât what you think.â
âWhat the fuck you talkinâ about, Lee?â Deacon asked, his brow now wrinkled.
âWhy you brought me up here. Whatever you think is wrong. Itâs not what you think.â
She was babbling like a damn fool.
Late one night, she had stumbled across a documentary on police interrogation and she needed to take a page out of that book. She should just sit down, shut up and let them do all the talking. Then she should either say nothing or simply flat out deny everything.
That sounded like a plan.
If that didnât work, sheâd go back to her original plan of throwing herself at their mercy and begging for Rev to be spared.
âWhat fuckinâ drugs have you done?â Trip asked, frowning. âYouâre actinâ crazy.â
Deacon snorted. âWhen has she ever been normal?â
Like should talk. âNone. I⦠Wait. Why did you bring me up here?â
âFuck that. Now I wanna know why you got all paranoid,â Trip said, pinning his dark eyes on her. âWhat the fuck dâyou need to tell us?â
âNothing. I⦠I⦠I just thought I was in trouble for something.â She grimaced and nervously tugged her hair over her scar.
Deacon noticed the movement she did out of habit, especially when she was anxious, and scowled. âWhat the fuck would you be in trouble for? Whatâd you do?â
She sat back, drew a blank mask over her face and cheerily chirped, âNothing.â
Both Deacon and Trip cocked their right eyebrows, reminding her of synchronized swimmers.
âIf you got somethinâ to share, share it,â Trip ordered. âIf youâre hidinâ shit that might hurt the club and I find out, Iâm gonna be pissed.â
âIâm not. I swear.â
Trip sat back in his high-backed chair and gripped the armrests tightly. âBetter not be lyinâ.â
âIs one of the prospects fuckinâ with you? That Scar? Is he tryinâ shit?â Deacon asked, leaning forward, holding her gaze.
âNo. He doesnât even talk to me.â
âGood,â Trip grunted. âStay clear of him âtil we got a better handle on him.â The club president sharply clapped his hands together once. âAll right. Donât wanna be up here all night. Wanna go get fucked up and then go get fucked. So, letâs get this shit over with.â He held his hand up. âOn a side note, you know you can go to Deke about anythinâ, right? Heâs responsible for you.â
This was news to her.
âHe is?â Her gaze swung back and forth between the two men. âSince when?â
âSince the second he claimed your sister as his olâ lady. And once you decided to stay, become part of the club and he made you one of the untouchables.â
âAbout thatââ
âNo.â Trip shook his head. âWe got other shit to talk about. We ainât dealinâ with that tonight.â
âI donât want to be on that list.â
âThatâs not negotiable âtil your sister says otherwise,â Deacon said.
âWhich will be never,â she muttered.
Deacon shrugged, crossed his arms over his chest and sat back. âWork it out with her. I ainât fightinâ that fight.â
Trip chuckled. âYeah, âcause he donât want to be outside lookinâ in. And by lookinâ in, I donât mean her fuckinâ windows.â
âAinât gonna lie. Thatâs fuckinâ true. Ainât givinâ up pussy for you to get dick,â Deacon said.
Reilly rolled her eyes. âThanks for thinking of me.â
âYou want dick, just get it elsewhere,â Deacon said with another shrug.
â
thanks for that advice on how to get laid. But if we really want to get down to it, I donât need permission from anyone.â She shrugged just like Deacon had and added a raised chin in a clear challenge as she stared back at him.
âRight,â Trip said, his head swiveling back and forth between her and the club treasurer. âBut just not with any of our brothers. Or prospects. Get it elsewhere so you ainât causinâ problems.â
âSo⦠no one cares if I fuck some hobo living by the railroad tracks, but you only care if itâs someone Iâve known for the past year because they wear a Fury cut.â
âYep,â Trip agreed. âNow, weâre done talkinâ about your sex life and where you need to find dick and weâre gonna talk about the reason we brought you the fuck up here. Donât got all fuckinâ night. Iâm thirsty, hungry and horny.â
It was her turn to sit back in her chair and cross her arms over her chest with impatience. âThen spill whatever youâre going to say.â
Tripâs eyebrows shot up and disappeared under his ball cap. âDamn, woman. Donât make me change my fuckinâ mind about handinâ you this opportunity.â
She dropped her crossed arms. âWhat opportunity?â
âYou ready to listen?â Trip asked smartly.
Reilly pinned her mouth shut and opened her ears. The word opportunity made her think this wasnât going to be an interrogation but about something else entirely. That whatever they brought her upstairs for was possibly good and not bad.
âGuess thatâs a yes.â Deacon grinned.
