6 months later.
"You are almost an adult and you still don't finish your veggies, what do I do with you?" Your mother stands before Yeonhan, who is shamelessly eating his mix veg rice without the mix veg and smirking while your mother is yelling at him disappointedly.
"How have you gotten so shameless and arrogant?" Your mother takes a step towards him while resting her hands on her waist, being agitated.
"Alright, thanks for the breakfast, Mum. I'm getting late for school. I love you" Yeonhan quickly finishes his breakfast and manages to escape by throwing a cute face towards mom.
Seeing that your mother looks at you wanting you to notice how unbelievable Yeonhan had gotten. You just chuckle not wanting to get in between them.
"He will grow up, Mom, and veggies aren't big of a deal" you get up to wash the dishes.
"You are spoiling him. He knows that you won't let me scold him in front of you" your mother sighs.
You smirk at the dishes listening to her.
"And by the way, the one who spoils you is coming back to Korea next weekend," your mother adds.
As soon as you hear that, you stop scrubbing the dishes and your eyes widen while your lips start spreading ear to ear. "No!" "Don't tell me he is coming back" you turn around at your mother in disbelief with slowly kicking in excitement.
"Ya. Ya. Your favorite cousin is returning forever now. I just talked to Hyunji and she told me how she is preparing everything her nephew likes even if he eats like 1/10th of that" your mother replies with a giggle.
"JIN IS COMING BACK FUCK YEAH!" You suddenly scream in utmost excitement throwing moves around the dining table with the soap water dripping from the scotch brite you were squeezing in your hand unknowingly. You were on the moon and couldn't stop smiling uncontrollably.
"You are spreading the soap water everywhere, Y/N and LANGUAGE" your mother suddenly screams.
***
You step out of the shower feeling refreshed after coming back from the last class of the semester. You feel relieved and light knowing you have a small break before you start taking extra classes in the winters.
Walking towards the mirror, you grab your clothes and begin to dress up. Thousands of thoughts going on in your head stop and the happiness on your face fades away as soon as you drop the towel off your body. You couldn't help but look at the scar on your torso, near the lower ribs. This always happens. Your eyes always ball the scar every time that part of your body is exposed.
It's not the scar, it's the memories behind it. It's like listening to your bombass playlist on shuffle and suddenly the song comes up which has loads of emotionally weakening memories attached to it. You suddenly stop feeling every emotion as soon as the tune plays in your ear and then you slowly start to drown in the continuous flashbacks which you hate but wouldn't miss a chance to relive.
You brush your thumb against the scar and gulp while the frown on your forehead gets deeper and the projection of moments with him keeps repeating in your eyes. Just the fact that he touched you there, he worked his skills there, the way that day you were laying on the bed with him beside you after he saved your life seems so fictional and unbelievable right now. It's scary how you are suddenly so far away and without a person who was once so close to you. The biting intimacy, the small talks-fights, the exchange of thoughts, the soft touch, the tailor made proximity and talking through eyes........all feels unreal.
Today, at this moment you don't even know whether or not the person is alive. You were once so much with each other and now you are suddenly so cut off that them not being present with you feels like a void in your life that keeps crawling up and starts hammering your heart and mind with forgotten feelings very mercilessly from time to time.
"Where are you, Jungkook" you close your eyes and feel yourself missing him so much that it physically hurts somewhere you can't even spot but then you suddenly open your eyes pretending as if that moment never happened. Gone. Again. Just to come back later. Again and again.
You get dressed being mad at the unknown and storm out of the bathroom. You grab your mobile phone to reply to your friend whom you promised to meet in some time with others.
After getting prettily dressed up, you leave to meet up with your friends to plan a trip on the weekend to celebrate the end of semester.
***
"I can't believe you guys are bringing your boyfriends and girlfriends with you on the trip. Wasn't it supposed to be just us friends only?" Lee Kihyung speaks, rolling his eyes and shaking his head.
"Someone is clearly getting insecure about being single" Kim Hyeyeon scoffs and starts teasing Kihyung.
"Oh please, Kihyung. It is our first stress free weekend after so long. We deserve to spend it with our loved ones" Park Jungyeol speaks with a stable and convincing tone.
"Urgh" Kihyung again rolls his eyes and mocks Hyeyeon and Jungyeol.
"Why are you so silent, WooSung and Y/N?" Hyeyeon turns towards you and Jung WooSung, who was sitting next to you.
You both had small intriguing smiles on your faces by watching your friends bicker and tease each other.
"Nothing, I am just listening to you guys. I feel like it's a great plan. Getting out of the city sounds like a good idea. I am up for it" you speak looking at everyone. "Kihyung, we are going to have a lot of fun, don't worry about coming without a plus one. You, me and WooSung are going to have a great time together even if these two aren't around and are busy behind the doors" you speak with a hint of tease but still persuasively.
"She is right. Let's go and have a great weekend together, alright?" WooSung leans forward, taking the authority of declaring the decision on behalf of everyone.
It's WooSung. Everyone voluntarily does as he says. Just like always. It just feels right.
"Okay okay. I am only tagging along because Y/N and WooSung guaranteed fun, okay?" Kihyung finally smirks and agrees.
Listening to that, Hyeyeon starts making faces at him, teasing him even more. Rest of us just let out a giggle watching these two bicker.
***
"I thought being alone around someone you recently rejected would be awkward as hell but you seem to not give a damn about it" Hyeyeon speaks after matching her steps with yours on the way to the bus stop.
"Hyeyeon, before WooSung confessed his feelings towards me, we were very good friends and we still are. It will undoubtedly be awkward but we have to put up with it or else our friendship will be on the edge of ending as. I don't want to lose him as a friend" you speak calmly while taking steps further with your hands in your jacket's pockets.
"What if this behavior of yours is unintentionally giving him hopes?" She questions.
"No matter what I do, he is going to have hopes. You cannot ever like or love someone without wanting to be with them. Even if you know and have accepted the fact that it's never going to happen, you still are hopeful. After all, the heart wants what it wants. WooSung is more mature and sensible than all of us. He knows his boundaries and I trust him a lot" you pass Hyeyeon a small smile.
"Still. I feel bad for him. Girls would kill to date someone like him. Why don't you like him?" She asks.
"Am I supposed to like back everyone who likes me? I don't have the answer for that, Hyeyeon, plus, it's been only a year since I've known and met him" you reply starting to get a bit annoyed with the topic.
"People have met the love of their lives even a month ago before marrying them and staying together until death parts them. You can fall in love with anyone regardless of the amount of time you have spent with them. May it be a week or a decade. I think it's all about that one moment you realize you would rather die than live apart from them. Anyways, if you don't like him, you don't like him" saying that Hyeyeon shrugs and leaves the topic.
Listening to her, your pace suddenly slows down while you widen your eyes at the road and think about the week, 6 months back. You think about the time when you felt physical pain in your chest after knowing that you will never see Jungkook ever again after that day. That day really backs up what Hyeyeon just said but then does it really mean that you are in love with.............?
No!
It's not a fairytale where you meet your knight and shining armor and fall in love with him over a night. Feelings cannot be this shallow. It was definitely just Stockholm syndrome. You are not in love with him. It is pure bullshit. You clench your jaw being mad at yourself for being so thin and bending your beliefs with others thoughts.