I get up, feel a little better, and am hungryâwell, starvedâso I splurge on a muffin and a glass of chocolate milk.
Thirty minutes later, Iâm puking it back up, and Phillip is looking like he found the end of a rainbow.
âPhillip, you arenât supposed to smile about someone being sick. Itâs annoying.â
âPrincess, why donât you just take the pregnancy test? Then, if it says no, you will know itâs just the flu, and if it says yes, well, you can freak, and I can celebrate.â
âI hate you right now.â I hide my head under the blanket.
Of course, he canât leave me alone, so he snuggles up to me and starts talking through the blanket.
âTell me why you wouldnât be excited about this? It would be kind of like a surprise gift.â
âNo, it would not. Having a child is a big responsibility. Itâs time-consuming, and it takes lots of energy. I donât have the time or the energy right now. Plus, I want to spend time with you. I want us to be a couple before we become a family. Why canât you get that?â
âPrincess, sometimes, things happen for a reason. If youâre pregnant, itâs because God thinks weâre ready for this.â
âOh, no, you donât!â I whip the covers off my head and point at him. âDonât you go blaming God for this. If thereâs a reason this happened, it would be because I was stupid to believe you when you said, . This would be God at me for my stupidity.â
I throw the covers back over my head.
âJadyn â¦â
Oh. Heâs mad at me.
âDonât use that tone of voice with me. Iâm sick.â
He uncovers me. Kisses my face, my neck, and my forehead. Sweet kisses that make me love him even more.
âAll Iâm saying is that, if you are, I would be thrilled. I love you. I want to have a family with you, and I donât care when it happens. If you want to waitâI mean, if you arenât alreadyâthen weâll wait. But you have to admit, it would be fun to be pregnant the same time as Lori. To have our kids close in age, like you and I were. Just think, we could take naked pictures of them together as babies to torture them with when they were older.â
I canât help it. I laugh at that.
âSee, whatever it is, you and I love each other. You will be an amazing mom, and I plan on being the best dad ever, but the reason I want a baby is just because I am so in love with you.â
He kisses me on the lips.
And I am thinking this boy must really love me because I just puked and did not brush my teeth, and he didnât even cringe.
I still hope Iâm not pregnant, but I guess, if I was, it wouldnât be the end of the world.