âYou ainât stupidâ¦â Trip started.
What kind of conversation starter was that?
She opened her mouth and Trip lifted a hand to stop her. âYou talkinâ or listeninâ?â
Reilly flapped her hand at him to continue.
âLike I was sayinâ, you ainât stupid and you got business smarts. We ainât usinâ you to your full potential with you workinâ for Dutch. Also like that you donât take no shit, so youâd have no problem runninâ a crew made up of possible dickheads.â
âCoulda omitted the word âpossible,ââ Deacon informed him.
âA crew?â she asked, more confused than ever.
Trip lifted one eyebrow and she shut up.
He continued. âYou got a business degree youâre wastinââ¦â
âHave you been talking to Reese?â she accused him with a frown.
âWoman,â Trip breathed impatiently. The club president had a trigger temper and she could see he was edging toward it.
âSheesh. All right. Go on.â
Trip pulled his cap off his head, raked fingers through his hair, slapped the hat back on and blew out a noisy breath. He glanced at Deacon, shook his head and then looked back at her. âPushinâ my buttons, Lee,â he warned.
âItâs a bad habit.â
âTryinâ to help you out here.â
âHelp me or you?â
Tripâs mouth got tight. âBoth. You wanna hear it? Or you want me to cut this shit short and find someone else who donât backtalk?â
She stared at the clubâs president sitting at the end of the table. In the chair of power.
He couldâve told her to fuck off when she was in danger from Billy Warren, he didnât. He allowed her to come out to the farm and stay in Deaconâs apartment until that asshole was gone. He permitted her to stay even after that and become part of the club when she had no blood ties to any of the members and couldnât become an official member herself. He also helped convince Dutch to give her a damn job because she was bored as hell waiting for that abusive asshole to be caught.
Trip had done a lot for her. So had the rest of the club. More importantly, her sister was deeply in love with the Viking of a man who sat across the table from her. That alone was priceless to her.
Her older sister finally found someone who not only truly loved her back, but would be dedicated, loyal and protective. Traits Reese had hoped for with her first husband, but never got. Instead, she was hurt and ended up building an even higher barrier around herself. An almost impenetrable wall Deacon struggled to scale. But he was smart about it and didnât push her. He let her begin to deconstruct her wall on her own to the point where he could finally manage to climb over it and into Reeseâs heart.
Reese had finally found her happy. Their relationship might not be conventional, but it was real. Because of that, Reilly loved Deacon for everything he did for and gave to Reese. Also, for his endless patience when dealing with her very stubborn older sister.
The club was her and Reeseâs family now. They didnât have to be. They could have shut Reilly out and told her to take her problems with the abusive asshole elsewhere.
They didnât.
Once again, her eyes began to sting with tears.
What the hell was wrong with her? First, Revâs declaration of love almost made her cry, now this. And she still didnât even know what âthisâ was yet.
She sniffled and nodded.
âYou ainât cryinâ are you?â Deacon asked, his eyes wide and his words a bit panicked.
âIâm not crying!â she exclaimed. âI never cry!â
âAll women cry,â Trip muttered under his breath.
âNo, we donât,â she insisted, rubbing the sting away.
âYou and your sister are tough as fuckinâ nails,â Deacon said more softly. âI get it. You had to be to survive your childhood. You also had to be to survive that motherfuckinâ asshole Warren. Ainât a thing if you gotta cry.â
âCan we just get on with this opportunity?â she asked, wanting to change the subject.
ââKay,â Trip started. âHere it is⦠When we got that trailer for Cage, Dutch spent a fuckload of scratch to temporarily rent it. That got me thinkinâ a similar business would be a good investment for the club. As treasurer, Deaconâs been doinâ the footwork to see what scratch weâd need to invest to get one started. We got the room out here on the farm to set one up and I wanna start doinâ that. Itâs a huge investment, but itâs got a lotta potential for profit, âspecially when the insurance companies are footinâ the bill durinâ natural disasters, house fires, or whatever reason someone would need emergency housinâ for.â
âLike surprise babies,â Deacon chimed in.
âYeah,â Trip agreed. âLike someone stickinâ their dick where they shouldnât and then wonderinâ why a surprise that cries pops out months later.â
Reilly planted a hand on her belly in panic for a second, then remembered theyâd taken precautions. Not only with condoms but she was also on birth control. Unless Revâs sperm were mini-Transformers or her eggs were like the Kool-Aid man crashing through a brick wall, neither were getting through those secure roadblocks.
Deaconâs eyes narrowed. âWhyâd you do that?â
âDo what?â
âSlam your hand on your gut like that,â he answered with a curious tilt of his mohawk-braided head.
