A Plan (3)
âI think Iâm just a nuisance to Your Highness.â
It was exactly the opposite. The only reason the Countâs incompetent Young Lord committed the reckless act of setting fire to his house might be because he colluded with the forces that encouraged him.
There was only one reason why the force had clung to Matthias.
It may be because Cecil chose Rowena, but Cecil didnât want to point that out. It was because he was afraid that Rowena would notice it and distance herself from him.
âThatâs not true.â
âIâm only receiving too muchâ¦â
Looking into the watery eyes and tears gathering again, Cecil decided to be cowardly. He wanted to hold her back before she hated herself.
âThenâ¦â
The blue eyes that looked into Rowenaâs eyes shone brightly.
âSay I love you.â
When she blinked, tears that had been stagnant flowed down. Rowena didnât know what he was asking for.
âSay I love you, Rowena.â
To be with him for the rest of his life. He was hoping to continue the marriage he promised to be longer. Rowena felt a burst of tears.
âDo you like me like this?â
âI love you because itâs youâ¦â
He met her and learned the feeling of loving someone as a reason. The world before he knew her was nothing like the world he knew now.
Now he couldnât separate Rowena from his life.
âI love you, Rowena.â
Rowena did not fully understand Cecilâs desperation. Rowena wiped her tears with the back of her hand.
âThatâs too cowardly of me.â
Wrong. Iâm the coward.
Cecil cast a passionate gaze, hiding the truth that lingered in his head. He didnât want to live without Rowena already. He had only thought of sticking her next to him all his life.
âThen⦠Will you give birth to my child?â
This was also cowardly greed, but Cecil revealed it to Rowena. He wanted to create an indelible string between Rowena and himself.
âYour Highnessâ¦â
âI have everything. All you have to do is bring your body. Only your body⦠and your heart that loves me.â
The peachy cheeks were representing Rowenaâs mood. Cecil picked Rowena up and moved to bed.
In a way, it didnât seem like the right time for them to make love, but it could have been comforting.
What Rowena needed most now was the touch of human body heat. Cecil thought Rowena would also want the same thing he wanted from Rowena.
Cecil hoped Rowena would hold him tightly. He also desperately wanted her to be by his side.
âMay I?â
Rowena nodded to Cecil, who kissed her temple and laid her on the bed.
* * *
Rarely, Cecil seemed to have fallen asleep first. Rowena was quietly staring at his sleeping face, tucked in his naked arms.
Itâs like a dreamâ¦
The affair of the moment was tantamount to his expression. No matter what crime Matthias committed, he would not abandon Rowena.
Cecil showed that will.
However, Rowena did not return any of them. She didnât say she loved him or that she would have a child. Sheâll do it someday, she thought, but it was also something that wouldnât come true if she didnât say it.
But⦠Your Highness was patient.
She wondered if there was a man like this in the world. Even after giving everything, there was not a single word from him to urge her. He knew. He knew that it is difficult for those who had nothing to give a definite answer.
Rowena had nothing to protect herself. Therefore, it was not as easy to express herself as Cecil.
Cecil would just be heartbroken, but Rowena would lose everything.
It was difficult for those who had nothing to be active in love. Because she couldnât throw away her whole life with just one emotion.
Iâm sorry.
Iâm sorry Iâm still nervous, and Iâm sorry I couldnât give those words to you.
When she was awake, Rowena dug into Cecilâs arms as if she was giving her feelings that she couldnât express. He smiled and hugged Rowena as if he had just fallen asleep.
The muscular Cecilâs body temperature seemed hotter than Rowena, but Rowena felt happy even then.
ââ¦Are you crying again?â
Rowena shook her head at Cecilâs whisper.
âNo, Iâm not.â
Iâm not.
Cecil swallowed, kissing the small head leaning against his chest.
* * *
The evaluation of the prospective crown princess at the celebration ball was successful. The ladies quickly noticed where Rowena was standing.
It was an age when many mistakes were made because she was young.
Nonetheless, the noble ladies happily accepted the attitude of the prospective crown princess, who was prudent and knew how to keep her rationality.
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