Ch.45
If Yoongi wasn't already disgusted with you then he certainly had a reason to now. He's witnessed your gross sobbing over his best friend. It was just a one-day crush, but it hurt like a b*tch! You suddenly fell head over heels over the eldest member without caution. It was unfair. Why couldn't your first crush be at least on one of the boys currently into you? After trying so hard to keep your relationships with all of them platonic. Gosh, Hyosung is going to have so many questions. Hopefully she'll see that you're not in the mood for her crazy. She already thinks you have thing for older guys because of Yoongi's sudden presence. He really came out of no where and then said he wanted to speak to you. That's weird.
The two of you have gotten closer since you housed him, so you could proudly say he didn't hate you. If you said he liked you then Yoongi would tell you not to push it. Wasn't he the sweetest? Still, you felt grateful that he made Seokjin go away and got Hyosung unnie to leave you guys alone. That's when his scary attitude really came in handy. Now you were emotionally vulnerable as you recalled today's events. It's been quite a day. You admitted everything that happened tonight except for Seokjin getting recruited. That was something for him to tell the members. Yoongi sighed as your chest felt lighter after talking to someone.
He stared at you without saying a word. Yoongi watched you wipe the tears away and calm yourself down. Whatever words were going to come out of his mouth, you wanted to be ready. He was probably going to give you some tough love. That's what you were hoping for. It was possible that he was going to start laughing at you for believing someone like Seokjin could be into you. This was getting to be too much. Usually, Seokjin is just a friend who's older than you and now he's on some higher pedestal. He's this gorgeous angel while you felt like nothing compared to him. Is this how crushes are? If so, you hate them. They're certainly not worth it.
"Are you done crying?" Yoongi sighed.
"Think so." You put your arms under your thighs.
"So...you have a thing for Seokjin?" Yoongi raised a brow to make you roll your eyes.
"It started today and ended today. What's your point?" You huffed.
"Nothing, I just think it's funny how you would choose him." Yoongi chuckled. "He's my best friend but let me just say, he's not anything special. Not someone for you to be crying over like this. You know that."
"He's our friend. Shouldn't we be saying kind things about him?" You furrowed your brows to hear him scoff.
"I can't stand his jokes and he got mad at me for not laughing. I'm gonna say whatever the f*ck I want right now." Yoongi crossed his arms. He probably got yelled at by the eldest for being no fun all the time. Grinning at the thought, you listened to what else he had to say. "Look, I think you got a fake crush on him. You liked the idea of being in a romantic relationship and saw Seokjin. He made you believe that was possible. I don't actually think you were into him."
"You think so?" You looked at him with big eyes. That did make sense.
"Seokjin is a flirt and I don't think he's your type." Yoongi shrugged.
"How do you know what's my type?" You narrowed your eyes on him. Standing up from the bottom step, you gave him a playful glare. No more tears tonight. Let it be laughter.
"I don't, but I can take a good guess." Yoongi stepped closer to you. Holding your breath, you suddenly felt his arm wrap around you.
"You're...touching me?" You said.
"I'm trying to comfort you, ungratefulâ"
"That's not comforting." You wrapped your arms around the slender male. He really was skinny. He appeared fragile despite having this tough and scary reputation. "You're so small."
"Shut up." Yoongi scowled, squeezing you tighter. He was stronger than he looked though. You giggled at first, but eventually his hug was getting to be too tight.
"A-Air!" You squeaked out to see him smirk. He only kept squeezing you until you wacked his shoulder. Then Yoongi released you to catch your breath.
"Just don't cry over stupid things anymore, you baby." He grinned. He seemed really satisfied with himself after that.
"I won't." You nodded, panting lightly. That's the plan and it sounded really good to you. "Thanks, Yoongi."
"No oppa?" He turned to you with a smirk.
"What is wrong with you?" You smacked his arm once more.
"I'm just saying Seokjin made a mistake." He smirked, petting your head gently. What's going on now? It's one thing having Seokjin randomly asking you on a date but Yoongi sounding fond of you? This can't be real.
"W-What? Are you saying...?" You titled your head.