âIâm hungry and my stomachâs growling,â she lied and slid her hand down to her lap where they could no longer see it.
âCan we get back to business here?â Trip asked sharply. âShe ainât the only one starvinâ.â
âCarry on,â Reilly told him.
âOkay, thanks for your permission.â Trip sighed. âAny-fuckin-way, want you to manage it.â
Did she hear that correctly? âManage what?â
âThe fuckinâ emergency housinâ business and the crew who are gonna help you,â he just about shouted like she was hard of hearing.
âWho will be the crew?â
âCastle and Bones for now. Theyâre gonna get their commercial driverâs licenses and then Iâm gonna get them some traininâ on how to haul and set up the trailers. Youâre gonna need that traininâ, too, so you know what the fuckâs goinâ on and you can ride their asses if they fuck up.â
âAm I going to get my own office?â She was trying not to bounce in her seat with excitement.
This was an awesome opportunity, especially if she was allowed to run it herself. She could put her business skills to use. Marketing, advertisingâ¦
Trip answered, âNot yet.â
âTalked to Dutch already. Youâre gonna work outta his office since the business will be slow to start and itâll be a while before it starts bringinâ in scratch. If you can build it to the point it takes off, gets busy and starts bringinâ in enough scratch, weâll get you set up somewhere else so youâd only have to concentrate on that. Look at it as motivation to grow that business. Clubâs gonna buy two mobile homes to start. In six months, if we find itâs worth it, weâll buy two more and so on.â He leaned forward and held her gaze. âAlso, after a point, youâll earn a percentage of the profits. In the meantime, Dutch will be payinâ you your salary and the club will be throwinâ you some extra scratch for runninâ things âtil the business is self-sufficient.â
They were stepping in again in an effort to make her life even better. To give her the purpose she had lost along the way after graduating college and then after almost taking an unexpected, permanent nap.
âJust think, you might be able to afford somethinâ better than that shithole apartment you got now,â Deacon said. âIn fact, your sister and I prefer you get a modular and put it near the other three so youâre close.â
The other three were where Judge, Cage and Rook lived all in a neat row.
âThey ainât the only ones,â Trip added. âYou know how I feel about you livinâ in town even though itâs close to Dutchâs place and his garage.â
The only reason Deacon and Reese hadnât moved into a modular themselves was Reese refused to give up her beautiful mountain home to move onto the farm and into a small modular. Reilly didnât blame her not wanting to sell her dream home, but it was a point of contention between her and Trip, since the club president preferred everyone to live on the farm.
The only acceptable compromise they could come up with in Deacon and Reeseâs case was for the couple to continue to divide their time between the farm and nearby Mansfield. Deacon kept the bunkhouse apartment, so the couple could spend weekends on the farm, and weeknights at her house, so sheâd be near her law practice. Deacon didnât mind the twenty-minute drive during the week to spend the night with his olâ lady.
Reillyâs gaze swung between the two men. âDoes Reese know about this?â
âYeah. Sheâs in full agreement with the plan since youâll be puttinâ your degree to better use and eventually makinâ a shitload more money if you make that business a success. Sheâs already workinâ on the paperwork to establish the business name, get the licenses, and all of that shit, plus draftinâ the contracts youâll use for the rentals. Redâs gonna do the books for you, too, so you wonât have to worry âbout that.â
âSo, you onboard?â Trip asked.
âHell yes!â she yelled, jumping to her feet. She barely managed to stop herself from dancing across the room. âI freaking love this idea!â
Should she hug them? She wanted to squeeze them both!
âAnd if the prospects give you any shit you canât deal with, you know to come to us,â Deacon reminded her.
âI can handle a couple of prospects,â she told them with confidence.
âFigured that,â Trip said with a grin. âIf anyone can snag them by the balls and keep âem in line, itâs you.â
âI can snag them but I just canât suck them, right?â she teased the Fury president.
Trip dropped his head to stare at the table and shook it. When he finally lifted it, he said, âMake a deal with you. You convince Reese to take you off the list, weâll take you off the list. But donât want you causinâ any fuckinâ drama in the club âcause one of âem is boninâ you one night and boninâ someone else the next. The second you cause that drama, youâre back on that list,â Trip warned her. âYou got me?â
She smiled. âI got you.â
âBut âtil Reese gives the okay, youâre still stuck on it,â Deacon reminded her. âDonât get a brother fucked up âcause you want to take a spin on his dick.â
She rolled her lips under and nodded.
âGood fuckinâ luck with your sister,â Trip said.
Unfortunately, she would need it.
But even so, this conversation had given her a lot of hope and a much brighter future.