"No." Yoongi flicked your forehead. Ow! That actually hurt a lot. The hell is wrong with him? "Don't fall for guys too easy or else that's your problem."
"Ugh...lesson learnt." You rubbed the spot. Just as you thought.
Yoongi laughed at how gullible you were. That wasn't very nice, but you understood his point. Imagining yourself in a relationship with Yoongi sounded way too much like a drama. His point came across well though. You're not going to fling yourself at him next because Seokjin didn't want you. They're your friends and that's it. If anything happens then that's later. This experiences only made you realize how much you liked the idea of being in a romantic relationship. Well, you're not going to dwell on that any longer. You became desperate as soon as you thought you had a chance. Seokjin is in the clear, but you still wanted to smack him for tonight. That'll make things better.
Hyosung unnie never opened the door. She was actually giving you privacy. The blinds were never pushed to the side and you weren't being watched. How badly did Yoongi terrify her? Once she sees his gummy smile, she'll understand that he's just a grump. Yoongi leaned against the railing as he let out a heavy sigh. Facing him, you remembered that he originally came here to talk to you about something else. Having this little emotional talk about relationships wasn't what he came here for. He did help you feel better about the situation though.
"What's on your mind then? Were you serious when you said you came here to talk to me?" You leaned against the railings with him.
"I did. I just didn't expect that almost kiss." Yoongi scoffed. "Anyway, I came to tell you not to bother us about what we choose to do with our futures. Other than that, you're more than welcome to see us graduate."
"Wait what? Is that seriously what you came here for?" You glared at him. "We're back to square one in our relationship it feels like."
"Because I'm telling you not to interfere? I'm just saying that we're not asking to be fixed or be led around in life," Yoongi said. "Thanks, but no thanks."
"Well, I'm trying not to be nosey." You growled. "But if any of the members ask me what to do then I have to answer them with my honest opinion."
"I'm not going to some sh*t college and you can't change my f*cking mind," Yoongi stated.
"Fine! Don't go to college, but at least take care of yourself." You pouted in disappointment. If you could, you would have told him to at least get a job. He seemed content with his criminal activity and staying with the gang. He's pretty stubborn so there's no way you can get him to budge. Yoongi glanced at you, seeing your puffed-out cheeks and lips. He chuckled, shaking his head as he called you a child. He stayed silent at your words for a couple seconds like you reminded him of something.
"Don't worry about me. It's weird." Yoongi patted your head. "I know what I'm doing so go back up with your annoying sister."
"Rude." You giggled and wrapped your arms around him once more. "Thank you."
"Go inside, it's getting cold." Yoongi rubbed your back since you were still in a dress. You lifted your head to smile at him. He's a cute grump.
"Okay, Oppa~!" You said as he shook his head, uttering 'gross' not so quietly. You chuckled at that as he watched you go up the stairs. Reaching for the knob, you wave at him one last time as you open the door. Hyosung unnie was waiting at the kitchen table and took this chance to run out. She gripped the railings, leaning over to glare at Yoongi. Seokjin may be flirty and charming, but Yoongi had his hair dyed with piercings on him. He had a fowl mouth and was completely disrespectful to your sister who's older than him. He is definitely not in a good light, but it's not like he cares if his best friend looks better than him in your sister's eyes.
"You! Get lost and leave my baby sister alone!" Unnie shouted as you hit your head against the door. Why is she so embarrassing?
"Talk to me after you get rid of the tiny bit of mold above the bathroom sink." Yoongi smug's smirk grew wider. Hyosun grew completely baffled while your face burned. He basically revealed to your sister that he's been inside the apartment. Most likely more than once to remember something like that. Hyosung turned her face to you with shock. Whatever was going on in her mind, Yoongi and you didn't do anything wrong!
"Min Yoongi!" You screamed at that running fool with a smirk that you wanted to slap off.
"Kwon (F/n)!" Hyosung yelled, her imagination probably running wild. D*mn it, Yoongi.
His little stunt forced you to do some explaining. That basically meant a lot of lying and avoiding the complete truth. The most Hyosung knows is that Seokjin and Yoongi are your friends. Nothing more, but it's not like she believes that. Seokjin almost kissed you right in front of her and Yoongi gave her a hint that he's been at the apartment when she wasn't around. Currently, unnie was fake crying about your innocence. It's a good thing she promised not to tell Mom and Dad about it. They wouldn't be the happiest to find out if you had a 'boyfriend'. You came to this town to grow some independence, so they would get pretty upset.
It's a good thing that is not the case. Though you wanted to be in a loving relationship, that's just not going to happen right now. The next morning didn't hit you like you expected. All your feelings for Seokjin were for the most part, gone. Just thinking about him didn't make you blush or your heart race. Instead, you felt embarrassed about everything. What were you thinking? You're happy to know that you're over him, but it did still slightly hurt. Rejection can be like that apparently. It's not Seokjin's fault though. You're going to continue a normal friendship with him just like the way you're doing with Jungkook. He had no reason to believe you were upset at him for being honest with you.
So today you went to the warehouse. The boys were most likely all there. Seokjin would probably want to talk to you and you guys can fix the misunderstanding. It wasn't a big deal. The walk over to the warehouse took about half an hour, but it gave you time to collect your thoughts. It helped you confirm that you no longer had feelings for the black-haired member. All those feelings you felt were just a one-time thing because of how inexperienced you were. That made you want to smack yourself, but you've learned your lesson. Especially with the help of Yoongi. Arriving at the large building, your jaw dropped to see Jimin holding Seokjin down while Jungkook prepared to punch him. They stopped to see you at the entrance.
"What is going on!?" You screamed.
The second years ran out of the backroom to see two first years ganging up on the eldest. What made them think that was okay? Yoongi was sitting at the table with an entertained smirk. He was literally doing nothing to stop the two members from beating up his best friend. Taehyung was working on the mural with no shirt on. He had his head phones in and pulled them off to see you. He waved at you with a smile until he saw how disturbed you were. Taehyung raised a brow before seeing his friends about to attack the eldest hyung. That's when he jumped in shock too. Namjoon and Hoseok hurried over to the pull those two idiots off Seokjin. Man, you wanted to smack a lot of people today.
"No! Hyung, we're doing this for (F/n)!" Jungkook shouted as Namjoon dragged him off.
"Seokjin broke her heart!" Jimin shouted when Hoseok put his hands behind his back.
"What!?" Your eyes went wide. Where'd they get that from? Storming over to the stage, Yoongi pretended like he didn't reveal embarrassing information. Seokjin dusted himself off and sighed. This felt way worse than when he offered to kiss you. "Yoongi, you little sh*t."
"Well f*ck you too." He chuckled. "Not my fault those two asked me what happened."
"You could've kept your mouth shut! Plus, he didn't break my heart!" You shouted. Jungkook and Jimin stopped struggling to hear that. Taehyung walked over, slipping a shirt on his body and removing the gloves off his hands. Hoseok let Jimin go while Namjoon made sure to keep the maknae in check.
"He didn't? Yoongi only told us that Seokjin left you crying after the date." Jimin frowned. He walked over to you and took your hands.
"That's because I was an idiot. Seokjin had nothing to do with it." You sighed, glancing at the eldest member. He stared at you with a soft gaze and bit his lip. He had something to say but didn't want to enrage the maknae who was already glaring daggers at him.
"You promise?" Jungkook asked.
"Yes, so don't beat up Seokjin. It wasn't really a date anyway...we just hung out." You shrugged, telling Namjoon with your eyes to release Jungkook. He was set free and he gave his hyung an intimidating look. Seokjin frowned to see that while you tried not to sigh.
"Don't be like that, Kookie." Seokjin pouted.
"Don't call me that." Jungkook huffed to earn an annoyed expression from Seokjin. Jimin patted your shoulder. Suddenly, you felt arms wrap themselves around you. Turning your head to see who was hugging you from behind, you were greeted by a boxy smile. One of the least problematic first year boys at the moment. You giggled as Jungkook came over to hug you too. Jimin joined in and Hoseok did too with a satisfied smile.
"There. Are we all better now?" Hoseok asked. The boys all nodded in agreement.
"Can I talk with you alone, (F/n)?" Seokjin gave you a weak smile.
He was clearly nervous. Especially since all first years turned to glare at him. Taehyung was just glaring because his friends were. These boys are a lot to handle. You'll talk to Jungkook and Jimin privately after this. They released you after you nodded at Seokjin's request. Following Seokjin into the back, he rubbed his hands quickly as he paced around a crate. They must have a deal soon if they've gotten more supply. Looking up from the crate, Seokjin sighed heavily as his eyes met yours. He probably had this whole speech set up in his head to tell you he was sorry. You'd rather hear just that one word then all his jumbled-up thoughts from last night.
"(F/n)â" Seokjin started, but you had to cut him off.
"I'm not mad at you, Seokjin," You stated, "Actually, you really have nothing to worry about. I'm fine."
"...you're not mad?" His mouth gaped open.
"I mean, the events still kinda hurt but why wouldn't they?" You reasoned. "I just want you to know that I was more upset with myself last night than at you. Today, I'm fine and would rather not cause any drama because of this."
"Do you ever let yourself stay angry? Or sad? Or anything?" Seokjin raised a brow. He took notice of your confusion which made him clarify, "Like, when you got kidnapped. You wanted to continue hanging out with us no matter what. It's like you ignore your feelings to not get scarred or to not cause problems."
"...I just think it's easier." You bit your lip. That was something that never crossed your mind. To be honest, you wouldn't consider it running away from your emotions like he did. It's complicated. You just wanted to have tough skin and not let things bother you all the time. "Oh and Seokjin."
"Yeah?" He smiled at you. Without warning, you smacked his arm. "Why would you do that!? You told those two hooligans to leave me alone and now you're doing this!? I thought you said you weren't mad!"
"Calm down." You laughed at how outraged he was. Now you understood perfectly well why Jungkook bullied his hyungs. Their reactions were really amusing. "I just had to get that out of me."
"...just like Kookie." He rubbed his arm like it was the most painful thing in the world.
"You've been shot before! Why are you complaining?" You scoffed to see his pout get bigger.
"I don't think the boys here are that great of influences on you," Seokjin said.
Shaking your head, you could agree with him but didn't want to. Some of them weren't the best role models but Namjoon was someone to really admire. At that moment, Jimin and Jungkook showed up at the door frame. Jungkook cleared his throat, telling Seokjin to get out. The eldest pursed his lips and held out his arms in front of you for a hug. You were about to until Jungkook cleared his throat a lot louder. Seokjin rolled his eyes and left the room without a hug. He told you goodbye as Jimin and Jungkook came inside. Lately the two have been getting along to fight against Seokjin. They used to give each other secret glares and smirks around you before.
"Just friends," You reminded them. Jimin slowly nodded his head and Jungkook tried his hardest not to frown.
"Got it." Jungkook sighed.
"We're just going to protect you from guys like Seokjin." Jimin grinned.
"Do you guys not trust him?" You chuckled. "And I don't need protecting."
"It depends on the day." Jungkook shrugged before sucking his breath. He gave you a hopeful smile. "Our protection is free?"
"Oh, I need to give you guys something!" You clapped your hands together. Jimin and Jungkook glanced at each other with an excited smile. What could it possibly be? You smacked Jungkook's chest and hit Jimin's arm. They both jumped at the random attack. Jungkook frowned at you while Jimin was incredibly shocked.
"The hell was that?" Jungkook asked as you raised your hand up again.
"For trying to beat up Seokjin. Do stuff like that again and I'm going to learn taekwondo just to attack you guys back," You threatened. Jimin agreed in defeat to not get involved in any of your relationships. The maknae on the other hand was putting up more of a fight. He crossed his arms with teasing eyes.
"I have a black belt in taekwondo. Good luck trying to beat me up." Jungkook smirked.
"Should I forgive you for stealing my first kiss?" You narrowed your eyes on the male. His smirk fell as his face paled. The only thing that was colored were his ears that were glowing bright pink. Hitting them where it hurts.
You patted Jungkook and told him to apologize to Seokjin for almost punching him. Surprisingly, Jungkook didn't refuse right away. He put his head down and walked out of the room to do as he was told. Jimin fidgeted nervously before receiving a hug from you. Compared to Jungkook, he was more on the sensitive side. That's why you didn't hit him on the same spot as you did with the maknae. Truth be told, you didn't hit him as hard. It's not favoritism! He may be your best friend, but you also knew how bad Jimin would feel if you were upset at him. He would take it a lot harder and that hurt you to think about. Ruffling the blonde's hair, you smiled to see the big grin on his face where his eyes turned to crescents. So cute.
"I'm not mad at you or Jungkook," You told him.
"Are you sure?" He asked.
"You know I can't stay mad at you guys for too long." You assured him.
Jimin needed a little more attention and care than Jungkook did. That didn't mean you didn't care for the brunette. You adored him too but have to treat each member differently. You have to make sure Taehyung doesn't run into traffic. Things Jungkook wouldn't do. With Jungkook, you just have to make sure he doesn't get too angry. The two of you have had quite the fights these past few months. Things were better now. Just look at you and Yoongi. The two of you are actually sort of getting along which you thought would never happen. You gave up on befriending him, but now look at where your friendship with him is at!
"I learned a new dance!" Jimin jumped up and down.
"Oh my gosh! Really? I have to see!" You squealed with him. "Let's go outside!"
Pushing Jimin outside of the warehouse, you couldn't wait to see him dancing again. He didn't know how happy it made you to see him dancing. There was just something about the way he moved his body and his performance that was entertaining and captivating. It'd be a shame to look away. All the other members didn't mind him dancing and Yoongi tried not to care anymore. He was making a change after being found at your apartment. That felt like so long ago when you would wake up with him in your room. When you think about it, it truly wasn't too long ago. Jimin got into position as he played the music on his phone. His beginning pose was already filled with so much confidence. It's like he transformed every time he performed.
You felt yourself pulling out your phone. Jimin didn't realize that you were recording him dance. He was off in his own world. For some reason you had the urge to just record him dancing. It was something that had to be seen. You knew he was shy, but it was hard to explain how beautiful it was to see him move. It made you wish that you understood dance terms to explain why Jimin was such a talented boy. He always disagreed with you when you complimented him, but it got him really happy. Occasionally he was bold enough to say he knew how talented and handsome he was. It was funny, and it made you happy to see him comfortable like that. Jimin is humble most of the time so you love it when he gets sassy. He finished dancing and you ended the video. The blonde smiled at you as you shoved the device in your back pocket.
"What'd you think?" Jimin panted lightly.
"You give dance a new meaning." You clapped your hands loudly.
"Don't exaggerate." Jimin shook his head as his face turned pink. "But thank you...I'm happy you liked it."
"How could I not!?" You hugged him. "C'mon, you have to show this to the other members!"
"You think they'll like it?" Jimin stared at you like a little puppy. His tail was wagging so hard that it might fall off.
"They'll love it!" You nodded as he ran inside with a lot of enthusiasm.
He got the attention of all the members. They all sat down and got ready to watch him perform. Jimin was nervous as he put on the music. Then he grew confident once he did the first few moves. Hoseok was in awe and Taehyung was so proud of his friend. Everyone enjoyed it as expected. While they watched Jimin dance, you went on one of your social media accounts and found yourself posting the video of Jimin. No one really followed you so it's not like too many people would see it. The internet is way too big to pay attention to your tiny account, but you had a feeling Jimin could get at least a few likes from old friends you had in middle school. He's handsome and a talented dancer so what wouldn't they fall for? You knew Jimin wouldn't mind.
Lifting your head from your phone, you clapped with all the other members as Jimin bowed with a happy smile. He swayed side to side as he got showered by compliments from his members. The smile grew bigger at each one. Jimin enjoyed the kind words he was receiving. Even Yoongi gave him some praise so that meant a lot. Hoseok eventually bounced on his feet and requested to learn the moves. Taehyung got excited and tried pulling Yoongi over to learn. Giggling, you felt the happiness and warmth here in this warehouse. It wasn't cold and empty at all.